***
Patrick saw her as he stood in the queue at the tea stall; she was only a few yards away, her face tear streaked, clutching a mug of tea. Gorgeous, she was, black, no more than twenty, wearing a very short denim skirt and then those funny boots they all seemed to like: sheepskin, not ideal for a hot August day, but then that was fashion for you. She was small and quite thin, but she had very good boobs, nicely emphasized by a pink low-cut T-shirt, and her wild black hair was pulled back into a ponytail on one side.
He picked up his own tea and a couple of bottles of water and went over to her.
“Not a serious problem, I hope?”
“Who said there was a problem at all?” she said. “I’m just waiting for someone.”
Her voice was surprisingly posh; he was surprised. Then he chided himself for being classist or racist or whatever such a reaction might be labelled. Soon, he reflected, you wouldn’t be able to say anything at all without upsetting someone.
“Your friend late, then?”
“I’m-” she said, and then stopped, smiled reluctantly. “I’m not waiting for anyone, really. I’m just hoping to get a lift back to Cardiff. You’re not… not going that way?”
“No, sorry, my love. Going to London.”
“Oh, God,” she said, and her huge eyes filled with tears again, “if only I’d met you just half an hour earlier. I was trying to get there.”
“Any particular reason?”
“Well-yes. Yes, I had an appointment.”
“Important, was it?”
“Terribly,” she said, and started to cry in earnest again.
“Come on,” he said, sitting down on a bench, indicating to her to join him. “Tell me all about it.”
***
“Linda, I’ve got Georgia on line three-”
“ Georgia,” Linda said, picking it up, “what is it? Are you in London yet?”
“Linda, don’t be angry, please, please don’t. I’ve… well, I’ve had a difficult day so far, and… and, well, I’m on the M4.”
“The M4! God in heaven, whereabouts on the M4?”
“Um-almost in Gloucestershire. The Bath turnoff.”
“ Georgia,” said Linda, trying to keep her voice under control, “do you know what you’ve just done? I worked so hard to get you that audition. I lied; I practically bribed. What am I going to tell them? I hope you realise this damages me and my reputation as much as it does yours. Rather more so, actually, since you don’t have one. Now get off this line and out of my life. I-”
“Linda, please. Please listen to me. I’m so, so sorry, I know everything you say is true, and I don’t deserve any more of your help or kindness. But… it really wasn’t my fault. Really. I was staying with a friend in Bath and-”
“I don’t want to hear this.”
“But isn’t there anything you could tell them? That will just make them wait a couple of hours for me? They’re seeing lots of girls; couldn’t you ask if I could be last? I know I can be there by five thirty…”
There was a long silence; then Linda said, “I don’t know, Georgia. I don’t know.”
“But you’ve got to talk to them anyway, tell them I’m not coming. Wouldn’t it be better for both of us if you told them I had a tummy bug or something? Please, please?”
Another silence; then Linda said, “Well, I’ll consider it. Are you on your mobile?”
“Um, no, someone else’s. Mine had-had just died.”
“Oh, for Christ’s sake. Give me the number. And if you don’t hear from me, don’t be surprised.”
“No, no, all right. Thank you, Linda. Thank you so, so much.”
***
Georgia switched off the mobile and handed it back to Patrick rather shakily.
“I think she’s going to try. You were right: it was worth calling her. So… can we go, please? I mean, will you take me? I’d be grateful for the rest of my life…”
***
He had to finish it: absolutely had to. For the sake of a few dizzy days and nights of novelty, the absolute adrenaline rush of danger, he was at serious risk of losing everything he had.
He looked across at her as they drove along, this raw, sexy, not even very beautiful young thing, only twelve years older, dear God, than his son, and saw his life, its perfect edifice, being rocked to its foundations.
It wasn’t even as if there was anything wrong with his marriage. It was perfect; Laura was the perfect wife, caring, loving, beautiful… Everyone told him so, told him how lucky he was, and he was. It was just that… well, it was all a bit predictable. Their conversations, their social lives, their family lives, their sex lives. Especially their sex lives. He supposed that was what had actually led him into this heady, dangerous situation… Laura knew sex was important, she wanted to please him, she claimed he pleased her, she never refused him; but she never initiated it, never suggested anything, never wanted it moved out of the bedroom… He felt every time that she had ticked the experience off, seen yet another duty done. Which had been the charm of Abi, of course; with her demands, her inventiveness, her risk taking. Sex was at the centre of her.
And what kind of bastard set those things before love, before loyalty, before family happiness…?
His sort of bastard, it seemed…
Initially he had tried to excuse himself, to tell himself it was only a one-night stand, or at the very most, the briefest fling, purely sex, that it would revitalise his marriage, make him more aware of the treasure he possessed.
But Abi was more than a fling; he felt increasingly addicted to her. She seemed to be completely amoral: she had lost count, she once told him, of how many men she had slept with; she drank too much; she did a lot of drugs. She was the sort of woman indeed that he despised and disliked, and what he was doing with her, he had no real idea-except that he was having fantastic sex with her. And finding a huge and dangerous excitement in his life.
He had met her only two months before, when he had been (genuinely) at a medical conference. The conference organiser, one of the big pharmaceutical companies, had wanted some photographs taken of the speakers and people at the dinner; the photographer had been an annoying little chap with a nasal whine, but his assistant, following him round with a notebook to record the names of subjects, and a second camera, had been… well, she had been amazing. She was dark, tall, and very skinny, with incredible legs. Her long hair was pulled back in a half-undone ponytail; her black silky dress was extremely short and, although quite high necked, clung to a braless bosom. Jonathan could see it was braless because her nipples stood out so clearly. She wore very high-heeled black boots with silver heels, very large silver earrings, and quite a lot of makeup, particularly on her eyes, which were huge and dark, and her lips, which were full and sensual.
As she bent down to speak to Jonathan to ask his name, her perfume, rich and raw, surrounded him, confusing him.
“Sorry about this,” she said, “but it’s my job. Do you mind telling me how you spell Gilliatt?”
He spelt it for her, smiling. “Don’t apologise. You make a nice change from all the other obstetricians.”
“Good.” She smiled at him, stood up, and walked away.
He sat and stared after her, suddenly unable to think about anything else. She walked… How did she walk? Rhythmically, leaning back just a little, her hips thrust forward; it was a master class (or mistress class? he wondered rather wildly) in visual temptation.
As dessert was served, he saw her working a table in the far corner of the room. He excused himself from the male midwife beside him (now waxing lyrical about womb music) and headed for the gents’; on his way back he spotted her working another table, went over to her.
“Hello again.”
“Hello, Mr. Gilliatt.”
She had a very slow smile; it was extraordinarily seductive.
“I… wondered if you had a business card. I… well, I speak at a lot of these conferences and very often they want pictures, for the local
press and so on. It’s… always useful to have a name up one’s sleeve.”
“Yes, of course. That’s great; I’m supposed to hand them out, so you’ve just won me some brownie points from my boss. That’s his number and this is mine-Abi’s my name. Abi Scott.”
“Thank you very much, Abi. Nice to have met you. Maybe we’ll meet again.”
“Maybe,” she said. With another slow smile.
He went back to the table and engaged very cheerfully in a heated debate on induction, fingering Abi’s card and telling himself that he would pass it to his secretary at St. Anne’s the next day.
He stayed the night at the hotel; he had strange, feverish dreams, and woke to an appalling headache. He showered and dressed and scooped up Abi Scott’s card, along with his keys and his wallet, which were lying on the bedside table, stared at it for a moment, then sat down again and, before he could think at all, rang her number…
They had an absurd conversation, both of them knowing exactly what it was actually about, while dissembling furiously.
He’d like a copy of a couple of the pictures for his wife (important to get that in-Why, Gilliatt, why?); could she perhaps e-mail them to him? She could do better than that: they had prints ready-she could drop them off at the hotel; it was only round the corner from her office. That would be extremely kind. Yes, she could be over in half an hour.
She’d been waiting in the foyer when he came down, leaning on the reception desk, fiddling with a long strand of her dark hair; she was wearing the tightest jeans he’d ever seen-they were like denim tights, for God’s sake-with the same silver-heeled boots worn over them, and a black leather jacket. Her perfume hit him with a thud as he neared her, held out his hand.
“Good morning.”
“Good morning,” she said. “Nice to see you again, Mr. Gilliatt.”
Her eyes moved over his face, rested briefly on his mouth. She smiled again, and the invitation in the smile was unmistakable.
“Maybe I could buy you a coffee,” he said, the words apparently leaving his mouth entirely unpremeditated, unplanned. “To thank you for bringing the pictures.”
“That’d be… yeah, that’d be great.”
***
“So,” he said as they settled at a table, “do you live in Bristol?”
“I do, yes. But I come from Devon. Born in Plymouth.”
“Oh, really? How interesting. I come from Devon, too. I was born in Exeter.” God, he must sound ridiculous to her. Pathetic. “So… what were you doing before you worked for Mr… Mr…”
“Levine. Stripping,” she said briefly.
“Really?” He could hear himself struggling to sound unsurprised, unshocked.
She laughed out loud.
“Not really. Although it wasn’t a hundred miles from that. I was an underwear model. I worked for some cruddy local photographer who specialised in it. Publicity, you know. It meant having representatives from the manufacturers at the sessions. They liked to adjust the bras, that sort of thing. It was gross. What I do now is quite civilised.”
“Yes, I see.”
There was a silence; then he said, “Well, I should be getting along, really. Back to London. Back to the real world.”
“OK,” was all she said.
Right, Gilliatt. It’s still OK. You’re still safe. Go and have a cold shower and get off to London. But-
“I’ll be down here again in a couple of weeks, another conference, in Bath. Staying here, though. Maybe we could have a drink.”
“Yeah,” she said with the slow, watchful smile, “yeah, that’d be great.”
And that had been that really.
***
That had been two months ago; since then he had thought about her obsessively, all the time. He longed to be with her, and not just for sex. He found her intriguing, almost frightening, so unlike anyone he had ever known. She excited him, she shocked him, and while he did not imagine himself remotely in love with her, he was certainly in her thrall.
She made him run appalling risks; she would stop suddenly as they walked through a dark street, force him into a doorway, pull him into her; she brought cocaine to the hotel rooms where they met, and made a great play of laying out the lines while the room service meals or drink were wheeled in; she called him on his mobile when she knew he was at home, claiming to be a patient, refusing to get off the line until he had made some arrangement to see her.
The terror of it all made his adrenaline run high; the comedown was fearsome. She had become his personal, addictive drug; he needed her more and more.
But the fear had perversely given him courage; he was resolved that this had been the last time-had begun to try to tell her so as they ate breakfast in bed this final morning. It had all been wonderful, he said, really wonderful, but perhaps the time had come to-
“To what?” she said, looking at him sideways, picking up a croissant, dipping it in her coffee.
“Well, to… to draw a line.”
“What sort of a line? I’m afraid we used all mine last night.”
“Abi, please don’t be… don’t be… difficult. I think you know what I mean. We have to finish this.”
“What on earth for, when we’re having such a great time? Or did I miss something last night? Were you trying to get away from me, escape into another room or-”
“Of course I wasn’t trying to get away from you. Don’t be ridiculous.”
“Well, then, Jonathan, I don’t get it. Now come on, let’s get rid of this tray and have one last glorious fuck. Then I’ll leave you in peace. For now. Oh, no, not quite-I forgot I want a lift to London. Presume that’s OK?”
“Of course it’s not OK. I can’t possibly drive you into London. Someone might see me-us; you know the rules.”
“Oh, yes, the rules. It’s all right, Jonathan. Don’t look so frightened; I’m not proposing a visit to your very lovely home in Chiswick. I want to do some shopping, meet up with a girlfriend, maybe go to a movie.”
“Oh-right,” he said, “but still-maybe I could drop you at the station; you could get the train-”
“I don’t like trains. And I don’t really think it’s very likely that out of the millions of people in London this afternoon we’re going to be spotted by one of your chums. No, I’d prefer you to drop me… well, Harley Street would be fine; how’d that be?”
“Abi, I am not taking you to Harley Street.”
“Why not? I like it there. I’ve been there before, remember?”
He did remember-remembered her coming to his rooms, claiming she was a patient, pulling him into her on the examination bed; he still felt sick just thinking about it. Sick and… amazing.
“Well, you can’t come today. Someone might recognize you. Abi…” He took a deep breath. “I really do want to talk.”
“We can talk in the car. Waste of time talking. Now come on, what can I do to interest you…”
She turned him on his back, began toying with his cock with her tongue. He struggled briefly, then gave himself up to the pleasure of her. It could be the last time… He would take her to London and they would talk in the car. He would retreat from the madness and rebuild his life. It would be tough, and he would miss what she did for him, but a few weeks from now it would seem like a dream. A disturbing, dangerous dream. And it would be over, with no great harm done-to him or Laura or the children or his marriage…
The possibility of his harming Abi never occurred to him. And if it had he would have dismissed it utterly. She really was not his concern.
CHAPTER 7
Linda had made the phone call. She told the casting director that Georgia had been up all night with food poisoning, but that she was struggling to get to London just the same; however, there was no way she’d be there by three. It would be more like five.
The casting director said that since Georgia would hardly be at her best and they were seeing three more girls the next day, then she could come along in the morning.
“At-let
’s see-ten thirty?”
Linda thanked her not too effusively-she didn’t want to appear grovelling-and tried to ring Georgia back on the number she had given her. It was on message; Linda said could Georgia ring her immediately and get to her office in London as fast as she could. That way she could keep her literally under lock and key until she delivered her personally to the audition in the morning…
***
“So is it films you’re looking to get into?”
She was a nice kid, Patrick thought, very appreciative, sitting up there beside him, doling out his sandwiches and his jelly babies, his chosen sweets on the road, so sweet your blood sugar level-and thus your concentration-went up just looking at them.
“It’s what everyone wants, actually,” said Georgia. “Actors might say they just want to play Hamlet at the National, but really and truly they all want to be big names in films and TV.”
“I’ll look forward to your first premiere,” said Patrick, grinning at her.
“Well, I’ll certainly invite you. I’d never have made it, if it wasn’t for you.”
“I’ve enjoyed the company.” He added, “And that’s the truth. But we’re not there yet. Mind if I put the radio on?”
***
It was eleven thirty; Toby had still not returned.
What the fuck was he doing? Barney wondered, pacing the house desperately.
They’d all had breakfast together-Toby had said it was important to appear normal, and anyway, no point getting to the bank before it opened at nine thirty. After which he set off, telling his parents some cock-and-bull story-or so it seemed to Barney-about having to collect some currency from the bank.
“But, Toby, no one gets currency from the bank anymore; that’s what plastic’s for,” his father said.
“Not in the Maldives; no cash machines where we’re going, and I can fill the car up at the same time. I meant to do it yesterday, but I forgot.”
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