by Sammie J
He turns and walks up the stairs but shouts back, “She will, and I have you're back brother, I always will.” Then he's gone and I'm left with the agony of if I’ve made the right choice or not.
I tell Cruz and Saul that I wanted to leave straight away as I knew Noah would try and talk me out of leaving. It didn't feel right, but I thought it was best all round. I didn't want to go without Noah knowing why, so I wrote him a letter. It basically told him where I was going, but the main thing was I wanted him to tell Peppa that I loved her. I stood there with the note in my hand not knowing where to leave it.
Cruz comes into the room, “Come on we need to get out of here.” He walks over to me and sees the note.
I look at him, “I don't know where to leave it.”
He takes it out my hand and sticks it to the TV, “Noah can't miss your dear John now.” And he walks out the room as I mutter, “Twat” under my breath.
I take one more look around me and then leave the house. As the van pulls out the driveway a taxi pulls in and I see a flash of blonde hair.
My guilt eats away at me on the drive to the house, so as soon as we get there I phone Noah. He answers, “Hi Noah, have you read my note yet?”
“Juan where are you, what note? I have just got home.”
I sigh, “I left a note on the TV to say we have left and come back to the old house.”
Noah shouts down the phone at me telling me he brought Peppa home and the word fuck leaves my mouth. I start to question myself. Did I make the right choice? I open my mouth to tell Noah I will come over later to see her, but he lets me know he isn't happy and hangs up on me.
I need to feed before I go over, so I make a quick dash for Dolly. My phone rings as I'm about to make my way to Noah's house. I answer to a desperate Peppa, who says something has happened to Lara and she is worried about what Noah might do and tells me where he is.
When I find him, I have to pull him of Eric. If I didn't, I feared Noah was going to kill him and where would that leave us. As I held Eric in the air, my thoughts turned to draining him dry but that wasn't what I was about, so I used my mind control on him. I turned to Noah and could see the anger there, he wanted Eric dead. I take Noah's face in my hands and make him look at me.
“Noah he's not worth it, let the police deal with him.”
He shakes his head, “He hurt my sister Juan, she was lying there, her face was battered. I want to kill him, he deserves to die.”
I kiss his forehead, “I'm not saying he doesn't, but what about Lara and Peppa? You will be a killer Noah. How do you think Lara will feel knowing you killed Eric? Do you think she will look at you the same? And what about Peppa do you think she will love you still? Stand by you? Are you ready to lose those you love because that is what will happen Noah? Peppa is our forever, she's your forever.”
I let go of his face and stand. I put my hand out and he takes it and I pull him up for a hug and he mouths into my neck, “I'm sorry, I wanted to protect her, so he couldn't do it again.”
I kiss the top of his head, “I know, it will be ok. You ready to go to the hospital to see how Lara is?” He nods a yes.
When we get to the hospital I watch Peppa and Noah hug. I haven't felt jealously before but in that moment I felt it. Noah leaves to find out about his sister, but not before he makes it clear I need to make things right with Peppa.
He's right, but I didn't need to worry as I heard Peppa's thoughts which made me smile. It wasn't long before I held her in my arms and her mouth belonged to me again. I held her so tight because I knew she wanted me as much as I wanted her, but there was so much left unsaid. Noah came back and nearly broke down again, but we all showed our love for each other as the three of us came together.
When we leave the hospital I tell Peppa that Noah needs her, but I asked her if I could meet with her tomorrow and talk and she says yes. I say goodnight and make my way back to the house.
I was determined to pick Peppa up from work this time, there was no Jacob to stand in my way and the excitement built over this little thing. As soon as I enter the Café and she saw me, her thought hit me and everything changed as she saw me for the man I was. I made my way to her, and I was suddenly attacked by a boy who thought I was sexy. I looked over at Peppa who stood and laughed. It was down to her that the kid finally let go of me as she took photos for him.
We both laughed when Peppa managed to get him out the door, I needed to get used to that sort of thing happening, but it didn't mean I had to like it and I could see it made Peppa uneasy. I needed to kiss her so bad, so when I did I made sure she knew who she belonged to. On the way to Noah's house I explained to her that nothing people did would make me want her any less. I made sure she realized I was hers.
I sit on the sofa in the basement waiting for Peppa, going over in my head what I needed to tell her. She needed to know it all. I hoped I could explain it so she understood and accepted what I was about to tell her. I was nervous and from the look on Peppa's face she was too. I needed to get this right. I needed her.
I talk about the way the world sees us as monsters and I talk about being Entwined and how I was so happy to have them both. We also spoke of trust and what it meant for the both of us and then she said the words I have been waiting to hear. The one's that made me fall for her that little bit more, she accepts me. I wipe her tears away. She doesn't see mine. She had no idea what she had done. She made me feel whole again. She made me feel human.
She asked about blood next and this is the subject I needed her to understand more than anything. It was also the one that I didn't want her worrying about right now. So, I told her and I made sure she knew, it was something that would happen at a later date. I wanted to enjoy our time together before we went down that road. I read her thoughts and found she was having a hard time with the blood thing and she resolved herself to living for the now, which made me happy.
We sat holding each other for a while and I enjoyed her body against mine and my dick started to stir, I wanted her. She suddenly asked me how old I was. I told her, but I quickly had her on her back and taking the whole thing somewhere else, as I didn't want to talk about my past.
I soon heat things up between us and when she thinks about my tattoo and licking it I lose it and take my top off and let her come face to face with my snake. She drives me crazy by licking and kissing her way up and down my body. My dick is hard and my thoughts turn to having her mouth sucking on it. It seemed we had the same thought, at the same time, as her hands go to my jeans to unbutton them. I don't tell her Noah has walked in as I know he wants this too and I watch him squirm with pleasure as he realizes what has happened between Peppa and I.
I walk over to Noah and whisper to him, “Your tongue will know every part of me very soon.” And I give his ass a squeeze. I let them both know that I want them to come to me on Thursday so we can all be together before I leave for the tour. I see the sadness on Peppa's face as she realizes it will be our last night together and I vow to make sure she never forgets the first time we all come together as one.
Thursday I wake with the excitement of finally becoming a threesome in the sexual sense. I thought of doing the candles and rose petals etc. But decided against it. They would only see them for five minutes before the love making commenced. I asked Cruz to let Peppa and Noah in and to tell them to come straight to my room. I also asked Saul if he would drop off a takeaway for them to eat and I asked them both not so nicely to make themselves disappear for the night.
I took a shower and decided not to bother with clothes, as they would only have to come off again and I laid on my bed waiting for them. My hand soon found my dick as images of what I wanted to do with them both played through my mind. I knew when they had arrived as my body buzzed with energy. I loved the look on their faces as they walked into the room, watching me touch myself. I loved the look on Peppa's face when we both undressed her and took her nipples in our mouths and sucked them. I loved the way she looked at me as I cupp
ed her in my hand and told her she was mine. And oh did I love the fucking hell out of her when I rubbed my dick against Noah's and kissed him hard as I know that turned her on big time.
The biggest turn on was watching Noah fuck her from behind as I fucked her mouth. This was the moment that the three of us became one. The moment that I watched the two loves of my life scream out their pleasure as I do. I watch them both eat and it feels so normal, so right, and a sadness then creeps in as I think of leaving them both for two months. It's going to be hard and unbearable.
We all lie back down on the bed and let our hands explore each other and then I get my taste of Peppa. Noah and I show her how much she is loved by us both. Exhaustion takes over Noah and Peppa and I watch them sleep. I watch Peppa and my love for her overflows. I need her one last time, so I wake her. I show her how much I will miss her by taking my time and I make passionate love to her. I hold her as she cries in my arms and once again, I shed a tear she doesn't see. We hold on to each other as we both know our time apart is drawing nearer. My last words to her before sleep took her again were, “I love you so much, and you are my forever.” I kissed her lips softly and let my body relax as dawn came.
Chapter 28 (PEPPA)
Noah hugs me from behind as we get ready to leave for work. We both look down at Juan as he sleeps. He looks so much younger in this relaxed state. My heart hurts knowing that I won't see him for a while. I want to climb back into bed and into Juan's arms, so I'm there when he awakes and we can repeat last night’s activities. I step away from Noah and bend down and give Juan one last kiss, he shows no sign of feeling it and I tell myself I'm not going to cry. Noah also kisses him and says goodbye. He takes my hand and leads me to the door, I turn one last time to look at Juan and mouth the words, “I love you.” To him knowing he won't hear them.
Noah drops me of at work and he makes sure he hugs me that little bit tighter and lets me know he loves me. I hide behind a fake smile at work and tell myself two months will go fast and he will be back in my arms and we can really start this relationship.
It's a quiet day which gives me time to think mostly about last night, which does bring a smile to my face and the images of my two naked men making me scream with pleasure play in my head. Monica pops in for a coffee and we arrange to meet up over the weekend, some girl time will do me good. Noah texts me through the day, making sure I'm ok and asks is there anything special I want to do over the weekend. I text back and say we can talk about it later.
Work drags on and my mood does lighten, especially when I listen to a group of girls who are all sitting around a computer looking at a website dedicated to Viper. When they leave, I sit and take a look at the website and drool over the photos of Juan and my heart sinks at not being able to touch him right now. I hear the door go and Noah walks in. I close the computer down along with the others. His phone goes as I go behind the counter to make sure everything is locked and shut down.
When I walk back to the front I see the smile on his face and I hear him say, “About twenty minutes.” And he hangs up. I'm ready to go and I walk over to him. He opens his arms and I'm gathered into them. He kisses the top of my head and says, “I have a surprise for you.”
I look up at him, “What is it?”
He touches the tip of my nose with his finger, “The sooner you get in the car and we get home, you will find out.”
I smile up at him, take his hand and drag him out the café to his car. I badger him all the way home to tell me what my surprise is, but he keeps his mouth shut.
As we pull up at Noah's house I see a figure standing at the door and I know who it is instantly because of the heat that runs through my body. I'm out the car even before Noah stops and I run into the arms of Juan and bury my face into his neck. I hear him laugh, “Anyone would think you were pleased to see me.”
I look up into his face, “I thought you were leaving right away.”
Noah comes and stands behind me and says, “You didn't think he would leave without saying goodbye.”
I lower my head so they can't see the tears. Juan’s hand brings my face back up to look at him. “Don't cry, it's only two months and you will come visit and we can talk on face time. I love you both and I'm going to miss you so much. I couldn't go without feeling your lips one more time.”
His lips find mine and my knees buckle at the passion Juan puts into our last kiss. Noah moves around so we can all hug each and he pulls Juan nearer to him and places a soft kiss to his lips and says, “I will miss you.”
Juan pulls us both tighter into him and his voice breaks when he says, “You two are killing me, look after each other for me. I love you both such much.”
We all turn when we hear a beep and watch a van with Saul and Cruz pulling up. Juan steps back from us both, “I have to go. I will phone you later tonight.” He kisses us both again and walks over to the van.
I watch as he opens the door and I shout his name. I run over to him and with tears rolling down my face I tell him, “Please come back to me.”
He leans his forehead on mine and says, “You can count on it.”
I feel Noah come up behind me and put his arm around me. Juan softly kisses my lips and mouths I love you into them, then he gets into the van and it pulls away with us all waving at each other. I try and stay strong for Noah but as he sleeps, I cry silently to myself.
Saturday is spent with Monica. We visit Lara and bump into Noah and his parents. I find out that Lara will be allowed home on Monday and is going to stay with her parents for a few weeks. She lets me know she can't wait to get back to work.
I let Noah know that I'm off shopping and he whispers in my ear in front of everyone, “Buy something sexy, so I can take it off with my teeth later.” I blush as his parents are standing there and then I blush more when he kisses me in front of them.
We say our goodbyes and Monica and I spend all afternoon trying on clothes and having fun. I don't want the fun to end as I don't want to be left with my thoughts, so I suggest a pub. We end up staying a few hours and I end up texting Noah to come and pick us up, as we ended up having one to many. Noah comes to our rescue and takes Monica home and I fall asleep. He wakes me when we get home and tells me to head for a shower to sober up.
When I finish I lie on the bed in a towel and that’s when Noah comes in talking on his phone. He climbs onto the bed and turns the phone so I can see Juan's face and I smile up at him. They both joke about me being drunk and Noah says he is going to take advantage of me and Juan says he wishes he was there to join in. With being slightly drunk, I keep telling Juan that I love him and I kiss the screen. When Noah ends the call, he takes full advantage of me twice before I pass out.
Come Monday, Noah phones to tell me the papers are there to sign. So, after work I go over to Devil Records and read the papers to say that the flat is now in Lara's name, and another form saying I'm now a tenant at Noah's house and will pay half the bills, and then I sign on the dotted line.
We celebrate with Chinese and a bottle of wine. Noah tells me about the flat being cleaned and cleared. He tells me he had everything that was worth saving boxed up and the boxes will be delivered tomorrow. I kissed him my thanks and hoped that Lara didn't let Eric anywhere near my room when they stayed there, as I thought of the jewelry that had been handed down to me.
When the boxes were delivered, I went through them. I found some jewelry was missing which upset me and I decided the best thing to do was to start fresh and put the burglary behind me. I kept bits and pieces that meant a lot to me but I chucked everything else.
As the week went on, work kept me busy and Noah kept me busy in his bed. Juan kept to his promise and phoned each night. We found some interesting ways to have phone sex and found that Juan liked to watch. Juan would make me laugh by telling me how much Cruz was enjoying the attention and had a new girl each night.
On Thursday, when Noah picked me up he told me he had to travel to Scotland, as there was a problem with the venue
that was booked for Viper to play. He asked if I wanted to go, but I decided not to as he would be working and Juan slept in the day and took to the stage at night, so I would be alone and I could do that at home.
Noah comes over to the Café at lunch time Friday and swept me off my feet and into his arms with a mouth-watering kiss. I swear he loves to embarrass me in front of others and we said our goodbyes. He left for Scotland and promised to ring me as soon as he arrived.
Monica comes over Friday night and we have a few drinks and watch a girly film and swoon over Johnny Depp. Juan and Noah phone and we face time, but as Monica is there it's short and sweet and Noah has to go and sort out the manager as he put it.
Saturday was hard, I was on my own and it hit me how much I missed Juan and Noah. I was beginning to wish I had gone. Juan phoned me and said he hadn't seen much of Noah. He was getting ready to go on stage and he promised to phone me later to let me know how things went.
Juan was very careful not to tell me if anyone had made a pass at him but that night he tells me a woman managed to make it on the on the stage and sat on his lap and kissed him. I wasn't sure if I wanted to know, but then I was glad he told me instead of hiding it. It did put a dampen on our chat as my insecurities started to surface, but Juan kept telling me that he loved me, that I was the only woman for him and he hated being away from him. He also made me promise that I would visit him next weekend as he really needed me in his arms and to be inside me.
After I said my goodbyes to Juan, I text Noah to say goodnight and he texted back saying he was sorry, it had been a nightmare and he would phone me tomorrow and explain everything when he was on the road to come home. That night I didn't sleep well, as I had nightmares of Juan being surrounded by beautiful women with their hands all over his body.
Noah phoned me about 4pm Sunday afternoon, “I'm so sorry Peppa, it has been nothing but one thing after another. I thought I would phone the other venues up here to make sure everything was still set for when Viper played there. And would you believe it, a couple of venues had over booked. It would be easier if I were able to understand the Scottish accent, as it took me three hours to sort it all out.”
