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by Jeremy Reed




  Nothing But a Star

  Nothing But a Star

  by Jeremy Reed

  Chômu Press

  Nothing But a Star

  by Jeremy Reed

  Published by Chômu Press, MMXIII

  Nothing But a Star copyright © Jeremy Reed 2013

  The right of Jeremy Reed to be identified as Author of this

  Work has been asserted by him in accordance with the

  Copyright, Designs and Patents Act 1988.

  Published in December 2013 by Chômu Press.

  by arrangement with the author.

  All rights reserved by the author.

  First Kindle Edition

  Design and layout by: Bigeyebrow and Chômu Press

  Cover photo copyright to: Gregory Hesse-Wagner

  E-mail: [email protected]

  Internet: chomupress.com

  to John Robinson and Mark Jackson with love

  “Jeremy Reed is a legend. What more can you fucking ask?”

  Pete Doherty

  “Jeremy Reed’s talent is almost extra-terrestrial in its brilliance. He is Rimbaud reconfigured as the Man who fell to Earth, a visitor from deep space whose time machine was designed by Lautréamont and de Sade, and powered by the most exotic fuels the imagination has ever devised.”

  J.G. Ballard

  “The man is light worlds apart from his contemporaries in poetry.”

  Andrew Loog Oldham

  “One of the most original virtuoso voices to be heard in the poetry of our time.”

  Lawrence Ferlinghetti

  “The most beautiful, outrageously brilliant poetry in the world.”

  Björk

  Contents

  BLACK TATTOOS

  Black Tattoos (The Suicides of Hart Crane and Harry Crosby)

  COME ALIVE AND BURN

  Around the World

  Superglue

  Diadem Court

  Reported Sightings

  A Day in the Life

  Soho Kids in Retro—(pop song)

  ET Conference

  Harold Robbins

  Peppering Strawberries

  Recorded Music

  Bonus Tracks

  Jumping the Queue

  Pink Roses

  Bank Holiday

  Just a Shot Away

  Geranium and Orange Chocolate

  100 Years On or So

  Workshop

  Holly’s Moves

  Chasing the Dragon

  Come Alive and Burn

  Maddox Street

  Elegy for Paul Lightborn

  Books

  Wounded Kink

  WHITE BOY BLUES

  White Boy Blues

  THREE SONGS FOR JAKE ARNOTT’S THE LONG FIRM

  Suck Grease Off Fingers

  Vada the Mystery

  The Casbah Lounge

  LOVE SONG

  Love Song by Jean Genet—(Goldfinger remix)

  NASTY HABITS: MICK TAYLOR’S ROLLING STONES

  Nasty Habits: Mick Taylor’s Rolling Stones

  VOODOO

  Johnny Spitfire

  Marta

  Voodoo

  The Velvet Underground Bootleg Series

  China Tea, Roses and Your Sort of Hat

  Eleonara Come Back

  Ruth Ellis Blues

  Listening to the Television Personalities

  Collecting Asa (Benveniste)

  Selling Truman Capote

  ‘Sorrow’—original and cover

  Charles Baudelaire, Voyage to Cythera—(sex tourist remix)

  DORIAN

  Dorian

  LYRICS

  Limehouse Blues—(Dorian)

  Sling City—(Henry Wotton)

  Black Honey

  Excess and Ruin—(Dorian)

  Sibyl Vane’s Blues

  A THOUSAND STARS IN MY EYES

  HQ

  Hanging On

  Ham Yard

  White Poppy Blues

  Roses and Guns

  Pills

  Retro Shirts

  Shares

  Addicted

  Never Too Busy To Be Beautiful

  Pulling the Cork

  J&B

  Sweet Thing

  Broken Hearted

  Global Spin

  Donald Fagen’s Top Ten

  What John Ashbery Eats for Lunch

  Mister Handsome

  Just a Shot Away

  Broadwick Street

  Vauxhall Bridge

  Russian Caravan

  Sequins

  Jean Cocteau Lines made into a Pop Song

  Lissiana

  Allium

  Maroon Dahlia

  Sandra

  Urban Cannibals

  Autumn Blues

  Depression Greys

  September Writing in the Rain

  Honey

  What I’m Doing

  Street Reading

  Elephants

  Yauatcha

  R.E.M.

  Yellow Chrysanthemums

  Rock ’n’ Roll Suicides

  What I’m Giving

  Non-Mainstream

  Frank

  AGAINST NATURE

  Ennui

  Indigo and Orange

  Flowers and Cannibals

  Uranian Blues

  A Delinquent Treat

  Frangipani

  Foggy Harbour Days

  Black Halo

  Disease and the Devil

  Saint in Black Velvet

  Me and My Coffin

  BLACK TATTOOS

  Black Tattoos

  The Suicides of Hart Crane and Harry Crosby

  Late afternoon, Tuesday, December 10, 1929, New York, was a grainy foggy one that smoked in off the cold harbours like old Kodak film stock. Harry Crosby, the sex-addicted, opium-hallucinating, suicide-obsessed poet and playboy, and his desperately susceptible on-and-off sex-partner, Josephine Rotch Bigelow, were due to join Hart Crane at the Lyceum (having already adopted Hart’s family name, when checking into the expensive Book-Cadillac Hotel in Detroit, earlier in the week, as Mr and Mrs Harry Crane), to see Leslie Howard playing the part of a ghost in a comedy called Berkeley Square.

  When Harry Crosby’s equally promiscuous wife, Caresse, grew anxious over his failure to turn up at the Lyceum, she called their mutual friend, Stanley Mortimer, in whose borrowed New York apartment at the Hotel des Artistes Harry and Josephine were staying, to have Mortimer go over there in person, while Caresse continued to worry at her husband’s no show.

  Alarmed by his failure to elicit any response from his repeated hammering on the bedroom door, and sensing an emergency, Mortimer got help to break open the lock, and found the fully clothed couple dead on blood-soaked pillows stained a dense A&E red. Harry was still holding the .25 calibre Belgian automatic pistol with which he had blown off Josephine’s head by shooting her through the left temple, two hours later, repeating the process by shattering his cranium with a bullet fired through his right temple, in what appeared to be a sensational suicide pact.

  The coroner’s report added that Harry’s nails and toes were painted bright red (he also had a penchant for pre-punk black), and that the soles of his feet were signatured with two black tattoos—one depicting a cross, and the other an Egyptian solar sign, representative of Harry’s own personalised sun worship. Curiously, Harry’s wedding ring was found scrunched on the floor, not on his finger, where he had always promised Caresse it would remain. Meanwhile, in his wallet, and typically for Harry, was a photo of Zora, the 13-year-old Berber girl he’d had sex with in Egypt, during a visit there six years earlier in 1923.

  Why the ruthlessly flattened gold wedding ring, stamped underfoot? Another bit of blood-hot solar imagery in Harry
’s inventive myth-making? Was it evidence suggesting a disruptive Josephine may have insisted he left Caresse for her (Josephine herself having married a Harvard man, Albert Smith Bigelow, six months earlier on June 21, 1929)? Did Harry, smashed on opium pills, murder Josephine as an act of delusional mania, and spend the next two excruciating hours evaluating what he’d done, and what subconsciously he’d always wanted to do, before coldly pulverising his brain with a single bullet’s impacted rip?

  What interests me in part is that in order to visualise what happened in that locked bedroom, and to recreate whatever we imagine led to a possible murder/suicide flashpoint, we have to stream our own internalised videos of re-made footage. We’re all imagining different concepts of how it was—the physical atrocity, the facial mutilation, the violently accelerated momentum precipitating the first shot: we’re all for a moment seeing red. But what if Harry died happy, after blowing Josephine apart, believing in his private mythology that a suicide pact was the ultimate union in establishing an extra-terrestrial gateway to the Sun?

  Gretchen Powell, who had lunch with Harry on that same day, December 10, 1929, related that he had told her, ‘The Rotch girl {Josephine} was pestering him; he was exasperated; she had threatened to kill herself in the lobby of the Savoy-Plaza if he didn’t meet her at once.’ Who wanted who in this accelerated car-chase of hysterically exhausted personalities across the next four to five hours in freezing downtown New York?

  Four days earlier on December 6, Harry had noted in his obsessively confessional diary, ‘New York. J sick as a cat from the opium. 1west 67 I see C. I fight with Josephine. I go to bed 2702 with C.’

  The day after his fight with Josephine, he recorded, ‘Modern Art Gallery, Van Gogh, Gauguin, Cezanne, Seurat. 1 Van Gogh still life 2 Gauguin decorative panels 3 Van Gogh room at Arles. J appears all young and sparkling her eyes goodbye in that grey city. Hart Crane party for H and C EE Cummings. Pack of cards I said I like Hearts the best I drew and I drew the Ace of Hearts the card I wanted.’

  I want to time-cut here to April 27, 1932, with the SS Orizaba, carrying amongst its 90 New York-bound passengers, the poet Hart Crane, and Peggy Cowley, his one failed attempt at a heterosexual relationship. It’s approximately ten minutes before noon, the ship’s four turbines churning a boiling wake 275 miles out of Havana: real-time, sea-time, no-time.

  The previous day a drunken Hart Crane disembarking at Havana was robbed, beaten and bruised after an assignation with a sailor, and had made a will, leaving his anticipated inheritance from his father’s estate to a sailor called Bob Stewart, explaining to the latter that he had ‘very wilfully killed’ himself, and concluding: ‘Dear Bob, I remember so many things, and I have loved you always, and this is my only end.’

  When Peggy Cowley, after going ashore at Havana to buy Hart a number of blues records he loved, returned to the ship alone, to find Hart, who had remained on board, seriously drunk at the bar, she had suffered the accident, while lighting a cigarette, of having a box of Cuban matches explode, scorching her wrist and leaving a painful burn demanding immediate medical attention. Peggy was sedated by the ship’s doctor, given a sleeping pill, and awoke late on the 27th to another block of Hart’s brutally self-destructive recriminations, on what was to be his last morning. Hart was already drinking Cutty Sark from the bottle, and complained out of booze-induced amnesia that he could remember nothing of the incidents on shore leading to his wallet and rings going missing. In the attempt to sober him and calm his erratic, unpredictable behaviour, Peggy insisted he order breakfast from the steward, and remembered Hart having grapefruit, cereal, eggs and bacon, and toast, and eating with the relish of someone who probably hadn’t done so for several days.

  Hart apparently had a saucer-shaped black eye, from his encounter with the marines, and, usually fastidious about his appearance, refused either to shave or dress, keeping a light topcoat on over his blue pyjamas. ‘I’m not going to make it, dear, I’m utterly disgraced,’ is what Peggy Cowley remembers him saying, before he left her cabin a few minutes short of noon.

  My friend Alan Detweiler often reminds me of his intention to die in optimal health, as a means of projective release from the body, and Hart Crane’s ingestion of pleasurable protein and carbohydrates, coffee and fruit juice was the nutritional incentive he needed to fire him up to jump over the ship’s rail, clear-eyed and not dodgily drunk.

  According to witnesses on deck, Crane walked rapidly to the Orizaba’s stern, without looking back, surrounded on all sides by an intense, aching blue window of seamless Caribbean sea and sky, took off his topcoat, and, neat to the last, tied it to the ship’s barrier-railing rather than drop it on deck. It’s interesting that care for his coat, in a very pronounced way, should be almost his last human act: putting the coat before himself. Hart apparently stood at the ship’s oxidised railings for an agonisingly extended 90 seconds, before vaulting them on an accelerated trajectory that pushed him out in an arc over the white-lettered stern, his kamikaze nosedive impacting with the sea as 150 lbs of mass shattering in a white explosive plume. A witness saw him surface once briefly, before disappearing forever from sight, the ship travelling at a relentless 17 knots as it crossed the Tropic of Cancer en route for New York.

  What was Hart’s last taste—salt water?—and his last emotion—optimally panicked shock?—before the turbines sucked him under in a concussed, spiralling vortex?

  Unlike Harry Crosby’s ripped open body, Hart’s was never reclaimed; the Orizaba jolting to a thunderous halt, and the captain immediately launching lifeboats to lucklessly patrol the unknown zone in search of Crane’s remains, before Captain James Blackladder put the ship back on course for New York.

  What happens immediately after we die? What is the signposting, if any, with which we become neurally acquainted? Is death like smashing a space-time window to access altered physics in another radically altered state? Is the shift in consciousness quantum, in allowing us to exist like a particle simultaneously in two places at once, or does the brain physically shutdown? And what’s out there to which consciousness can attach in a subatomic world of dark matter, vibrating strings, point particles, two-dimensional membranes, three-dimensional blobs and other p-brane objects?

  Harry Crosby died at 29, and Hart Crane at 32, both suicides sustained by an unstoppably accelerated momentum, a speed of life that felt inhibited by partial restraint, and aimed through a sort of volume-up euphoric overreach to crash into another dimension with the force of a Boeing’s nose cone rammed into a tower. Suicide seems to me to be motivated in some instances by the impulse to overtake the body’s physical resources in the attempt to connect with an imaginative reality projected into possible futures. It’s a frustration comparable to writing poetry or fiction, in that no matter how much you alter reality on the page, nothing happens off it. Sometimes out and about in Soho as my psychogeographic precinct, I get confused by quarters I’ve changed in recent novels of mine like The Grid, Here Comes The Nice and Space Oddity Gene, and start to believe that what I’ve imagined has become a physical reality. It’s this split between imagined and real time, and the acute realisation that the two are at variance, that so often leads to the sense of disappointment or disillusionment damping the creative sensibility. When you can’t physically realise what you’re mentally doing, you’re in sort of trouble. It’s like trying to fire a bullet into the fourth dimension.

  Harry Crosby was so death-obsessed that he carried cremation instructions on him all the time, throughout his recklessly hedonistic lifestyle in Paris in the 1920s as a writer, publisher, and decadent partyer, fuelled by substances like hashish, cocaine and opium, and sex-addicted on a random bisexual basis, his optimal need for kicks fully endorsed by his wife, Caresse, with whom he shared his ramped-up sensory experiences. As an avant-garde small press publisher, beginning with Editions Narcisse in 1927, Crosby, apart from publishing the likes of D.H. Lawrence, Ezra Pound and James Joyce, also initialised publication of a limited editi
on of Hart Crane’s epic poem The Bridge, through his Black Sun Press (finally released in 1930, after Crosby’s death) with tipped-in photos by Walker Evans, in a deluxe limited edition preceding the Boni & Liveright trade edition published later in the same year.

  Harry Crosby, like Hart Crane, was addicted to optimal sensation, which for him largely meant substance abuse, opportunistic sex, gambling recklessly, alcohol and compulsive shopping, particularly for rare books and jewellery. His trust fund, endlessly manipulated by selling stock from his future inheritance, was 12,000 dollars a year, a sum that he was capable of liquidating in a month. Harry lived like a hedonistic rock star with a groupie entourage he bought, wasted and mostly discarded. Born into Boston and banking, and the concern that is now J.P. Morgan Bank, Harry, rejecting his solid money past, moved to Paris, with his wife Caresse, and, most of the time stoned on hashish, began writing the explosively visionary poetry, flavoured by decadent aspects picked up from his readings of Baudelaire, Gerard de Nerval and Rimbaud. This he self-published in six volumes during his lifetime: Sonnets for Caresse (1925), Red Skeletons (1927), Transit of Venus (1928), Chariot of the Sun (1929), Mad Queen Tirades (1929) and, just weeks before his handgun suicide, Sleeping Together; A Book of Dreams (1929). But, in many ways, the wired, hyperactive, psychoactively altered state known as Harry Crosby is best read through his extraordinary, accelerated, counterintuitive diaries, obsessively maintained day by day, and published selectively as Shadows Of The Sun by Black Sparrow Press (1977).

 

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