Chapter Seven - Maya
So much is going on that I don’t even know what to pay attention to. The restaurant, Conrad, Conrad’s eyes, Conrad’s suit, and now…his lips. On mine. Out of nowhere. But even more surprising is that he backs off immediately, sits across from me, and then says, with cyborg-like detachment, “What was that like for you?” This is even more annoying since he’s already admitted that he doesn’t ask questions he doesn’t know the answer to.
This stoic delivery choked off any shouting I might have done. “Are you talking about the kiss?”
“What else?”
“What makes you think you just get to kiss me?”
“You’re not answering my question. What was it like for you?”
What should I tell him? If I tell him that it was amazing, that it turned my insides to goo and lit my skin up like a blowtorch, he’s going to get the wrong idea. But what’s the right idea? If I tell him that I want him to do it again, right now, but I want him to go slow so I can see it coming, and sink into myself when his lips touch mine, what’s that going to teach him?
“It was surprising,” I say. This much is true and I don’t see how it could lead us anywhere bad. “But you’re not paying me to kiss you. Don’t think for a second that--”
“You didn’t kiss me. I kissed you. Was it good surprising or bad surprising?” He laces his fingers together and furrows his brow like a philosopher. “Just tell me, and then I’ll tell you why I ask.”
“If I had been looking at you when you did it, it might have been good. Or, better. As it was, I barely had time to register the fact that it was happening before it was over. Then you put me on the spot and started badgering me with questions.”
“I hired you to help me. To argue. This feels like an argument.”
“Kissing me doesn’t get your book written. I don’t see any words on the page, do you?”
“Why do you think that it starts with kissing? I’ve always felt that most relationships go from talking to maybe holding hands. But it’s when two people have kissed that it really gets going. It’s a line that not everyone should step across.”
What kind of bizarre interrogation was this? The most delicious man I had ever laid eyes on was quizzing me about a kiss he just stole and now, oh boy, here comes the most famous chef in the city with a plate for me.
“Madame,” says Arturo. “I know you’ll like this.” He squeezes Conrad’s shoulder and is gone as quickly as he came.
“You eat, I’ll talk,” says Conrad.
I’m about to interrupt him. I’m about to tell him where he can go. After all, he hired me to argue with him. “I’m not hungry,” I say. Then my stomach growls and Conrad throws back his head and laughs. It’s a perfect sound, a boyish sound, and I hate that I can’t stay mad at him. I’m trying. I really am. So, while I formulate my thoughts, I start to eat what turns out to be a roast beef sandwich that flew down from Heaven. It is so good that it almost makes me blush. While I chew, Conrad keeps chattering.
“People still don’t know why they kiss,” he’s saying. “There are cultures that don’t do it. What do you think about that?”
I wipe my mouth with my napkin. I don’t know what comes over me, but I get to my feet, lean across the table, and kiss him. It doesn’t last as long as I’d like, but I can’t let him get a big head. Or, a bigger head. “I think those cultures are missing out. Now tell me more about the damned book.”
Chapter Eight - Conrad
I hadn’t planned on kissing her, despite my calculations.. Not yet, at least. I had figured that we would eventually get there, but it took me by surprise. That’s not to say that I didn’t mean what I said to her. As I try to organize my thoughts for the book, they race away from me as soon as I shine a light on them. They say that sunlight is the best disinfectant, but tell that to a fleeing cockroach.
It surprised me more when she kissed me, although it wasn't’ totally out of keeping with her type. After that, just watching her dab her mouth with the napkin made me want to lay her down on the table. I think she knew it, too, because that’s when she started asking questions. “This is how I would prepare for a debate,” she kept saying. “So you owe me the background material.”
“Conrad, what makes you want to write a book about love?”
“Because I don’t understand it as well as I would like to. I’m not sure anyone does.”
“Conrad, how do you define love?”
“I don’t. I’m not sure I’ve ever felt it. I just know what people are like.”
“Conrad, how is love, at least, different than lust?”
“Lust is something I know all about. But I’ve also had enough of it to know that it’s hollow on its own. After a while, of course.” She smiled back at me and bit her lip again. I was about to make an indecent proposal but she cut me off.
“We should probably be getting back. I think Zima is going to be worried about you.” Not so fast. She can ask the questions, she can ambush me with a kiss, but she’s not going to set my itinerary. “Not yet,” I say. “There are a couple of other things I need to show you. For research, of course.”
“Of course.”
“Did you take any notes?”
She looks down at her clipboard. “Want to see? I’m going to run to the ladies’ room real quick. Take a look if you want.” She holds the clipboard up, covering her face for a moment. After she excuses herself I grab for it.
The page is blank except for the faint red outline of her lips. She must have done that right now. Jesus, my heart is pounding. At this rate, we’re never going to write a damned word. Hell, at this rate, we’re not even going to make it back to the car. I start daydreaming about all of the things I want to do to her. I’m wondering about the noises she would make. Eventually, I start wondering where the hell she is. I check my watch. She’s been gone for 10 minutes. When I go upstairs, Arturo says she left. He’s laughing. “She looked like she knew a secret,” he says.
Game on. I go outside, thinking she might be waiting on the curb. She’s not. My driver’s there, but she’s obviously gone. Then my phone buzzes. It’s a text from Maya. “I went back to the office. Had an idea for your project. No time to waste.” That was it. Now she wants to see what I would do. Will I rush back to the building to see her? Will I yell at her? Fire her? Honestly, I consider doing all three, in various orders. But I’m having fun. She shows all of the signs of unpredictability and impulsivity, but there’s no telling what she will do next, which means there is no telling what I will do next. And it’s been a long time since I’ve felt that way.
“Where to, sir?” says Mike.
“Back to work.” On the drive, I’m having fantasies of Maya being in my office. In this nice little daydream, I march in, grab her hips, lift her onto my desk, and demand that she explain herself to me. I’m instantly hard. By the time I get to the building I’ve calmed down a little, but that changes when I go inside and Zima reports that Maya had just left. “She said to tell you she’ll be working from a remote location today,” she says. “Conrad?” she says in the background while I start to laugh. “Is there anything I can help you with?”
I turn. Zima is walking towards me, wanting to talk, but I don’t have time for her concerns right now. “No, I say. Just don’t forward any calls to me for a couple of hours.”
When I’m at my desk I open up a spreadsheet and start making a list. After a few minutes, I text Maya. “I’m willing to let you work from home today,” I say, “But I need you here tonight. Non-negotiable. Come at 9.” It takes her a while to respond. When she does, there’s nothing defiant about it. “I’ll be there,” she says. “What should I bring?”
“Bring a change of clothes,” I type. I look at the words, not sure if I mean them. “It might be a long night,” I add. There. She won’t know what to make of that. I’m not even sure that I know what to make of it.
But I’ll figure it out by the time she gets here.
Chapter Nin
e - Maya
“I’m not sure what got into me,” I’m telling Angela, who is sitting across from me at my kitchen table, open-mouthed and stupefied. “When he kissed me, it really set me off. And it wasn’t just that, it was that robotic way he handled it afterward. I just had to show him something. He acts like he knows everything, not to mention everything about me. I get the feeling that he’s never surprised by anything. That he feels entitled to do whatever he wants. I mean, he just kissed me.”
Angela sighs. “Tell him to come kiss me. I won’t complain like this.” She makes it sound like I’m the most ungrateful person on earth.
“I’m not telling him that. He didn’t hire you. But that’s when I kissed him back. He was going on and on and suddenly I just wanted him to see how it felt.”
“Whoa! What did he do?”
“He was surprised, but it was a real kiss. He probably wasn’t as surprised as I was. You know me. That’s really not me.”
“No. It’s really not.”
It also surprised me when I left. And texted him. And then when I left the firm. I was playing a game that I was creating as I went along, following rules that I couldn’t see. There was no plan. I’ve always been the one with the plan. There was something liberating about it. Of course, there was also something terrifying about it. Like, say, losing a job that paid a ton of money for doing little more than eating at Arturo’s.
“And so you’re going back tonight?” says Angela. “Oh my God, I’m so jealous. I bet he’s planned something so freaky. I wonder why he wants you to bring a change of clothes. I wish I could hide in your purse and spy on you.”
“It’s nothing like that,” I say. Was it something like that? I was the one goading him, daring him to raise the stakes. “But I’m going. I’ve got a job to do.”
Angela and I spend the rest of the afternoon creating increasingly insane scenarios about my upcoming night with Conrad. We debate whether my change of clothes should be something comfortable, like yoga pants and a sweatshirt, or professional. Or sexy, I ask myself without telling Angela. She knows, though. The excitement is practically rising from my skin in waves.
Angela goes home after dinner and then I’ve got a couple of hours to kill before I go to meet Conrad. I decide to nap. If it’s going to be a long night, I’m going to need stamina. When my eyes pop open an hour later, I take the curlers out of my hair, brush my teeth, double check my night bag, and I take a car to the office. The building is dark except for the faint light coming from the lobby. Before I can touch the door it slides open. The desk is empty. Poor Zima. She’s probably out somewhere auditioning for a commercial for Rolaids.
The elevator doors slide open. Conrad still hasn’t said a word. As the elevator begins to rise something feels different. It’s either going faster or slower than usual. Or, I notice when the doors open, it’s stopping on a different floor.
This room could not be more different than Conrad’s office. It looks like the den at a ski lodge. The walls are covered in dark wood. A fire is going in a stone fireplace. I realize that every room in the building might be some sort of adult playground. Conrad is sitting in a chair by the fire looking at a book that is propped open on an ottoman. I reach for a joke, something witty, but when he looks up at me, my breath catches in my throat. “Come here,” he says.
As if my body is not my own, I walk towards him. He picks up the book and sets it aside. “Sit.” He pats the ottoman. I should stop him. I should stop this. But I don’t. I set my bag on the floor and I sit. Facing him. He’s only three feet away. He reaches out and grabs the sides of the ottoman, pulling it—and me—closer. Now it’s only two feet. No, less.
Conrad moves out of the chair and kneels. He leans towards me and I open my legs to legs to let him get closer. He puts a hand on my shoulder, but his hand is so large that it feels as if it’s covering my entire chest. He squeezes lightly and something in me moans. In a quick motion, he raises his palm from my skin so that only his fingertips are touching me.
“You shouldn’t have left me there,” he says. “And now I need to touch you. But I think you’ll let me.”
I can’t say anything in return because he is close enough to kiss me. He presses his lips against mine and puts a hand in my hair. He lightly pulls my head back so I have to look into his eyes. I know that in this moment I will do anything he asks. Anything he wants. This is not me but it feels so good that maybe stepping out of myself for a while isn’t a bad thing. He moves back in, parting my lips. Our tongues dance around each other and then he withdraws, getting to his feet. It feels like I could come at any second, and we’ve barely touched each other.
I can see how hard he is through his pants. Instinctively, I reach out and unzip him. I put my hands on the backs of his thighs and guide him towards me. I would say it’s like an out of body experience as I reach through his fly and put my palm against that massive cock, but I’m nothing but body right now. His hand is back in my hair, tightening, pulling me closer.
But no. It’s actually pulling me the other way. What the hell is he doing? I look up at him, up, up, up, and it’s the most annoying thing in the world to see that he’s smiling. I can tell he wants this as badly as I do, I can see it in his pulsing body.
“That’s enough for now,” he says. “I’m kind of tired. I don’t think I want to work tonight after all. You can sleep on the couch.”
“Are you fucking serious?” I say. My voice is throaty, husky, full of a wanting that is so desperate it almost hurts.
“Oh, I am, Maya. You haven’t earned that yet. We’ll see what happens. Feel free to use that change of clothes however you want. There’s a refrigerator over there. If I change my mind about anything, I’ll come back down in a bit and check on you.” He winks and gets on the elevator. Goddamn him.
Chapter Ten - Conrad
Any time you show someone that they can get the upper hand on you, guess what they’re going to do? You got it. It’s not just in business, either. You can’t afford to let people score a point without getting one back. Now Maya knows it. I know she’s down there right now, squirming, wishing that I were all over her. Don’t get me wrong, it would be nice. Even the kiss was intense. But I’m in charge here and she needs to remember that. I can’t let anyone else run the laboratory.
I turn off the light and sleep like a baby.
In the morning, I go back down to check on her. She didn’t call 911 or run through the room shrieking, so she must not have felt like a captive. When I step out of the elevator into her room, though, I’m surprised to see that she’s sitting at a table, writing in a notebook. She looks up and nods. “Conrad, I trust you slept well?”
Is this a joke? Why is she suddenly talking like a British governess?
“Yeah, I slept fine. And you?”
“Not so good,” she says. “Not that it’s your problem.”
“Yeah, well. Sometimes the world is mysterious. So listen, I need to do something different today. We’re getting out of here for a while. If you can swing it, it’s going to take about two weeks. Part of the project.”
She nods again. “What do I need?”
“You’ll tell me. For now, bring your bag. Once we’re there I’ll get you sorted out. Oh, do you have any problems with flying?”
30 minutes later we’re on top of the building. We board the helicopter and Maya grips my knee as Mike takes us up into the sky. She’s not scared, but she isn’t comfortable. Good. Comfort leads to complacency. Mike takes us 15 minutes outside of town, up into the mountains. I have him land at the helipad near the cabin where we’re going to spend the next few days.
“Do I even need to ask if this is yours?” she says.
“Only if the muse moves you,” I say, taking my bag out of the helicopter.
“What are we doing here?” she says.
“Research. More research.”
“Like last night?” she says. I hear the mixture of hope and irritation in her voice. Perfect. Let her keep sm
oldering. It’ll be more fun when she finally blows her top. So far everything is going according to plan.
“We’ll see,” I say. We go inside and set our stuff down in the foyer. The cabin belonged to my father. Lots of people say they need a way to “get away from it all,” but dad meant it. He proved it. This cabin traverses the boundary between isolation and solitude.
“It’s gorgeous,” says Maya. “How long are we going to be here?”
“Two weeks, if I’m right about certain things. But how long can you afford to be here?” I say. “We might be hiding out for a while. That wild cop is still out there looking for me, you know. I need to lay low.”
Maya rolls her eyes. “Conrad, seriously. What are we doing here? Can we just talk like adults for a few sentences? Without riddles?”
“Yes. Yes, we can. We really are here to do some research, Maya. That doesn’t mean it’s all going to be doom and gloom, or fun and games. There will probably be some of both.” I thought about how it had felt when she reached into my pants. “But right now I want to take a quick nap. I’ll explain some things to you later. Your bedroom is to the right at the top of the stairs. If you want to go for a walk or sit outside there’s a pond in back. It’s impossible to miss. Before we start working tonight, there’s something I need you to think about for me.”
“And what might that be?”
“I need you to think about whether someone can actually learn to become a good person.”
That catches her off guard. She’s always prepared to respond to something flippant with something brassy. She’s not as good at handling sincerity. When people are off balance, that’s when you really need to watch them.
Before she can say more I go to my room and lie down. I got plenty of sleep last night, but something about her takes it out of me. In a good way. But when I get in bed my eyes won’t shut. I think about the first time I saw her. She has no idea that she was there when a piece of the old me died.
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