She pounded her fist into my shoulder, “Why, why did, I ha... have to lose our baby, Cole, why?”
Just like that my heart officially shattered.
I rocked her back and forth as I held her against me. The two of us crying out our pain. I struggled to get a hold of myself. I had to make Jennie see that nothing as pure and sweet as she was, could be bad, nor would God punish her for the simple act of wanting love. She had been a child whose parents stayed drunk or high and the only form of love she had ever known came from Mia and Mia’s family. I could easily see how a seventeen-year-old girl would have wanted what Mia and I had.
And no way in hell did I blame her for anything that happened over the past twenty plus years. Sweet Mother of God. How did I never know she was keeping this all buried inside? I felt like such a failure as her Old Man. I was going to have to come back to this one day soon and figure out how I missed something of this magnitude. Because I sure as fuck didn't ever want to fail her again. Not again.
“Jennie, listen to me, love.” I shook her gently. “You listening?”
She nodded.
“Have I ever lied to you?”
She shook her head no.
“Then listen to my words and know they are the truth, the absolute truth, love.”
I took a second to collect my thoughts. I had to make sure that I addressed everything she said. I didn't want her to have any reason for any of these doubts to ever come back.
“God doesn't hate you, Jennie. He doesn't punish his children. We're all allowed free rein to make our own mistakes in life, to make choices, to decide what's right or wrong. But Jennie, we're human, my love, and we're not always gonna get everything right, we're gonna make mistakes. So what if you had a crush on me at seventeen fucking years old. You weren't much more than a child who had already lived through hell. I can understand you wanting love. Just because you had a crush on me does not make you a bad person. Not once did you ever act on it. I never had a clue that you did.”
I nuzzled my nose in her hair and breathed her scent deep inside me.
“However bad your decision was to be with Devil and the fucking hell he put you through for almost three years, you got Reb out of the deal. I'm not gonna lie and say Spawn as well, because I feel like he is as big a bastard as Devil is. Told you I wouldn't lie to you, love.”
I rubbed one hand up and down her back. She was calming down as she listened to me. Thank God.
“And Jennie girl, not gonna say I didn't have some doubts at first about the three of us together. It's not because I didn't find you sexy or that I didn't want you.” I took a deep breath, because what I was about to say I have made sure I've always kept deep inside me. Because, I would rather have been dragged naked over hot coals than to ever hurt Mia.
“I've always found you attractive as fuck, Jennie. And just because I was in love with Mia, doesn't mean I never looked at you for the attractive woman that you are. I'm ashamed to say that the thought crossed my mind once or twice back then what it would be like to fuck you. But Jennie, I wouldn't have ever done anything to hurt Mia, ever. She is my wife and I love her beyond reason. Still doesn't make me perfect though, I'm only human.”
I drew a deep breath and continued, “When she came to me with her idea of me taking you as my Old Lady too, I said no right off the bat. But it wasn't because I didn't want you, Jennie. I think it was because I wanted you too much and I was afraid that I would let that want destroy what I had with Mia. I didn't know at the time that a man can love two women at the same time. I didn't think such a thing was possible.”
I felt Jennie running her hand up and down my arm, softly caressing me, soothing me. As I relaxed, I realized I had tensed up with the admission of all of this to her.
“But she kept at me, begging me, and I kept fighting it. Then I would go to the Clubhouse and see what that bastard was doing to you and it started driving me wild inside. I wanted to jump up and beat the shit out of the sick fuck. To scream at him and tell him to keep his hands off my woman. My fucking woman.
“And when I got to that point, Jennie, I realized there was no turning back for me. I knew somehow, someway, as soon as I could, I was claiming you. Only I wasn't just claiming you because we were both afraid for your life, I was claiming you for me, come hell or high water. I was making you mine. Mine, Jennie. Mine.”
Jennie pulled away from me and looked up at me with her mouth dropped open.
“See love, your Old Man isn't so much of a hero after all, is he?”
She blinked a couple times and a wild flush started across her cheeks.
“You wanted me for more than to just help Mia's friend out?” she asked me in a whisper. “You wanted me for yourself?”
“Yeah, this selfish bastard wanted you for himself.”
“Just me?”
I nodded.
“Just you, Jennie, just you. For me. Mine.”
I paused for a moment to gather my thoughts.
“And then it all seemed to happen at once and the next thing I knew, I had you. And, oh fuck, Jennie, I was so fucking scared I was about to destroy us all. I felt I was the one who was being greedy. Then, when we finally figured out how we were all going to handle the sex issue, I was terrified that I would want you more than I wanted Mia. I still loved her Jennie, but something inside me wanted you so bad I ached with it. I fought with myself internally that day before we had sex. I told myself, I wouldn't put my cock in you, I would just use my mouth to taste you. I convinced myself that was the way to do it.”
I laughed as I remembered our first time.
“But Mia, bless her torturous little heart, had other plans. When she told me to lie down, I was thinking that would work right up my alley, until she straddled her pussy over my face and told me to eat her like there was no tomorrow and I was happy to oblige, but part of me was wondering what you were going to be doing. When she told you to mount me, I almost shot my load right then and there. My cock went so hard so fast, it hurt. And oh my god, Jennie. Feeling you fumble around, your skin touching mine as you straddled my hips, was such a fucking turn on. But when you lowered your sweet pussy and started taking my cock, well I nearly came undone. I could have died a happy man at that moment.”
I shifted around on the floor trying to get more comfortable, I had a raging hard on talking about this to Jennie.
“Then when you started riding me, I saw fucking stars. But then, I slowly started realizing something. I loved both of you being on me, and the more I thought about it, I knew if it was you I was eating out and Mia riding my cock, I would still be feeling the same way. And the knot inside me started loosening a little bit. And as the days turned into weeks, then months, I realized that I didn't want you more than Mia, nor did I want Mia more than you. I sometimes wanted you each differently but not one more than the other.
As I examined my feelings, it was like a weight had been taken off my chest. Because I knew that while I still loved Mia with the same intensity I had always loved her with, I knew that I loved you with just as much intensity, just in a different way.
She fills a hole inside me that wants a strong alpha woman beside me, a helpmate, an equal partner. Someone who can take my shit and dish it right back out at me. But Jennie, I didn't know I had another hole inside me that needed to be filled. Until you. And you came into my life and filled the hole that makes me feel like a man, a protector, a provider. You make me want to slay monsters to protect you. With your touch, you soothe the beast in me. I didn't know it, but I always needed you too.”
She was looking into my face with a look of awe on hers. It fucking made me want to beat my chest and roar at that look. I took another deep breath and carried on, we needed to get this all cleared up before we left the house.
“Jennie, you have given me two beautiful sons who I know you love, I'll deny saying the beautiful part if you tell them that,” I said. She just smiled gently at me. God, she slays me.
“I didn't mean to sound se
lfish earlier,” Jennie said quietly. “I love Colton and Caleb beyond reason, you know that, and I am so thankful to have them. It makes me feel proud that I've had your sons. I loved carrying your children. I loved how you made me feel precious, wanted, and loved while I was pregnant.”
“I know you love them, Jennie. And I hate like hell that we lost our baby, my love. I wish with everything inside me that he or she would have lived. But it wasn't meant to be, nor unfortunately was my baby with Mia. Only God knows why, love. And only he knows why neither of you have never been able to conceive again. I always wanted to have more children with both of you. You're such a fucking awesome mom, Jennie girl. Our sons are so lucky to have you as their mom and Pred, Jace and Jemma are so fucking lucky to have you as their second mom.”
I tenderly pushed the hair that had fallen into her face, behind her ears.
“Know this always, Jennie girl, while you are my friend, I don't love you like a friend. I love you like my woman. And If I could marry you as well, I would do it in a heartbeat. I will love you forever, until my dying day. You have made my life a better one for having been in it. I can't imagine my life without you, nor would I change anything about my life for all the money in the world.”
“I didn't know, Cole, I didn't know. I thought you loved me because I was Mia's friend. You never treated me differently from Mia, but I just thought you only loved me because of Mia. I love you too, Cole. So very much. I have since the beginning. Without you, I would be nothing, but with you, I am so much more,” Jennie whispered to me.
I sat Jennie on the floor, stood up, bent over, picked her up and took her over to the bed. I dropped the towel that I was wearing before I slowly started undressing her. She watched me with a solemn look on her face, but her eyes were now dry and all that was coming out of them was pure love.
I pushed the shirt off her shoulders and unhooked her bra, pushing them both to the floor. I pushed down her pants, my thumbs hooking into her panties as I went. I continued pushing them down until they hit the floor. Her pussy was right in my face and I leaned forward and buried my nose into it. Her hands slid into my hair, lightly holding on to me. I gently pushed her back until the back of her legs hit the mattress and she fell backwards.
I pushed her legs apart, pulled her ass to the edge of the bed, leaned forward and ran my tongue up her sweet outer lips. I did this over and over until they started opening like the petals of a flower for me, and I saw the glistening dew that was drenching her delicate inner lips. I stuck my tongue deeper into her pussy and lapped up the sweet nectar that was flowing out of her. I ran my tongue up her inner lips to massage her hard-little clit. I flicked it back and forth with my tongue and gently sucked it into my mouth.
Jennie's little moans, gasps, and sighs were like music to my ears and they turned me the fuck on so much that my dick throbbed with need. Part of me just wanted to plunge deep inside her and fuck her senseless, but a bigger part of me wanted to fuck her slowly. And this time by god, the bigger part was going to win.
I licked, sucked, kissed and nibbled on Jennie's delectable little pussy. Pushing her higher with each stroke of my tongue. She was writhing and undulating on the mattress. Her sexy moans were louder now, each noise she made seemed to be attached to my cock. I swear they were, because with each sexy sound, he jumped, begging to get closer to her. I ran my tongue inside her sweet pussy as deep as I could go and drank her sweet juices that tasted so fucking divine that I was heady from the taste of her.
“God, Viper, I'm close, so close,” she whimpered.
I ran my tongue back to her clit, flicked it back and forth repeatedly then sucked that tender little nub between my lips, nibbling on it gently with my teeth.
“Please, please, Viper, oh please.”
I bit down firmly on her clit and she screamed. I stood up fast, pushed her further back on the bed and plunged into her hard, fast and deep, and dear god her pussy squeezed my dick so tight it's all I could do not to shoot off inside her right then. But I gritted my teeth and waited until she started coming down from her orgasm.
Her eyes already had the half-masted look of someone who had been thoroughly fucked, she hadn't yet, but she was about to be. I threaded my fingers through hers and stretched our hands above her head, then started thrusting in and out of her with slow sensual strokes of my cock into her tempting little pussy.
I stared deeply into her eyes as I moved in and out of her, my cock hitting her sweet spot with each forward thrust. Our breathing started to speed up and no matter how hard I fought it; my hips started thrusting a little faster. Her pebbled nipples raked back and forth against my chest with each motion and my mouth watered for them. I leaned down and sucked one delicate tip deep into my mouth. I drew firmly on it, until it became a hard-little nub, then I switched to the other one. I took the tip into my mouth and tugged on it, before taking it between my teeth and biting it gently but with a firm pressure.
Jennie's body was coming undone beneath me. Her nipples were so fucking sensitive, I could make her come just sucking on them alone. Her pants were getting louder and my damn dick was responding to each fucking sound she was making. I feel my balls start drawing up. I sucked her nipple hard one last time, then let it go with a small pop. I looked back into her eyes and saw the longing in them.
“Fuck, oh fuck,” she whispered.
Her body started tensing, her pussy clenching down on my cock.
“Oh god, oh god, oh god, feels so good, so good,” she moaned as she writhed against me, dragging her rock-hard little nipples through the hair on my chest.
My thrusts were coming faster, I couldn't slow down even if I wanted to. My balls had drawn up tight, with each stroke they slapped against her pussy. She was fucking soaking wet and so were my balls. It felt fucking incredible. My dick started swelling. Her cunt was locking down on me as I felt her approaching orgasm.
Sweat was running down my spine. My body felt like it was in the winning stretch of a marathon. My whole being felt wildly alive.
Our eyes haven't left each other.
“Don't you close your eyes, Jennie,” I commanded her.
She's gasping now.
“Holy fuck, Viper, holy fuck. This is insane.”
I agreed wholeheartedly. If I lived through this, we were definitely doing this slow shit again.
Then it's like my dick took over, he saw the finish line and he went for broke. The fucker took over my body and I was now slamming my hips into Jennie hard.
Now it's me gasping for air. Each plunge hits her g-spot, and like the good boy he believed himself to be, my cock caused my hips to twitch just slightly and he tickled her delicate tissues inside and she flew apart. Her cries of pleasure filled the room.
The little fucker was so happy to have done his job, he decided he wanted his reward. And my hips pounded even harder into her, my fucking cock swelled so big that I feared it was going to split wide open. With one last thrust, my hips locked tight against her warm little pussy, I threw my head back and let out a roar as my load shot out hot and heavy deep inside her vaginal walls painting the entire area in my milky hot cum.
Holy. Mother. Of. God.
There didn't feel like there was anything left of me. I collapsed on top of Jennie. We're both drawing deep lungs full of air. Jennie was running her hands up and down my back. Fuck, I loved her touch. I knew I was crushing her, but she didn't complain.
My dick was still buried deep inside Jennie's womb. I think he would have happily stayed right where he was until he recuperated enough to go again. Seriously, I think he was trying to kill me. Finally, I pushed up on my arms, shoving my lower body hard against hers. We both let out a gasp. I felt my cock twitch and start hardening.
Jennie's eyes grew wide at what she’s feeling. Years ago, I could go back to back, but now, I usually needed a little more time between bouts. I knew we needed to get up, we had a barbecue to get to and it would be starting soon. I shifted my hips a little and the damn thing
jumped, hitting against Jennie's sweet spot. Her body jerked upward, pushing me deeper inside her.
“Fuuuccckkkk.” I groaned out.
It felt fucking fantastic. I pulled out a little and pushed back in. We both groaned. Jennie's biting her bottom lip. That shit drives me insane. I leaned down and ran my tongue back and forth across her lips. Her mouth parts. I stroked my tongue over her bottom lip, inside her mouth and along her lip line. Then I gently suck her bottom lip into my mouth. As I'm sucking and nibbling on it, my hips start moving back and forth.
I am already so fucking god damned hard again, its unreal. Jennie's hips joined mine in the dance of love. I raked my teeth across her lip and tugged it, slowly let it go. I'm still up on my arms with my lower body's weight on Jennie. I looked down and watched as my cock slid in and out of her bewitching little pussy.
“Fuck, Jennie girl. This feels so fucking good.” I moaned out to her.
A whispered, “Yesssss,” was her reply.
“This isn't gonna take long, love.” I grunted out. “Want you too bad.”
My damn cock was doing fucking gymnastics inside her. Every little touch seemed to be magnified. I was so fucking turned on watching my cock slide in and out of her, that I was mesmerized by the sight.
Jennie started gasping. I felt her body working with mine as we slammed over and over against each other. My balls drew up tight, then tingling started at the base of my spine. Jennie's pussy walls were clenching my cock hard now. Her body started shaking.
“Viper,” she panted. “I need...” her voice fell off.
I felt my arms start shaking. My hips were now pistoning back and forth like a well-oiled engine that was being tapped out. My cock was hitting Jennie's sweet spot before it bottomed out at her cervix. I raised my head and looked at Jennie. Her eyes were closed, her head thrown back, her beautiful lips were open, and she was panting hard. Just as I felt my cum start to flow, she let out a high keening wail as her orgasm hit her and I threw back my head and joined her with a loud, long groan.
Jesus. Fucking. Christ.
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