by Angela Hart
The Girl in the Dark
The True Story of Runaway Child With a Secret.
A Devastating Discovery that Changes Everything.
ANGELA HART
Contents
Title page
1 ‘How can we refuse?’
2 ‘Maybe we should stick to selling flowers?’
3 ‘I hope you’re going to get me out of here!’
4 ‘My stepdad was a scumbag’
5 ‘She’s not welcome here’
6 ‘It’s nice of you to care so much’
7 ‘All we have is words’
8 ‘I’m only doing my job’
9 ‘Is there something you want to tell me?’
10 ‘Who’s Melissa?’
11 ‘Melissa knows a lot of people’
12 ‘I’m not staying here’
13 ‘Fostering is a world of worry!’
14 ‘I didn’t know anyone was in trouble with the police’
15 ‘There’s something in the sink’
16 ‘We’re going to end up in an early grave’
17 ‘I’m looking forward to seeing my mates again’
18 ‘Girls love bad boys, don’t they?’
19 ‘Do you know why your head’s busy?’
20 ‘I don’t believe it!’
Epilogue
Nobody knows how . . .
Other stories by foster mum Angela Hart . . .
The Girl With Two Lives
The Girl and the Ghosts
The Girl Who Just Wanted to be Loved
Terrified
The Girl With No Bedroom Door
Read on for an extract from the first chapter of Sunday Times bestseller: The Girl Who Wanted to Belong
1 ‘So many questions!’
Copyright page
1
‘How can we refuse?’
‘I’ll cut straight to the chase,’ our support social worker said. Wilf was sounding much more stressed than usual. ‘I need to place a young girl and I’m really hoping you can take her in. It’s an emergency.’
We’d said goodbye to a boy who’d been staying with us on a short placement only a few hours earlier and I was enjoying the peace and quiet, though of course I didn’t mind the interruption. This was our job, and if a child in difficulty needed a home then my husband Jonathan and I would always do our best to provide one.
‘You know we’ll help if we can.
I heard Wilf exhale deeply. ‘Thank you, Angela. I was really hoping you’d say that. Thank you very much. I’m very grateful.’ I thought he sounded quite desperate, which was unusual and made me worry about what we were letting ourselves in for. Wilf was in his fifties and was a very experienced social worker with nearly thirty years of service under his belt. We’d known him for quite a while now, but I’d never heard him like this before.
‘Hold on, I haven’t agreed to anything yet!’ I said light-heartedly, attempting to dilute the tension I could detect down the phone line.
‘Yes, of course. I realise you’ll have to talk to Jonathan, but I don’t mind admitting I really need you to take this girl in, as quickly as possible. I don’t want to put you on the spot, but it’s a very urgent case and I’m banking on you, to be honest.’
‘I see. What’s the situation?’
Wilf spoke rapidly, barely pausing for breath. He was an efficient, earnest man and he didn’t mince his words. ‘The girl is in a secure unit and if you don’t take her she’ll have to stay there until another specialist carer becomes available. She’s twelve years old and locked up with young offenders, though she has no criminal record. She shouldn’t be there, clearly, but we simply had nowhere else to place her at short notice.’
I listened quietly, feeling very worried for the girl, wanting to get her out of the unit as quickly as possible and wondering exactly how she’d ended up there.
Wilf went on to explain that the girl had run away from her foster carer’s home on numerous occasions. This time she had been picked up by the police after going missing for several days and the foster carer subsequently refused to have her back.
‘She’s spent two nights in the unit already, which is far from ideal. I hate to put you under pressure, Angela, but I can’t stress enough how urgently we want to move the girl.’
Wilf told me the name of the unit, which was well known in the region. Though it was designed for children aged twelve to eighteen I knew it wasn’t meant to be an overspill facility for kids in care who had nowhere else to go. As far as I was aware, it was a detention centre for youngsters who’d got in trouble with the law, or those who were at risk of committing crimes and needed to be kept off the streets, either for their own good or for the safety of others. There was a high security section attached to the unit where youths accused of committing serious crimes were detained while on bail or awaiting a court appearance. The crimes were the sort of shocking and violent offences that often made headline news, giving the centre notoriety. I’d heard it called all kinds of names over the years, but typically it was described as a ‘kids’ prison’.
To my alarm, Wilf went on to explain that the girl was in this high security section, as there was no bed available in the main centre when she was taken in.
‘So there you have it, Angela. She’s locked up alongside young offenders, I’m afraid. I’m sure you can understand the urgency.’
I thought to myself, You’re not wrong there. It was deeply shocking that an innocent twelve-year-old was being locked up alongside violent and dangerous youths.
‘It shouldn’t be happening,’ Wilf went on. ‘But I’m afraid it just goes to show how strapped we are for foster carers, and especially specialist carers. I’m sure we’d get a lot of stick if this story got out, but in the circumstances the emergency team had no option but to take her to the unit. It’s put everybody in a very difficult situation, most of all the girl herself.’
Wilf reiterated that she had no criminal record, but added that she had a long history of absconding from care, going missing and being picked up by the police and returned to her foster carers. He explained that she came from a broken home and had been in care for over a year in total but didn’t offer any further details at that stage.
‘I’ll speak to Jonathan straight away. I want to help, I’m sure he will feel the same way.’
‘Thanks, Angela. It will only be a five-week placement, if that helps.’ Placements rarely run to an exact timetable, which is inevitable when you’re dealing with unpredictable kids, their often fickle or unreliable families and a care system that is perpetually stretched to breaking point. However, Wilf said this would be a maximum stay of five weeks, though he didn’t explain why. I didn’t know how he could be so confident about the timeframe in the circumstances, but I took him at his word.
Jonathan was outside, putting antifreeze in the car. It was a bitterly cold evening and there had been warnings of frozen fog and ice on the roads. I pulled on a coat and hat and went out to see him.
‘How can we refuse?’ he said straight away, his breath forming white clouds in the freezing air as he looked up from under the bonnet of our old estate car.
‘I agree. It’s only five weeks. Come what may, I’m sure we can cope with that.’
The truth was we didn’t want to refuse, even though we both felt wary of dealing with a child who seemed so intent on running away. We’d never dealt with that scenario before, but we were prepared to do our best to help.
I phoned Wilf to tell him our decision. ‘I can’t thank you enough,’ he said. His relief was palpable. ‘I’ll be back in touch as soon as possible with more details. We’d like you to visit Melissa at the unit first. Hopefully I can fix this up for tomorrow. Then we’ll take it from there. Th
ank you again. You’re a lifesaver. Please pass on my thanks to Jonathan too.’
I realised Wilf hadn’t told me the girl’s name until now, and when I hung up the phone I repeated it out loud. ‘Melissa,’ I said, looking at Jonathan, who had just come in from the cold and was standing in the hallway, rubbing his hands together to warm up. ‘Wilf just said the girl’s name is Melissa’.
The penny dropped for both of us at the same moment.
‘Oh my God, it’s the girl Lynne was looking after,’ I exclaimed, putting my hand over my mouth to stifle a gasp. ‘I can’t believe I didn’t work that out earlier!’
Jonathan sucked in a breath. ‘What have we done?’ He widened his eyes but then immediately looked for something positive to say, no doubt having seen the look of horror on my face.
‘Come on, let’s get the kettle on and draw up a battle plan!’ he joked. ‘We won’t be defeated by a twelve-year-old girl!’
We sat in the kitchen drinking steaming-hot tea and thinking back to everything our friend Lynne had told us about Melissa. She had done the training course to be a specialist teenage foster carer at the same time as Jonathan and me, and we’d got to know each other well. We now attended a regular support group with Lynne and other recently qualified specialist carers, where we were all encouraged to share our experiences in confidence with each other.
I cast my mind back to a session we’d had a couple of weeks earlier, when Lynne told the group she was exhausted. I could still picture her, looking very stressed and tired out.
‘I’m at the end of my tether,’ Lynne had sighed. ‘I’m not sleeping properly because every time I hear a noise in the house I think it’s her, up to her tricks again.’
The social worker leading the meeting encouraged Lynne to unload and share her story and Lynne went on to explain that the girl seemed ‘hell-bent’ on running off. At first, Melissa would pretend she needed to go to the corner shop, or to meet a friend, but then she’d simply not come home. Sometimes she returned of her own accord but other times she went missing for so long Lynne had to call the police. As time went on Melissa became more brazen, Lynne said. She would run off at all hours of the day or night without even bothering to make excuses, and she began to disappear for longer periods of time.
‘It’s a nightmare,’ Lynne continued. ‘I’m exhausted and I’m not sure I can take much more. She whistles too! I can’t stand it!’
The course leader had reassured Lynne that she was doing everything right, but it was clear this was not much comfort. Jonathan recalled that Lynne had said she was feeling guilty about the effect the placement was having on her husband and two children, and that she was questioning her decision to become a specialist carer. She had dark circles under her eyes and said her husband was also feeling the strain and losing sleep.
Remembering that support meeting, and recalling how frustrated and defeated Lynne looked, I shuddered.
‘It sounded like a complete nightmare, didn’t it?’ I said to Jonathan. ‘And we’ve just volunteered to put ourselves in Lynne’s shoes! We must be mad.’
‘Mad, or optimistic?’ he shrugged. ‘Look, we’ve all but agreed to meet her now and we’re not going to go back on our word, are we? Wilf could phone back any minute with the arrangements.’
I nodded. I knew that even though we’d have the chance to pull out once we’d met Melissa, as is always the case in such situations, if she was happy to come and live with us then it was highly unlikely we would refuse to take her in. How could we leave a young girl in a place like that?
‘Maybe we can help turn things around for her,’ Jonathan said. ‘A fresh start might be just what Melissa needs. And as I recall, Lynne said she was a very nice girl, when she wasn’t running off.’
‘Did she? I can’t remember that bit. I think that part of the story got overshadowed, not surprisingly. I can only remember how much of a nightmare it sounded. I’m going to give Lynne a call.’
‘Are you joking?’ was Lynne’s reaction when I told her our news.
‘No. We’ve agreed to go and meet her at the secure unit. I didn’t put two and two together until we’d already set the ball rolling.’
Lynne groaned.
‘The placement will only be for five weeks, while Social Services find something more permanent,’ I went on. ‘I’m sure we can manage that.’
‘Well I was on my knees after just one week. I felt like running away myself!’
She laughed and I gamely joined in, though her attempt at humour didn’t reduce my stress levels. I now felt even more worried than before.
I learned that Lynne had given Melissa a home for four weeks before deciding she could take no more. She explained how the beginning of the end came when Melissa began breaking out at night. With her two children in their beds, Lynne and her husband Nick had been horrified to wake up and discover Melissa had slipped out the back door, leaving the house unlocked as they slept.
‘I couldn’t sleep properly after she started doing that. I was always on alert through the night, listening for her. I felt helpless. I’ve known parents to lock kids in the house and hide the key to stop them disappearing overnight, but obviously as foster carers we can’t do that, can we? All I could do was lie there, trying to detect if she was getting up and hoping I’d hear her if she started sneaking about. Maybe then I could talk her round, if I caught her trying to run off. That’s what I thought, but it didn’t work.’
We’d covered the issue of locked doors and windows in our specialist foster care training. Under no circumstances are foster carers allowed to lock children in rooms or houses, or anywhere else for that matter. Respecting human rights and adhering to health and safety guidelines are vitally important factors. Foster carers can be reprimanded for breaching the rules, however well-intentioned they may be.
‘One evening Nick caught Melissa red-handed,’ Lynne went on. ‘He got to the back door just in time to see her making her way down the garden path. She wasn’t running, she was simply walking away quite calmly. She was whistling to herself. Can you believe it? When he called after her she quickened her pace and then started to run. If it was one of our kids he’d have been able to at least catch her up and take hold of her arm to try to stop her from leaving, but of course Nick couldn’t lay a finger on Melissa. It was all too much. I couldn’t have her back in the end. The main problem was that I was too worried for my kids’ safety. The placement was not sustainable at all.’
I told Lynne I didn’t blame her. At least Jonathan and I didn’t have kids of our own to worry about, and hopefully that might make it easier for us than it had been for her. I was looking for positives, though I was now under no illusion about what Jonathan and I were letting ourselves in for.
During the course of the phone conversation Lynne had also remarked that Melissa looked ‘dishevelled’ when she came home, but Lynne told me she didn’t have a clue what Melissa got up to when she went missing. Seemingly, all that was known was that she hung around with a ‘bad crowd’.
‘It sounds like Melissa may prove to be our toughest challenge yet,’ I said to Jonathan later.
It was the nineties and we had qualified as specialist carers only a short time prior to being asked to take in Melissa. Over the previous few weeks we’d looked after three teenage boys on short placements. Each had turned out to be less trouble than some of the kids who’d lived with us when we were dealing solely with so-called ‘mainstream’ children, rather than kids who needed extra help.
‘Toughest challenge yet?’ Jonathan said. ‘Bring it on!’ I knew my husband was as concerned as I was but was trying to look on the bright side and cheer me up.
‘Bring it on,’ I repeated, somewhat unconvincingly. I knew there was no point in dwelling on the negative now, though I had a very strong feeling we were going to have to draw on every ounce of our specialist training in order to cope with Melissa.
2
‘Maybe we should stick to selling flowers?’
; The phone rang not long after I’d finished telling Jonathan everything Lynne had passed on to me about Melissa. Though it was nearly eight o’clock by now, it was Wilf with the details for our visit to the unit the next day; it’s not unusual for social workers to work on into the evening when they desperately need to place a child. He suggested that after the meeting, provided we were all in agreement, arrangements would be made for Melissa to move in with us as soon as possible, hopefully within a day or two.
‘OK, that’s fine,’ I said. I was apprehensive but it was too late to change our minds now. I couldn’t have lived with the thought of a young girl being locked in a unit like that when we had room in our house for her. As of that morning all three bedrooms on the top floor of our town house were empty. However difficult it may be to care for Melissa and keep her safe, the young girl deserved the chance to live in a normal home again, as quickly as possible.
I already knew roughly where the unit was but I carefully noted down the full address. Wilf explained that we had to report to the main security gate upon arrival. I told him I’d worked out that Melissa’s former foster carer was my friend Lynne and that I’d learned a little more about her.
‘It’s very tough looking after a runner, but you and Jonathan are her best shot,’ Wilf said. ‘I think Melissa’s very lucky you’re willing to consider taking her in. I can’t think of a better home for her. She’s a sweet girl, too. I think you’ll be pleasantly surprised when you meet her. I hope it all goes well.’
As soon as Wilf described Melissa as ‘a sweet girl’ I remembered how Jonathan had recalled Lynne telling the meeting she was a ‘very nice girl, when she wasn’t running off’. I’d forgotten to ask Lynne about this when I called her, as understandably my focus had been on Melissa’s challenging behaviour. Now Wilf had used the word ‘sweet’ I found myself intrigued to meet her. How could this nice, sweet girl cause so much chaos? Why did she run away, and what was she running to? Or was she running from something? I wanted to know the answers.
