by Fisher, K. T
I didn't think about it looking that way but she's not right. She doesn't fucking get it.
"You can't care what the media prints Kendal. Your friends and family are the only ones that matter."
"Yeah well I care."
The rest of the drive is quiet. I need to meet John and Paul before we go shopping. They're the bands bodyguards and I hate using them but I want to keep Kendal safe. Because she's in one of her little stubborn moods she doesn't even kick up a fuss when I introduce her to the huge men in suits. She politely says hello and turns back in her seat, I don't miss the glance John and Paul share. Probably thinking Kendal's different to all the other girls they've been around from the band. Thank fuck for that.
Chapter 9
We pull up behind Harrods at the private entrance. I prepare myself and wait for when Kendal figures out where we are.
"Why are we here Jax?"
I ignore her and get out the car. When I open her door and hold her hand as she gets out I answer.
"Before we shop for Finley, I want to treat you."
She takes her hand out of mine and crosses them over her chest.
"No way Jax. You're not spending your money on me."
I see John and Paul both look shocked at Kendal for saying this. They thought she would be some gold digging woman, Kendal's nothing like that.
"Look, I don't care what you say. I am treating you today Kendal."
I wrap my arm around her back and guide her to the entrance of the shop. Kendal tries to hold her body to the spot.
"Fine. You stay here and I will go and get a personal shopper to spend as much as I want on you."
She eyes me and I see her cracking. She doesn't like that idea at all. So I taunt her some more.
"No limits."
Her arms open and she huffs loudly as she storms to where John and Paul are waiting at the entrance.
"I cannot believe you Jax Parker."
I hold back my laugh because I don't want to piss her off even more. I want her to enjoy today.
Inside Harrods it isn't so bad. Nobody approaches us but that's probably because some of these women probably don't know who I am and the fact we have two huge bodyguards standing beside us scares them off.
Kendal gives everything a quick glance but not for too long. Probably thinking that if I see her looking at something for longer than a minute I will buy it for her. To my relief, a saleswoman approaches us asking if we need any help.
"Yes actually. I want to spoil my girl here. You think you could help?"
I see the woman’s eyes sparkle and I ignore Kendal's glare from beside me.
"Follow me."
The saleswoman takes us to a private room with two sofas and two changing rooms. As Kendal talks to the woman I tell John and Paul they can wonder for a bit while we're in here. I see the saleswoman leave in a hurry, eager to spend my money. As soon as she is gone, Kendal lets me have it.
"I can't believe you. You said if I came you wouldn't do this."
"But you weren’t shopping."
"Yes I was, I just didn't see anything that I liked."
"Liar."
She stares at me for a while and then laughs. She sits down next to me on the little sofa and huffs.
"You’re still so stubborn Jax.”
I scoff.
"Me? You need to look at yourself woman."
We happily chat until only fifteen minutes later the saleswoman returns with two other girls. They are each rolling in a clothes rack full of clothes. I see Kendal's eyes widen and she whispers.
"Oh my God."
~Kendal~
When the pushy saleswoman comes back she has two young girls with her. They are all pushing along a clothes rack full of clothes. How many clothes do they think Jax is going to buy me? I really don't want Jax to buy me anything, especially from here! Jax shouldn't be buying me clothes but I know how much of a stubborn man he can be. No matter how much I don't want him to, I know I won't be able to change his mind.
To my dismay the saleswoman, who we now know as Janet, has stayed with Jax and me while I try the clothes on.
The first outfit she gives me is gorgeous. This is totally me. Skinny purple jeans, simple white top with a black leather jacket. I hesitate to try it on though. I know these clothes aren't going to be cheap. I look to Jax, he's sitting, leaning back on one of the sofa's with his right foot over his left knee.
"Jax, why don't we go somewhere else?"
Maybe somewhere cheaper? Jax's smile drops and he comes to stand in front of me.
"Kendal."
Jax places his hand softly on my cheek and strokes his thumb along my cheekbone.
"I want to treat you, no arguments."
I open my mouth to argue but see Jax’s face harden, so I don't answer and walk into the changing room where Janet has already hung up some outfits.
I decide to try the outfit that I like the most on first, which is the one Janet showed me before I started to complain to Jax. I slip on the purple jeans which feel incredibly soft and then reach for the white top. Oh shit. I was wrong. This isn't a simple white top. Janet had tucked it into the leather jacket backwards so I didn't see the front. On the front of the white top is a big Chanel sign. It's a fucking Chanel top! I close my eyes as I put it over my head because I don't want to see how much it is. I look in the mirror when I put on the leather jacket and my eyes widen. I look fucking hot! Like a hot rocker chick. I love this outfit but I don't want Jax to buy it for me.
"Come on Kendal."
I don't wait any longer. I take in a calming breath and open the door to the changing room and walk out into the mirrored room. I notice how Jax's eyes widen a little when I come out. As soon as I see that little reaction from him I hide my smile. I make a choice to enjoy this and make Jax suffer in return. Suddenly trying on these clothes doesn't seem so bad now and I spin around at Janet's praise before I try on my next outfit.
An hour later I'm trying on the last item of clothing. I haven't told Jax but I have had some favorites out of all the clothes I've tried on. Every time I come out Janet says yes or no and when I hand it out before trying something else she puts them onto the yes or no hanger. The yes section is looking pretty big and I cringe when I see it but I notice that all my favorites are in it.
Now I have on a black fitting dress that I know Jax is going to love. Jax sure has suffered through my dress up game. With every outfit I have tried on his eyes got heavier with lust. I enjoyed it very much and I'm going to enjoy watching his reaction to this dress. I really like this dress and I don't care if Janet says yes or no, I want this dress. It's black and fitting, my curves look smooth and sexy. Most of the dress is in see-through lace, apart from the sections that cover my private areas. There's a black material panel that goes across my breasts so it hides them well but you can still see the swell of my breasts at the top. To hide my bottom area, is another black panel. This one goes diagonal from the curve above my hip on my left, down across my belly button to where my underwear is on my right side. On my thighs the panel goes across diagonally again from left to right. It shows a lot of thigh on my left leg through the lace and I smile at my reflection.
When I walk out the changing room I look straight at Jax and don't take my eyes away from him. He sits up straight when I walk out and I can see him clenching him jaw and his eyes devour me. I do a slow turn and see in the reflection of the mirror that Jax's eyes widen when they see how my bottom is sculptured by the dress. When I turn back Jax is standing, staring at me with hunger. I don't even notice Janet and don't look in her direction as Jax speaks to her in a low husky tone.
"Janet I think we need shoes."
"Erm, yes OK Mr. Parker."
With Janet gone, Jax stalks me. When he reaches me he places a hand between my collar bones to push me back against the mirrored wall.
"Fucking hell Kendal you're killing me."
"Why?"
He licks his lips and looks back to my face. I know exactl
y why.
"I wanna bury my cock in you right now baby. You look so fucking sexy in that dress."
I act like I'm not bothered by his words but really they're setting me on fire as he tells me exactly what he wants to do to my body.
When Janet comes back in with another girl, each holding four shoe boxes, Jax doesn't even move away from me. Janet acts like there's nothing going on but the younger girl is blushing. Before Jax moves away he whispers in my ear.
"I'm fucking buying you this dress."
He adjusts himself before he goes to sit back down. When I get changed back into my own clothes I can't help but smile. That felt good.
Jax sets aside a pair of Valentino stud strap biker boots and a pair of Kurt Geiger open toe shoe boots.
Janet and the young girl take away the clothes and shoes that have been chosen for me. Jax and I walk behind them and I walk around a little bit as Jax pays because now I feel bad for enjoying myself and making him think I want him to buy me the clothes. Of course I love them but I hate the fact Jax is spending his money on me. I won't lie, it does make me feel special but at the same time I feel guilty. Two men walk us out with our bags and put them in the back of the car before we leave with John and Paul.
"You know Finley would have loved that."
I laugh.
"Yeah he would."
When we arrive at the toy store there's a few paparazzi waiting for us. Jax takes hold of my hand as we walk out of the car. As we walk hand-in-hand in between John and Paul some of the paparazzi shout questions.
"Are you together?"
"Why have you been hiding Kendal?"
"Is it true you're getting married?"
What? Married? Where do they get this stuff?
Then, one of the first things that I see when we walk in I have to buy.
"Jax, look at this!"
I pull Jax along to the display. It's a play mat in the style of a drum kit. You get two drum sticks and just hit the drums and symbols. Jax has a go on the one open for display, tapping away at the drums.
"This is fucking awesome."
He picks up a box and we find the section for the Nintendo DS. I grab him a red one and Jax takes is off me.
"No Jax, I'm buying him this."
"I will."
I glare at him. No way is he buying Finley everything. He's paid for his party, my clothes and I want to buy this.
"No Jax. I haven't bought him anything yet."
"Fine, but I'm buying the games."
He goes to grab a basket and fills it with games. We have a stroll around the rest of the store and in the back there are battery powered cars. I see Jax smile and he quickly walks over to them. He keeps on walking until he stops at the black Range Rover at the end. Oh my God that is fucking adorable! I look at the price and shake my head.
"Yes Kendal."
"Jax, it's too much."
He takes a card beside the car.
"Nothing is too much for my little boy.”
This statement from Jax completely stops me from complaining. What can I say to that?
Jax gets the car delivered to his house and we pay for the rest. When we step outside the paparazzi are still there.
"Why are you in a toy store?"
"Are you pregnant?"
"How do you feel about Jax being a playboy?"
I ignore their stupid questions and get into the car.
Chapter 10
The rest of the week goes by in a mad blur. While Finley was at school on the Wednesday Jax came by and we spoke about every media wise. He explained everything his managing team told the press about me and the whole story about us being forever in love. It's a romantic story and I really wished it were true. I'm really grateful that Jax thought to spin off a whole story about the three of us to protect Finley from being shunned. I'm a little worried how Finley will be when he's out with Jax and paparazzi are there.
Jax took Finley out that Wednesday night for pizza with Rhys, Max and Leo. Jax said he loved spending time with the guys, which I knew he would. Apparently some paparazzi were there to get their first pictures of Finley. Jax told me how Finley just held onto his hand and smiled at the cameras which I'm very pleased about.
The day after Finley went to dinner with his dad, the pictures were on the internet and there was one in the newspaper with the headline.
Jax's Secret Son Comes Out Of Hiding
All the articles are positive and like our story. They have all bought the lie about Jax's decision to keep me and Finley a secret. The internet articles think Finley is adorable and a little version of Jax, which they love.
On Thursday the paper ran a story on Sophie and me, loving that two of Decoys women have come out of hiding. The main picture was of me and Sophie standing outside of Summers when we were talking the other day. It worried me that I didn't even know anyone was there and that they can take a picture of you without you even knowing. Good thing Sophie already decided she wasn't hiding anymore.
Maisy has actually found a website dedicated to Decoy, Sophie and me. Calling me and Sophie the Degirls, which I thought was pretty clever and hilarious. It’s cute how they have designed the page, Sophie and Rhys and then Me and Jax. There are pictures of us all and people commenting how much they like us or sometimes disliking us. Hating because they think me and Sophie are taking Rhys and Jax away from them. They have a section on mine and Sophie's friends which are obviously the girls and Max and Leo have their own section. There are girls on this website planning out how to get their own attention by becoming the next Degirl. It's all very funny and unreal.
Finley, bless him, has his own little section. Pictures from that last two days are up there. The girls love that he looks just like Jax. Somebody has dedicated a website to just me and Sophie called the Degirls. Pictures taken by the paparazzi are on there too. Girls talk about mine and Sophie’s fashion. I didn't even realize I had a fashion sense. I just get up and throw whatever it is that I want to wear for that day. But girls on here think I have blog worthy fashion taste. It's embarrassing but yet flattering at the same time. It's a good job Jax bought me those gorgeous clothes when he did, even though I still can't believe I let him buy them me. It's all fucking unreal. Since reuniting with Jax my life has dramatically changed.
I get back into my car from taking Finley to school when my phone alerts me that I have a text message.
TANYA: Girls! I need a night out in the clubs! Please tell me UR free 4 tomorrow night!
She's not in work today so I text her back before I drive off. I tell her I'm up for a good night out. Finley's at my parents’ tomorrow night anyway. Fingers crossed all of the girls can come.
As I drive off I can help but think about Tanya. I hope she's OK, I'm a little worried about her and that message seemed a little desperate of her.
At work she's fine until I mention Jax. Anything related to Leo shuts her off. Since the wedding she's not acting herself at all. From what I've seen and heard about Leo, he's not exactly the same either. What is up with those two? Why could it be so bad between them and why is everyone just finding out about it now?
I don't finish work until 5:00, so Jax collects him from school and takes him back to my house so he can be ready for dinner at Rhys and Sophie’s when I finish work.
When I get home I quickly change out of my work clothes in a daze. I've been stressing myself about Tanya all day. I've text her to ask what's bothering her but all she says is it's nothing. I'm not buying it and when I'm ready we leave in Jax's big car. I think Jax said it was a Mercedes. I like it a lot better than his Aston Martin.
When we pull up outside Rhys and Sophie's beautiful home Finley is way too excited. Before we get out the car Jax turns to look at me.
"Are you OK babe?"
"Yeah."
He gives me that look that tells me he isn't buying it.
"Alright. I'm worried about Tanya. She wants to go out tomorrow night but I'm just worried about her. She's not herself."
"Yeah I know what you mean. Leo's the same."
He places his hand on top of mine and gives it a reassuring squeeze.
"They will sort it out. Stop worrying."
"Mummy! Daddy! I wanna get out now!"
We both smile and turn to look at Finley in the back. He’s trying to get out of his seatbelt and frowning at us. As soon as Jax lets Finley out he goes running straight into Rhys outstretched arms shouting “Uncle Rhys”.
*~*~*
Three hours later, Jax is driving me and Finley home after a huge dinner that Sophie cooked. There was way too much food. Not that the guys and Finley were bothered, they tried their best to eat every last bite. It's really quiet in the car because as soon as Jax started to drive Finley fell asleep.
"So you looking forward to your girls night?"
I knew that was bothering him, I saw his body slightly tense when Sophie told Rhys about Tanya's text. At dinner Rhys and Jax had both taken an interest in our night out. They told us we were to take John and Paul. I wasn't having that.
"No way. It's supposed to be a girls night."
Jax gave me a stern look.
"Kendal you and Sophie have been getting attention lately. We want you to be safe so you will be taking them with you."
Sophie groaned.
"This isn't going to be much of a girls night and I doubt the girls will be impressed."
Rhys smiled at Sophie, unlike the intense look I was getting from Jax.
"They will be in the background. You won't even notice them."
I hold back my scoff. John and Paul are huge, bulky men. There's no way they can blend into the background but they get their own way and the men in suits have to babysit us.
Now I turn to look at Jax driving. I don't know why he's so bothered about me going out. I'm not stupid and I have been out before. Does he expect me to stay in all the time? Definitely not. Finley is at my parents tomorrow night, so I want a night out with my girls and that's what I am going to do.
"Yep. Tanya says she needs it and I'm looking forward to it."
He slowly nods his head.
"Rhys rang up the club called Blitz. You're in the V.I.P area for the night."
"V.I.P?"
Why has he put us in V.I.P? Maybe Rhys rang up the club but I bet it was Jax who suggested it.
