by Faye, Amy
Wes locked him with the stare that he had gotten plenty of practice with over the years, and Shimizu met his gaze evenly.
"Alright," he said.
The man held out his hand, not bothering to look back, and the lackey handed the gun back. Almost reluctantly, but he did it without complaint. Shimizu's hand tightened around it and pointed, and Wes was fairly sure he was about to die. Only, to his great surprise, Minami started to move.
Thirty-Three
Minami
Minami moved before she knew what she was going to do. All she knew was, if she waited a split second to get her head clear, that would be a split-second too late for Wes. This had always been a bad idea. She'd told him. A terrible idea.
She still didn't know what she was doing until she realized she'd put her body between the gun and Wes. The Yakuza behind her father, the one pointing a gun that now would shoot straight through her belly, turned a bit green, now unsure what to do.
Her father spoke first. "Move!"
"No," she said.
"Move, I said!"
"I refuse."
"Why should I listen to the whims of a girl?"
She hadn't known he would phrase it quite like that, but that was the question she'd been asking herself since she realized the predicament she'd put herself into. Why would they want to listen to what she has to say? Because she really likes him a lot? Because it would hurt her feelings?
Minami was fairly certain that wasn't going to be a winning argument against her father. Not after everything he'd done to prove that he didn't much care what did or didn't hurt her feelings.
"Because you can't." A half-formed idea was better than nothing. A half-remembered image from days ago told her that there were wider ramifications to this than just what would affect her feelings.
"Who are you to tell me what I can't do?"
"The—" she remembered more vividly. "He's working with Higa. He's got a fight, organized by Higa, and you know that they are taking their underground fights very seriously."
Her father didn't move, but something in the air around him relaxed for a moment as he considered that. He spoke English next. "You, Park. You are fighting in one of Higa's matches?"
"Tonight."
The Shimizu head nodded. "Very well. A stay of execution."
"Please, father. Let him be."
"You know I cannot."
"I promise, I won't look his way again, if you only do this for me."
She hadn't told him about the baby, yet. If she did, she knew, Wes was dead no matter what she said, no matter what the Higa family would think about it. Higa was a branch family; nonetheless, they were not one that Shimizu wanted to rile up.
That wouldn't matter much if he found out some foreign boy had knocked her up, regardless of whether or not he intended to make it right by her. She just had to hope that he believed her.
Wes would have to understand why she was doing what she was doing. If he died, what did any of it matter? He had to realize that his life was more important. She didn't understand why it seemed to never occur to him.
"If I agree, then you never see him again. Is that what you're offering me?"
"Yes, father."
"And you'll seriously consider marriage candidates?"
"Thank you, father."
She bowed deep, taking her eyes off the gun for a moment, half-expecting the blast to fire the minute she dipped her head. None came.
"Very well, then. You'll stop your foolish notions, and in exchange, your pet gets to leave. Fine."
"Thank you so much." She bowed deep again.
Wes would understand. It was all for him, really. All of it was just so that he would be able to live. He had more to think about than just her. What would happen to those girls if he died? If their mother was really as bad as he said.
She already knew the answer. They'd go bad, if things went well. If they didn't go well, then things would go much, much worse. Well, she wasn't going to be responsible for that. Not because he was too proud to leave her behind. Pride had been the entire ruling emotion of her life before meeting Wes, and it never got her anywhere. It never made her father a better father.
But the desire to live, that had given her much, much more.
Minami rose to her feet as the gun slipped back into the man's jacket, back into his shoulder holster. She let one of the men take her arm and guide her out of the room, not daring to turn back and look at Wes. He would figure it out, eventually, even if they didn't bother to explain what she'd done.
It would hurt, she knew. It wasn't fair to him, but that was what it was.
Well, she reasoned, she did what she had to do. Now if only it didn't hurt so much. Minami let out a long breath. She couldn't afford to dwell on the past, on the decisions she'd been forced to make. It would hurt, but it would hurt in the morning, too. If she could let it hurt any less, then she would have to.
For an instant, she hoped that she might get some relief from her phone. If she wasn't going to see him again, then they might let her have it back.
That was a foolish thought, she knew. There was simply no way that they were going to give it back, not when she was just going to turn around and try to make amends with her rambunctious American boyfriend with it.
She couldn't kill the hope inside her, though, in spite of herself. She wanted to scream that Father had taken an American wife, after her birth mother had died. She still spoke Japanese with an accent. Blonde, just like Wes. It felt damned hypocritical, but the chances that she could convince Father to change… well, she couldn't.
He was like a mountain. You don't simply change where it sits, no matter how you work. Wes was stubborn, but he had more than met his match when he tried to stand up to her father. He never accepted anything that he hadn't thought of first.
Well, Minami thought, her heart hurting and her eyes stinging as she watched out the window, watched three separate people carrying Wes outside the gate, unceremoniously dropping him, still kicking and twisting, in the grass.
He screamed, tried to run back through the gate. One of Father's goons caught him and turned him over. From the distance, Minami could see he didn't take the fall well, but even still he was back up an instant later, even as the gate closed in front of him, in the vain hope that he might be able to make it through in the instant before it closed.
He wasn't so lucky. Instead, he crashed headlong into the wrought iron bars of the gate around the house, slumped to the ground. The Yakuza who had stayed out reached down to help him up. From the distance, it almost seemed like an uncharacteristic moment of tenderness.
Wes slunk back into his car, pulled out, and drove away. As he drove, the gate opened, the Yakuza walked back inside the grounds, and the gate closed again. Then, one by one, the yard lights shut off and the world around her was dark once more.
Minami slipped into her bed, trying to pretend that her eyes didn't sting so much, trying to pretend her chest didn't hurt so much, and trying to pretend that the past month hadn't meant half as much to her as she knew it had.
Wes was just another person she'd know, she told herself. She'd try harder to find some sort of compatibility with Father's candidates. Because she had to, for Wes's sake.
Thirty-Four
Wes
Wes took the drive slow. If he didn't keep himself under control, he wasn't sure what he was going to do. So it'd be nice and slow, nice and careful. The last thing Wes was ready to do was get himself back onto the national stage just because of a God damned drive home.
He pulled the Fiero into his usual parking spot, cut the engine, and set his head back against the headrest, too tired to do much else. There wasn't much to look forward to, at this point. He couldn't even take out one of Shimizu's stinking goons to get back inside.
How on earth was he planning on winning a fight, on—what, four or six hours of sleep, maybe? Then he had to cope with the fact that whether he won or not, it marked the first time that he'd ever really f
elt the clock ticking on his so-called career.
Once that happened, it was only a matter of time until he got beat. Only a matter of time until someone was quicker, someone was stronger, and someone was smarter. If he wanted to keep himself alive, which Minami obviously thought he should do, then fighting was probably about done.
For a long minute he wondered if he even cared. Why should he? Did it matter any more? He'd already given up about everything in his life that had mattered to him, and now the one thing he'd found for himself in the new life he'd built for himself—if it could be called that—was gone. What did it matter any more?
Still, matter or not, he couldn't stay in the car forever, and eventually he had to admit it to himself. He pulled the keys out of the ignition, tossed them unconsciously into his left hand, and pushed the door open.
The elevator wasn't far enough for the fatigue and hopelessness to overcome him before he got to it. He jabbed the button for his floor and leaned against the wall, waiting.
Wes noticed the door wasn't locked. He just hadn't been thinking clearly, hadn't pulled up his keys. He almost stopped himself before he tried the door, but he didn't care enough. He was just going to find the doors locked, after all. But he didn't. Instead, the knob turned, and the door came open easily. From the door, the place looked perfectly normal. Empty bed at the end of the room, the back of the sofa still where he'd left it. A side table with a stack of envelopes he should have gotten rid of a long time ago. Closed door to the lavatory on the left.
Something told him that there was more to it. Wes stepped through the door and heard the sound of a weapon cocking behind him. He didn't stop, just kept moving until he slumped down into the mattress.
"Whatever you do, just do it quietly, okay?"
He took a deep breath and shut his eyes and pressed his face down into the pillow. Her scent wasn't there any more, not after this long. The thought of it made his throat tight.
"Don't go for anything."
Wes rolled over just enough to let one eye peer up at the man who now filled the makeshift 'hallway' behind the sofa, the apartment door shut behind him.
"I don't have anything to go for."
Rubashkin didn't look good. In fact, he looked like hell. Whatever had happened to him in the years since Wes had worked for him, time hadn't been kind.
"No, I didn't suspect you would. But time changes people."
"You look different."
Rubashkin's face stretched and split into a smile. He lowered the gun, but didn't decock it.
"Damned pancreatic cancer. You know why it's one of the deadliest?"
"No."
"Because they don't catch it in time."
"Did they with you?"
Rubashkin coughed hard, sending him back into the couch until he could finally regain his balance and push himself back upright. "Not so lucky, I'm afraid."
"Is this a social call? If so, I'd like to wait until the sun's up at least. I didn't get much sleep yet tonight."
"I'm sorry to hear that. But I'm afraid it isn't. I've been looking for you, Wes. For years. Why is it that you've been so hard to find?"
Wes didn't have an answer to that.
"Because I'm not so special?"
The soft chuckle turned into more racking coughs. "Spread to my lungs. You can't imagine. You know, I never smoked? All my brothers. They all smoked like chimneys. I swore to myself, I never smoke, because it killed my Papa. Well, I guess they're having the last laugh aren't they?"
"I'm sorry to hear about that."
"I have to think, you know, there are all sorts of the wrong people looking into my business and my affairs, and now everything starts to become clearer. Where was little Wes Park gone to? 'He's been so hard to get in touch with. I can't even send him a Christmas card, to thank him for taking the fall for my boy!'"
"If you're going to shoot me, just do it."
"You're working for the Feds, aren't you?"
"Feds? They didn't even bother to talk to me. They apparently don't believe I've ever met you before."
"I'm sorry, Wesley, but I don't believe you."
"Then just do it. I'm too tired for this shit."
Rubashkin had trouble with that kind of shit, Wes dimly remembered. If someone begged him, then it was a sign they were guilty. He knew, he always knew. But if they were up-front about not really giving him answers at all…
Then, he's not sure.
It hadn't been a tactic, not really. Wes was tired. He wanted to sleep more than he wanted anything else. More than he wanted to live. But now that had worked in his favor. Rubashkin set the gun down on the table.
"You don't want to sit and talk about the good old times?"
"In the morning."
"'In the morning,' 'in the morning,' you're like a parrot, you know."
The old Russian coughed again. He was many things, Rubashkin. Wes didn't know him well, but he knew enough about the man to know what kind of person he was. He ran one of the biggest gangs in New York, which said something by itself. But in person, he'd never been much but petty. Constant complaints about things that under normal circumstances, to normal people, wouldn't have been worth commenting. In other words, petty.
"Look, if you're not going to kill me, I have a fight tonight, I need to sleep. Please."
"Fine. Then we'll talk about your sister in the morning."
The mention of his sister raised the hair on the back of Wesley's neck. Now, in spite of how bad he wanted to sleep, even as he heard Rubashkin walk out of the apartment, he couldn't.
Wes pushed himself up off the mattress on the floor and padded his way across the apartment to the door. The gun was still on the table, as if Rubashkin had decided to leave it there as a gift, or as a curse.
He pushed the door open. Rubashkin was limping away, slow. He moved heavy on his left leg. "Wait."
"Oh, that got your attention, did it, Malchik?"
"What did you come here for?"
"No; the moment is passed. Sorry."
"I don't have time for these games, old man. If you want to go die of your pancreatic-lung cancer, be my guest, but don't bullshit me. What did you come here to say to me?"
"You're interested in talking, then?"
"Fine. But come back, so I can change out of this god damned monkey suit, and then we're going out for coffee. You're buying."
"It's the least I can do, for an old friend."
Wes left the door open for him as he went back to pull a tee-shirt and jeans out of the dresser, forcing them back on as Rubashkin limped back into the room. Wes waited until he closed the door to add, "And take your gun. I don't want it around."
"Oh, Wesley. You never could deal with these toys."
"Don't be a jackass, Anton Yurievich."
Rubashkin put the weapon back into the holster he kept carefully concealed. Getting caught with the thing here wouldn't be nearly as dangerous as New York, but that didn't mean they were friendly.
Thirty-Five
Minami
Minami crossed her legs in bed and tried desperately to read the magazine she'd asked Majima to pick up for her from the store. There had been plenty to interest her in theory, but her eyes just looked right through it, like the words weren't even there on the page in front of her.
She couldn't taste her food. She couldn't calm herself enough to read.
"What was I supposed to have done?" she said out loud, only halfway to herself. Part of her wished that someone would tell her, give her some answer that would have saved Wes's life without throwing him away, throwing away her last life line out of the Yakuza life.
But it was too late for that, and too late for her to change her mind. Those were the provisions of the agreement she'd made with Father, and she'd made it. If she broke her word, what other sort of hell would it bring down on her head? On Wesley's?
Her mother peeked her head in. "Minami, did you say something?"
Seeing Mother's full head of blonde hair served as a s
trange reminder of what had happened the night before. She darted inside and drew Minami up in her arms when she saw her lip start quivering.
"What's wrong?"
"Nothing's wrong." Minami tried to sound in control. She wasn't going to let herself start crying over any of this. She was a grown woman, and she didn't need to cry. It was her own fault, anyways, that she'd gotten anyone into this mess, so—
The tears started flowing, hot streaks flowing down her cheeks, and once the floodgates were open, she couldn't stop it no matter how hard she tried. So Mother held her close as Minami softly cried, not daring to try to ask, and Minami unwilling or unable to explain through the veil of tears.
"It's okay, sweetheart."
Minami took a minute to collect herself, her face numb from crying so hard, and tried to take a breath. "I'm sorry, Mother."
"Do you want to talk about it?"
Minami hiccuped and swallowed and tried not to start crying again, even as she dangled precariously over the edge of tears a second time.
"No."
"Are you sure?"
Minami tried to find the right words, but they all came out sounding like it was all her fault, and she knew it was. If she'd been smarter, been more convincing, tried harder, then she wouldn't be in this predicament.
The words that came out of her mouth weren't the ones she expected to be saying. "Mom, I'm pregnant."
Minami's mother closed her eyes and took in a deep breath. "And the father?"
"Father was going to kill him."
"Because you're pregnant?"
"He doesn't know."
"You might be surprised, your father knows a lot he doesn't let on."
"He asked to marry me."
"Okay." Minami could see from her mother's expression that as much as she might be aware of day-to-day Yakuza business, and might know quite a bit about all of it, she wasn't exactly following.
"So I had to talk Father into letting him live. So, I offered to walk away from him, and take his stupid marriage meetings more seriously."
