Jasmine bounced up and down in her chair. “Ooh, ooh, we can have a duress code, in case he’s got you tied up in a tutu.” Jasmine has a thing about 24 and CSI and anything else related to cops and action. Her dream is to be in a police show.
Nat looked at both of us. “I don’t have a choice about this, do I?”
I shook my head. “This is easily the most interesting thing that’s happened to you in about a year, and the thought of you possibly hooking up with some uber-bachelor…? No. You don’t have a choice.”
“Who says I even like him?” asked Nat.
Jasmine smirked. “We saw your face when you looked at his photo. Don’t ever play poker.”
I suddenly remembered finding Nat on the couch and grinned. “Is this who you were—”
Nat kicked me under the table, blushing, which was as good as a “Yes.”
Jasmine leaned forward. “What? What did she do?”
I glanced meaningfully at Jasmine, as if threatening to tell her. “Answer!” I told Nat.
Nat sighed and nodded her acceptance. I squealed with delight—and I don’t often squeal. “You have to call him, right now. Before he finds some other dancer.”
“I can’t,” said Nat. “I don’t have his number.”
“He’s famous. We can find it.”
“Facebook him,” Jasmine suggested. But when Nat tried to, she found he’d got there first.
***
Nat had a long conversation with the mysterious Darrell on Facebook while Jasmine and I looked over her shoulder, offered advice and generally bounced up and down with excitement. By the end of it, we’d determined that he was going to pay her $500 an hour to dance for him, not nude (I insisted she check, much to her embarrassment) at his house. I’d drive her there that afternoon and stay with her while she danced, just in case he was a psycho after all.
Part of me was aware that I was living vicariously through Nat—but hell, if you can’t get bouncily excited about your best friend getting involved with a gorgeous multi-millionaire, what can you get bouncily excited about?
Was it some genuine thing where Darrell was willing to pay a dancer to “inspire” him? I couldn’t see it—what’s ballet got to do with engineering? Now if he was an artist and wanted to paint her…I briefly drifted off into a fantasy about a long-haired, muscled French painter painting me nude. Mmm….
More likely, this was some way of seducing her…but there are worse things in life than being pursued by a handsome millionaire. There was always the possibility that he’d turn out to be a slimeball who only wanted to get her into bed, and would break her heart. I’d have to make sure to give him the Best Friend Warning Glare when I saw him. And even if he turned out to be a nice guy, this whole thing wasn’t going to be easy. It had been a long time since Nat had dated—she was probably nervous as hell. Either she’d get scared and break it off almost immediately or—just as dangerously—she’d jump in with both feet. I’d have to keep a close eye on things.
Was I jealous? No, of course not. Nat needed a man much more than I did—I was glad it was happening to her. But maybe there was a part of me—just a tiny part—that wished that something that real would happen to me.
***
Just a few hours later, I was sitting in Darrell’s kitchen.
In the flesh, he’d been even hotter than his photo and seemed normal enough. I’d given him the Best Friend Glare and he’d seemed to take it well, understanding that I was more than ready to knee him in the balls if he misbehaved and managing to both take it seriously and not get defensive. I was pretty sure he wasn’t hiding a secret torture chamber—a secret kinky dungeon, maybe—and so I let Nat go downstairs to dance for him while I sat in his kitchen.
He’d known that Nat would bring someone with her—he’d laid on coffee and pastries for me, and even a selection of newspapers and magazines. If this goes on, I thought, opening Vogue, I could get used to being her chaperone. Although, judging by the longing looks she and Darrell had given each other as soon as we’d arrived, I had a feeling that she wouldn’t want me along after the first time.
And then a Hell’s Angel broke into the house.
I mean, he looked like a Hell’s Angel, so I assumed he broke into the house. He was all in black—black jeans, black t-shirt, big black biker boots. It made his deep tan and long blond hair stand out even more. And he had this tattoo winding around one arm, all the way from his wrist up to the sleeve of his t-shirt. He was a fashion disaster and pretty much the opposite of everything I go for. I mean, yes, he had big muscles that strained against that tight denim and tighter t-shirt and yes, his blue eyes, in amongst all that tan and sandy-blond hair, had a kind of intense, almost Scandinavian thing going on. But a biker? Eww.
Then he opened his mouth and he sounded like he smoked sixty Marlboros a day, and so lazily drawly it was almost infuriating. I should have been searching for a magic remote control to fast forward him, but instead I found myself sort of bathing in his voice, the way you do with really warm sunlight. It didn’t seem to come through my ears, but through my body—it vibrated against me and soaked in.
His opening line was, “What’s a girl like you doin’ in a nice place like this?”
My jaw hit the floor.
The biker picked up a mug and then sniffed the nozzle of each of the catering pots of coffee in turn, like an animal. When he found his favorite, he poured himself a mugful and started drinking it, black. His eyes never left me and, the whole time, my rage was building higher and higher. It was like he was waiting for me to explode. I wasn’t sure why I hadn’t.
“Does he even know you’re here?” he asked. “I’m kinda surprised he even gave you a key. He didn’t say anythin’ about givin’ someone a key.”
“Darrell is downstairs,” I finally said, my voice ice cold. “With my friend.”
He frowned. “What are you doin’—takin’ turns?”
I stood up and my chair clattered to the floor behind me. “Who exactly do you think I am? And who the hell are you?”
He stepped closer, which made the metal on his boots jangle. Damn, he was tall. My face was about level with his chest. “I’m Neil, Darrell’s buddy. And you’re another goddamn rich society girl tryin’ to land yourself a millionaire.”
I blinked. “What?!”
“Don’t give me ‘what?!’. I know how it works. You meet him at some bleedin’ heart fundraiser and you’re all like, ‘Oh! We must save the starvin’ children!’ And then when you get his number you shimmy on in here a few times and get him in the sack, and then you’re ‘Whoops, I forgot to take the pill—let’s pick the weddin’ stationary ‘fore I get too big.’ And then you dump him and take your fifty percent.”
I stood there staring for a full ten seconds. “I’m not a…a…society girl, whatever the hell you mean by that!”
“Riiight. I bet you got one of those names that ends in a vowel. What’s your name?”
Damn! “Clarissa. But—”
“And what’s your friend’s name?”
“Natasha, but—”
“And is that your BMW parked outside, Clarissa?”
“Yes, but—”
He folded his arms as if that proved his point. The smug look of victory on his face sent me over the edge.
“Listen, you! I am not some…golddigger! I’m not here to seduce your friend—neither of us are! We’re ballet dancers. Natasha’s here to dance for him, to give him inspiration, and I’m waiting for her!”
The biker—Neil, apparently—frowned. “You’re a ballet dancer?”
I gave him a withering glare. “We don’t wear leotards and pointe shoes all the time!”
He gave me a long look, as if appraising me anew. I could feel heat rising inside me as his eyes swept down my body, the anger tightening my chest.
At least…I was pretty sure it was anger. I hadn’t felt anything like it before—certainly not with Roger. Not with any man I’d known.
“Can you—”
he started.
“If you say ‘put your ankles behind your ears,’ I’ll kick you in the balls,” I told him.
He grinned. “I was goin’ to say, ‘Can you pass me a croissant?’” His eyes were skimming down over my body again…no, not skimming. It was far too close and intimate a touch for it to be skimming. He was damn well stroking those big, oil-stained paws right over me in his mind! “But now you mention it,” he asked, “…can you?”
I picked a croissant from the basket of pastries and offered it to him at arm’s length, as if feeding a dangerous animal. “You’ll never find out.”
He plucked the croissant from my hand and the tips of our fingers brushed together. He was unnaturally warm. Not warm and sweaty, but warm in a good way, like a hot engine. Like he was raging with energy inside. He felt…
He felt real. Solid, in a way that nothing else in my life did.
I tore my eyes off him, picked up my chair and sat down. A second later, he did the same.
“You’re waiting too?” I kept my eyes on Vogue.
He shifted his weight in his chair. “Don’t want to disturb Darrell while he’s being ‘inspired.’”
I looked up. “What do you mean by that?”
Neil was smirking. “Ain’t that what your friend’s doin’?” he said innocently. “Inspirin’ him?”
“You didn’t say it like that. You said ‘inspired’, like it was something else!”
“You don’t think it is?”
“No! It’s perfectly innocent! She’s just dancing for him!”
“Uh-huh.” He settled back on his chair, his hands behind his head.
“What?!”
“Okay, it’s all innocent. She’s innocently dancin’ for a millionaire in his basement. And he’s payin’ her, right?”
I was flustered, now. “Yes….”
“A lot, right?”
Five hundred dollars an hour, they’d agreed on the phone. “Yes….”
“But it’s not like he has a thing for her, or anything, right? I mean, he probably just looked up ‘ballet dancer’ online. He didn’t even know what she looked like, right?”
“They’ve met,” I said tightly. “They met and then he hired her, but that doesn’t mean—”
“Uh-huh,” he nodded and smirked until I wanted to scream. I wanted to scream mainly because, when he described it, the idea that this was just an innocent job seemed ludicrous. I’d kind of known that, but I didn’t like having it pointed out to me. “You’re wrong,” I said. “He’s a designer. He needs inspiration. All of the great artists had muses.”
Neil leaned forward. “Do you even know what it is Darrell makes?”
“Nope, and I don’t care. I’m just going to sit here and read and wait for my friend.”
I focused on my Vogue, feeling his eyes on me. After a long moment, I heard him sit back.
“Fine,” he said. I watched him out of the corner of my eye and saw him focus on something on the table. The folded New York Times. It was closer to me than it was to him.
I’m not sure what was going through my head. Maybe I wanted to piss him off. Maybe I didn’t want us to lapse into silent reading. But just as he started to say, “Can you pass—” I picked up the newspaper and unfolded it. He gave a tiny grunt of frustration.
“Oh!” I managed to look surprised. “I’m sorry—were you wanting this? I was just about to start reading it.” I pushed the magazine across the table. “But you can have Vogue, if you want.”
His eyes burned into me like lasers. I could almost feel myself heating up and luxuriated in his anger. That’ll teach him to presume things about Nat and me. I looked up at him and smiled sweetly. Look at him, with his muscles and his attitude and all that long hair. Probably got stoned once too often behind the gym and dropped out of high school. I found myself wondering what sort of girl he was with. What did they call those biker wives? Old Ladies. Probably some tattooed bimbo.
Wait, what do I care what his girlfriend’s like?
We sank into silence and I felt…disappointed, bizarrely. I didn’t understand it, but I had this hot, nervous flutter in my chest, as if we’d started something and I didn’t want to let it die.
I started to read bits from the New York Times to him. I wasn’t sure why. I told myself it was because I felt bad about stealing the paper.
I sighed theatrically. “Can you believe this? The senator said, ‘We need more tax breaks for the have-nots, not the have-plenties.”
No response. No, that’s not true. There was a response, but it was a cold, stony silence. I’d never heard someone be silent before, but Neil did it very well. It wasn’t the mere absence of noise; it was like all the sound in the room got sucked into it. “What?” I asked.
“You think it’s fair that ten percent of people own ninety percent of the wealth?” he said, his voice low and smoky.
Oh great. Not only a biker, but a hippy, as well. My dad is the president of one of the largest banks in Boston and, yes, I had a privileged upbringing. That may have colored my thinking on income and taxes and so on just a little bit, I admit. But I was still pretty sure I was right. “I think the people who already pay the most taxes deserve some credit, instead of having all their hard-earned cash stripped from them by—”
He stood up—actually quite an intimidating move, given his size. “By who? By the poor? What were you going to call them? ‘Parasites’?”
My mouth opened and closed a few times. I’d actually been going to say locusts. “No! I was going to say, ‘a load of bleeding heart liberals,’” I lied. It was weird: I was red-hot angry with him and yet, at the same time, I cared what he thought of me. I’d read to him to bait him. What was going on?
He stared down at me and I stared up at him. Something about his height and his muscles and that voice and all that anger was doing strange things to me. I wanted to stand up. And I wanted to kneel down.
I caught myself. Kneel down?!
I pushed the Vogue towards him. “Read that, if you don’t like my interpretation of the Times.”
He gave a sardonic little chuckle. “I’m not into fashion.”
I ran my eyes over his all-black biker outfit. “Evidently.”
He lifted his chin as if to say, Game on. “Girl…you got a lot of nerve standin’ there criticizin’ my clothes when that skirt you’re wearin’ meant some woman in a sweatshop in China—”
I did stand up, then. No one says that about my clothes. “This is Prada! It’s from Milan!”
“Some woman in a sweatshop in France has made a buck eighty-six for a day’s work and a cow has died just so you can waggle your ass at the guys.”
“Milan is in Italy and I don’t waggle my ass and your boots are made of leather you—”
“My boots have been with me for ten years and they’ll last another five. That’s a good use of a cow. That cow died for a reason. Your skirt’ll be in the trash next season ‘cos it ain’t en vogue.”
“Excuse me for wanting to look good.”
“Only place that skirt looks good is on the floor of some rich dude’s apartment—”
“What is going on here?” said Nat’s voice. “Who is this?”
I looked up and saw Nat and Darrell standing in the hallway, staring at us. I hadn’t even heard them come upstairs. Immediately, I wondered what had happened down there, Neil’s words echoing in my ears. Was it really all just innocent? Then I relaxed. Natasha was sensible. Even if Darrell was pursuing her and had made some sort of pass at her, she wouldn’t have let anything happen on a first “date.”
Wait. Was Natasha’s lipstick smudged?
Darrell looked suddenly very tired. “Natasha, Clarissa: this is Neil. My oldest friend.”
“We’ve met,” I said darkly and folded my arms.
Natasha looked between Neil and Darrell, trying to catch up. “He’s…You’re his…”
“We were at MIT together,” Darrell said.
What?! This reprobate was at MIT?
“Dress like a biker?” I asked sweetly.
“I am a biker,” said Neil. “You got a problem with that, too?”
“What started all this?” asked Darrell, and I got the impression that this happened with Neil a lot.
Neil pointed at me. “I walk in and she’s readin’ the Times, man, and she’s all, like, let’s just execute anyone who doesn’t drive a BMW.”
My jaw dropped for the second time. “I said a tax cut here and there for the people who keep the economy going—”
Neil took a step towards me, “Yeah, you just keep gouging it out of the bottom ninety percent with your silver spoon—”
“Enough!” said Darrell. “Neil, please don’t argue with my guests. Clarissa…”
I turned to glare at him. I’d had enough of millionaires and their weird friends. “What?”
He blanched a little. “…nothing.”
“Oh, so it’s all on me?” Neil glared at me again. “She can just sit up here and eat all the pastries—”
“I had one! And they were for me!” I took a step towards Neil and again I could feel the heat radiating off him. The anger was hot and bright in my mind, swirling red and dangerous, pushing out everything else—even common sense. I wanted to slap him, and yet I wanted to—
No. No, I didn’t. Of course I didn’t want to do that.
“They were for guests who were waiting. I’m a guest who was waiting!” Neil’s eyes didn’t leave mine, and if anything the heat coming off him increased. The tension rose by the second, my heart hammering in my chest.
“OK, OK, enough!” Darrell took a deep breath. “Neil, I’m sorry. I forgot you were coming over. Clarissa, I’m sorry I didn’t get a chance to introduce you. Next time—”
“Oh, there won’t be a next time,” I told him. “You think I’m going to sit here next time while some weed-smoking drop-out tells me how I should dress?”
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