Ekaterina (Heirs of Anton)

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by Warren, Susan May


  “I can’t be a good cop and let you stay. You. . .you’ll get hurt. And it’ll be on my conscience.”

  “Well, pity you!” She clenched her teeth. “Heaven help you if you have to baby-sit me one day longer.”

  “Kat, I didn’t—”

  “I never asked you for help, as I recall. You just tackled me, by way of introduction, and you’ve been hounding me ever since.” She didn’t care that the harsh words burned in her throat. Anger pushed her past compassion, past civility.

  “I don’t need your help, nor want it, and you’ll have to drag me kicking and screaming to the plane and throw me aboard to get me out of here.”

  His voice was deadly calm. “If I have to.”

  She closed her eyes. Tears spilled down her cheeks. “No, don’t bother. I don’t ever want to see you again. Tomorrow isn’t soon enough to say good-bye.”

  Her chest tightened when he said, “Ladna. I’ll send Ryslan to pick you up. I won’t bother you any more.” His voice turned ragged, the only indication of the man she’d seen weeping at her bedside the night before. “But you are getting on that plane, and you’re going home. And never coming back.”

  “Fine. Good.” Her throat closed. “Give me my book back.”

  He played the perfect innocent. “What book?”

  She nearly hit him. “Anton’s journal. The one I nearly got killed for while you were supposed to be protecting me.” She stopped short of blurting, “While you were basking in your own pity by the side of the road,” but she couldn’t go that far. She knew, by the way he flinched, that she’d inflicted enough pain. “It’s all I’ve got, Vadeem. Please.”

  His face twitched, and he paused just long enough to look as if she’d driven a fist through his heart. Then— “No. Not until you’re on the plane. You’ll get it as soon as you go through customs.”

  She thought, at that moment, that she might hate Vadeem Spasonov.

  -

  Kat had slammed the door in his face.

  He deserved it. He knew what he was doing to her, and it just about ripped his heart out of his chest. ‘Kat, forgive me’, nearly tripped through his lips too many times to count during the agonizing two-hour flight home. But it never cleared, stopped dead by her icy I-can’t-stand-you posture. He’d traced her tightened jaw with his eyes until it he had it memorized. And, the imprint of her wretched expression as she stared at him through the glass doors of the US embassy, her suitcase weighing down her arm, her sodden hair dripping onto the collar of her white shirt, would be with him long after she flew home tomorrow.

  Long after. Forever.

  He rested his forehead against the wooden bar and covered his head with his arm. Outside, the rain hissed in the streets. Traffic whished through puddles and killed any desire to leave the darkened pub, go home, and face two empty rooms.

  “Are you going to drink that, or just stare at it all night?” The bartender, a wide man with arms like timber who did double duty as bouncer in this hovel, leaned on the bar and eyed Vadeem like he was a rabble-rouser. Vadeem had squatted space for roughly two hours without touching a drop.

  Vadeem shrugged. He hated vodka. It tasted like kerosene, and turned a man’s body into muddle. So what made him think that sucking down the stuff and crawling into a corner in the local FSB hangout was going to soften the pain in his chest? He took the drink, sniffed it, felt his stomach lurch, and set it back down. Maybe later. He had only worked up to a twelve on the misery scale. Maybe he’d wait until he reached fifteen. Another dance into the not-so-distant past, recalling the taste of Kat’s kiss, the sound of his name on her lips, her heart-crushing story tearing out his heart should do it.

  Vadeem groaned.

  He picked up his cell phone and dialed. Again. Ryslan wasn’t answering. He left a curt message on his partner’s voice mail. If his current luck held, the man was out collaring Grazovich at the moment, cursing Vadeem’s ineptness. The vodka called with a soft coo.

  Kat Moore had to leave Russia. He had no choice. He had a job to do, and he’d conveniently tossed that aside to chase after. . .what? He could hardly say the word to himself. Love. He’d known the woman for less than a week and she’d tunneled under his skin and turned him inside out. So maybe he was starting to love her. Maybe the feelings that surfaced when he thought of her made him want to cry and scream and dance and laugh and sing. She had to leave. Because, if he never saw her again, if she got killed on his watch, he just might crumble.

  He knew that feeling all too well.

  I am the Resurrection and the Life, no one comes to the Father but through me. Pyotr’s words hit him like a brick. Vadeem even winced. The problem wasn’t that he didn’t believe. . .it was that he did. He believed in God so strongly, it hurt. Ate him alive. His faith in God had slipped through his fingers as his father lay dying, as his mother was sentenced to gulag, as he was sent to the orphanage, and his brother to the army. As his family disintegrated.

  All because Vadeem had longed to belong to a brotherhood. Because he’d betrayed them to his so-called comrade. Because he trusted the untrustworthy. Faith destroyed. Vadeem put a hand on his chest, pushing against a flash of pain.

  Perhaps he understood exactly how Kat felt.

  Her journal hung like a brick in his coat pocket. He put a hand on it. Her wretched tone rang in his mind, “It’s all I have.” He’d come dangerously close to cutting out his heart and slapping it down in front of her like a sacrificial offering, wanting to answer, “What about me? Don’t you have me?”

  No, she didn’t have him. He’d made that pitifully clear in the way he’d dumped her off like trash at the local embassy, a das vedanya dying on his lips. So what if she’d been the one to slam the door in his face? He knew he’d been the betrayer in their short-lived relationship.

  Vadeem reached for the vodka and held it to his lips. The liquid spilled out in his trembling grip, burning his tongue.

  “Don’t, Vadeem.”

  Vadeem dropped the shot glass onto the counter, like a man who’d been sucker punched. Pyotr slid onto the stool beside him. The man wasn’t smiling. “Thought I might find you here.”

  Vadeem struggled for breath, his chest knotted. “What are you doing in town?”

  “I accompanied the Watsons to Moscow. They needed some encouragement.”

  “How’d you find me?”

  “I called your office. They gave me some ideas.” Pyotr obviously had no problem walking into a den of thieves and drunks after a lost man. Vadeem licked his lips, scraping up composure.

  “So, you’re just going to let her go?”

  Vadeem hung his head, running the shot glass around in the puddle he’d created on the bar. “It’s the best thing. For her. For me.”

  “Well, faith is contagious, and you’d hate to let her get too close. It just might rub off.”

  Vadeem closed his eyes. “Not now, Pyotr. Faith isn’t going to help me figure out what an old monk and Kat’s ancestor have in common. Nor will it help me figure out how an art smuggler from Abkhazia is going to fence a four million dollar religious icon.”

  “A religious icon? How about sell it back to the Russian church?” Pyotr raised a finger to the bartender. “Mineral water.”

  “Oh, we’ll get it back. That’s the problem. We spend a mint trying to track down these artifacts instead of feeding our people. The smuggler finds the goods, takes it out, and holds it ransom. And Russia pays. Why? Because the country is fragmenting before our eyes, and holding onto our past is our only way to save the future. Unfortunately, said funds are used to purchase AK-47’s and even missile launchers. . .even tanks. Pieces of the Russian arsenal, legal and not. Our problem is, we can’t find the link. Who’s the middleman? Who’s marrying our antiquities smuggler to the weapons dealers? More than once the shipment has gone out the same day as the ransom is paid. Someone knows the pay schedules and our inventory.”

  Pyotr popped open the cap on his bottled water and held it in one wide hand. �
��Sounds like an inside job. Someone’s a traitor.”

  The word brought bile up into Vadeem’s throat. “Yeah.”

  “A ‘Wrecker’, I guess you’d say.”

  Vadeem glared at him. “You don’t know how to back off, do you?”

  Pyotr twisted the bottle in his hand, watching it sweat. “You know, some of the members of our own church body were sent to gulag as ‘Wreckers’. Just because you’re labeled as something, doesn’t make it true.”

  “How about a believer? Can a person be called a Christian and not be one?”

  “Of course. It’s a heart issue. Only God knows a person’s heart. Only He can see if they’ve been saved from sin.”

  “And if they haven’t?”

  “Well, if someone is a Christian, they have. And if not, they haven’t.”

  “But what if,” Vadeem looked away, running his finger along the edge of his shot glass, “someone once called themselves a Christian, and. . .doesn’t now.”

  Pyotr began to pick at the label. “You know, the important thing isn’t whether or not you made a confession of faith one day long ago during a foxhole moment, but rather if Jesus is your Lord today. Do you love God, this moment, this day? Instead of wracking your brain over what you said or did yesterday, you should take a look at your heart right now.”

  “What about a person who. . .” the words burrowed in Vadeem’s chest, unable to surface.

  “Is so angry at God he can’t see past his pain to trust, or love God?”

  Vadeem looked at him, but didn’t nod. Pyotr continued to pick at the label, tearing it off in tiny sheets. “You ever heard the story of Job, Vadeem?”

  Vadeem nodded, slowly.

  “Job’s error wasn’t that he was angry at God. Job’s error was that he wanted to hold God accountable. Job wanted answers from God. God never said he’d give us answers for our troubles. He only said he’d be our light in the darkness. That He would give us the strength to hold on and help endure, even set us free from the pain.” He turned to Vadeem. “I have a feeling, Vadeem, you’re like the blind man. . .stumbling around in darkness. Whether or not you were a Christian before, you need Jesus’ healing now. I don’t know what kind of horror you’ve seen, but I do know that only God can save you. Like the story of Lazarus. . .”

  He reached out and gripped Vadeem’s shoulder, staring at him with shepherd’s eyes. “. . .Jesus weeps for your pain. And he can raise you from the dead.”

  Vadeem closed his eyes, hearing his father’s voice echo from the past. Hold onto your faith, Son. Only then will you see the Glory of God. Perhaps. . .

  “Isn’t it time to take off your grave clothes and be set free?” Pyotr reached over, took the shot glass, and slid it down the bar.

  Vadeem watched it go, wishing he could send his despair sailing with it.

  “I don’t know, Pyotr. I always thought it would be easier to have faith in God, that he would reach out of heaven and send me a sign that He was there, that He cared. Help me believe in Him or something.”

  Pyotr smiled, a slow creep up his face into delight, his eyes twinkling as if with a secret. “Well, He sent you Kat, now, didn’t He?”

  Chapter 17

  Kat carried a cold bottle of Diet Coke, the sum of her breakfast, and padded the down the carpeted hall of the US Embassy, looking for John Watson and his wife. Cityscapes of Los Angeles, New York, Chicago, and Washington D.C. hung in metal black frames on the wall, reminding her of exactly what she’d left behind. She could barely hear the tangle of street traffic outside, and the sweet redolence of a fresh bouquet of lilacs filled the hall.

  She felt light years from the rustic accommodations of the Hotel Rossia, or even the Yfa Intourist. She should have slept well in the lush comfort of the Moscow Hilton, paid for by Senator Watson and his family, but she couldn’t expunge Vadeem Spasonov’s handsome, betraying face from her mind to embrace blissful unconsciousness. She’d seen his wretched expression when she’d slammed the door, and an aggravating mix of regret and iron determination finally drove her from her bed to pace the night away in a swath of frustration across her carpeted floor.

  Perhaps putting him a thousand or two miles behind her was for the best, even if she didn’t have the slightest intention of leaving Russia. She’d arrived at that decision somewhere around five A.M., and she wasn’t above hiding in the bathroom from whatever thug Vadeem planned to send to drag her onto the plane. They’d just have to throw her in the slammer.

  Her own thoughts whisked the breath right out of her chest. What was she thinking, going up against the FSB? Exhaustion had obviously lulled her into thinking she was some sort of James-Bondish super agent, racing through Russia to save the world. Well, at least her world.

  She couldn’t leave, not yet. Not when there were still answers lurking out there. Answers that felt so near she thought she might be able to reach out and touch them. She may have lost the key, her Bible, and her picture, but she still had God on her side.

  That, she was sure of. Long after she’d crumpled with frustration in her room, crying, and even sending her boot into the wall with an unsatisfactory thump, she’d turned to the Bible. Thankfully, the Hilton had some faithful Gideons who had thought ahead and stuck a Russian/English New Testament/Psalms translation in the nightstand. It opened right to Psalm 100, like a beacon in a dark night. “For the Lord is good and His love endures forever. His faithfulness continues through all generations.”

  God was faithful. She believed it in her heart even before the Almighty chose to save her, scrape after scrape, in Russia. And if they booted her out of the Motherland and barred the doors, God would still be faithful. But the yearning to dig into her past and find her family now burned like a bonfire inside her and she had to believe that God wanted her here. The peace overwhelmed her, nearly made her giddy in her wee-hour exhaustion.

  She wasn’t going home. Not unless they gagged her and threw her in the luggage department.

  Not that she would put it past Vadeem, the FSB pit bull. She’d have to get out of here soon to dodge him, or his just-as-sinister cohorts.

  Kat opened the waiting room door, and stopped short at the delightful sight of Sveta Watson playing with her new son. Gleb had turned into a full-fledged American, complete with jean overalls, a rugby shirt, and adorable little hiking boots. His eyes were wide, but a grin had broken out on his face as his mother played patty-cake with him. Kat had seen many a new mother turn into a pile of nerves and doubt, but Sveta took to it like a mama bear to her cub, knowing exactly how to coax a smile out of the frightened toddler. Delight radiated on the woman’s face as she made baby sounds, bonding with her son despite their language barrier, proving to him that finally, he had a family. Someone to belong to.

  This is why Kat had come to Russia. To find her family. To belong. The clarity of it rushed through her, making her gasp.

  She could nearly hear great-grandmother’s voice. “You’ve always been different. I blame it on your grandmother. Edward should have known better than to get involved with such a woman. Risked her life the entire pregnancy, and I have no doubt that thrill of adventure leaked right into her womb and infected her offspring. Look at your mother. And now you.”

  Kat had frozen, completely undone by Grape-Grandmother’s mysterious, telling, words. Her burning desire to find her ancestors, starting with unraveling the covert story of her courageous Russian grandmother, ignited right then. She wondered what other secrets ran ripe in the Neumann home. Instead of pointing out the obvious, however, Kat buried that truth deep inside the recesses of her heart, preferring not to dismantle the only family she’d ever known. She would find the mysterious Magda link, find her blood relatives, and the truth would never shatter the Neumann family.

  She swiped a betraying tear and approached the Watsons. “I see Gleb is doing okay. How are you?”

  Sveta didn’t need to answer. She radiated joy. John stood as Kat sat down on the plaid sofa opposite them. “Thank you so much fo
r your help, Kat. I’m so sorry for what happened to you in Yfa. Did the FSB find the guy who attacked you?”

  John looked so worried, it made Kat hang her head. She hadn’t stopped thanking the Lord for saving her, but suddenly she added gratefulness that, through the tangle of events, the Watson’s still managed to bring Gleb successfully into their family. She swallowed the lump forming in her throat and answered his question. “No, not yet.”

  “Are you leaving today?” Sveta picked up Gleb, and bounced him on her knee. A baby’s giggle filled the room and brought a smile to everyone’s lips.

  “No, I have some more work to do in Russia. I’ll be staying a few more days.” The truth was, she was flirting with the sudden desire to put down roots, perhaps in Blagoveshensk, where she could help them run their adoption program, maybe get to know Pyotr’s mother. She had a gut feeling that unearthing her past, especially without her picture or Anton’s journal, might take longer than her visa allowed.

  “Are you sure that’s safe?” Sveta had the “mother” look as she glanced at Kat. “You look. . .”

  “Pretty rough, I know.” Kat didn’t have to look in a mirror to see she looked like she’d wrestled a badger and lost. A yellow bruise scraped down her face. Scratches webbed her neck. Thankfully, her lip had shrunk to its normal size. She’d indulged in some make-up at the Hilton gift shop and, besides the stiff muscles and fatigue, felt like she had pulled herself together. “I’ll survive.”

  “Look us up when you get Stateside,” John said as he sat down next to his wife and joined in playing with their new son. His attention was already lost to Kat. She smiled, delighted that she’d seen the birth of this new family.

  “God bless you,” she said quietly as she stood and slipped from the room.

 

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