Never say forever (Never series Book 1)

by Taylor, Courtney A.

  She answers the door “How did everything go? You guys cool now?” She doesn’t even wait for an answer and her eyes grow big and she brings her hand up to her mouth. “Oh my god, you did it!!!!”

  What? How the hell would she know? Do I seriously have it plastered all over my face? Is my underwear on backwards, my dress upside down? Is my hair a mess? I don’t get how she can know without a word out of my mouth.

  “Why would you think something like that?” I ask clearly showing evidence that I’m nervous.

  “Girl, it’s written all over your face….and your body.” She looks me up and down. “Yup, that’s a body that just got fucked. Real good! Tell me I’m right.” I know she’s had some drinks, but damn, she’s totally right. She must know me that well.

  “Don’t just sit there silently. Spit that shit out. I want details. Don’t you be shy with me. I love sex. I am not afraid to show it. So tell me, is he hung?” Wow, she really wants details.

  “I am not telling you about his junk.” I say smiling and laughing at how silly I find this.

  “You still got virgin terms. Seriously, Serena. You had sex. It’s okay to say cock. Get out of the prude ways now. Say cock for me.” I just sit there and smile.

  “I’ll torture you til you say it. You know I will,” she threatened.

  My face is beet red and I’m gathering up the courage to say it. I just feel wrong. “Cock.”

  That was enough to make us bust out in hysterics. I know I’m being silly, but I guess she’s right. I can talk a little dirtier now that I’ve done it. After we both seem to come to a halt on the laughing she looks at me. “Seriously, how was it?”

  “Well I’m not going to tell you about his……..cock. But it was magical,” I said.

  “Did you have rough dirty sex?” she asked as she clapped her hands, a little too excited for sex details.

  “No he was a complete gentleman. We made love, he was gentle with me and went slow,” I said as I was reliving the moment.

  “Aww, I’m jealous. He did make you come right? He better not be a stingy bastard,” she said and I laughed.

  “No, definitely not stingy. He made sure I got it before he did,” I told her. I never knew how great sex could be until tonight. I’m glad I didn’t waste it on a loser.

  “Wait a minute. You said you made love?” She looks a little bit confused by this.

  “Yes. Just before we did it, he told me he loved me.” I smiled.

  “He better not be telling you that to get in your pants. I will beat his ass.” She looks angry now. My crazy friend and her moods with the effects of alcohol. I’ll never figure this one out.

  “No it’s nothing like that. He didn’t tell me in hopes of getting laid. I started taking off my clothes. He was unsure because I was drinking and told me he didn’t want to take advantage. He asked me a few times if I was sure.” I know his intentions were not to get laid. I could feel his honesty and see it in his eyes. He loves me. There’s no doubt about that.

  Larissa’s eyes beamed and she smiled at me. “I’m so happy for you. Now when we have our after school dates, we can talk about all the sex were getting. No more prude virgin ears!” She laughs and tried to fist bump me. I love this girl. She funny under the influence. We are complete opposites, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.

  “Either I stay the night here or I walk home. You’re not driving me. You smell like a brewery,” I joke as she whips a pillow at my head.

  “Bitch!” She stops and starts laughing so hard she bends over.

  “I think I may go home, since I don’t think I’m going to get any sleep here. You’re like the energizer bunny.” I laugh at her.

  She stops and sighs. “Okay. I think I’ll sleep too. Call me later.” She laid down on the bed and nearly falls asleep. Jeez, she just did a 180. Hyper one minute and sleeping the next.

  I walk home, daydreaming of Aiden and when we will get another magical moment. I never thought I would be one to daydream about sex, but I just can’t help it. My man is a god and he sure knows what the hell he is doing. My phone chimes. I looks and there’s a text from Aiden

  Serena, tonight was amazing. I am so happy I got my chance with you. You make me happier than I have ever been. I can’t wait to see what our future holds for us. I will see your beautiful face tomorrow at school Sweet dreams baby girl. I love you <3

  I smile so wide I feel like my face might come apart. I text him back.

  Aiden, I can’t wait to see you tomorrow. Tonight was beyond amazing. Love you too

  He responds with a heart.

  I am so in trouble. I promised myself I wouldn’t go this route, but I can’t help falling in love. My heart feels light and free, given all the turmoil I have been dealt. Aiden has helped repair my heart with his love. My days are becoming brighter, every day that Aiden is in it. Makes life worth living for.

  ***

  Aiden

  I woke up from a great night’s sleep. It’s been a long time since I slept that good. I can’t stop thinking about that night at the waterfalls. It’s too bad its winter now. I could really go for a re-enactment.

  After I dropped her off last night, I did something I always do when something major happens in my life. I went straight to the cemetery. I know my mother’s gone, but I still feel the need to talk to her. I know she can’t respond, but I know she can hear me. I won’t leave her out of important things in my life. I haven’t even told my dad that I come here sometimes. He might not understand, because he’s not at that point yet. He’s still very much grieving. I, on the other hand still grieve, but I know that it does no good. That’s why I have accepted god’s fate for her, but she still stays close to my heart and no one can stop me from visiting her anytime I want.

  I was at the cemetery for a few hours. I explained to her how my life is and all the obstacles. I told her that I won’t play football anymore because it took her from me. I even told her about Serena, not the sex part, because who would tell their mom that? I told her how beautiful she is, even though while she’s looking down on me, she probably can see her. It’s crazy how life can take a turn for the better in just a blink of an eye. I wish she was still around to see her expression as she met Serena.

  As I was leaving my phone rang. I looked at the screen and it said Ben. Ben has been one of my best friends since grade school. He lives in my old hometown about thirty minutes away. Sadly I have been neglecting our friendship. I have been so wrapped up in Serena and making her mine that I haven’t even talked to him. I click answer. “What’s up Ben?”

  “Hey Stranger. Where the hell have you been? You haven’t called or visited. Was thinking you made a new best friend out there. What’s going on? Anything new?” He said.

  “I’m sorry bro, I’ve been trying to get a girl. You know how it is,” I said knowing exactly that he’s going to understand.

  “Ahhh, I see. Well did you get her?” I can tell by the sound of his voice he is intrigued. He knows everything I have gone through and when my mom passed away, I shut everyone out including him. He didn’t hold it against me. He knew I was hurting. I know deep down he is hoping I got the girl because he knows it will shed some light in my gloomy attitude.

  “Yeah man! She’s perfect too. Not like any other girl out there. I snagged a winner. In fact, maybe I can take her up to visit you sometime soon.” I haven’t seen him in several months, I know he would enjoy it. Plus he would want to give me his approval on a job well done.

  “Anytime, just give me a call. I’m sure she’ll get along well with Abby.”

  Abby is his girlfriend. I can never see them apart. They have been going strong for four years now. They are the perfect couple that I hope Serena and I will be.

  “Yeah I’m sure. Let me talk to her and maybe we can plan something in a month, maybe around Christmas,” I said.

  “That would be great. Don’t lose my number this time, dickhead,” he joked.

  “Your number is imbedded into my memor
y. I will call you dude. Later.” I hung up and drove home.

  Back to today, I woke up feeling great. I had a text waiting on my phone with a simple I love you from Serena. That just brightened my day like you wouldn’t believe. I don’t think I’ve ever smiled this big. Everything seems to be working out the way it should. I told my father yesterday about Serena and me dating. I didn’t tell him before just in case something happened. Good thing I didn’t. I told him now because I know we are solid. We love each other, and love is enough to get through anything. I’m certain of it.

  ***

  The bell rang for lunch. I entered the lunch cafeteria and grabbed some food. I sat down next to Serena, who smiled and leaned over and pecked me on the cheek.

  “I’m never washing my face again” I teased with her. She starts laughing and kisses me again. I seriously don’t need to deprive myself of washing my face because she’s always showering me with kisses. I can’t get enough of it.

  “Hey Babygirl, what do you say we take a little trip in a few weeks?” I ask her.

  “Trip? What? To where?”

  “My buddy Ben’s house. He lives by my old house, only about half hour away.” I smile at her.

  “Yeah sure. Just tell me when so I can tell my mom,” she told me.

  “Speaking of moms. Did you tell your mom about us?” I questioned.

  “Yeah I told her this morning. She’s happy, but she told me to stick to my work and not get into any funny business.” She laughed. “But I plan to get into a lot of funny business with you.” My eyebrow shot straight up. That’s not the only thing that shot straight up. That is the affect that she has on me. I’m pretty sure she knows what she’s doing to me.

  I kiss her and lean into her ear and gently kiss her neck, then I sit up and start eating. I can feel her eyes shooting daggers at me. I have to stop myself from smiling or laughing.

  “What the fuck was that? Seriously?” She asked.

  “Well, I’m not the only one hurting here. You just woke someone up. Paybacks a bitch!” I say as I can’t stop the smile forming. I love messing with her.

  “Well I’ll be seeing you after school.” She smirked at me.

  “I am most definitely looking forward to it.” I raise my eyebrows at her and slap her on the ass as she’s walking away. She squealed as if it hurt, but I know she loved it. I’m glad that we can be more comfortable around each other. We have come a long way since we first met in chemistry class. That shy, bitter, alone girl has blossomed into a happy, outgoing, spontaneous woman and I wouldn’t change a thing.

  Chapter 9

  Serena

  Three Weeks Later

  Everything has been running smoothly between Aiden and I. We have found every opportunity to show our love to one another. It hasn’t been easy, since we lost our spot for a few months, but we made it work. For someone like me who was a virgin, I sure sprung once I had a taste of what it’s like. We are always careful, always using protection. Larissa can no longer call me a prude since most of our experiences have been outdoors in the public. No one around, but shit, anyone can walk by and see Aiden buck naked. That’s an added bonus I guess, adds to the thrill.

  Today we are going to his friend Ben’s house. This will be my first time meeting his friends. I wish it weren’t today since I woke up not feeling the best. I’m not sure what’s come over me. I think I may be coming down with the flu. I haven’t thrown up yet, but I was pretty nauseas. I will just have to deal with it. I don’t want to bail on his friends. First impressions with anyone is pretty big when you’re serious with someone.

  I scrounge through my closet looking for the perfect outfit. I come across some clothes that I haven’t worn in a while. One item hits a little close to my heart. Cadence’s favorite green baby doll shirt. My emotions get the best of me and before I know it, I am crying. Weeping like a baby. I feel pathetic. Who the fuck cries over a shirt? Me, because I’m insane. Why else would I be sitting here on a day that should be happy, but yet I’m emotionally distraught. I thought I was over the whole Cadence thing but seeing this shirt is bringing up old hurts.

  Aiden decided to call me, at that particular time. As I am bawling. I try to dry my eyes and calm myself the best I can. “Hello”

  He must detect something is wrong. “Hey Sweetie, what’s wrong? You sound like your crying. Is everything alright?” No it’s not alright. But I can’t tell him that. I can’t tell him that I am an emotional wreck over something that hasn’t bothered me the past few months, since he walked in my life.

  “Yeah I’m fine,” I lied once again.

  “You don’t sound alright. If something is wrong, we can always go see Ben and Abby another time.” I knew he would say that. I won’t let him do that though. We are going, no matter how I feel.

  “No, I’m fine. We’re going. I’m just getting dressed now,” I told him.

  “Are you sure?” He asked another time.

  “Yes, come on over. I’ll be ready. Love you” I said as I was hanging up.

  “See you soon, beautiful.” I always smile when he says that. I hang up the phone. I need to get myself together. One look in the mirror says everything. I am a complete mess. I don’t understand why I’m so upset over something that I haven’t even thought about these past few months or years. I haven’t let it bother me. I apply as much makeup as I can to hide the hideousness I just caused. I get dressed. I’m hungry but still feel a bit on the queasy side. I grab some toast, maybe this will do the trick. I grab a Gatorade out of the fridge, since we all know this works wonders when you’re sick. I really hope I’m not coming down with the flu, I would hate to get his friends sick. Or him for that matter.

  Aiden pulls up and walks to the door as I’m walking out. He takes one look at me and envelopes me in a bear hug. “Oh baby, you don’t look so good. You sure you want to come with. We can stay home and I can nurse you back to health.” As fantastic as that sounds, I don’t want to disappoint.

  “No, I promised. Let’s go.”

  I enter the car. He walks around to his side and starts up the car. Before putting it in drive, he leans over “I love you so much, Babygirl. I would never be mad at you for not going somewhere if you weren’t up for it. Keep that in mind.” He is such a sweetheart. I’m not sure what I did to deserve him but it must have been really good.

  “I know. Its okay, I want to meet them,” I say as I lay my head on the headrest.

  If I am sick, I hope to be done with this soon. It’s a week before Christmas. Last thing I want is to spend Christmas at the toilet. We are headed to his friend’s house. I am sipping on my Gatorade. Every bump we hit makes me nauseated. This is not good, it seems to be progressing.

  We arrive at a small house that has a white picket fence. Reminds me of all those hopeless romantics wanting to marry, have five kids, with two dogs and live in a house with a white picket fence. Although I doubt these people went for that since I’m assuming they are around our age.

  A cute couple are standing on the porch awaiting our arrival. Ben looks pretty tall with short brown hair. He has both his ears pierced along with an eyebrow piercing. He seems pretty athletic. Maybe he was on the football team with Aiden. Abby is so petite and pretty. She has long flowing red hair and green eyes. She is really short, especially standing next to Ben. They look like a cute couple.

  Abby reached out her hand. “You must be Serena. I’ve heard so much about you. It’s so nice to meet you.” She reminds me of a cheerleader. Maybe Ben played football and she cheered for his team. She is really excited and peppy. I don’t mind it though. “This is Ben.”

  “Hi! It’s nice to meet you.” I shake their hands and they tell us to follow them into the house. They give us the grand tour of the house, which isn’t much. Three bedrooms, one bath. The typical cute little house on the corner. I do admit, it is kind of cozy. They have a fireplace in the living room. I would love to have that with Aiden. We could have some late nights in front of the fireplace when we can�
��t make it to the waterfalls in the winter.

  They seat us at their dining room table and bring out food. I’m shocked they just cooked us a full meal. They seem to be great people. Aiden puts his hand on my leg and leans over and whispers. “I hope you’re feeling better, baby. I’m glad you’re here.” He kisses me on the side of the head and I feel like crying because I’m so happy. What the fuck is wrong with me? I have never cried from happiness. I have to stop the tears from forming. It takes a lot of strength but I make it. I don’t need to embarrass myself in front of Abby and Ben because I can’t seem to keep my emotions in check today.

  They bring out some ham with stuffing and mashed potatoes. My stomach is growling, I am so hungry. We pass the food around the table until everyone has food on their plates. Abby stands up “Would you guys like a cocktail?” Judging by my stomach today I don’t think that’s a wise decision.

  “It’s okay. I have Gatorade. But thank you.” Everyone else has their drinks. We start eating, and my stomach is doing somersaults again. I nibble my food. I don’t want to stop eating and seem rude and that I don’t like their food. I’m sure they worked hard cooking it.