by Thynne, Jane
Ever since Clara had arrived in Berlin, she had loved that department store. Beyond the brass doors, within the warm, glistening, scented interior, it was almost a world of its own. The store had thought of everything its customers could wish for, from the special room at the side of the entrance, where a uniformed assistant would look after your dog, to the racks where gentlemen could rest unfinished cigars while they perused the shop. Just stepping through the doors caused you to relax, as the wall-length mirrors reflected your image back to you, replete with a patina of glamour and luxury. You could happily pass half a day immersed in the book department, or sipping coffee among the potted palms in the sixth-floor café.
In the past Clara had always enjoyed lingering in the clothes department, or trying out the perfumes, but that day she found it impossible to distract herself with hats or cosmetics. She had intended to keep herself surrounded by people, and yet she felt utterly alone. She dallied aimlessly, feeling the warmth enter her bones but unable to relax. There was a competition in the lobby to guess the total of Winter Relief collected by the city of Berlin in the last six months. The winner could choose between the prize of a vacuum cleaner or a portrait of the Führer, and both of these cherished objects were displayed side by side. The portrait was one of Hoffmann’s photographs, which had been badly colourized, with Hitler’s low, sloping forehead and prominent nose rose-tinted in a way that defied irony. Hitler was striking the commanding, hands-on-hips pose that he had developed over the years to look intimidating, and his famously piercing blue eyes seemed to follow the observer like the Mona Lisa. It was a frightful thing. All the same, Clara wondered if anyone would be brave enough to choose the vacuum cleaner.
In the afternoon she went to a cinema. The air was thick with cigarette smoke and the smell of damp clothes. The newsreel was full of the recent Party rally and it moved on to images of the Duke of Windsor meeting workers. He was touring a factory, with a rictus smile on his face, mechanically shaking hands. The workers returned his salute and shouted ‘Heil Windsor!’ The Duchess was emptying her entire purse into the hands of an SA man for the Strength Through Joy fund. Clara dropped off to sleep momentarily, an uneasy doze from which she jerked and looked around her. Never relax, she told herself. Never relax. The place on her temple ached where she had hit the road and her head was throbbing again.
She reached into the pocket of her coat and found a handkerchief. It was a large, white man’s handkerchief, stained brown with blood. The blood was hers, she knew, but the initials on the corner belonged to Ralph. He must have stuffed it into her pocket when he picked her off the road. She pressed it against her face, inhaling a faint trace of him. It was consoling to carry a little piece of him around with her.
After the film she walked further down the Ku’damm and sat in the companionable fug of Kranzler’s, oily steam pressing against the misted windows, the ceiling stained nicotine yellow by decades of cigarettes, and a man beside her with a newspaper full of the victories in Spain. She glanced at the headlines and thought of the way Ralph talked about the imminence of war. How similar his language was to the way Arno Strauss talked. Mapping the terrain. Noticing every little change in the environment. Watching which way the wind was blowing. Studying the lie of the land. But Strauss was talking about flying, and Ralph was talking about war. She imagined German bombers like a great flock of migrating birds darkening the European lands beneath them, and Strauss in the cockpit, losing the last traces of his fear.
Since Ralph had told her about the Gestapo shadow outside her apartment, every person she passed looked as though they might be the one. Was there anything about the man beside her that could mark him out as a tail? He was middle-aged, with calloused hands suggesting some form of manual work, and a worn heel to his shoes, which meant either that he did a lot of walking, or that he was short of cash, or both. He had a rash of spots on his neck and the faintest whiff of wurst about him. The man sensed her scrutiny and glanced indifferently in her direction before returning to his paper. Was he looking at her without interest because she was just one of a thousand suspects to be watched and followed, dehumanized? Or was he merely bored? She had lost all powers of discrimination.
Then, Clara thought, there was the other one. The man who had tried to kill her. Perhaps he was watching her even now, as she sat here finishing a cup of hot chocolate, gazing out of the café window. Maybe he was waiting for his second chance. What did he want from her? What did she know that was so important he would kill to keep it quiet?
She left Kranzler’s and carried on. As the rain intensified she slipped into a Catholic church and sat in the flickering light, noting how the shrine to Our Lady now had a picture of Hitler above it, sharing the same lighted candle. The Virgin gazed frigidly into the distance, as if offended by this forced proximity. Clara had a sense of sanctuary in the church and perversely, in that dim, holy place, infused with the smell of incense and damp stone, her mind began to brim with the memory of sensual pleasure. She relived every moment she and Ralph had spent in bed together. Ralph’s hands caressing her, and his face, as his desire overcame the jealousy of Strauss and the mental barriers he had erected. His tousled hair and the fuzz of golden stubble rasping against her skin. His innate military posture, shoulders back, head straight, chin up. If we were at war then this would be an order. Then the way he bent to take her in his arms, ceding to the insubordination of desire. She yearned to be back in bed with him. She had not felt this way about a man since Leo.
She had felt safe there, in the circle of his arms. Whatever Ralph said about doubling the risk, the fact was, it was also shared, and it had been so long since she had someone to share it with. Clara wasn’t cowardly. She had endured a long separation from her family and turned her face against feelings like this, but perhaps she had been wrong to think it was possible, or that she should even try.
She stayed in the church for a long time as the rain slackened, until checking her watch she saw that it was time to go.
Chapter Thirty-three
Heidi Kastner, a chorus girl at the Wintergarten Theatre, consoled herself that although her job was both tedious and repetitive, at least the setting was glamorous and the pay regular. The show required her and twenty-four other girls to switch from geisha costumes to schoolgirls, from sombreros to tiaras in the space of two and a half hours. At one point they had to arrive on stage on bicycles, and then, immediately after, dash back to change for the finale which involved wearing a cumbersome plume of ostrich feathers, that were a devil to fix on the hair, and a frilly strip of gauze across the body which covered barely anything.
When she came offstage that night Hedwig, the old woman who looked after the girls and their costumes and managed to perform repairs of infinite skill with a cigarette perched permanently at the corner of her mouth, signalled with a tilt of her head that a visitor awaited Heidi at the stage door.
‘A Fräulein wants to see you.’
‘What Fräulein?’
‘How should I know?’ Hedwig was stitching a froth of pink feathers to a bustier. ‘She’s been there a while.’
Outside in the corridor Heidi found a slender woman in a navy suit with soft brown hair and an anxious expression. Not the usual type of fan at all.
She offered her hand.
‘Heidi Kastner? I’m Clara Vine. I wondered if we could have a quick word about someone you used to know – Anna Hansen?’
Half an hour later they were sitting round the corner in a smoke-filled bar, where most conversation was drowned by a piano thumping out old dance tunes. A woman in a French maid’s outfit was gyrating on a dance floor, her every move shadowed by pairs of eager male eyes. After a while an old, fat waiter came onto the floor, dressed in a dinner jacket and carrying a feather duster. As the girl danced around he made a feint of whacking her short-skirted bottom to a chorus of encouraging shrieks.
‘Do you like the job?’ Clara asked.
Heidi tossed her frazzled blonde hair. ‘At lea
st it’s varied. We have trapeze artists, acrobats, magicians, singers. There’s a performing horse on tomorrow night. A real one, you know? It dances. Then it’s all change. We’re doing The Merry Widow. Again.’ She narrowed her eyes and helped herself to another of Clara’s cigarettes. ‘So you want to know about Anna?’
‘She used to work here with you at the Wintergarten? And before that in Munich?’
‘We were dancers together in Munich. We worked the chorus in the Theater am Gärtnerplatz. Everyone worked there. There were up to two hundred girls in some productions. You could get ten costume changes in a performance. There was always loads of work.’
‘So why did you come to Berlin?’
‘Ach. There was no money in Munich. You could get better money cleaning houses, and you were risking your neck on those props. The place was always freezing too. Several of the girls died of pneumonia while I was there. I mean it! I’ve been here more than ten years now. Though it’s just as cold.’
‘But it’s better money in Berlin?’
Heidi gave an instinctive glance around the bar, then crossed her arms and stared at Clara meaningfully.
‘As I say, money matters.’
‘Of course.’ Clara took the hint. ‘Here’s something for your expenses.’
She slid some folded notes across the table, and Heidi swiftly placed them in her purse.
‘So tell me about Anna.’
‘What can I say? I’ve known Anna since I was ten. We grew up together. We used to talk at school about being dancers, even though her old man was dead against it. For a while she fooled around doing some dull secretarial job in a laboratory, but when I got my first job she was so jealous, she joined me in the theatre. We had a wild time.’
Heidi inhaled deeply and regarded Clara out of the corner of her eye.
‘That was until Hitler appeared.’
From across the room there was a roar of approval as the waiter seized the French maid by the hips and pressed himself against her with repeated lascivious thrusts. The dancer feigned outrage as the audience egged the man on. Clara glanced away then leaned closer.
‘He was always there. He loved variety shows and operetta. He liked something a bit daring, you know? A chance to let his hair down. The theatre manager was all over him. Everything for Herr Hitler. Nothing could be good enough. He wasn’t even the Führer then, but we had a routine where we danced the can-can and ended with a Heil Hitler salute using our legs instead of our arms. He loved that. Anyhow, after the show we would all climb into chartered buses and stay in costume for the after-party at the Künstlerhaus. Everyone went there. They had this special room. The Astrological Hall, they call it, because the ceiling is covered in gold astrology signs, and there are rugs and cushions on the floor. You would be asked to do another performance in there which had to be even more risqué than the one you’d already done. There was an American girl, a dancer called Dorothy van Bruck – that was her stage name anyway – who the men adored. She used to dance naked and when things started to droop she got herself plastic surgery. Sometimes she’d wear these transparent butterfly wings but mostly gentlemen didn’t need their opera glasses, if you know what I mean.’
‘Sounds pretty wild.’
‘You have no idea. The Nazi Artists’ Guild had files on all the girls with their statistics and personal details. And it wasn’t just the ladies. There were plenty of young men there for those who liked that sort of thing. This is going back some time now, you understand.’
She sighed, and unconsciously stroked her neck in an upwards direction, as if smoothing out a decade of wrinkles.
‘You were saying Anna met Hitler there.’
‘Oh yes. She was all over Herr Hitler. As soon as they were introduced she flirted like mad with him. And he liked her. He must have done, because he gave her presents and flowers. But at the same time I could tell there was nothing in it. Hitler was never alone with her. He always had a group of people around him. That photographer, you know, Hoffmann. And his adjutant. Hoffmann was always taking pictures. It used to get on my nerves. And Hitler would bring along his old pal Ernst Röhm. The one who got himself executed a few years ago for sleeping with the choicer young lads of the SA.’
‘So he and Anna weren’t. . .?’
‘Lovers? Not at all. Besides, Anna wouldn’t have dared. She had a boyfriend already.’
‘A boyfriend? Who was he?’
‘Just a local lad. But he was the jealous type. No, I’m sure there was nothing in it.’
‘In that case, what difference did it make? Anna meeting Hitler?’
‘It’s hard to explain, but quite soon after they were introduced, Anna changed. She got above herself, like she was something special, you know? I couldn’t understand it myself. I mean, it wasn’t like he was giving her money, or anything. He wasn’t even that famous then, the way he is now. After a while I couldn’t stand it. Even though I was her best friend, I wanted to get away from her. That was when I started thinking about coming here.’
‘Where eventually she followed you?’
Heidi gave a throaty chuckle.
‘That was just like Anna. She turned up one day years later at the Wintergarten as if nothing had happened, all kisses and best friends again, so I thought, why not let bygones be bygones? It was good to see a friendly face and besides, I was on the lookout for someone to share the rent. I sorted her out with a job, then Anna got herself an SS boyfriend and, well, you know the rest.’
Some of the other dancers had arrived at the bar, caught sight of them and were approaching the table. Hastily Heidi pulled her purse towards her.
‘I’m sorry Fräulein, I don’t know anything else. I need to go now.’
She rose and paused, casting a quizzical glance at Clara.
‘Just asking, but you don’t know that old boyfriend of Anna’s, do you?’
She nodded at the gash on Clara’s temple, which she had tried to conceal with Max Factor foundation.
‘Of course not. Why?’
‘Because that bruise you’ve got there looks like just the kind of artwork he specialized in.’
Chapter Thirty-four
Joseph Goebbels’ Propaganda Ministry was probably the only place in the Reich not lying about its food supplies. Which was ironic, considering the way it lied about everything else. On a trestle table in the conference room, a veritable feast had been ferried over from the Hotel Kaiserhof. Mountains of spicy marzipan Streuselkuchen, Apfeltorte glistening with apricot jam, Windbeutel cream puffs and Viennese Sachertorte were displayed on a magnificent silver cake stand. There may have been chronic shortages everywhere else in Germany but here was a spectacular array of fine white bread, not the gritty, black variety that the rest of the population ate, and a bulging heap of cheeses. Waiters with tea towels folded over their arms darted forward to ensure that everyone’s glass was filled with sparkling wine. Nazi officials and journalists alike fell on the feast with alacrity, as though, like everything that proceeded from Goebbels’ department, it might turn out to be an illusion. Mary, who had not had such a good meal for months, was not stinting.
The party was in honour of the film that had just been screened in the viewing theatre to mark Joseph Goebbels’ birthday. There was not much of a story in it, but Mary was discovering that if you wanted to keep in with the Nazi authorities, it was a good idea to turn up when they asked. Despite an onerous workload as the head of Propaganda and Culture for the entire Reich, Goebbels had made time to oversee every aspect of this production, simply titled Papi’s Birthday. It was a work of exquisite, almost Expressionist simplicity. There was no plot as such, merely a tableau of the Minister’s life, or at least the life he wanted people to see, with pictures of his family at Schwanenwerder, Magda on the garden swing, little Helmut leading his pony across the lawn, Helga with the toy sewing machine Hitler had given her, and Goebbels himself cruising up the drive in his new Maybach sports car, arm resting on the door, and a wide grin on his face. I
t was to be screened in all cinemas, after the newsreel and before the main feature.
‘Isn’t the film absolutely killing? The family look adorable of course, but the Doktor’s risking an awful lot with all those shots of his new sports car, don’t you think? The Führer has bet me that people will throw things at the screen.’
‘Anyone who does that had better watch out. I dread to think what the Doktor would do if he caught them.’
The sing-song cadences of upper-class English rising above the civilized clink of glasses caused Mary to turn round. Not far away were two women with gleaming blonde hair, tweed suits and silk scarves round their necks. They wore Peter Pan collars and pearls and the taller of the two had a prestigious gold Nazi Party badge on her bosom. They were unmistakeably the Mitford sisters.
Unity paused from demolishing a large piece of chocolate cake and laughed. ‘Did you hear, Lord Rothermere has offered Goebbels a job at ten times his current salary? I bet he’ll have second thoughts when he sees this.’
‘Poor Doktor. Perhaps he’s worried there’ll be competition for first family of the Reich when Goering minor comes along. But the Goerings have got an awful lot of catching up to do.’
‘Exactly. I can’t see Frau Goering managing four little Hermanns.’
Mary was astonished. The lobby was heaving with senior aides, press liaison officers and officials from Ufa and some of them, presumably, could understand English. Not even the top Nazi brass dared make open mockery of the Herr Doktor. He might have a taste for vicious sarcasm, but Goebbels’ sense of humour ran out where his own life was concerned. Yet the Mitfords, Mary suddenly realized, could say what they chose, even in the Minister’s own domain. These young women had the protection of the Führer himself. It occurred to her that this was an incredible story. Had anyone properly considered the influence of the Mitford sisters? Did Americans even have a clue who they were? Europe could be on the brink of war, and the only people who had Hitler’s ear were a pair of eccentric English girls. Mary moved nearer, eavesdropping shamelessly.
