Avenging Amethyst (Immortal Eyes)
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"If you're smart, you won't try to go after him. He's probably already killed the Nesmyr anyways. He just wants to lead you to a death trap."
"I have to find him and he won't kill the Nesmyr. If he wants me to play his stupid games then he's going to keep this Nesmyr alive until I come for him."
"Why? What's so special about this Nesmyr?" I could hear the bitterness in his voice and I knew he already had a good guess.
I paused. "Can we be alone?" I asked Rema and Riley, who didn’t hesitate to move a few feet away. I sat on the edge of Felix’s bed and threw my arms around him. He pulled me closer but he was tense. I didn’t want to tell him. I wanted to stay in his arms forever and forget I even had a Dimidium.
"Avery," Felix said, his voice was gentle this time. "Tell me what’s going on."
I pulled back and wiped the tears away from my eyes. I looked at the ground as I spoke. "I... I think he's my Dimidium." Saying those words hadn't been anywhere near as hard to say to the council members as it was to Felix. I looked up to see rage and sadness pass over his face. He was mad that I found my Dimidium before him and sad because of his feelings for me. My heart ached and I wanted to reach out and comfort him but I held back. I knew I needed to start distancing myself from him, no matter how badly I just wanted to get closer. We weren't meant to be together and we both needed to accept it.
"Get out," he finally said.
"Felix," I said, wanting to reason with him. I didn’t want him to banish me from his life. Not this quickly.
"I said get out," he almost shouted. I saw a few of the nurses flinch at the harshness of his voice and Rema and Riley moved forward to urge me away. I thought about fighting them and trying to talk some sense into Felix but I came to the conclusion that he needed time to think it over by himself and come to terms with it. I let Rema and Riley steer me away. I glanced over my shoulder once and was surprised to see a single tear fall out of Felix’s eyes.
Once I was back in my own bed, Rema excused herself and Riley sat down next to me and tried to comfort me.
"Don't worry about Felix," she said. "He'll calm down in a day or so and realize how much of an idiot he’s being. He should be happy for you. I am. As much as it hurts to know that my Dimidium might be long dead, I can still be happy for you."
The tears in Riley's eyes spilled over and my heart ached even more. I knew that I wasn’t the reason Lucas helped Kamila kill all of those Dimidiums but I felt like I was linked to it. I was the reason that these people I now cared so much for were so full of heart ache.
"I promise that once I kill Lucas, I will do everything I can to help you find your Dimidium. We don't know for sure if Kamila got to him or not."
She gave me a sad smile but changed the topic. "If Felix won't help you find Lucas, I will. We'll start searching when you're back to normal. For now you need to rest though."
I had only been awake for less than an hour but my body and mind were still exhausted from the night before. I nodded in agreement and Riley squeezed my hand gently before leaving the room. I rolled over and sunk my head into the soft pillow, quietly crying while thinking of how messed up my life had gotten in two short weeks.
I still couldn’t believe my mom was gone and my life would never be the same. How did my stale life turn a complete one-eighty?
How was I supposed to find Lucas and Ivan before something terrible happened? I knew Gladys would never forgive me if her grandson was murdered but I didn’t know if I had it in me to defeat Lucas. He was so powerful and seemed to have plenty of allies in the Zhulik and demon world. I would probably need an army to kill him; an army that I didn’t have.
And what about Felix? It tore me up to know that he wasn’t my Dimidium but what was even worse was that he would probably never find his. Kamila had probably killed his long ago, giving him a death sentence.
What the hell was I going to do? Was my last thought as I finally fell back asleep.