Allure: A Spiral of Bliss Novel

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by Nina Lane


  My voice trailed off. Silence filled the car. Dean just sat there with his hands on the steering wheel. Waiting.

  Finally I pulled off my shoes, unbuckled my seatbelt, and crawled ungracefully over the console between the seats to get into the back. Dean opened the glove compartment and took out a package of condoms.

  “You keep condoms in there?” I asked.

  “It is called the glove compartment,” he replied with a wink.

  He got out of the car and opened the back door to get inside.

  It was a close fit. His car was a sedan, but with the two of us in the backseat, the confines felt tight. Which wasn’t necessarily a bad thing. I was already warm just from thinking about the idea, and now sitting so close to him I began to get downright hot. And even more nervous.

  I scooted away until I reached the opposite door. “This is a little silly.”

  “Is it?”

  “We’re not teenagers.”

  “Teenagers don’t have a monopoly on backseat sex.”

  True. Dean and I had been together for four months. We’d had sex on the bed, the sofa, the floor, in the shower. One memorable night on the kitchen table. But never anywhere outside his apartment, my apartment, or a hotel room.

  “Okay, so… what should I do?” I asked.

  “Relax, for one thing.”

  I looked at him. His posture was loose, his beautiful mouth curved, his eyes gentle and amused. He reached out and drew a lock of my hair between his fingers, then tucked it behind my ear.

  “You’re with me,” he said.

  It was such a simple, obvious statement and yet it was weighted with implications of comfort and reassurance.

  The strain in my shoulders eased. If I was ever going to be comfortable enough to have sex with anyone in the backseat of a car, it was going to be Dean. Which meant this could be my only chance, although I didn’t dare consider the horrible possibility that we might one day no longer be together.

  I scooted back across the seat until my thigh pressed against his, then I leaned in to kiss him. His mouth met mine in a soft, lovely kiss that made my body shimmer with light. He settled his hands on my waist and drew me closer until I was in his arms with my breasts pressing against his chest. He eased my lips apart with his tongue, stoking the burn of lust. My skin prickled with need.

  I sighed and wiggled closer as his hands came up to caress my breasts. He slid his thumbs around my nipples through the fabric of my blouse, then hooked his fingers under the hem and pulled it off. Cool air brushed against my skin.

  “Do we get completely naked?” I asked.

  “We don’t have to.” He tugged at the waistband of my jeans. “As long as you can get these off.”

  “What if a police officer finds us?”

  “No one’s going to find us.” He started kissing my neck.

  “How do you know?”

  “We’re in the middle of nowhere.” His breath brushed against my ear, his thick hair tickling my cheek.

  I shivered. “The middle of nowhere is… is where alien abductions happen.”

  “Good, so worry about that instead of the police.” He palmed my breasts through my bra. “You have the most incredible breasts.”

  The windows were getting steamy, but there was still enough dim light to see. I pressed my hand against his crotch and sucked in a breath at the feel of his erection. Before he could undress, I sat back and unzipped my jeans, shifting around to try and get them off. Dean finally helped, then chucked them into the front seat along with my underwear. I was left wearing nothing except my bra. My heart pounded with a combination of nerves and excitement.

  “Your turn,” I said.

  If we suddenly found ourselves illuminated by the beam of a police flashlight, I sure as hell wasn’t going to be the only one buck naked.

  My hands shook as I unbuttoned his jeans and pulled them down to his thighs. His erection pressed against the cotton of his boxers. I reached into the fly and wrapped my hand around his smooth, hard shaft.

  Dean winced with pleasure. “Ah, Liv, this won’t last long.”

  Probably for the better, I thought, given the potential threat of police and aliens. Not to mention the urgency pulsing between my legs.

  I shifted to try and lie back, but he stopped me and pulled my leg over his lap.

  “Ride me,” he said. “It’s the easiest position back here.”

  I didn’t want to know exactly how he’d discovered that fact, but then he took hold of his cock and my attention snapped to the lithe movement of his hand. My pulse beat a crazy rhythm.

  “Makes me so hot to watch you do that,” I whispered. My throat was getting dry.

  “Uh huh.” A wicked glint lit his eyes. “Just one of the reasons I do it.”

  I rubbed my hands over his chest, tracing the muscles down to the hem of his T-shirt. He cupped his hands around my bottom and pulled me closer. I slipped my hands beneath his shirt and splayed my palms over his taut skin. Heat spread clear up my arms. I squirmed on his thighs.

  He tightened his grip on my ass. I shrugged my bra straps off my shoulders and pushed it down far enough to expose my breasts. A groan rumbled from Dean’s chest, which emboldened me to spear my hands into his hair and tug him forward. Shivers rained down my spine when he flicked his tongue over one nipple, twisting the other between his fingers. The smells of sweat and leather filled my head.

  “Now.” He shifted position so he was half-reclining with his head against one door and his feet wedged against the other.

  While he rolled the condom on, I wiggled around trying to figure out how best to position myself. Not an easy task with his cock jutting right up in front of me in blatant invitation, and my breath coming in gasps. Finally I braced one foot on the floor and pushed the other between his waist and the seat.

  He grasped my hips to guide me forward and down. I gripped the back of the passenger seat to steady myself and drew in a breath when he slid inside me. The confines of the car made him feel even bigger, which I wouldn’t have thought possible.

  “You know…” I clutched the seat and braced my other hand on his abdomen. “I might not have agreed to this if I’d known I have to do all the work.”

  “Yeah, that’s why I didn’t tell you.” He pushed his hips upward, jolting me with a thrust. “Though you don’t have to do all the work.”

  “Oh… good.”

  Still, it wasn’t exactly easy and fluid—not like when we did it in his bed. The moving was awkward, my legs strained from their uncomfortable position, and Dean banged his head against the window while responding to one of my more energetic bounces.

  But being naked with him always felt good, and we were both straining and panting by the time an orgasm rolled through my body. I circled my hips and rubbed against him, quaking through his own release.

  When we finally separated, I realized the windows were fogged to opacity and we’d sweated all over the leather seats.

  “Awkward as that was, it was sort of… fun,” I admitted, hitching my bra straps back up my shoulders. I leaned over the seat to find my blouse, jeans, and panties. “I can see the appeal.”

  Dean stroked his hand down my back.

  “Me too,” he agreed, rubbing his palm in circles over my ass.

  I glanced at him over my shoulder. “How often have you done this?”

  “I don’t know.” He was gazing at my naked behind. “A few times.”

  “Enough to know the best position.”

  I must have sounded irritated because he stopped stroking me. I grabbed my panties and maneuvered around to get them on, then tried to turn my jeans right-side out.

  “What’s going on?” Dean tugged his jeans over his hips. “You’re mad that I did this with a couple other girls?”

  “No, I’m not mad.” I shook my head. “I’m not mad.”

  “You look mad. You sound mad.”

  “I’m annoyed. Not mad.”

  “Why are you annoyed?”
/>   My thoughts spun and whirled. I yanked my jeans straight and thrust my legs into them. I struggled to get the denim over my damp skin. My head bumped against the ceiling, which amplified my irritation.

  “Liv.”

  “Well, hell, Dean.” The realization hit me with a clarity I hadn’t expected. I flopped back against the seat, breathing hard. “Why is it you get to be my first for so many things and I’m, like, number twenty for you?”

  Amusement glinted in his eyes. “I promise you, Liv. I have not had sex with twenty girls in the backseat of a car.”

  “It’s not just the car.”

  “I know.”

  I shoved my arms into the sleeves of my blouse. My heart felt tight. I started to climb back over the console into the front seat, but Dean grabbed my hips and pulled me back so that I tumbled onto his lap.

  I stiffened and tried to pull away. I wasn’t quite clear on all the reasons I was so irritated just then, but I did know one thing. I wanted to be everything to him. The way he was for me.

  Dean tightened his arms around me from behind, preventing my escape. Not that I could have gone anywhere except the front seat or out onto the dark, deserted road where I had little doubt aliens and serial killers lurked.

  “Hey.” Dean’s warm breath stirred my hair and brushed against my ear. “You think you’re one of many?”

  “Based on what you’ve told me, I don’t see any evidence to the contrary.” I twisted around to look at him.

  It had grown darker during our little rendezvous, but the moon was out and I could see the planes and angles of his face, the shape of his mouth, the heat of his eyes. His brown hair was tousled, and a bead of sweat still trickled from his temple.

  Yeah, I got it. I understood why women wanted him. I knew it’d be unrealistic, not to mention downright stupid, to expect that a man of his appeal would reach the age of thirty-three without having had his share of willing women.

  I got it. But I didn’t have to like it.

  “You don’t think you’re the first for me?” he asked.

  “I know I’m not.” I plucked at a loose thread on my blouse.

  “Not sexually, no, but you’re the first in other ways.”

  “I am?”

  “You are.” He grasped the back of my neck and pulled me to him for a long kiss filled with affection and tenderness.

  Then he took my hand and placed it on his chest. Beneath the cotton of his T-shirt, his heart beat rapidly against my palm.

  “Feel that?” he asked. “You’re the first woman who’s ever made my heart beat like that. You’re the first woman I’ve ever wanted to spend all my time with, the only one who could convince me to start a new life. You’re the first woman who’s ever made me genuinely happy. Who makes me glad to be alive, who makes me burn hotter than fire. You’re the first woman who’s ever made me afraid.”

  I stared at him. “Afraid?”

  “Afraid of how good this is. Afraid it won’t last.” He pushed a lock of hair off my forehead. “Scared to death of losing you.”

  “Oh.” I was speechless. I swallowed hard. “You’re… you don’t have to be scared of losing me.”

  Something flickered in his expression that I didn’t understand, couldn’t decipher.

  “I don’t?” he said.

  “No.” I shook my head. “No.”

  “Good.” He pulled me closer. “Because you’re the first woman I’ve never wanted to let go.”

  FEBRUARY 4

  Pink and red hearts, smiling teddy bears, and cheerful cupids plaster the windows of the shops lining Avalon Street. The sidewalks are edged with dirty piles of snow, the roads crusted with slush. Skate-blade grooves scar the frozen surface of the lake, and skiers’ ruts twist through the mountain trails.

  I walk through downtown, unconsciously glancing at every young woman in the hopes that one of them will be Maggie Hamilton. In my imagination, we have a good, old-fashioned ninja fight where I take her down with a lot of violent kicks and spins.

  I now understand the fierce protectiveness that Dean has always had for me. I know that white-hot burn of rage, the certainty that you would do anything, anything, to make things right. I hate the helpless feeling simmering at the edge of my anger, the fear that my husband could be hurt. I want to stand in front of him like some avenging angel, battling anyone who dares to try and destroy what he has worked so hard to build.

  Though I knew I shouldn’t, this morning I looked up Maggie’s contact information in the student directory, then called her from one of the phones at the public library. Another girl answered and said that Maggie was staying with her parents for the spring semester.

  I know I can’t track her down and demand answers, so instead I’ve looked up tons of information about sexual harassment cases, legal recourses, case precedents, how to deal with false charges. Dean’s lawyer put him in touch with another attorney who specializes in sexual harassment cases. At least we can start a defense.

  But it’s fucking scary. I found a report online that discussed how educators are particularly vulnerable to false charges from embittered students—and even if the professor is proven completely innocent, he can still face devastating, long-term repercussions. Professionally, emotionally, and financially.

  That cannot happen to Dean.

  No way. Not now. Not ever.

  I stop outside The Happy Booker and wait for Kelsey, who is stalking toward the store with her hands shoved in her coat pockets and her shoulders hunched.

  “When the pioneers established settlements, what made them think this was a good place?” she remarks as we go inside. “Especially when they discovered that winter is a bitch?”

  “Have some hot chocolate.” From behind the front counter, Allie waves toward the hot-chocolate maker she set up by the cash register. “It’ll warm you up. Free sugar cookies too.”

  “Huh.” Kelsey blinks at her, then approaches the little table. “I guess that sounds pretty good.”

  Allie beams. I introduce them to each other and go behind the counter to check my upcoming hours on the schedule and program them into the calendar on my phone.

  “You going to lunch?” Allie asks me.

  “Kelsey’s taking me to Matilda’s Teapot,” I say, then amend it to, “Well, she’s tolerating Matilda’s Teapot because she knows I like it, and it’s closing soon.”

  “And because, for whatever reason, your husband is snarling and growling at everyone these days,” Kelsey adds, “which leads me to believe you could use some strawberry scones and apricot tea.”

  “What’s wrong with Professor Hottie?” Allie asks.

  “He’s just stressed out with work,” I say, aware of Kelsey’s sharp gaze.

  I wish I could confide in her and Allie, but Dean and I need to deal with this alone. Since we returned to Mirror Lake a few days ago, he’s been mostly quiet and grim-faced, either holed up in his office or working out at the gym. When we’re together, he hugs me often, asks how I feel, pulls me close to him at night in bed, but he is silently under siege.

  Are you sure you’re okay, Dean? “Fine.”

  We should meet with that counselor soon. “Okay.”

  I scheduled my follow-up appointment with Dr. Nolan. “I’ll be there.”

  “So I was thinking of us hosting a Willy Wonka party,” Allie tells me. “We can wrap golden tickets around small chocolate bars and leave them at the toy store down the street and a few other kids’ places.” She pushes a tumble of red curls out of her eyes as she peers at her planning worksheet. “Will you take some to the library too? Maybe give them out during story time?”

  “Sure. I have a shift tomorrow morning.”

  “I can give some to my colleagues who have kids,” Kelsey offers. Apparently the sugar cookie sweetened her disposition.

  “That would be great,” Allie says. “We can have a buffet of different candies, of course, like gobstoppers and lollipops. I’ll play music from the movie, and we can do trivia games re
lated to the book. Oh, and we’ll have balloons with little prizes inside them that the kids have to pop to win. We might need to move a couple of shelves to make room.”

  She bites her thumbnail and stares out at the store, where most of the shelves are almost bare.

  “At least moving the shelves will be easy,” I remark.

  Allie sighs and shakes her head, pushing her purple-framed glasses up the bridge of her nose. “You think I’m a total basket case, don’t you?”

  “Yes, but I really love your perseverance.”

  Despite the daunting circumstances of downhill sales, a big rent hike on the building, loss of customers… Allie has never once wavered in her determination to turn things around with balloons and lollipops.

  I have a pang of regret that I wasn’t able to help her out with a small business loan. All my other ideas sound fun and feasible, but not potential sources of revenue.

  “Oh, I also saw an article about making edible teacups out of ice-cream cones.” Allie starts scribbling on a notepad. “And we’ll have a chocolate fountain. Wouldn’t that be fun?”

  “You’re really good at this stuff, Allie.”

  “I like doing it. It’s fulfilling, you know?”

  I don’t know, but I wish I did. I glance at Kelsey. “Are you fulfilled, Kels?”

  “As long as I have a glass of wine every night, sure.”

  Allie grins and pats my hand. “Everyone wants to do something fulfilling, Liv. It’s just that a lot of people have a hard time figuring out what that is for them.”

  “So what’s it for you?” I ask.

  “Being creative, helping people, doing neat things for kids…” She shrugs. “It’s why I like parties, I think. Everyone has a fun time, enjoys the food, forgets about troubles for a while, leaves feeling good. I love being able to give that to people. And I love giving people books, chatting with customers, learning new things, being my own boss, all that stuff.”

  “How do you know that’s what you love?” I ask.

  “It makes me happy. Isn’t that how you always know what you love?”

 

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