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by James Hanley


  ‘What a bitter truth!’ said Mrs. Fury. ‘Well, go on.’

  ‘I’ll be contented now. But not with him in the house. For the love of Christ get this out of your head—this crazy idea that Peter is still a boy. He isn’t. He’s a man. He’s eighteen now. You can’t have your cake and eat it. Hanged I am if I understand. After all that’s happened—you hang on—you hang on’—he spoke these words through closed teeth—‘you hang on like grim death. You think that everything will come right in the end. But what is everything? What is right? That we should waste our years away just to please our children. To have the satisfaction of thinking we’ve still got them—they’re still ours. Still our children. Don’t be daft, Fanny. You’re always crying out for peace, yet you haven’t the patience to be content when it comes along. Make no mistake at all. If that fellow has the same feelings for us as he had five years ago, then I’m a bloody Frenchman. Well, I’m not going into any pasts or looking into any future. I’m looking at now—this day and this minute, and I’m making up my mind on a subject which must be gnawing the heart out of you. Be reasonable. Let the lad go. Be honest! Ask him straight to his face if he is content, if he likes being at home. You’ll get your answer soon enough. But I rather think you’re afraid to ask that. It might be so true for you. Understand this. I said I’m going away. It won’t take me five minutes to get a ship.’

  ‘Get your ship and go,’ replied the woman. She spoke quite calmly, without trace of anger or disappointment. It was almost as though she had momentarily expected it.

  ‘All right,’ replied the man. ‘I’ll skip off for a wet. Maybe you can think over things better when I am gone.’

  He got up and without another word left the park. She followed his retreating figure with half-closed eyes. Then she completely relaxed, and made herself more comfortable upon the bench. An old man joined her, and soon the rhythmic tapping of his stick began to beat upon her brain. She, too, got up and went off. She walked quickly towards Hatfields. Another argument, and an unfinished one. They were all like that. No doubt Denny was thinking over the matter, sitting before his historic pint of beer in ‘The Star and Garter.’ As she passed up the back entrance of Hatfields the woman paused, stamped her foot, and exclaimed, ‘I’d like to fly.’ Then she passed into the house. Her son was sitting at a table, busily engaged in making a rope mat. He looked up as she entered and said, ‘Hello, Mother.’

  ‘Hello,’ she said, and sat down without removing her clothes. She looked at the figure of an old man seated in a black high-backed chair. This man was her father, a cripple; an affliction made even more terrible by a stroke with which he had been seized some three years previously, and which had left him quite deaf and dumb. Mrs. Fury looked at the figure. The son, wearing only blue trousers and a sailor’s jersey, left off his job, and looked from one to the other. ‘Are you unwell, Mother?’ he asked, but without the slightest trace of concern in his voice, to which the woman replied, ‘Unwell? What ridiculous questions you ask.’ She looked him full in the eyes and said, ‘Do you know that your father is going to sea again?’

  ‘Dad going to sea? What for?’

  ‘That’s what I asked him. He told me that if you remained here he would go.’ She got up from the chair, and went to the table. She leaned across it, and took her son’s hands and said slowly, ‘Peter! You have done outrageous things, but you are still my son. Do you understand? My last child! I told your father he could go.’ She looked into those deep, full eyes, brown like her own, and realized at once the impression she had created. Suddenly she went round the table, bent down and threw her arms round her son. ‘Peter! You mustn’t go. Do you understand? You are all I have.’ Her head was almost touching his flushed face.

  He wanted to cry out, ‘Don’t! Stop it! Don’t do that!’ but the words froze in his mouth. He could not speak. Gently he forced himself away from the attention of his mother. He folded his arms, and said, ‘Dad is only joking, and if he isn’t he is only being ridiculous at his age. It’s laughable. But now I see why he did not shake hands.’

  ‘But I did not refuse,’ the mother said. He saw the expression upon her face, he saw clearly too this pathetic effort, this pathetic and desperate reaching out of her love. She was afraid. ‘How Mother is changed,’ he thought. ‘She commands no more. Only pleads.’ His homecoming had been awkward—it revived the memories of the past, and of that scene at the docks. Shame returned and he battled desperately to climb above it. But now seeing her like this it was even more awkward. Pleading to him. It was humiliating. It made him feel callous, brutal. ‘Mother,’ he said. ‘Don’t take any notice of what Dad says. Please don’t.’ He got up from the table and went out into the hall, returning with his outdoor coat and his shoes. He put on the shoes whilst he said, ‘I’m going out now. I’ve watched Grand-dad from half-past five.’

  ‘You see, Peter? I never say no, now. I never say anything. I am quite content really. I mean, I never asked you where you were till midnight last night. You see, I don’t interfere. But your father asked and I said to him, “Peter promised me something twelve months ago, and I don’t believe he will fail me.” That’s what I said last night. That was what we were talking about when you came upstairs.’ The son said nothing. There seemed nothing to say. He was free now. He was not going to be caught in that net again—that net of her love, and hope, and belief. He had had quite enough of that. A pathetic net, hollow and worn. Before she had commanded—now she begged. Was his mother really trying to catch his father in it, and not him, later—was she? In that poor net. ‘I’m afraid,’ he said in his mind. ‘I’m afraid, and she’s afraid; we are both afraid. Even now she hates—hates to leave hold of me.’

  ‘Mother,’ he said, ‘dear Mother! Stop thinking about this now. Don’t talk about it. If you have feelings so have I, and I have been made to know that I have feelings. Let Dad talk to me. It will be a change, won’t it? Since ever I was born I’ve heard nothing but wrangling in the house between Dad and you. Now you keep out of it. Any talking to be done he can do, and so can I. You go off as you arranged. Understand? Don’t even worry yourself about me, or about Dad. Anyhow, I don’t believe a single word he said. Honest, I don’t. He would never do it. Really, he’s too soft-hearted, Dad is. He would have gone long ago if he had really wanted—but he never did—and he knows it. All he wanted was everybody out of the house—even Granddad, but he never told people straight out. That’s what you were talking about last night?’ he concluded.

  Mrs. Fury nodded her head. ‘Yes,’ she said. ‘That’s what we were talking about. But now get off. I don’t want to keep you, I’m sure.’ She smiled up at her son.

  ‘Stop talking like that, Mother. Stop it.’ Peter struck the table with his fist.

  ‘Don’t do it. It makes me feel unutterably mean, and I have no right to think it. After all, everybody makes mistakes. You did—and I did—we all do.’ He watched the working of the muscles of the woman’s face. She hunched her shoulders. It gave one the impression that at any moment she would burst out into a fit of the most hysterical laughter. He went up to her—held her hands. ‘Dear Mother! you have been good.’ Then he touched her ear with his mouth.

  ‘Listen! am I the only one who knows about this Mrs. Ragner transaction?’

  She gripped his hands and held them in a vice-like grip as she replied almost in a whisper, ‘Yes. You are the only one I told. I mean, it’s my affair, and in a way yours.’

  ‘Don’t be cruel to me. Don’t be cruel to me,’ he suddenly shouted in her face. He picked up his coat and left the house. Mrs. Fury remained quite rigid where she stood.

  Peter Fury walked quickly away from Hatfields. In the next street but one his married sister lived. It was to see her that he was now hurrying. ‘I must talk to Maureen about Dad. It’s really bad, and not fair to Mother: Dad is getting on his high horse.’ There were other reasons why he wished to see her. There was her child just twelve months old—there was Joseph Kilkey. When he reached the Kil
keys’ door he lifted his hand to knock, but stopped suddenly to listen to the peculiar sound that seemed to come from the parlour. Mr. Joseph Kilkey was standing in the middle of the parlour floor swinging a child in his arms, as he sang, ‘Tiddley-iddly-tiddley-iddly hi ti-tiddley iddly hi ti.’ Peter Fury rapped on the window, at the same time pressing his nose against the glass. ‘Open the door,’ he called through. The man hurried out into the lobby.

  ‘Well! By God! Well! By God!’ He laid the child over one shoulder, and with his free hand grasped Peter’s arm, pulling him into the house. ‘Well, I never! This is a surprise. Maureen’s out at Confession.’ Peter followed the man into the kitchen. Joseph Kilkey pulled out a chair, saying, ‘Sit down! Sit down.’

  ‘Well, you are changed, anyhow,’ said Peter Fury as he studied the bald-headed man in front of him. Somehow he had never been able to fully accept Mr. Joseph Kilkey as a brother-in-law. His sister’s marriage had been one of those impossible things, a phenomenon—something never expected. But here was the boy. ‘Let me hold him, Joe,’ said Peter, and picked up the fat, slobbering baby in his arms.

  ‘What a fine kid, isn’t he now? And look at his forehead. Bound to be something.’

  Peter held its plump soft hands in his, the while the boy looked at him bewilderedly out of eyes that were blue and large as saucers. ‘What big eyes, too!’ Peter said. Apparently his survey and report upon the first nephew he had ever had now came to an end, for he handed back the child to Mr. Kilkey, when it immediately began to cry. ‘Do you like him much?’ asked Peter.

  ‘Listen to that! Listen to that, duckins,’ shouted Mr. Kilkey, jumping up from his chair and swinging the boy up and down in the air. ‘Your uncle actually asks me if I like you much?’ The child’s cries became louder.

  ‘I hope Maureen won’t be long,’ said Joseph Kilkey. ‘I’m tired. Just got home from work, and I have to be out extra early to-morrow.’ He sat down and began dancing the child upon his knee.

  ‘There is something I could never have imagined,’ Peter was saying to himself—‘and it’s my ever seeing myself sitting in this kitchen looking at Joe Kilkey, my own brother-in-law.’ He who when he was a boy used to chase him with a strap every time he appeared in the little recreation hall of St. Sebastian’s, of which Mr. Kilkey was both caretaker and honorary secretary. And that fat, crying baby on his knee. ‘I wonder what Maureen looks like,’ he asked himself. Mr. Kilkey said, ‘Smoke if you want to, Peter. Dermod’s quite used to my shag, so your cigs. can’t hurt him. Well, you have come on. No doubt about it. You’d make two of any of the family, and certainly three of me. Are you glad you went? Did you like the life? D’you think you’ll stick the sea-life? By Jove!’

  Joseph Kilkey for the second time got out of his chair, and now began making circles round the one in which the youth sat, like a judge at a prize show, surveying, commenting. ‘I’m right glad you’re settling down to something, Peter. Your mother must be too. She’s had a rough time. Now is your chance to repay all she’s done.’

  Peter looked away from the man. Here it was again. The same old song, ‘Shouldn’t have done what you did. Say you’re sorry you did it.’ He switched off that subject.

  ‘Are you getting regular work now, Joe?’ asked Peter. His eyes roved the mantelpiece until they fell upon what he sought—a small box inlaid with pearl which he had bought at Patras and sent home to his sister as a present ‘to keep the baby’s pins in,’ as he said on the note Mrs. Kilkey discovered inside it. ‘I wish Maureen would hurry,’ he went on, seeing no desire on Joseph Kilkey’s part to be communicative about his work. Perhaps work was sacred to him, and a thing too intimate to be mentioned. How ugly the man was! But how good!

  ‘Joe,’ he went on, ‘are you going to drag Mother to the station on Friday or not?’

  ‘This time,’ replied Mr. Kilkey, ‘I’m going to carry her. Make no mistake.’

  ‘It’s funny,’ said Peter. ‘Mother likes you awfully now. I remember the time when she said she hated the sight of you. Did she ever tell you afterwards?’

  ‘People never need tell me anything. I always know in advance when I’m not liked. But that wasn’t worrying me overmuch. Maureen and I get on very well together. D’you remember the day you went away, Peter …? I …’

  ‘No, I don’t!’ replied Peter. ‘I’ve forgotten all that and only wish everybody else would. I wonder if Maureen will be long? I really came to see her particularly.’ At which remark Mr. Joseph Kilkey merely smiled.

  ‘Well, maybe you could walk up as far as the chapel. You’ll find her there all right. She has terrific confessions to make always,’ Kilkey went on laughingly. ‘Now listen to me, Peter. Just get this silly idea that people look down on you right out of your head. People aren’t always thinking of your escapades. People have other things to do. Besides, they have their own importance to think about. What would people do if they didn’t talk? Go cracked, I suppose. I’m a chap who likes a quiet life. I never wanted to go to sea or see the world. I don’t think I ever wanted to do anything spectacular. I remember my mother saying to me when I was a boy, “Joey, my boy, you’ve a tremendous head with nothing in it.” I took that to heart. I like quietness and I like peace. I like to come home of an evening and sit down with my paper, I can have all my adventures reading the news. Then I read Dickens too. You ought to read Mr. Dickens. He’s a splendid writer. I’m now reading Our Mutual Friend.’ Mr. Kilkey was certainly feeling in an expansive frame of mind.

  The hands of the clock were moving. Peter got up to go.

  ‘Perhaps I’d better walk up that far,’ he said. ‘Sorry she wasn’t in. I’ll come round again before I go.’ He went up and kissed the baby. As he held the small hand in his, he looked at Joseph Kilkey. ‘No! I could never have imagined that this was Maureen’s husband, this was Maureen’s baby.’ Certainly Mr. Kilkey was nothing out of the ordinary either in looks or brains, but he had an honest face.

  ‘Well, so-long, Joe. See you again soon.’

  ‘Sure,’ replied Joseph Kilkey. ‘How is your mother?’

  The two men stood in the lobby looking towards the front door.

  ‘Mother seems the same as usual. But somehow she has changed too.’

  ‘Your mother is good; always stand by her, whatever happens.’

  ‘Yes,’ replied Peter, opening the door and putting one foot on the step. ‘So-long.’

  Joseph Kilkey returned to the kitchen. He put the child in the cradle, drew it up to the arm-chair in which he seated himself. He made himself quite comfortable, then, placing one foot upon the rocker, began a gentle rocking movement of the cradle. After a while, the flow of his thoughts seemed to become one with the rocking of the cradle.

  Suddenly he spoke aloud. ‘It’s hard to have to say it, but I’m just a little disappointed with Maureen.’ He leaned forward, and looked down at the now sleeping child. ‘Little wonder!’ he said. Here was something upon which he could spend his affection. Here was something that brought a new interest and a new light into his life. ‘Somehow,’ he was thinking, ‘somehow I feel Maureen isn’t quite satisfied. Isn’t quite happy. It’s the mother all over again.’ He cursed loudly, angry at ever allowing such thoughts to come into his mind. He tried to smother them, but one after another they emerged from their hiding-place. ‘They’re a discontented, restless crowd,’ he thought. The child was fast asleep. Joseph Kilkey got up and walked up and down the kitchen. ‘If she and Peter get together, heaven knows what time she’ll be back. Ah! there she is.’

  A key turned in the door. Maureen Kilkey came into the kitchen.

  ‘Hello!’ They both seemed to make the exclamation together.

  ‘Dermod asleep?’ she asked.

  ‘Yes, fast asleep,’ replied Mr. Kilkey. ‘I’d like a bit of supper now. I want to get to bed. Your brother called here, waited about half an hour, and so I suggested he should walk up and meet you. He seemed keen on seeing you.’ He helped his wife off with her coat, and hung it up behind the do
or.

  ‘I saw him,’ replied Maureen sharply, and the tone of her voice indicated that no more need be said upon that matter. She commenced getting supper ready. Mr. Kilkey, lying back in his chair, the evening paper at his feet, followed her every movement with a pair of admiring eyes. The woman hardly glanced at him.

  Maureen Kilkey was like her mother. Tall, slim, and of graceful bearing. Their characteristics were almost identical. There was something imperious about her carriage, she always seemed to look down at people—as though from the height of her own self-esteem. She had a head covered with fuzzy, copper-coloured hair. The eyes were deep grey in colour. The face was long, the nose slightly upturned, the mouth thin like her mother’s. It gave her a seriousness of expression which belied her real nature. She was wearing a blue print dress, her arms, plump and white, bared to her elbow. The hands were very red, the nails broken, and on the palm of the right one lay the mark of a burn, a great weal stretching right across it. Her body was firm and supple—the breasts bulged as though resenting imprisonment behind the thin dress. Mr. Kilkey noticed all these things as he watched her lay the table. One would have thought these two persons were father and daughter. They were so dissimilar. Mr. Kilkey was ugly. His large bald head could not boast a single hair. His skin looked dirty, and it had a sort of shine about it. As one member of the family had remarked, Joseph Kilkey’s skin looked like wet leather. To the deficiencies of a begrudging Nature Mr. Joseph Kilkey had added a philosophic contentment. People might say he was ugly—even pock-marked—unsuited for such a young woman as Maureen Fury, but this never affected Mr. Kilkey, who was wont, like a true philosopher, to observe Mr. Joseph Kilkey from the inside rather than the outside. At this moment life was very full for him. It was exciting, adventurous, glorious, and beautiful. They had been married now over two years. He had thoroughly settled down. A child had come. But there was that little discordant note, that ripple in the calm waters of content. He wasn’t quite sure of his wife. He had hoped that the child would weld them closer together. He had learned very quickly that he must weld himself to the child. The woman still stood outside, hesitating, not quite sure, as it were, whether she could go on or not. So it appeared to Mr. Kilkey. He was a decent man, hard-working, honest, and like a good Catholic he attended his duties. His pleasures were simple, sometimes too simple for his wife, who was wont on occasions to rail against his meanness. Moderation in all things was Mr. Kilkey’s motto, and he had observed, too, that only those pleasures and interests which could be afforded were real pleasures.

 

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