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by John Norman


  I long to cry out, to moan, to gasp, to scream, to weep my submission to my master!

  Who is this Rask of Harfax?

  Some of the keepers know this Rask of Harfax. Perhaps they have worked with him. They assure me that he will make me “crawl well.” His discipline is apparently strict, and uncompromising. I hope I will not be punished frequently. I will surely try to please him, with the all of me, with my body, my hands, my fingers, my lips, my tongue, my hair—and with my mind, my imagination, my emotions, and my heart, and my soul, all of me! After all, I am his. He owns me.

  As a female slave, I would be less than his dog.

  I will try to serve him well.

  Surely he does not know me personally, and will have no reason to “pay me back” for anything, no reason to exact any revenge upon me, now that I am a vulnerable, helpless, defenseless slave.

  I will be a stranger to him, and he will know nothing of me other than my appearance. Presumably he will have passed on that, somewhere, personally or from photographs, perhaps from video film. He may not even remember approving my acquisition, perhaps by no more than putting a check by my name on a collection order.

  How fearful it would be, if he had known me! How much I would have to pay for! If a great deal were known about me, the things I did and said, and tried to do, at the magazine, and elsewhere, I fear that I would be in considerable jeopardy, and would be due for, as well as would richly deserve, much punishment. Hopefully he will know nothing of such things. Hopefully he will seldom beat me. Perhaps I must be beaten at times, if only to remind me that I am a slave, but I hope, on the whole, as I shall serve him to the best of my ability, doing all I can to please him, that he will be an understanding and tolerant master, and will not hurt me.

  I do not want to be hurt.

  I want to be owned, and to love. I want to love him with the helpless, vulnerable, glorious wonders of a slave’s love.

  I long to meet my master, my beloved master, he who owns me, wholly, he whose I am. It is my hope he will soon come for me, or that I will be hooded, and taken to him. I long for his chains. I want to kiss his whip. I would beg to do so. I want him to use it on me, if he wishes. I am totally his. I want him to strip me, to lock my hands behind my back in slave bracelets. I want to kneel before him, and serve him.

  I see that a tear has fallen on the page. I hope that I will not be punished for that. I do not think I shall be. If I am, I must accept the punishment unquestioningly, making no objection, for I am a female slave.

  That is appropriate for a female slave. To go fearfully, weepingly, tremblingly, unquestioningly, to the cuffs. Does that shock you?

  Let me shock you further.

  Linda embraces her bondage. Looking upon her branded thigh she rejoices. She treasures her brand. She loves her collar. She now respects men, and knows them as the master sex. She desires that they be so, for without that she cannot fulfill her womanhood. She takes pleasure in submission, in kneeling and serving.

  She has been made a slave. It is right for her. Her bondage is precious to her. She wants it. She loves it!

  How you, of Earth, must scorn her for that!

  But what can you know of these things, you, a man, and one of Earth?

  Ah, yes, you are a man of Earth!

  You have been informed as to what a woman must be, as I was, as well. Who decided that, I wonder, and with what purpose in mind.

  How disappointed then you must be in me. What has become of that proud, privileged, independent, free female, I do not say “woman,” you were supposed to esteem, respect, and, too, hurriedly advance? She has surely fallen far short of the political criteria of your culture.

  No longer does she conform to external criteria, imposed from without, but rather, now, to the internal songs of her awakened heart.

  You are a man of Earth!

  So despise me, hold me in contempt, scorn me as you might “the dust beneath your feet”! All these things, if you wish. I do not object. And it would not matter if I did. Too, I accept it. It is fitting. I am a slave.

  I am content now to be what I am. And I love being what I am. It is what I want, for the first time in my life not what someone else wants, that I may be enlisted as an ally to further unnatural and hateful ends.

  Let no one else tell me what I am to be. Let me be what I want to be.

  I am content.

  I wonder if you would know me now, Master. Physically perhaps, but inwardly, psychologically?

  She whom you knew as an unpleasant, outspoken, ill-tempered, officious, beautiful, slyly conniving colleague is now quite different, very different; you cannot expect a woman to be the same in bondage, as out of it; she is now only a slave, his, her master’s, and humbly begs to serve him. As you can see now, Master, the Linda you knew is indeed now “worthless,” not only from an impatient, chiding keeper’s point of view, given her impoverishments, her ignorances and naiveties as a slave, that she has not yet fully satisfied them, but, surely, too, from an Earth point of view, from the currently required political point of view, so denaturalized and superficial, and doubtless, man of Earth, from your point of view. Surely you can no longer respect me, for what I have become, if you ever did. So rejoice, the nasty, troublesome Linda you knew is now worthy of no more than your contempt. Despise her. Despise her, for she is now only a worthless, meaningless, embonded slut. Yet, Master, she is happier now than ever she was on Earth.

  Desiring to serve her master,

  Linda

  Twenty-Second Letter,

  En’Kara, Twenty-Eighth Day

  Master:

  I shall miss writing to you.

  I have been informed that this is the last letter I am to write to you.

  I am informed that my master, Rask of Harfax, is soon returning from Earth. In several days, he should be here, in Besnit. Then I am to be hooded, and taken before his curule chair, and knelt there. It seems he is an important personage. Naturally I am diffident, nay, even fearful, to belong to someone so important.

  How unworthy I am to be the slave of such a man!

  Then I am to be unhooded, and look for the first time upon the face of my master, he who owns me, who can treat me as he wishes, who can do with me as he pleases.

  I am afraid, but eager.

  Who is Rask of Harfax?

  I wonder if you have ever received any of these letters.

  If you have received them, or any of them, and read them, I am grateful. Thank you, Master.

  I do not know if I told you this, and I hope the observation does not insult you, or trouble you, but you seem much as these Gorean men, Master. They remind me of you. You remind me of them. I think that you are strong enough, demanding enough, possessive enough, jealous enough, aggressive enough, ambitious enough, all the forbidden, outlawed virtues of manhood on Earth, to be Gorean. How rare for a man of Earth! So few of the males of Earth are men. Thus, so few of the females of Earth are women. I wonder if Nature designed the sexes to supplement one another, to achieve a wholeness of species, rather than to conflict with, and contradict, one another. How grotesque is the prescribed masculinization of women, the prescribed feminization of men, the spiritual spaying and neutering. Of what value is that to a gene pool, or species? How can it prove of benefit to any but the haters, and the failed and frustrated?

  Forgive me for these thoughts.

  I am lonely. I await my master. I am his to claim, his to serve. Yesterday they again brought me helplessly to the verge, and would not permit me the fulfillment, of the yielded slave girl. I am told that that moment, that conclusive, crucial, decisive victory over me, which would convince me of my bondage as nothing else, though I am piteously desperate to yield it, now to anyone, belongs to my master. He will apparently have it so. Thus it will be so. I long to lie in his arms, branded, in his collar, his by custom, by nature, by law, by might.


  Farewell, Master.

  I am she whom you once knew as Linda, now a Gorean slave girl.

  Do not think badly of me.

  I am happy.

  I wish you well,

  Linda

  The Old Man and the Sprinkling Can

  The old man was not sure what to do about the sprinkling can. He was a painter. Perhaps you have seen samples of his work.

  The can was in the studio, against the wall, below one of the horizontal bars, of the sort utilized by the dancers in their exercises.

  A large mirror was on the other side of the room.

  It is not really clear what the sprinkling can was doing there, but one supposes that there were plants about the studio, and it doubtless had its humble horticultural role.

  He was very fond of the dancers, and often painted them. To be sure, who would not be fond of the dancers, such lively, exquisite, graceful young women.

  Sometimes I think it is only an old man who truly understands how beautiful women are. One sees them when young, of course, naively, almost innocently, through the frames and flames of delight and desire. How blessed and precious is that vision! How unpredictable, and different, and marvelous they are! Now when one is old, or even middle-aged, one understands the wings of summer and the finite tracks of the morning, and the unrelenting parabolas and meridians of time, the ineluctable trajectory of seasons, the imminence of cold winds, readying themselves in their factories and burrows beneath the horizon, understands the messages of falling leaves, of the shortening of days, the coming of winter, of the ineluctable desolation.

  Understanding these things the older man, or perhaps even the middle-aged man, sees young women in a very special way. He is no less aware, of course, of their beauty and desirability than the newest creatures, rising even now to the crest of the turning wheel, young creatures vigorous and curious, startled and enraptured, hearing for the first time the pipes of Pan. But he sees their beauty not only with the eyes of youth, but, too, beyond that, with the wondering poignancy of an aware, condemned creature, one frailly and briefly, for so short a time, ensouled.

  Surely wisdom is a treacherous, venomous gift, one arriving in its own time, not always welcome, and surely uninvited, but, too, it is one not without its pleasures.

  It is through the eyes of wisdom that one sees time, and bodies, and souls, like falling leaves.

  And thus the old man, or I suppose even the middle-aged man, sees women in a special way, sees them not simply in their flowering but also in their journey, in their passage, sees them even now against the onset of winter, and, thus, in this way, he not only sees them, but knows them, cares for them, and loves them.

  In this way he can understand them, in a way the young man doesn’t, and, in my view, shouldn’t.

  The dancers painted by the old man are still with us. Don’t we wish we knew them as he did, as they fussed with their costumes and shoes? They are still there, alive in their way, thanks to his work, and love, alive and busy, oblivious to us, as we look on, in the paint and canvas. I suppose they are not immortal, even there, no more than mountains or pyramids, but we still have them with us, thanks to him, at least for now. We would have liked to see them perform.

  So what has this to do with the sprinkling can?

  A great deal, actually.

  You see, the old man had painted this picture, of these young dancers, at their work, and exercises, just one of many pictures, and they, as usual, not even noticing him really, or not muchly so. And he had the sprinkling can in the picture.

  That is where the problem comes up.

  Should that sprinkling can be in the picture or not? What is the point of a sprinkling can in a picture of dancers? Surely it does not belong there. So he paints it out. But now he is troubled. This is supposed to be a realistic picture, as honest to sprinkling cans as dancers, and art should be truthful, and the can, after all, was there. And so he paints the can back in. There it is again now, right there, in the picture. But who is master, the painter, or the sprinkling can? Is he to be a naive naturalist, a mindless realist, at the mercy of accidents, of posters, cracks in walls, of furniture, wherever it might be located, and sprinkling cans? Certainly not. An artist is not one of those new-fangled, obnoxious machines that can’t even hold a brush, a mere device, a mechanism, that routinely, dispassionately, docilely reproduces an image of whatever it happens to find in front of it. So the can is painted out. Good riddance! Or pretty good riddance! The artist is master. And does not a true artist inevitably, as the saying is, dip his brush in his own heart’s blood? And in what richer color could he paint? Is he a spineless employee of reality, one of its minor clerks, or is he to be its reshaper, a demiurge molding worlds to his own pleasure? Certainly. So the sprinkling can does not have to be there! He agrees with that. It does not have to be there, and he has painted it out. But now he must ask himself a serious question, one quite compatible with his own emboldened, volitional sovereignty. To be sure, the decision is his. The question, of course, is now: Should the sprinkling can be there?

  In the end it is there, because he wants it there, because it is right that it should be there. In its way, it had an aesthetic obligation to be there. It has an artistic duty to discharge, and will discharge it.

  He paints the sprinkling can back in.

  Why should he have done that?

  Remember the girls, and the world, and darkness and light, and spring and summer, and fall and winter. Remember the barracuda, the leopard, the smile of a baby, the stain of rain on a brick wall, the sun behind clouds, the snort of a horse, and its pawing, the growl of the lion, voicing its warning, the hawk in flight, high, so beautiful, so terrible, the shadow of a tree on rocks, the rodents of time, so patient; recall night and day, and the absurdity of it all, and the infinite, transient preciousness of it all. And the sprinkling can is a part of this. It is a mundane artifact, perhaps, but does one effect anything critical on that score? Is it not beautiful in its simple, complacent way, humble and unassuming, and is it not very real, as real as moons and stars, and pebbles and molecules, in its metal and shaping, and surely it hints of plants, and flowers, and growing things, and their joy and doom, and it is there, after all, somehow, in the studio. And does it not, as it happens, have something to say, somehow, in its own way, about dancers, and differences, and the ways of the world, about the large and the small, and the important and the unimportant, which is so important, and about life? We think so. Not only the girls are beautiful but small things, as well, the sound of the shoe on the smooth wood, the rain splashed on the window, the piano, not in such good tune, the sharp reprimand of the régisseur.

  And so I think, all in all, the old man was right.

  And the sprinkling can remains in the picture.

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  Copyright © 2009 by John Norman

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