by Mia Carson
“Oh, Alyssa?” My dad called, and I groaned silently before turning back around.
“Yeah, Dad?” I asked, poking my head into the living room.
“Just wanted to remind you that Debbie and I are going on that cruise. We’re leaving next Monday,” he told me from the couch, his eyes focused on the television.
“Sounds good; talk to you later,” I called out, not really caring about their cruise.
I passed Blake’s bedroom on the way to mine, and I kind of wanted to see him, but I knew better and ran quickly to my room, slamming the door shut. I climbed into bed, remembering how nice it was after the last party when Blake held me all night. I let out a long sigh, kicking off my shoes and snuggling under the covers, wondering how long it would take for the emptiness to fade.
***
I woke up the following Monday with a rush of relief because I could finally sleep in. Today was the first day of winter break, and after relentless studying and grueling exams, I was ready to take it easy. I heard shuffling downstairs and climbed out of bed, not bothering to change out of my pajamas.
I walked into the kitchen to grab a granola bar. I ate it while I made myself a cup of coffee. My father walked in wearing a bright red Hawaiian shirt, a suitcase in his hand. I looked at him over the rim of the mug as I sipped the hot coffee.
“What are you wearing?” I asked with a loud laugh.
“This is what all the cool dads wear on Jamaican cruises,” he said with a toothy grin.
“That’s this week?” I asked, confused.
“Debbie and I are going. I told you,” he responded, grabbing his own cup of coffee.
With a frown, I remembered the conversation, though I hadn’t realized the dates had coincided with winter vacation. “Okay, Dad, hope you have fun.” I gave him a hug.
“We’ve made sure there are enough groceries for while we’re gone.” Debbie said in a very motherly fashion. “Make sure you call us if you need anything!”
I was almost finished with my coffee as I listened to Debbie and my father leave, calling out a last goodbye. As I ate my breakfast, I thought about how Blake and I would be completely alone. My palms got sweaty just thinking about our past kisses, my heart beating at the anticipation and excitement that flowed through me. I harshly reminded myself that I had to be extra careful around Blake so that we couldn’t have any more slip-ups.
I flipped through tv channels, humming quietly to myself. I knew it wasn’t much of a distraction, and every second ticked by wickedly slowly, making me aware of his absence.
I had been trying so hard to avoid him, and now we were stuck alone together for the entire winter break. I had two options: I could either hide out in my room all break, or I could spend some time with him and pretend I didn’t want to kiss him every single second we were near each other. I shook my head and focused on the television. I wouldn’t let Blake ruin my vacation.
A couple hours passed by, and I started to get hungry. I headed upstairs, deciding now would be a good time to get dressed. I passed Blake’s room, and out of my peripheral vision, saw that it was open. I continued to walk past. Blake was not too far from the door, on the ground doing push-ups.
I ran to my room, putting his sculpted muscles and broad shoulders out of my mind. I stood in the middle of the room, panting as my heart picked up speed. I forced my anxious body to calm down before getting dressed. I took a few deep breaths, slid off my robe, and began to undress. I was standing only in my underwear when I heard a throat clear behind me.
Blake stood in my doorway, his eyes glued to my almost naked body. I must not have shut my door, and I panicked, covering myself. Blake mumbled, “Sorry,” and left quickly.
My face turned red from embarrassment, and I scolded myself as I slid on a pair of yoga pants and a loose, white t-shirt, not bothering with a bra. I went downstairs to the kitchen to get a sandwich, hoping Blake had returned to his room. I entered the kitchen and came face to face with him.
“Hey.” He greeted me awkwardly, shifting where he stood and eating a bowl of cereal.
“Hi,” I responded, moving around him to the fridge. I was very aware of his body, of his presence. My eyes remained on the floor. I could feel the tension crackling around me, and it felt like I was being pulled towards Blake. I distanced myself as much as possible, my fists clenched at my sides. It had only been a few hours, but I was drowning in the temptation of being alone with him. How was I going to survive the whole break?
He was quiet for a moment. All I could hear was his chewing as he ate his cereal in the silence. I had been staring into the fridge for a while, and I shut it quickly, my appetite lost. Blake moved to the sink to rinse out his bowl. I walked past him quickly, but he turned, grabbing my arm roughly, letting his bowl drop in the sink and break with a loud, smashing sound.
I looked up at him with wide eyes. “Blake!” I cried, confused and disoriented.
He stared at me with dark and brooding eyes, breathing heavily. “Talk to me, Alyssa. Don’t pretend I’m not here.”
I pulled my arm out of his grip with a nasty look, but I didn’t move away from him. Instead, I matched his intensity. “What is your problem? You broke a perfectly good bowl.” I pushed past him angrily to slowly pick up the sharp ceramic pieces.
“Stop,” he commanded, his voice harsh.
I ignored him and continued to pick up the pieces. “Someone has to clean this mess up,” I said pointedly.
Blake moved fast, his hand reaching down to wrap around my wrist. He yanked it up, spilling the pieces all over the floor, the shards making a sprinkling noise as they flew across the linoleum. I was angry and reached my other hand up, pushing him square in the chest, and he released my arm but continued to stare at me.
“What the fuck is your problem, Blake?” I screeched, hot, angry tears threatening to spill from my eyes.
“Aren’t you listening? You are my problem, Alyssa. Stop acting like this!” He was yelling, too, and veins popped from his forehead and neck. His face reddened. I had never seen him like this, and I was frozen in fear.
He was only a few inches from me. I looked away, unable to take his harsh scrutiny any longer. I was afraid to move or to say anything. I listened as his labored breathing slowed. I watched silently as his hand reached for my face, slower and gentler than his previous movements.
Blake cupped my cheek, and even though I wanted to pull away, I leaned into the comfort of his touch, having missed his skin on mine. He pulled my face up to look at him, and with wide eyes, I saw his expression fill with such pain and heartbreak that all my defenses crumbled. I looked into his eyes, which were watery with tears. My heart broke as I watched one roll slowly down his cheek.
In a soft, wounded voice he whispered, “Please, Alyssa.”
“What?” I whispered back, searching his green eyes desperately, knowing that whatever he wanted I would give him. I would have moved mountains for him if it meant I never had to see him hurting again.
He took a deep, shaky breath before begging, “Please stop acting like I don’t exist. Like I don’t matter.”
His words stabbed me like a knife in the heart, and I wrapped my arms around him as he shook, tears of my own forming and spilling hot down my face, blurring my world. “Okay,” I whispered back, over and over again as we held each other.
We stood like that for a long time, holding each other, easing the pain we had caused each other. When I finally pulled back to look at him, he was staring at me with shining eyes and had a small, crooked smile on his face as he said, “You drive me crazy, kid.”
That was it for me. In a second, his lips were on my mine, ending my depraved hunger. I let out a soft moan as we kissed with passionate desperation, our lips locked together tightly. The kiss was hot and soft, one big whirlwind. Our arms wrapped around each other and pulled tighter, pressing our bodies together.
Blake’s hands moved to cup my face, and he pulled his lips b
ack slightly, teasing me delicately. I tried to move closer, but he smiled against my mouth as he held my face firmly in place, continuing to tickle my lips with his. I pulled away from him, and he stared at me questioningly.
I bit my lip and gave him a devious smile. He moved closer to me and said, “Come back here. I’m not done with you.”
I moved out of his way and purred, “If you want to play games, I can play games.” I winked and saw his eyes shine with realization and hunger. I slowly pulled off my shirt. I watched his eyes widen, and he licked his lips greedily. I let him watch me for a moment, the air cool on my naked stomach and breasts. “If you want me, you have to catch me,” I sang in a playful voice, throwing my shirt at his face and taking off into the living room.
I giggled when he ran up behind me and squealed when his arms wrapped around me just a few feet from the couch. “Don’t move,” he whispered in my ear, his body pressed hard against my back. His hands rested hot on my hips, and I wanted so badly to turn around.
I whipped around to face him, desperate for a kiss. Blake looked down at me, shaking his head with a wicked smile. His hands were on the back of my hips now. He pressed down tightly, spun me back around, and repeated harshly, “Do not move.”
My muscles tightened at his dominating, powerful words. I bit my lip and obeyed his order. Blake moved his right hand from my hip, using it to sweep the hair from the right side of my neck, exposing it. He placed his hand roughly on my hip again, and I gasped as he pressed his warm lips to my skin.
I leaned my head back to give him a better angle as he pressed several kisses along my neck, grazing his teeth against my throat. My breathing deepened, and I put my hands on his, my grip tightening around them. I felt him press harder against me, grinding against my bottom as he kissed my neck, swirling his tongue around to taste my skin.
I moved my hand up his arm as he moved his up my torso, tracing lines into my skin. I moved my face towards his and let out a moan as he kissed me. He touched my chest while giving me hot, open-mouthed kisses. He massaged my breasts in soft, circular motions and, still cupping them, moved his thumbs back and forth across the nipples. The pleasure was intense, and I rocked my hips, small noises escaping from my throat as he kissed me. He pulled away, kissing my jawline as I released deep, ragged breaths. His hands moved back down my torso and landed on my hips again. He was hard against me, which fueled my passion even more.
“You like that, don’t you?” he asked me in a seductive voice, grinding himself roughly against me.
“Yes,” I breathed, feeling as if I was going to explode from the intensity of the raw need consuming me.
He kissed from my jawline to my ear, and I could feel his warm breath as he whispered, “Beg for more.”
His voice was deep and heavy, and through laboring breaths, I begged, “Please, Blake. I want more.” The words had been on the tip of my tongue.
He kissed me again, his tongue darting quickly into my mouth, twisting devilishly with my own. I placed my hand on the back of his neck, deepening the kiss. His hand slowly undid the tie on my yoga pants.
He pulled his head back and looked into my eyes. “I know you want this,” he whispered, holding my gaze as he slid his hands down my pants, massaging me through my underwear.
My thighs shook, and I breathed, “Oh, please.” My hips bucked into his hand. Blake pressed his lips onto my neck and along my shoulder as he continued to massage me, reducing me to trembles and moans. A tingling sensation began in my body, and I moaned so loudly I feared the neighbors might hear. The tingling spread outward until my moan became a cry as the orgasm burst wildly.
I pulled away from him, turning around, my lips puffy and swollen from fanatical kisses. “My turn,” I whispered, still breathing heavily from his tantalizing touch.
He grinned. “Give it your best shot, kid.”
I reached for his shirt, and he helped me slide it off and toss it to the side. I stared at him for a moment, taking in his incredible body. I kissed him once on his lips and said, “Close your eyes.”
He gave me a funny look but let his eyes flutter gently shut. My hands reached out delicately, so ready to feel his warm skin. I leaned in, breathing in his delicious scent, and rested my head on his chest, pressing my lips softly to his skin. “Mmmm. You taste good,” I breathed, tickling his chest.
I traced my fingers down his chest, taking the time to touch every crevice. They reached his pants, and I kissed his lips delicately. He kissed me back, soft and sensual in his demeanor. I shivered as he wrapped his strong arms around me, rubbing small circles on my bare shoulders. I slid a finger along the base of his stomach, teasing the skin just above his pants.
He pulled away from a long kiss, letting out a deep breath. His eyes closed and he leaned his forehead against mine. "I want more," he whispered, his voice pleading.
I kissed him again, unbuttoned his pants, and reached in to slide my hand along his cotton boxers. The nerves along my spine sparked to life as I felt him hard against my hand.
I felt anxious because his length and size was more than I had anticipated. Taking a deep, unsure breath, I slithered my hand into his underwear. I bit my lip as I felt the warm, tender skin of his cock beneath my fingertips. His body shuddered as I wrapped my hand around him. His hands tightened their grip on my body, and I loved the way his jaw clenched tightly. I moved up and down, slowly at first, exploring and discovering him. I began to move faster, and he let out a low sound.
I kissed him, and he was ready for my mouth, taking it over with a rough, deep one. He rocked his hips against my hands, thrusting with my movements. His body was still trembling as he grabbed my hand and stopped my movements.
"Was that okay?" I asked him, worried I had done something unpleasant.
He smiled at me with dancing eyes and said, "That was incredible." I smiled, relieved, and he said, "I need to cool off."
Blake looked at me with a mischievous grin and scooped me up into his arms. I struggled, and through a fit of giggles, I protested, "Put me down!"
Blake carried me out of the living room, through the house, and out the back door. I looked at the glittering swimming pool and yelled, "No, Blake, stop!"
Despite my struggles, he walked into the deep end of the pool, taking me into the water with him. I swam out of his arms as the ice cold water rushed around me. I shot out of the water, inhaling the fresh afternoon air greedily. Blake popped out of the water a second later, a wild look in his eyes.
"I hate you," I said with a laugh, splashing him with the icy cold water before I swam to the ladder. I was almost out of the pool when Blake's hands grabbed my waist. I looked back at him as he tried to pull me back into the pool. He tugged harder, and I tumbled backwards into the water. After resurfacing, I wiped the wet, matted hair from my face and said, "Why did you do that?"
He pulled me towards him with a grin, and I let him pull me into his embrace. "I want you to swim with me," he murmured.
"But it's cold!" I interjected, whining.
"Then let me warm you up," he whispered sensually before pressing his lips to mine.
He backed me up to the edge of the pool, pressing me into the wall as he closed the distance between our bodies. I wrapped my legs around him, and he pressed against my loins. He massaged my breasts as he ground against me, his mouth moist and warm against my ice cold lips. I pushed my hips harder against him as he sucked lightly on my bottom lip. We were lost in each other for a long time, our mouths and hands continuously touching and exploring.
When Blake finally pulled away, he said, "I remember my first day here, when I saw you in that little bikini." He smiled as he remembered and pressed emphatically against me as he said, "God, I wanted you so badly."
I stared into his eyes, dark and tempting, and I knew there was no going back. I leaned into him and whispered, “Take me inside.”
He nodded and scooped me up out of the water. We walked into the house separa
tely, and I noticed how cold and empty my body was without his. “I’m going to go get a towel,” I called over my shoulder.
In the bathroom, I peeled off my water-soaked pants, heavy from our swim. I slid my panties off, too. I was toweling my naked body when I noticed a shadow in the doorway. Blake watched me intently, his gaze glued to my body, roaming. I dropped the towel and stood before him, letting him take in my full nude form.
Blake stepped into the bathroom. “You are so beautiful.”
I blushed and said nothing, looking shyly down. I opened myself to the vulnerable feeling as I let Blake in. He stepped into my embrace and held me. He leaned in for a kiss, pushing my mouth open with his lips and holding me there for a moment.
Ending the kiss, I pulled away enough to look him in the eyes. He smiled gently at me as I cupped his face, tracing his cheekbone with my thumb. I let myself get lost in his eyes. “I thought if this ever happened, it would feel like a mistake,” I told him, my voice confused but accepting. “But in this moment, everything feels so right.”
Blake smiled my favorite smile and said, “That’s because we belong together.”
I said nothing. I stood on my tiptoes to kiss him. I told him everything I wanted to say with my body. I was yielding and grateful, my kiss sweet and strong. I kissed him tenderly with all of my passion, with all of my emotions.
Blake picked me up, and I wrapped my legs around him, so involved in our kiss I barely noticed that his pants were still ice cold from the pool. We walked into his bedroom, and he set me gently on the edge of his bed, detangling our bodies carefully. I watched him hungrily as he unbuttoned his pants and slid them off. He met my gaze as he slid off his boxers, revealing his naked body to me.
My heart raced, and every single nerve in my body tingled. I wanted him so badly. I stood up and took his hands in mine. With his left hand, he gently played with my hair and kissed my forehead. I looked up, nervous and unsure.
“This is the end,” he whispered against my forehead before pulling away.
I looked up at him, confused. “The end of what?” I asked softly.
