by Dawn, Stacy
He bent down to pull on the trunk release, careful not to touch the lean length of leg peeking out below a faded denim skirt. “You get the babe. I’ll grab the stroller.”
Uncertainty in her brow line was broken by a spark of excitement twitching her lips. His grin broadened when she followed him out and opened the back door.
Marshall went around to the trunk and pulled out the folded down stroller. He raised a brow and leaned it against the tire hub just as Amy backed out of the door with the baby carrier in hand.
Her chuckle at his expression echoed in his chest as she reached for the contraption.
“Believe me, it’s easier going up than down.” And she proved it with a simple press of the handle and quick snap of her arm. “See?”
He stepped back to let her mess with securing the carrier into the foreign device. As she bent over, his gaze was drawn to the curved backside covered by the faded denim.
Marshall blew out a slow breath and turned away from the dangerous thoughts popping into his brain.
“Are you sure about this?” she asked as she pushed the wheels into a straight position next to him. “I feel like we’re trespassing.”
“Would it help if I told you I know the owner, too? Trust me, he won’t mind you taking a look around.”
An excited glint touched her eyes. “I guess.”
He matched her shorter strides as they made their way down the long drive. “You guess? Haven’t you been wanting your own inn since before I even knew you?”
“Yes, but…” Her momentum slowed. “How did you—”
“You told me. That afternoon by Miller’s creek, remember?”
Amy remembered, all right. To hide the burning in her cheeks, she pushed the stroller forward and swallowed a gulp of warm air. That Marshall remembered her rambled musings, especially in light of the rest of that afternoon, surprised her. Her skin tingled and heated up with the memories of his solid arms around her, his damp chest pressed against hers and…
She choked back the unbidden visions. “This is, uh, still just a dream. I don’t know if I’d be able to afford a place like this. There’s Hank’s insurance policy, and maybe when the house sells…”
Tension turned the air crisp and tight, filling the small spaces left by the overt heat. Smart move, Amy. In trying to get out of one uncomfortable situation, she’d backed right into a worse one. How could she have brought Hank’s name up in front of Marshall?
“I…didn’t—”
His large hand waved it off, but he didn’t look at her, instead finding apparent interest in the garden gates to the left of the house.
“Do you know how long this place has been up for sale,” she asked quickly, reaching for a neutral topic. The fact that he was even here talking to her civilly was a miracle in itself, and she didn’t want to lose the tentative truce.
“Couple years.” Marshall pointed to where he had been looking over the gate. “The gardens extend to a little creek running over the back of the property. A gazebo is there, along with a set of swings and small bridged walkway over the stream. Was a pretty place back in its heyday.”
He continued the descriptive commentary right up to the porch steps. The boyish grin on his face, like he was holding his breath for a positive reaction from her, took her by surprise, stealing the breath from her lungs. But she didn’t even have a chance to catch up on that moment or reply before Marshall reached down, took a firm hold of the whole stroller and carried it safely up the six steps to the front of the veranda.
Following, she waited while he punched in the combination to the small lockbox on the doorknob.
“How did you know the combination?”
“Uh, Lee-Ann, the real estate agent. She always uses the same code,” he answered quickly, pulling out the key.
“Well, that doesn’t seem too smart.”
“Small towns,” he muttered as he fiddled with the door and pushed it open.
A smile deepened his five o’clock shadow as he took off his Stetson and swept it forward before her. “Your castle awaits, m’lady.”
It was hard not to let her own smile falter until she walked passed him. The moment was bittersweet, reminding her of how Marshall used to be with her—always kind and courteous, often a little silly, so easy to be with—and so different from the sullen, angry man he appeared to have turned into.
Did I do that? Was it her fault he’d grown such a bitter side? Or was it just her who pulled that out of him?
Guilt took another bite out of her soul.
“Amy?”
Realizing she was blocking the doorway, she hid her remorse behind a push of the stroller across the hardwood entryway.
The musty smell of a home closed for a long time brushed her nostrils, but neither her guilt nor the staleness could subdue the excitement that caught at the carved maple front desk tucked into a little inlet beside a matching banister leading up to the second landing.
A step to the left took her to the doorway of a beautiful, bright salon; gray sheets covered furniture in front of a prominent fireplace and mantel built to be adorned for every holiday season.
Marshall’s arm came over her shoulder to point into the room.
“There’s a small alcove and breakfast room through that door.”
His cologne mingled with the heat of male. Her knees trembled and she wondered if this was wise; simply being in his presence for a few moments ignited all sorts of dormant feelings.
“And the dining area and kitchen are through the door to the right.”
“N-nice.” Ducking back, she grabbed a quick glimpse of her daughter to assure herself she still slept, and proceeded to the safety of another room. A large dining table that could seat at least twenty lay covered with a floral sheet; above, a chandelier graced with a kaleidoscope of candle-shaped lights was covered in a thick layer of dust. In the corner sat a couple saw horses with the crown molding laid across their chipped surface. A few tools sat amongst the sawdust and peanut shells scattered in the corner.
At least someone had been trying to do a bit of renovation. Maybe she could work a trade of some sort to get them to finish. Laundry, meals…there were lots of possibilities.
And as the list grew, she noted the large open doorway at the other end where maple cupboards ringed a large island in the kitchen.
“It’s bigger than I first thought. I wonder how many rooms there are.”
Turning back, she found Marshall rested back casually against the front desk, arms crossed over his broad chest.
“I believe there are eight rooms upstairs and two guest cabins ‘nestled in the garden’ as Mrs. Johansson used to say.”
Amy grinned, excitement filling her with every new feature she found. More lists of minor renovations to get the place up and running formed as she practically skipped to the staircase.
On the first step, however, she stopped and glanced back to the stroller. She bit her lip, assessing the stairs, and then decided just taking the carrier with her would be easier.
Stepping back down, she reached for the handle, but Marshall’s hand covered hers. She raised her gaze to find handsome blue eyes smiling down at her.
“Go on, I’ll keep an eye on her.”
“No, you don’t have to do that.” He’d done so much already; she didn’t want to impose on him with a newborn who could wake at any moment.
His hand squeezed gently and lifted hers to the banister.
“Go on. It’s no problem. The Peanut and I have an understanding.”
A flip in her chest started her heart pounding as she glanced down at the hand—bigger than her daughter’s head at the moment. Strong and protective.
The lump forming in her throat at his thoughtfulness allowed her only a nod of appreciation, and something more that she didn’t have the right to consider anymore.
The door of her heart behind which she’d locked the ghosts of their past shuddered and shook, threatening to open again. She turned away, taking the ste
ps quickly with plans to take a short, quick look, and then leave before her thoughts took her further down a dead path.
At the top landing, she made the mistake of glancing down the stairs just as Marshall tucked the blanket around her daughter’s shoulders. She pressed her lips together against the emotions swelling up. Hormones, Amy. Just hormones. She still didn’t have control over the stupid things yet, so the emotional lump in her throat was only due to the sight of a sweet moment—at least that was the mantra she maintained as she darted down the hallway on her right.
A quick glance found carved beds and wardrobes of various shapes and sizes in all the rooms, ensuite bathrooms in the first two of the four rooms. The last two doors revealed a large bathroom with a claw-foot tub in one, and the largest linen closet she had ever seen, packed full with sheets, blankets, towels and other necessities for multiple guests. All leading her to believe that many of the amenities and furniture would then come with the sale of the property. That alone would save a bundle in start-up costs.
Excitement got the better of her as she found similar rooms and items down the other hall. Returning to the landing, she pushed aside the dusty drapes and stared out over a large backyard bordered by overgrown gardens. The two, small individual cabins Marshall had mentioned sat to the left while sun-sparkling water of the creek trickled behind a fair-sized gazebo. All implanting images of what could be. And she could see it all, every flower, every newly painted fencepost, every piece of wallpaper, all fresh, new and inviting.
But reality slowly niggled in. If Hank’s house didn’t sell for the minimum asking price, putting her money into a business right now could be a huge financial risk if it didn’t work out. But then again, if it did work…
I’d definitely have to do my homework. Perhaps she could talk with the realtor, better yet, the sellers themselves to come to some mutually acceptable arrangements. Calculations ran rampant in her mind. She would need a business plan and financial statements and—
All thoughts ceased with the timbre of the rich voice reaching her ears, quiet, calm, endearing.
“That-a-girl. Just lay their quiet for a little longer while your mama takes a peek around the place.”
Amy turned and took a hesitant step to the banister.
“You should have seen her face when she walked in the door,” Marshall continued from below, a tiny fist hooked onto his finger. “You’d have thought Santa just put a life-size doll house under her Christmas tree.”
His soft chuckle that followed stole her breath and burned behind her eyes. He’d always seemed to get her like no one ever had, not even her own mother. But Marshall always had; she never knew how, never needed to know back then, it was just…right.
So much lost. So much that should have been if only I’d…
No. She wasn’t going to go there. Her daughter’s bright eyes, staring at the newness of the world, pulled her back to the present. Charlotte was her world now, and she planned to make it the best she could. Maybe, just maybe this B&B could be that, a new start, for both of them.
And if somewhere down the line Marshall could ever find it in himself to forgive her, and they were lucky enough to have him as a friend again, then she’d add that to her blessing count every night. And if she spent those lonely nights dreaming about him and what might have been, then that would be her private hell to endure.
When she could focus through the watery haze, his deep blue eyes were staring up at her, and she was too afraid to interpret the soft smile on his rugged face as hope.
Marshall tipped his head, the haunting expression on Amy’s face cutting him to the core. What was wrong? Was it the house? Her daughter? Could it have something to do with him?
The last disturbed him the most. Look at what happened last time he let his heart go there.
He pointed back through the dining room. “If you go this way, you’ll get a chance to see the kitchen,” he offered in hopes of distracting her from her sad thoughts and focus both their attention elsewhere. “There’s a back door through the mudroom at the back, too.”
She nodded, but the smile gracing the rose lips didn’t reach her eyes as she hurried down the stairs. Closing white knuckles over the stroller handle, she pushed it past him without raising her gaze.
The wheels of the carriage took on a hollow tone over the linoleum floor, echoing in the empty kitchen as he followed at a slower pace, stopping to lean against the doorframe. She looked so right there in a big country kitchen. The sun coming in through the large window above the sink cast an alternate image over the current one: hair soft around her face, a streak of flour on her cheek as she kneaded dough and laughed at her daughter in a little playpen in the corner…
“Marshall…Marshall?”
He blinked out of the remarkably clear picture. “Sorry, what did you say?”
“I asked if you were okay. You had kind of a funny look on your face.”
When the back of her fingers reached toward his cheek, he cleared his throat, shook his head and extended a hand toward the screen door at the back of the kitchen. “You need to see the backyard. Like I said, there’s a creek there, and swings. I bet Charlotte would like them when she gets older.”
Amy dropped her hand, a nervous smile trembling her lips. “Are you sure you’re not getting commission for this? You’re an awfully good salesperson.”
He choked out a laugh, taking the reins of the stroller to maneuver it for her through the mudroom and out on the back patio deck. “Nope.”
A snorted snuffle came from the car seat, and she reached down to shake a pink rattle thing connected to the side of the carrier. Charlotte’s big eyes, just like her mother’s, turned to find the new sound.
Amy commandeered the stroller to park it next to the porch swing. She then moved to stand by the railing, gazing out over the gardens, bungalows and gazebo. “This is really beautiful, has so much potential.”
Marshall watched her, couldn’t help it. The dip of her left brow over one eye was a sure sign she was thinking hard about this. He glanced around the yard, back at the porch and through the kitchen door. She could do this, he had no doubt. Many a night he’d watched her deal with guests or various employees as he’d waited for her after work. No matter the crisis, she’d kept her cool and taken care of it, all with a smile on her face, just like she wore now.
The wind picked up a floret of her peach scent and spun it around him until he was dizzy with it, and his boots echoed against the wooden boards of the porch to stand beside her.
She slumped a hip onto the rail and leaned her head against the beam. “This is silly. What am I doing? Even if there was some way I could afford to buy the place, there would be so many things to do to get it ready for guests. And I have Charlotte to think about now.” Twinkle-tinged hazel eyes turned toward him. “Am I crazy to even consider it?”
The playful wind whipped a tendril of her burnished copper hair across her cheek, and the need to reassure her won out over the need to keep his distance. His finger rose of its own accord to brush the wayward strand back behind her ear, the movement both old and new at the same time.
“I don’t think you’re crazy. And I know you can do this.” His gaze roamed over her face. “When you have a chance at fulfilling your dreams, you have to take it, grab onto it with both hands and don’t let it go. If you don’t, sometimes it can get swept right out from under you.”
“Marshall, I’m so—”
He moved his hand to her mouth and shook his head. “Don’t, please. It’s okay.” Maybe not totally, but the last thing he wanted was for her to apologize again. The words had just slipped out; he honestly hadn’t meant them in any accusing way.
Her hand covered his, pulling it away from her face and clasping it tight against her chest. It rose and fell as a heavy breath escaped her lips before she spoke. “There’s something I need to ask you.”
Weakened by the beautiful face staring at him so earnestly, he nodded.
“That nig
ht, at the honky tonk, you said…you said you came back with a ring. W-was that…true?”
Chapter Ten
Every muscle in his body tightened, his jaw so rigid he couldn’t speak even if he wanted to. He wrenched his hand from her grasp and turned away from her searching gaze.
A quick intake of breath sounded behind him.
“It is true.”
He grasped the porch railing tight enough to split it in two. This wasn’t a conversation he wanted right now.
“My God, Marshall. If you wanted to marry me, why didn’t you tell me, or at least call? One call that first night away and then not a word from you in five months and—”
“Whoa, hold it right there.” He spun on her, his control snapping. What right did she have to be angry? “I called, constantly. I left messages with your mother, on the answering machine, and when Beverly said you were home, I’d be on hold waiting for you to pick up, until your mom came back on with some excuse of you being busy or just left. But I kept calling, kept the faith even when…”
Her chestnut hair shook incessantly. “N-no, you didn’t. You couldn’t have. I waited, I checked the answering machine…I believed for weeks that you would call, defended you to everyone, especially my mother. But you never did. You never called.”
Now it was his turn to be confused at her adamancy. Marshall wiped a hand down his chin and took a deep breath, trying to focus, to formulate a coherent answer amongst the painful ghosts screaming for justice.
He turned away to lean once again on the railing. He couldn’t look at the disbelief and concern in her eyes, because if they were real, if she was telling the truth…
Small, jagged pieces of a cruel puzzle began to form.
“I left messages with your mom or on the machine every day for the first month,” he began, focusing on the pasture fence in the distance to keep the anger at the memory from bursting forth. “One of the last times she said point-blank that I wasn’t good enough for you—that you wanted, and deserved, more than a rodeo cowboy jumping from town to town and bed to bed.”
He bit the last word off, his eyes squeezing shut against the realization of his own mistakes, the responsibility of his own bad choices in this whole mess. When he finally opened them, he turned his chin toward her, but couldn’t meet her gaze. “And she was right. You did deserve more. So, I stayed, and rode harder, pushed myself to be better. I thought if I could win the season, I’d have enough for a down payment for your dre—”
