Laboriously he descended, using only the one hand. Stella began miaowing fiercely, and struggling a bit. Finally he met Mom, who had climbed the tree quite a ways. Stella was getting more upset. “Hand her to me.” Alex detached her from his chest paw by paw, balanced, held the cat down with both hands. Again it was a tricky moment; if Stella went berserk they would all be in trouble. But she fell onto Mom’s chest and collapsed, a catatonic ball of fur.
Back in the apartment she dashed for her blanket under the table. Mom enticed her out with food, but she was very jumpy and she wouldn’t allow Alex anywhere near her; she ran away if he even entered the room. “Back to square one, I see,” Mom commented.
“It’s not fair! I’m the one that saved her!”
“She’ll get over it.” Mom laughed, clearly relieved. “Maybe it’ll take some time, but she will. Ha! This is clear proof that cats are smart enough to be crazy. Irrational, neurotic—just like a person.” They laughed, and Stella glared at them balefully. “Yes you are, aren’t you! You’ll come around again.”
* * *
Often when Alex got home in the early evenings his father was striding back and forth in the kitchen talking loudly, angrily, fearfully, while Mom tried to reassure him. “They’re doing the same thing to us they did to Rick Stone! But why!” When Alex closed the front door the conversation would stop. Once when he walked tentatively down the quiet hallway to the kitchen he found them standing there, arms around each other, Father’s head in Mom’s short hair.
Father raised his head, disengaged, went to his study. On his way he said, “Alex, I need your help.”
“Sure.”
Alex stood in the study and watched without understanding as his father took books from his shelves and put them in the big laundry bag. He threw the first few in like dirty clothes, then sighed and thumped in the rest in a businesslike fashion, not looking at them.
“There’s a used book store in Cambridge, on Mass Ave. Antonio’s.”
“Sure, I know the one.” They had been there together a few times.
“I want you to take these over there and sell them to Tony for me,” Father said, looking at the empty shelves. “Will you do that for me?”
“Sure.” Alex picked up the bag, shocked that it had come to this. Father’s books! He couldn’t meet his father’s eye. “I’ll do that right now,” he said uncertainly, and hefted the bag over one shoulder. In the hallway Mom approached and put a hand on his shoulder—her silent thanks—then went into the study.
Alex hiked east toward the university, crossed the Charles River on the great iron bridge. The wind howled in the superstructure. On the Cambridge side, after showing his pass, he put the heavy bag on the ground and inspected its contents. Ever since the infamous incident of the spilled hot chocolate, Father’s books had been off-limits to him; now a good twenty of them were there in the bag to be touched, opened, riffled through. Many in this bunch were in foreign languages, especially Greek and Russian, with their alien alphabets. Could people really read such marks? Well, Father did. It must be possible.
When he had inspected all the books he chose two in English—The Odyssey and The Colossus of Maroussi—and put those in his down jacket pockets. He could take them to the glacier and read them, then sell them later to Antonio’s—perhaps in the next bag of books. There were many more bagfuls in Father’s study.
* * *
A little snow stuck to the glacier now, filling the pocks and making bright patches on the north side of every boulder, every serac. Some of the narrower crevasses were filled with it—bright white lines on the jumbled gray. When the whole surface was white the crevasses would be invisible, and the glacier too dangerous to walk on. Now the only danger was leaving obvious footprints for trackers. Walking up the rubble lines would solve that. These lines of rubble fascinated Alex. It looked just as if bulldozers had clanked up here and shoved the majority of the stones and junk into straight lines down the big central tongue of the glacier. But in fact they were natural features. Father had attempted to explain on one of the walks they had taken up here. “The ice is moving, and it moves faster in the middle than on the outer edges, just like a stream. So rocks on the surface tend to slide over time, down into lines in the middle.”
“Why are there two lines, then?”
Father shrugged, looking into the blue-green depths of a crevasse. “We really shouldn’t be up here, you know that?”
Now Alex stopped to inspect a tire caught in the rubble line. Truck tire, tread worn right to the steel belting. It would burn, but with too much smoke. There were several interesting objects in this neat row of rock and sand: plastic jugs, a doll, a lampbase, a telephone.
His shelter was undisturbed. He pulled the two books from his pockets and set them on the bench, propping them with rock bookends.
He circled the boulder, had a look around. The sky today was a low smooth pearl gray sheet, ruffled by a set of delicate waves pasted to it. The indirect light brought out all the colors: the pink of the remarkable snow algae, the blue of the seracs, the various shades of rock, the occasional bright spot of junk, the many white patches of snow. A million dots of color under the pewter sheet of cloud.
Three creaks, a crack, a long shuddering rumble. Sleepy, muscular, the great beast had moved. Alex walked across its back to his bench, sat. On the far lateral moraine some gravel slid down. Puffs of brown dust in the air.
He read his books. The Odyssey was strange but interesting. Father had told him some of the story before. The Colossus of Maroussi was long-winded but funny—it reminded Alex of his uncle, who could turn the smallest incident into an hour’s comic monologue. What he could have made of Stella’s flight up the tree! Alex laughed to think of it. But his uncle was in jail.
He sat on his bench and read, stopped occasionally to look around. When the hand holding the book got cold, he changed hands and put the cold one in a pocket of his down jacket. When both hands were blue he hid the books in rocks under his bench and went home.
* * *
There were more bags of books to be sold at Antonio’s and other shops in Cambridge. Each time Alex rotated out a few that looked interesting, and replaced them with the ones on the glacier. He daydreamed of saving all the books and earning the money some other way—then presenting his father with the lost library, at some future undefined but appropriate moment.
Eventually Stella forgave him for rescuing her. She came to enjoy chasing a piece of yarn up and down their long narrow hallway, skidding around the corner by the study. It reminded them of a game they had played with Pongo, who would chase anything, and they laughed at her, especially when she jerked to a halt and licked her fur fastidiously, as if she had never been carousing. “You can’t fool us, Stell! We remember!”
Mom sold most of her music collection, except for her favorites. Once Alex went out to the glacier with the Concerto de Aranjuez coursing through him—Mom had had it on in the apartment while she worked. He hummed the big theme of the second movement as he crunched over the ice: clearly it was the theme of the glacier, the glacier’s song. How had a blind composer managed to capture the windy sweep of it, the spaciousness? Perhaps such things could be heard as well as seen. The wind said it, whistling over the ice. It was a terrifically dark day, windy, snowing in gusts. He could walk right up the middle of the great tongue, between the rubble lines; no one else would be up there today. Da-da-da … da da da da da da, da-da-da … Hands in pockets, chin on chest, he trudged into the wind humming, feeling like the whole world was right there around him. It was too cold to stay in his shelter for more than a minute.
* * *
Father went off on trips, exploring possibilities. One morning Alex woke to the sound of The Pirates of Penzance. This was one of their favorites, Mom played it all the time while working and on Saturday mornings, so that they knew all the lyrics by heart and often sang along. Alex especially loved the Pirate King, and could mimic all his intonations.
He d
ressed and walked down to the kitchen. Mom stood by the stove with her back to him, singing along. It was a sunny morning and their big kitchen windows faced east; the light poured in on the sink and the dishes and the white stove and the linoleum and the plants in the window and Stella, sitting contentedly on the window sill listening.
His mom was tall and broad-shouldered. Every year she cut her hair shorter; now it was just a cap of tight brown curls, with a somewhat longer patch down the nape of her neck. That would go soon, Alex thought, and then her hair would be as short as it could be. She was lost in the song, one slim hand on the white stove top, looking out the window. She had a low, rich, thrilling voice, like a real singer’s only prettier. She was singing along with the song that Mabel sings after she finds out that Frederick won’t be able to leave the pirates until 1940.
When it was over Alex entered the kitchen, went to the pantry. “That’s a short one,” he said.
“Yes, they had to make it short,” Mom said. “There’s nothing funny about that one.”
* * *
One night while Father was gone on one of his trips, Mom had to go over to Ilene and Ira and Gary’s apartment: Gary had been arrested, and Ilene and Ira needed help. Alex and Stella were left alone.
Stella wandered the silent apartment miaowing. “I know, Stella,” Alex said in exasperation. “They’re gone. They’ll be back tomorrow.” The cat paid no attention to him.
He went into Father’s study. Tonight he’d be able to read something in relative warmth. It would only be necessary to be very careful.
The bookshelves were empty. Alex stood before them, mouth open. He had no idea they had sold that many of them. There were a couple left on Father’s desk, but he didn’t want to move them. They appeared to be dictionaries anyway. “It’s all Greek to me.”
He went back to the living room and got out the yarn bag, tried to interest Stella in a game. She wouldn’t play. She wouldn’t sit on his lap. She wouldn’t stop miaowing. “Stella, shut up!” She scampered away and kept crying. Vexed, he got out the jar of catnip and spread some on the linoleum in the kitchen. Stella came running to sniff at it, then roll in it. Afterwards she played with the yarn wildly, until it caught around her tail and she froze, staring at him in a drugged paranoia. Then she dashed to her refuge and refused to come out. Finally Alex put on The Pirates of Penzance and listened to it for a while. After that he was sleepy.
* * *
They got a good lawyer for Gary, Mom said. Everyone was hopeful. Then a couple of weeks later Father got a new job; he called them from work to tell them about it.
“Where is it?” Alex asked Mom when she was off the phone.
“In Kansas.”
“So we will be moving.”
“Yes,” Mom said. “Another move.”
“Will there be glaciers there too?”
“I think so. In the hills. Not as big as ours here, maybe. But there are glaciers everywhere.”
* * *
He walked onto the ice one last time. There was a thin crust of snow on the tops of everything. A fantastically jumbled field of snow. It was a clear day, the sky a very pale blue, the white expanse of the glacier painfully bright. A few cirrus clouds made sickles high in the west. The snow was melting a bit and there were water droplets all over, with little sparks of colored light in each drip. The sounds of water melting were everywhere, drips, gurgles, splashes. The intensity of light was stunning, like a blow to the brain, right through the eyes. It pulsed.
The crevasse in front of his shelter had widened, and the boards of his bench had fallen. The wall of ice turning around the boulder was splintered, and shards of bright ice lay over the planks.
The glacier was moving. The glacier was alive. No heated dam would stop it. He felt its presence, huge and supple under him, seeping into him like the cold through his wet shoes, filling him up. He blinked, nearly blinded by the light breaking everywhere on it, a surgical glare that made every snow-capped rock stand out like the color red on a slide transparency. The white light. In the distance the ice cracked hollowly, moving somewhere. Everything moved: the ice, the wind, the clouds, the sun, the planet. All of it rolling around.
* * *
As they packed up their possessions Alex could hear them in the next room. “We can’t,” Father said. “You know we can’t. They won’t let us.”
When they were done the apartment looked odd. Bare walls, bare wood floors. It looked smaller. Alex walked the length of it: his parents’ room overlooking Chester Street; his room; his father’s study; the living room; the kitchen with its fine morning light. The pantry. Stella wandered the place miaowing. Her blanket was still in its corner, but without the table it looked moth-eaten, fur-coated, ineffectual. Alex picked her up and went through the pantry, up the back stairs to the roof.
Snow had drifted into the corners. Alex walked in circles, looking at the city. Stella sat on her paws by the stairwell shed, watching him, her fur ruffled by the wind.
Around the shed snow had melted, then froze again. Little puddles of ice ran in flat curves across the pebbled tar paper. Alex crouched to inspect them, tapping one speculatively with a fingernail. He stood up and looked west, but buildings and bare treetops obscured the view.
* * *
Stella fought to stay out of the box, and once in it she cried miserably.
Father was already in Kansas, starting the new job. Alex and Mom and Stella had been staying in the living room of Michael Wu’s place while Mom finished her work; now she was done, it was moving day, they were off to the train. But first they had to take Stella to the Talbots’.
Alex carried the box and followed Mom as they walked across the Commons and down Comm Ave. He could feel the cat shifting over her blanket, scrabbling at the cardboard against his chest. Mom walked fast, a bit ahead of him. At Kenmore they turned south.
When they got to the Talbots’, Mom took the box. She looked at him. “Why don’t you stay down here,” she said.
“Okay.”
She rang the bell and went in with the buzzer, holding the box under one arm.
Alex sat on the steps of the walk-up. There were little ones in the corner: flat fingers of ice, spilling away from the cracks.
Mom came out the door. Her face was pale, she was biting her lip. They took off walking at a fast pace. Suddenly Mom said, “Oh, Alex, she was so scared,” and sat down on another stoop and put her head on her knees.
Alex sat beside her, his shoulders touching hers. Don’t say anything, don’t put arm around shoulders or anything. He had learned this from Father. Just sit there, be there. Alex sat there like the glacier, shifting a little. Alive. The white light.
After a while she stood. “Let’s go,” she said.
They walked up Comm Ave. toward the train station. “She’ll be all right with the Talbots,” Alex said. “She already likes Jay.”
“I know.” Mom sniffed, tossed her head in the wind. “She’s getting to be a pretty adaptable cat.” They walked on in silence. She put an arm over his shoulders. “I wonder how Pongo is doing.” She took a deep breath. Overhead clouds tumbled like chunks of broken ice.
JAMES LAWSON
Sanctuary
Here’s a hard-edged look into a bristling, grimy, overpopulated future, vigorous and multifaceted and gritty, where we’ll encounter a complex, baffling high-tech mystery … whose resolution ultimately depends on an old-fashioned understanding of the human heart.
The mysterious James Lawson grew up in California and has a College Teaching Certificate in Communications Arts and Printing. After traveling extensively on work for the U.S. Army, he left the military and is currently a government consultant. He and his wife have dedicated themselves to raising six orphans of multiple ancestry, although just where, no one will say.
SANCTUARY
James Lawson
“Hey, Cardenas, don’t you retire today, man?”
“Chief’s got it in for you sure today.”
“Naw, he’s gonna fire Cardenas and promote the dog!”
He smiled as he walked past their desks, the laughter lapping against him in friendly, cool waves before falling away behind him. Occasionally he replied, brief verbal jousts with those he knew well that left no one injured. He always gave as good as he got. When you were the oldest sergeant on the force, not to mention the smallest, you had to expect a certain amount of ribbing.
“Don’t sweat it, Charliebo,” he told his companion. “Good boy.”
At the mention of his name the German shepherd’s ears cocked forward, and he looked up curiously. Same old Charliebo. The laughter didn’t bother him. Nothing bothered him. That’s how he’d been trained, and the years hadn’t changed him.
We’re both getting old, Cardenas thought. Jokes now, but in another year or two they’ll make me hang it up no matter what. Then we double the time in front of the video, hoh. Just you and me and the ol’ TV, dog. Maybe that’s not such a bad idea. We could both use some rest. Though he had a hunch the chief hadn’t called him in to talk about rest.
A visitor might’ve found the big dog’s presence in the ready room unusual, but not the Nogales cops. The dog had been Sergeant Cardenas’s shadow for twelve years. For the first six, he’d also been his eyes. Eyes which had been taken from him by a frightened nineteen-year-old ninloco Cardenas had surprised in the process of rotoing an autofill outside a Tucson hydro station. Pocket change. Pill credit.
Cardenas and his partner had slipped up on the kid without expecting anything more lethal than some angry words. The ninloco had grabbed his pants and extracted an Ithaca spitter. The high-pocket twenty-gauge shattered Cardenas’s partner and made jelly of the sergeant’s face. Backup told him that the ninloco had gone down giggling when they’d finally expiated him. His blood analysis showed .12 spacebase and an endorphin-based expander. He was so high he should have flown away. Now he was a memory.
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