“Can’t you see that I’m trying to help you, Merlin?”
“Really, what I see is that you want information I have,” I said, “and that’s okay. I’m willing to deal because you seem to know things I want, too. But I’ve got to admit that your reasons are murky to me. How the hell did you get to Berkeley? What were you doing calling me at Bill’s place? What is this power of yours you say isn’t sorcery? How—”
“That’s three questions,” she said, “and the beginning of a fourth. Would you prefer to write them all out, and have me do the same for you? Then we can both go off to our rooms and decide which ones we want to answer?”
“No,” I replied. “I’m willing to play the game. But you are aware of my reason for wanting to know these things. It’s a matter of self-preservation to me. I thought at first that you wanted information that would help you to nail the man who killed Caine. But you said no, and you didn’t give me anything to put in its place.”
“I did, too! I want to protect you!”
“I appreciate the sentiment. But why? When it comes down to it, you hardly know me.”
“Nevertheless, that is my reason and I don’t feel like going behind it. Take it or leave it.”
I got to my feet and began pacing the patio. I didn’t like the thought of giving away information that could be vital to my security, and ultimately that of Amber—though I had to admit I was getting a pretty good return for what I’d given. Her stuff did sound right. For that matter, the Bayles had a long history of loyalty to the Crown, for whatever that was worth. The thing that bothered me the most, I decided, was her insistence that it was not actually revenge that she was after. Apart from this being a very un-Amberlike attitude, if she were any judge at all as to what would go over with me she need but have agreed that blood was what she wanted, in order to make her concern intelligible. I would have bought it without looking any further. And what did she offer in its place? Airy nothings and classified motives. . . .
Which could well mean she was telling the truth. Disdaining the use of a workable lie and offering something more cumbersome in its place would seem the mark of genuine honesty. And she did, apparently, have more answers that I wanted.
I heard a small rattling sound from the table. I thought at first that she might be drumming on it with her fingertips as a sign of her irritation with me. But when I glanced back I saw that she was sitting perfectly still, not even looking at me.
I drew nearer, seeking the source. The ring, the pieces of blue stone and even the button were jiggling about on the tabletop, as of their own accord.
“Something you’re doing?” I asked.
“No,” she replied.
The stone in the ring cracked and fell out of its setting.
“What, then?”
“I broke a link,” she said. “I believe something may be trying to reestablish it and failing.”
“Even so, if I’m still attuned they don’t need them in order to locate me, do they?”
“There may be more than one party involved,” she observed. “I think I should have a servant ride back to town and throw the things into the ocean. If someone wishes to follow them there, fine.”
“The chips should just lead back to the cave, and the ring to the dead man,” I said. “But I’m not ready to throw the button away.”
“Why not? It represents a big unknown.”
“Exactly. But these things would have to work both ways, wouldn’t they? That would mean that I could learn to use the button to find my way to the flower thrower.”
“That could be dangerous.”
“And not doing it could prove more dangerous in the long run. No, you can throw the rest of them into the sea, but not the button.”
“All right. I’ll keep it pent for you.”
“Thanks. Jasra is Luke’s mother.”
“You’re joking!”
“Nope.”
“That explains why he didn’t lean on her directly about the later April thirtieths. Fascinating! It opens up a whole new lane of speculation.”
“Care to share them?”
“Later, later. In the meantime, I’ll take care of these stones right now.” She scooped them all out of the circle and they seemed, for a moment, to dance in her hand. She stood.
“Uh—the button?” I said.
“Yes.”
She put the button into her pocket and kept the others in her hand.
“You’re going to get attuned yourself if you keep the button that way, aren’t you?”
“No,” she said, “I won’t.”
“Why not?”
“There’s a reason. Excuse me while I find a container for the others, and someone to transport them.”
“Won’t that person get attuned?”
“It takes a while.”
“Oh.”
“Have some more coffee—or something.”
She turned and left. I ate a piece of cheese. I tried to figure out whether I’d gotten more answers or more new questions during the course of our conversation. I tried to ht some of the new pieces into the old puzzle.
“Father?”
I turned, to see who had spoken. There was no one in sight.
“Down here.”
A coin-sized disk of light lay within a nearby flower bed, otherwise empty save for a few dry stalks and leaves. The light caught my attention when it moved slightly.
“Ghost?” I asked.
“Uh-huh,” came the reply from among the leaves. “I was waiting to catch you when you were alone. I’m not sure I trust that woman.”
“Why not?”
“She doesn’t scan right, like other people. I don’t know what it is. But that’s not what I wanted to talk to you about.”
“What, then?”
“Uh—well, did you mean what you said about not really intending to turn me off?”
“Jeez! After all the sacrifices I made for you! Your education and everything. . . . And lugging all your damn components out to a place like that where you’d be safe! How can you ask me that?”
“Well, I heard Random tell you to do it ”
“You don’t do everything you’re told either, do you? Especially when it comes to assaulting me when I just wanted to check out a few programs? I deserve a little more respect than that!”
“Uh—yeah. Look, I’m sorry.”
“You ought to be. I went through a lot of crap because of you.”
“I looked for you for several days, and I couldn’t find you.”
“Crystal caves are no fun.”
“I don’t have much time now. . . . ” The light flickered, faded almost to the point of vanishing, returned to full brilliance. “Will you tell me something fast?”
“Shoot.”
“That fellow who was with you when you came out this way—and when you left—the big red-haired man?”
“Luke. Yes?”
The light grew dimmer again.
“Is it okay to trust him?” Ghost’s voice came faintly, weakly.
“No!” I shouted. “That would be damn stupid!”
Ghost was gone, and I couldn’t tell whether he’d heard my answer.
“What’s the matter?” Vinta’s voice, from above me.
“Argument with my imaginary playmate,” I called out.
Even from that distance I could see the expression of puzzlement on her face. She sought in all directions about the patio and then, apparently persuading herself that I was indeed alone, she nodded.
“Oh,” she said. Then, “I’ll be along in a little while.”
“No hurry,” I answered.
Where shall wisdom be found, and where is the place of understanding? If I knew, I’d walk over and stand there. As it was, I felt as if I stood in the midst of a large map, surrounded by vague areas wherein were penned the visages of particularly nasty-looking random variables. A perfect place for a soliloquy, if one had anything to say.
I went back inside to use the john. All tha
t coffee.
Chapter 6
Well, maybe.
With Julia, I mean.
I sat alone in my room, thinking by candlelight.
Vinta had stirred a few sunken memories to the surface.
It was later on, when we weren’t seeing much of each other. . . .
I’d met Julia first in a Computer Science course I was taking. We’d started seeing each other occasionally, just coffee after class and like that, at first. Then more and more frequently, and pretty soon it was serious.
Now it was ending as it had started, a little more each time. . . .
I felt her hand on my shoulder as I was leaving the supermarket with a bag of groceries. I knew it was her and I turned and there was no one there. Seconds later, she hailed me from across the parking lot. I went over and said hello, asked her if she were still working at the software place where she’d been. She said that she wasn’t. I recalled that she was wearing a small silver pentagram on a chain about her neck. It could easily—and more likely should—have been hanging down inside her blouse. But of course I wouldn’t have seen it then, and her body language indicated that she wanted me to see it. So I ignored it while we exchanged a few generalities, and she turned me down on dinner and a movie, though I asked after several nights.
“What are you doing now?” I inquired.
“I’m studying a lot.”
“What?”
“Oh, just—different things. I’ll surprise you one of these days.”
Again, I didn’t bite, though an over-friendly Irish setter approached us about then. She placed her hand on its head and said, “Sit!” and it did. It became still as a statue at her side, and remained when we left later. For all I know, there’s a dog skeleton still crouched there, near the cart return area, like a piece of modern sculpture.
It didn’t really seem that important at the time. But in retrospect, I wondered. . . .
We had ridden that day, Vinta and I. Seeing my growing exasperation of the morning, she must have felt a break was in order. She was right. Following a light lunch, when she made the suggestion that we take a ride about the estate, I agreed readily. I had wanted a little more time in which to think before continuing our cross-examination and discourse game. And the weather was good, the countryside attractive.
We made our way along a curling hail through arbors, which led at length into the northern hills from where we were afforded long views across the rugged and cross-hatched land down to the sun-filled sea. The sky was full of winds and wisps of cloud, passing birds. . . . Vinta seemed to have no special destination in mind, which was all right with me. As we rode, I recalled a visit to a Napa Valley winery, and the next time we drew rein to rest the horses I asked her, “Do you bottle the wine here at the estate? Or is that done in town? Or in Amber?”
“I don’t know,” she said.
“I thought you grew up here.”
“I never paid attention.”
I bit back a remark about patrician attitudes. Unless she were joking, I couldn’t see how she’d fail to know something like that.
She caught my expression, though, and added immediately, “We’ve done it various ways at various times. I’ve been living in town for several years now. I’m not sure where the principal bottling has been done recently.”
Nice save, because I couldn’t fault it. I hadn’t intended my question as any sort of trap, but I felt as if I had just touched on something. Possibly from the fact that she didn’t let it go at that. She went on to say that they shipped large casks all over the place and often sold them in that fashion. On the other hand, there were smaller customers who wanted the product bottled. . . . I stopped listening after a time. On the one hand, I could see it, coming from a vintner’s daughter. On the other, it was all stuff I could have made up myself on the spot. There was no way for me to check on any of it. I got the feeling that she was trying to snow me, to cover something. But I couldn’t figure what.
“Thanks,” I said when she paused for breath, and she gave me a strange look but took the hint and did not continue.
“You have to speak English,” I said in that language, “if the things you told me earlier are true.”
“Everything I told you is true,” she replied, in unaccented English.
“Where’d you learn it?”
“On the shadow Earth where you went to school.”
“Would you care to tell me what you were doing there?”
“I was on a special mission.”
“For your father? For the Crown?”
“I’d rather not answer you at all than lie to you.”
“I appreciate that. Of course, I must speculate.”
She shrugged.
“You said you were in Berkeley?” I asked.
A hesitation, then, “Yes.”
“I don’t remember ever seeing you around.”
Another shrug. I wanted to grab her and shake her. Instead, I said, “You knew about Meg Devlin. You said you were in New York—”
“I believe you’re getting ahead of me on questions.”
“I didn’t know we were playing the game again. I thought we were just talking.”
“All right, then: Yes.”
“Tell me one more thing and perhaps I can help you.”
She smiled. “I don’t need any help. You’re the one with problems.”
“May I, anyway?”
“Go ahead and ask. Every time you question me you tell me things I wish to know.”
“You knew about Luke’s mercenaries. Did you visit New Mexico, too?”
“Yes, I’ve been there.”
“Thanks,” I said.
“That’s all?”
“That’s all.”
“You’ve come to some conclusion?”
“Perhaps.”
“Care to tell me what it is?”
I smiled and shook my head.
I left it at that. A few oblique queries on her part as we rode on led me to believe that I had her wondering what I might have guessed or suddenly seen. Good. I was determined to let it smolder. I needed something to balance her reticence on those points about which I was most curious, to lead hopefully to a full trade of information. Besides, I had reached a peculiar conclusion concerning her. It was not complete, but if it were correct I would require the rest of the answer sooner or later. So it was not exactly as if I were setting up a bluff.
The afternoon was golden, orange, yellow, red about us, with an autumn-damp smell behind the cool nips of the breezes. The sky was very blue, like certain stones. . . .
Perhaps ten minutes later I asked her a more neutral question. “Could you show me the road to Amber?”
“You don’t know it?”
I shook my head. “I’ve never been this way before. All I know is that there are overland routes coming through here that lead to the Eastern Gate.”
“Yes,” she said. “A bit farther to the north, I believe. Let’s go find it.”
She headed back to a road we had followed for a time earlier and we turned right on it, which seemed logical. I did not remark on her vagueness, though I expected a comment from her before too long in that I had not elaborated on my plans and I’d a feeling she was hoping that I would.
Perhaps three quarters of a mile later we came to a crossroads. There was a low stone marker at the far left corner giving the distance to Amber, the distance back to Baylesport, the distance to Baylecrest in the east and to a place called Murn, straight ahead.
“What’s Murn?” I asked.
“A little dairy village.”
No way I could check that, without traveling six leagues.
“You plan on riding back to Amber?” she asked.
“Yes.”
“Why not just use a Trump?”
“I want to get to know the area better. It’s my home. I like it here.”
“But I explained to you about the danger. The stones have marked you. You can be tracked.”
“That
doesn’t mean I will be tracked. I doubt that whoever sent the ones I met last night would even be aware this soon that they’d found me and failed. They’d still be lurking about if I hadn’t decided to go out for dinner. I’m sure I have a few days’ grace in which to remove the markings you spoke of.”
She dismounted and let her horse nibble a few blades of grass. I did the same. Dismounted, that is.
“You’re probably right. I just don’t like to see you taking any chances,” she said. “When are you planning on heading back?”
“I don’t know. I suppose that the longer I wait the more likely it is that the person behind last night’s business will get restless and maybe send more muscle.”
She took hold of my arm and turned, so that she was suddenly pressed against me. I was somewhat surprised by the act, but my free arm automatically moved to hold the lady as it tends to on such occasions.
“You weren’t planning on leaving now, were you? Because if you are, I’m going with you.”
“No,” I answered truthfully. Actually, I’d been thinking of departing the following morning, following a good night’s sleep.
“When, then? We still have a lot of things to talk about.”
“I think we’ve pushed the question-and-answer business about as far as you’re willing to let it go.”
“There are some things—”
“I know.”
Awkward, this. Yes, she was desirable. And no, I didn’t care to have anything to do with her that way. Partly because I felt she wanted something else as well—what, I wasn’t sure—and partly because I was certain she possessed a peculiar power to which I did not wish to expose myself at intimate range. As my Uncle Suhuy used to say, speaking technically as a sorcerer, “If you don’t understand it, don’t screw around with it.” And I had a feeling that anything beyond a friendly acquaintanceship with Vinta could well turn into a duel of energies.
So I kissed her quickly to stay friendly and disengaged myself.
“Maybe I’ll head back tomorrow,” I told her.
“Good. I was hoping you’d spend the night. Perhaps several. I will protect you.”
“Yes, I’m still very tired,” I said.
“We’ll have to feed you a good meal and build up your strength.”
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