She would be opening the door to well-dressed guests, who would all tell her she was beautiful. Mac would be at her side, looking on, proud of her and the way she kept their home.
What a glorious life. Nothing like mine.
If she walked into the world of beautiful houses and pretty shoes, she would become a killing nightmare. Nothing was worth that—not unless it was a crisis of life and death.
And Sylvius was safe now. She had no moral right to hunt. Even if the guardsmen stole her child away again, Mac was ready to help her. Why would she need full vampire powers? Now she could remain as she was with no blood on her conscience.
She’d faced that truth when she’d let the female warrior go—and, as if to prove that the decision had been right, that strange woman had stood guard as Constance led her family out of harm’s way.
No, Constance did not need to change.
Ever.
She could stay as she was, eternally.
She was beginning to feel like a jar of preserves slowly going off. She wanted to taste the magazine world—Mac’s world—with him. Maybe standing at night in some city scene, the artificial lights winking like earthbound stars, and she would be wearing pretty shoes.
Since when did the world hand you what you wanted? Remember what Lore said: Be careful how you barter with destiny.
That had to be wrong. She was tired of living like a ghost, of relying on other people to order her life for her—be it the lord of her childhood home, or Atreus, or even Mac.
Even if he wanted the best for her, it seemed unwise to rely on him completely for the safety of herself and her son. Shouldn’t a vampire, even half a vampire, have some power of her own?
Those were rebellious thoughts for a peasant girl who had started out milking cows and then spent centuries as Atreus’s servant, but they wouldn’t leave her alone. She could feel her life changing, and her courage waxed and waned like the moon—now strong and bright, now all but disappearing. That change felt out of control, like a horse gone wild. There was no telling what path it would take.
Wishing had to count for something, and Constance wished with all her might for that moment with Mac, the romance of the city streets all around her. Romance in their hearts. That beautiful scene. If she could will her life one way, that was it.
Sylvius sat down on the bench beside her, quiet as falling snow. “You’re thinking of him,” he said.
“What makes you say that?”
With one finger, he touched the pendant she wore, and which he had made. “Macmillan makes you happy. That’s good.”
She looked into Sylvius’s face. The time he had spent in the demon box had left its mark. His black eyes, so startling against his pale complexion, seemed older in ways she couldn’t name.
“Should I worry that Mac is a demon now?”
“So am I,” Sylvius said calmly. His smile was teasing.
How he’s growing up. He’s truly not a child anymore. “You’re an incubus. Your strength is love, not violence.”
“Your Macmillan is a protector. The world needs both. And besides, you like him.”
“How do you know?”
“I’m not blind.”
“Children shouldn’t think of their mothers that way.”
“I’m not stupid, either. And besides, I’m old enough now to find my own way. You’ll need a new project.” He kissed her forehead. “I’m a young incubus about town.”
He’d been reading her magazines. “So your mother is that easy to shrug off?”
He laughed. “Never. You’ll always be my mother, but I can’t always be a boy.”
Sylvius folded his wings tight against his back, making them all but invisible. He nonetheless looked no more human. Though strong and lean as any handsome youth, there was no mistaking him for one of the farm lads back home. It would be like comparing a fledgling eagle to a flock of geese.
I raised this beautiful, wise young creature. Fancy that. “I don’t know what I would have done if Mac hadn’t brought you back.” She felt the tingle of tears.
“You would have come for me.” He kissed her forehead. “You’re as much a warrior as your man.”
She looked away. “I’m not Turned.”
“You could be.”
“Lore says if I leave the Castle, I will turn into some savage beast.”
Sylvius laughed. “I can’t see that.”
She pushed her hair out of her eyes. “Lore’s people have the gift of prophecy.”
“And sometimes Lore lives like he is holding a broken cup in his two hands, afraid to let go in case the pieces fall.”
“What does that mean?”
“Maybe the pieces need to fall, so that our hands can be free.”
Constance leaned against him. “It’s not that simple, and you just like to argue.”
He squeezed her. “Leap toward happiness.”
Easy for a love demon to say. Constance laughed softly, afraid of the temptations brewing in her soul. Whether he knew it or not, Sylvius was telling her what she wanted to hear.
“I gave you this to open your heart.” He touched the pendant again. “It worked. Don’t undo the good it’s brought you. You can live in fear or be the person you dream yourself to be.”
“The good it brought me? Sylvius, is this really a love charm?” She clutched the pendant. “I raised you better than that!”
“It can’t make you fall in love. It just shows you possibilities. Apparently, you liked the possibility you saw.”
Constance was speechless; then she swallowed hard. “That’s ... that’s ...”
Sylvius looked smug. “Your Mac is here to see you.”
“Here? Now?” she rose, rounding the edge of the stone bench, more than ready to go.
Sylvius got to his feet, jumped to the top of the bench, then off again, spreading his wings to float down beside her. “He made Lore come and put wards of protection all over the Summer Room door. He did the rooms next door, too, so I can sleep there.”
Sylvius looked a little defiant, but Constance said nothing. It was only right he had a private space of his own, even if she was still fretting whenever he was out of sight. It was going to take her a while to get over their recent scare. To come up with a better plan than hiding behind locked doors, whatever wards the hellhounds put on them.
She wished she could leave the Castle. Maybe Sylvius should.
He watched her expression carefully. “Nothing stays the same forever, little mother. All things change. It’s up to us to make them better.”
Constance found a smile and forced it to her lips. He touched her cheek. His hand was warm, the gesture full of the soft, gentle magic of the incubus. Soft as the sunlight she’d almost forgotten. Soothing. Calming.
Her smile started to bloom of its own accord. Mac was waiting for her. Everything was going to be wonderful.
She wished it with all her heart.
Sylvius took Viktor to his newly warded chambers, leaving Constance and Mac alone in the Summer Room.
She looked up, falling into the rich brown of Mac’s gaze. He looked tired, but happy to see her. They kissed, and she felt the inevitable need to draw him closer, search the kiss for more secrets and pleasures. To give him comfort.
“Did you talk to Atreus?” she asked when they broke apart. There was a lingering grimness about him. She wanted to know why.
Mac brushed the hair back from her forehead. “I did. Sort of. It’s a long story. Let’s talk about that later. I need something else right now. Just for a few minutes.”
“What would that be?”
“You. I need you to make me forget the day.”
He kissed her again, letting his hands slide up her ribs, caressing her waist, her breasts, finally cupping her face with exquisite tenderness.
“Do women in the outside world kiss the same way?” Constance asked when they finally allowed air to come between them. Part of her was afraid to ask. The rest of her couldn’t resist.
“Not nearly so well,” he said with a quick grin. “But d’you know what men and women do, when they want to get to know each other better?”
“What might that be?” Constance twined her arms around his neck, allowing him to sit on the massive, heavy sofa and draw her onto his knee. His strong, broad chest made the best cushion in the world.
“They go out someplace nice and spend time with each other.”
“On a date?” She’d seen the word in the magazines. “Yeah. A date.”
“In my time we called it courting.”
“Remember I said you should come see my world sometime?”
Constance felt her stomach drop like a bucket down a well. She remembered. He’d said it in the haze after love-making. She didn’t think he’d remember. “I remember.”
Mac gave another grin. “Miss Moore, would you go on a date with me tomorrow night?”
She opened her mouth to say no, but he looked too hopeful. He wasn’t like Lore, telling her she’d turn to a rav ening, murderous beast the moment she set foot outside the Castle door. Which is the truth?
She looked away in confusion, her gaze dropping to the shining, lovely magazines he had brought. New ones, still smelling of fresh ink. They were better than jewels. They were filled with fuel for a thousand dreams. “I don’t have anything to wear.”
“I’ve already thought of that,” he said. “I’ll bring you something nice.”
“You will?” The words came out like a prayer and a confession both. She sounded like a drowning waif, clutching at the reeds of a riverbank. “But how will I get out of the Castle?”
“Don’t worry about that. I’ve got that figured out, too.” He touched his finger to the end of her nose. “Nothing’s ever perfect, but I’ll make our night as close to absolutely wonderful as I can.”
Lore had to be wrong. Mac wasn’t worried about what she’d do. Still...
“What if I bite someone?” She had to say it. She still had a conscience.
Mac cocked an eyebrow. “Do you want to?”
“No!” she said. “But what if I decide I do?”
He shifted his hands, holding her as gently as he would a bird. “Why would you?”
“What if I can’t help myself? It could happen. I’m a monster, you know.”
He gave a sly smile. “Tell me if you feel the urge. Then we’ll decide what to do. There are people who are happy to let you bite them.”
Constance was stunned. “Bloody hell! Why would they want that?”
Mac looked confused, then considering. “How often were you bitten?”
“Just the once.”
He looked even more perplexed. “Your, um, boyfriend tried to Turn you on, like, the first time?”
“Yes.”
She flushed, remembering that vampire venom was supposed to possess erotic effects. She’d felt none of that. Though she did remember he slobbered. “He wasn’t much for getting a girl in the mood.”
Chuckling, Mac pulled her close. He was warm, his laugh a pleasant rumble. “Say yes, Connie. Come out with me. I’ll show you how a girl is meant to be treated.”
She let him wrap her in his strong, strong arms, imagining herself walking in the open air, the city folding around her like a sequined cloak. How could she deny him, after all he’d done for her? “Where will we go? What will we do? Tell me what it will be like.”
He chuckled again, obviously enjoying himself, and it warmed her through to her spine. “What do you want to do?”
She knew the answer to that. It was in the magazines. “What every other man and woman does. Dinner and a movie.”
“Dinner?”
“I’ll watch you eat.”
He frowned. “Are you sure? That won’t be very exciting.”
“I want to do what everyone else does. I want a proper date.”
“Whatever you want.”
“Really?”
“This will be your night.”
Can I take this risk? She thought of the brave woman she had met, a mere human ready to take on the whole Castle. “You’ll make sure I don’t do anything I shouldn’t? You promise?”
Mac’s eyes were serious. “I promise, sweetheart.”
Mac kept his promises. “Then, yes.”
He grinned, that quick flash of mischief, and the last of her resistance melted. She wanted whatever he could show her. She leaned into him, turning on his knee so that she almost faced him.
He reached down, his fingers brushing against her ankle as they crept up her stocking, following the curve of her calf. The fabric of her petticoats rustled, the old, soft cloth falling in languid folds over his arm. New garments would have been stiffer, but these lent themselves to furtive play.
Constance twitched when his fingers reached her knee. The undercover touch seemed somehow more illicit than flagrant display. Mac’s hand crossed the barrier of her ribbon garter and found bare flesh to stroke. He ran his hand under her chemise, cupping her rump in a gentle squeeze.
“You’re not wearing anything under here,” he said in a very male tone.
“Only men wear drawers. No proper girl wears men’s underthings.”
He chuckled. “I need to introduce you to Victoria’s Secret.”
“Why would I need her secrets? Haven’t I got plenty?”
“Oh, yeah.”
His caress made her restless. She braced against his shoulders and hitched herself up until she could turn completely, straddling his lap, her knees on either side of his hips. Mac shifted, carrying her along as he found a comfortable position.
“Now what are you going to do?” he teased.
She noticed he’d kept a possessive grip on her hip. She wordlessly gathered her skirts up in front, working them until nothing was trapped beneath her legs. He slipped his other hand beneath the pool of cloth until both were holding her bare hips, steadying her as she hooked her fingers into his waistband and began working the buttons of his jeans.
He was wearing nothing beneath, either. Sliding away, she let him free himself of the thick denim, find a better angle on the heavy sofa. Settling again, she sketched the hard, sharp tip of her nail—one of the more dangerous attributes of the female vampire—around the base of him, then gently dragged it up the shaft, watching it quiver and blossom under her touch. Another stroke, and another, and she had him, plump and full, between her hands.
Constance felt wanton, an explorer in an exotic land. She was starting to ache in all the right places, her breasts feeling tight in the confines of her stays. She rose Up, balancing like an equestrian for the best angle to kiss. Their lips met, her hands gripping his shoulders, tongues teasing each other. He was demon-hot, his skin warm as that of someone who had been standing before a fire. She luxuriated in it, pressing herself against him, drinking in that heat with every pore.
And then she let her tongue slide down his strong, long neck, torturing herself with the spicy taste of him. Her jaws throbbed with the urge to bite, but she held back. If she was going to walk in the outside world, she had to prove she had self-control. Tears started to course down her cheeks, the effort almost too much to bear.
And then she moaned as his clever fingers found the private territory between her thighs. He stroked her in small, tight circles, filling her and then making her cry out as he withdrew, exploring until he found the perfect nub that made her gasp her surprise. She rocked against him, quivering as he wound her tighter and tighter. She dug her nails into his shirt, crushing the cloth in her grip as he finally brought her with a last skillful touch. She bucked against him in frantic, pulsing waves, her mind white as a snowstorm, free of anything but blind sensation.
She was there, floating free, when she felt the press of him. She opened, her body generous now, taking him in a bit at a time, stroke after stroke, mourning a little every time she had to let that fullness go. Mac had her by the hips again, guiding them both, his teeth gritted. His hardness stretched her—uncomfortable, exquisite pleasure. Her immortal
body could take it, glorying in his size and strength, gorging on him. Every angle, every glide unfolded new sensations. New pleasures. New gratification.
Blood hunger raged through her, growing ever sharper as she denied it, becoming part of the exquisite torture. The pain of it was almost erotic in its own right.
Mac’s eyes glittered red, his skin gone from warm to burning with demon heat. Their surging rhythm quickened. Tension was building, layering, growing like something crystalline and bright. Then it shattered, a thousand shards of pleasure slicing at her flesh, drawing a piercing cry from her lips. She heard Mac roar and felt his rush of heat inside her. Oh yes, wherever he led, she would follow.
Ashe woke. She wasn’t sure how long she’d been out, but it was light now, sun peeping through the hospital room’s curtains. She looked around, moving only her eyes because her head felt like a balloon. Drugs.
A page turned to the right of her. She jerked toward the sound, feeling her medicated senses swirl with the sudden motion. Holly was slumped in a chair, her stockinged feet propped on the edge of the metal bed frame. She was reading a textbook—the same one Ashe had shoved at Caravelli, tricking him into revealing his vampire speed.
Now Ashe regretted the act, sort of. It had been a cheap shot. “Hey.”
Holly looked up. “You’re awake.”
“Yup.” Ashe took in the monitors, the ugly fluorescent lights, the other two patients in the room. Both looked asleep or unconscious, but it was hard to tell. All she could see from this angle was lumps under thin hospital blankets.
The place smelled of disinfectant and death.
Holly closed the text, setting it on the floor beside her. “How are you feeling?”
They put me in a pink hospital gown! Pink? Do they think I’m twelve? “Like I’ve been in a garbage compactor.”
“You need more painkillers?”
Ashe tried to sit up but abandoned the plan. “Nah, I’m woozy enough as it is.”
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