Which put the fire out pretty much completely.
Then we had to start all over again.
It took three tries to get the fire to be an actual burning, raging fire. Not raging, really. It was contained to our little campsite. But, like a fire with flames, not just red coals at the bottom.
And the fire didn't stay burning unless we tended it constantly. We had to add more wood and move wood around and everything else.
It was tons of work. It made me so glad not to be a caveman. I mean, no wonder it took them so long to invent the wheel. They must have spent all their time tending fires and trying to keep them from going out.
Once the fire was doing relatively well, I dug in the cooler for the sausages I'd brought. Stacey had given us metal skewers, and we used those to hold them over the fire. There were marshmallows here too, somewhere, but they were for later.
Eventually, it got to be a big pain to hold the sausage over the fire.
Because the thing about cooking over a fire? It's a lot slower than using the microwave. Or even the stove. After I complained about it, Griffin rigged up something with sticks, so that we could set out skewers up over the fire and not have to hold them anymore.
"You're awesome," I told him.
"Why?" he said. He was on the opposite side of the fire. The light reflected on his face, illuminating his gray eyes. The firelight made everything seem different somehow, a little unreal. I liked it. I was exhausted. Camping was work. But now that we were settled around the fire, I had to admit that it felt good to be relaxing after all our effort. We'd earned it.
"Because you made these things and now we don't have to hold up our sausages. I'm impressed."
He laughed. "What was I saying about guys and processes?"
"Stop being sexist," I said, sticking out my tongue. "Just because I wouldn't have thought of it doesn't mean there aren't tons of girls who wouldn't."
"I agree," he said. "There are girls who could make much better sausage stands than me."
I smiled, leaning back and resting on my hands to hold me up. I stared into the fire. It was beautiful, bright, and warm. I gazed deep into its glowing heart. This was nice.
Griffin turned his sausage over. "My sister is fine, you know. It's one of the perks of Operation Wraith."
I sat up. He was going to tell me something about himself? "Perks?"
"Yeah. When they took me out of jail and healed me, they offered me a choice. They could kill me, or I could work for them. If I worked for them, they'd make sure my family was taken care of. They fixed it so that my mom 'inherited' money from a relative she never knew she had. My family has a great life now. But as far as they're concerned, I'm dead. And if I ever let them know otherwise, I'd put them in danger."
I hugged my knees to my chest. "Every time you tell me something about yourself, Griffin, it's so sad. When I think about what you've been through, it breaks my heart."
He was quiet for a minute. Then he shrugged. "It's not that sad, doll. My mom's a millionaire. And I got away from Op Wraith."
That was true. And then I had a horrible thought. "But what if Op Wraith goes after your family? You know, to get to you."
"That won't happen."
"You trust them?"
"No, it's only that I have no idea where my family is, and if I tried to find them, Op Wraith would know. As long as I stay clear, they're safe."
"So they hid them from you, and if they hurt them, you wouldn't even know?"
"Yeah. It would be a useless move on their parts to try to hurt them."
"Still," I said. "You must worry."
He sighed. "Sometimes, I guess. I mean, they know I'm protecting you. But they want me dead. They don't want to torture me."
"They might want to draw you out," I said.
"They're so close now," he said. "They know you're somewhere in West Virginia. I doubt that's the route they'd go."
I felt cold, suddenly. I scooted closer to the fire. "They're going to find me at some point, aren't they?"
"I don't know, doll," he said. "Maybe they'll just give up eventually."
"You don't really believe that, do you?"
He didn't answer.
We sat in silence for a bit. I turned my sausage. Griffin turned his. I dug out the rest of our meal. Hot dog buns for the sausages and a cold potato salad from the store. I set out paper plates. I spooned out the potato salad.
"You think the sausages are done?" I asked him.
Griffin used a piece of foil to squeeze his. "Pretty much."
We assembled our sausages, putting mustard and pickle relish all over them. And then we sat next to the fire we'd built and ate. The food tasted really good.
"I like camping," said Griffin.
"I do too," I said. At that moment, I did, even though everything had been kind of a pain in the ass up to that point.
* * *
I shivered in my KISS sleeping bag. Griffin and I had thought it might be dangerous to leave the fire going, so we'd put it out after roasting marshmallows and deciding to go to bed. Now it was cold. I had on a sweatshirt and jogging pants, plus thick socks, but it wasn't enough. I remembered that I'd brought more blankets, but I wasn't sure what bag I'd put them in out of all the stuff we'd brought. I was going to have to get up and find them soon, though, because I was freezing.
I sat up and started to unzip the door to the tent.
"What are you doing, doll?"
"Going to look for more blankets." My voice shook from my shivers.
"You cold?"
"Uh huh," I said. "Aren't you?"
"Not really." There was the sound of the sleeping bag crinkling, and I realized he'd sat up. Then I heard a zipper.
"What are you doing?"
"Unzipping my sleeping bag," he said. "You unzip yours too. We'll use one as a blanket and lie on the other one. All you need is body heat to warm up."
Body heat? Like from Griffin's body? "Won't that be inappropriate?" My teeth were chattering.
He chuckled. "Get over here."
I did. It took a few minutes to get everything settled, but then we both lay back down again. We weren't touching, but just being under the same blanket with him did make everything a little warmer.
Another rack of shivers went through me.
"Jesus," said Griffin, his voice deep and rumbly. "Are you really that cold?"
"I don't feel so cold anymore," I said. "I'm just shivering still." As I said it, I started shaking again. It was involuntary and violent. I felt like I was having a seizure.
Without warning, I felt Griffin's arm slung over my torso. He slid close. "You do feel cold," he murmured.
His body pressed up against me. He was a solid block of heat, a furnace of a man. I turned and snuggled close.
"Better?"
"Yes," I whispered. "Much."
His arm tightened around me. His hand rubbed my back. He drew in a sharp breath and dropped his hand.
Instantly, I felt guilty. "You don't have to do this, you know. I mean, I know you don't want to get distracted, and I don't mean to be cold-"
"Shh," he said. He was talking right in my ear, his voice rich and thick. "Go to sleep."
Right. Okay. I'd do that then. I buried my face in Griffin's hard, hot chest, and I tried to go to sleep. But I could hear his heart beating through the shirt he was wearing. And he was so close. It energized me, excited me. I couldn't just sleep.
He wormed one arm underneath my neck, so that I lay on it like a pillow. That seemed to make him comfortable. His breath grew slow and steady.
Was he asleep?
Dammit.
I should go to sleep too. Maybe the reason that I couldn't was because I wasn't comfortable. One of my arms was kind of pinned against Griffin's body, after all.
I rolled over on my back. That was better, but my arm was still trapped. I tried to scoot out a little bit, but then I wasn't as close to Griffin, and I was cold.
I rolled onto my other side, so t
hat I was the inside spoon and Griffin was bent around me.
"Stop squirming all over the place," he rumbled. He grabbed me by the hip and tugged me against his body, holding me there.
I gasped. I couldn't help it. The way he touched me just seemed so intimate.
"Doll..." I could hear him swallowing.
His entire body caressed mine, enveloping me from behind. I could smell him again, his wild, untamed, male scent. My heart sped up, racing in my chest.
Griffin's hand moved slowly over my hip, tracing its way up to my waist. His touch was feather light. I could barely feel it through my sweatpants.
And all of my rolling around meant that my sweatshirt had hiked up just a little, and there was maybe a half an inch band of bare skin between my shirt and pants.
His fingers touched it.
I let out a little noise, kind of a half-whimper, half sigh.
And I heard him let out a breath too.
His fingers eased under my sweatshirt, splaying over my bare belly.
Shivers ran up my torso again, but these weren't bad shivers. They were delicious and exciting. If it was possible, my heart beat even faster. I turned in his arms.
I put my hand on his cheek. I turned his face to mine.
And our lips met.
The kiss started out sweet and slow, like a piece of kindling just beginning to catch fire. The heat of Griffin's and my desire was a timid ember, first just glowing, and then eventually bursting into flame. He rolled on top of me, his mouth assaulting mine, his body pressing onto me, over me.
I ran my hands over his head, his short-cropped hair, moans building in my throat. We were kissing like crazy, like we were desperate for each other.
He pulled away, gasping for breath. "Look, doll, you have to understand that it's been a really long time since I've... done anything like this. And when I did, I was a different person. I don't know if I can even..."
"It's okay," I said, breathless myself. "It's more than okay." I sought his lips again.
His mouth met mine hungrily. His hands thrust inside my shirt on either side of my body.
Thrills ran up my rib cage from the sensation of his fingers on my bare skin.
Fingers traveled higher, finding the walls of my breasts.
I choked.
He broke the kiss. "Okay?" he whispered.
"Definitely," I said.
He shifted so that his weight wasn't settled on me, propped himself on one arm. "You are so soft." He kissed my forehead. "So sweet." He kissed my nose. "So small."
I closed my eyes, drinking it in. He was perfect.
He put one hand inside my shirt again, sliding over my skin slowly, his touch a whisper of a caress. His fingers brushed the swell of my breast and traveled higher, inch by inch.
I could hardly breathe. He was so gentle. And it felt so nice.
His fingers grazed my nipple.
Pleasure exploded through me. I moaned.
He kissed me, still exploring my breast, cupping it in one hand.
I writhed against him, arching my back to feel more of him.
"You sure this is okay? I really haven't-"
"Perfect," I whispered. And, not wanting to seem greedy, I reached over and grabbed his crotch. He was hard inside his boxers. I wanted-
Griffin grasped my wrist hard. "Stop." His voice was like slate.
He was crushing my hand. "Ouch?"
He let go of me.
Instantaneously, he was across the tent, leaving me alone under the sleeping bags. "You can't just-"
"I'm sorry," I said in a tiny voice. "I thought..."
"I knew this was a bad idea. I knew it."
Bad idea? But two seconds ago, he'd seemed really into it. He'd called me sweet and soft. And the way he'd kissed me... "You touched me first."
"You pretended to be cold."
"Pretended?" Did he really think I could fake spasms like that? He had to be crazy. "I was going to get more blankets. You're the one who started the snuggling."
He didn't respond. He sat there, in the dark, far away from me, and I could still taste him on my lips. "Damn it."
"Griffin, please." I knew he wanted me. He couldn't have faked kisses like those. The way he was touching me, that was the real deal. No one had ever touched me like that.
He was unzipping the tent. "I've got to get some air."
"But-"
"Hopefully, you're warmer." He crawled out of the tent and zipped me inside. "Stay here, okay? I won't be far."
I lay back on the sleeping bags, pulling the covers tight around me. The residual heat from Griffin's body meant that it was still pretty warm. I lay awake, waiting for him to come back, but as much as I fought it, eventually, I fell asleep.
Chapter Seven
I awoke sweating. I was swathed in all of the blankets that I'd brought, at least four of them. I was alone in the tent, but I could smell coffee percolating.
I unzipped and tumbled outside.
Griffin already had a fire going. He had rigged up something similar to his contraption for sausage cooking for a coffee percolator, and flames licked the bottom of it. He smiled at me. "Good morning."
"Morning," I said. So, he was going to pretend like last night had ever happened, huh? Great.
"So, what did Stacey tell us that we should do today?" he asked.
"Hiking," I said. "She said we have to go look at the falls."
"Sounds good to me."
Was it me, or was he being overly cheery?
* * *
"They didn't just make assassins there," Griffin said from ahead of me on the trail. "They were really interested in all kinds of ways to kill people."
"Really?" I said. I didn't think I was crazy about hiking. Sure everything was pretty out here, but it also all kind of looked the same. Maybe I'd feel differently once I got to the waterfall. I kind of hoped so. That would mean that all of this walking had been worth it.
"Yeah," he said. "They're an arms corporation. I mean, did you think they made mannequin arms or something?"
"No," I said, "but I thought they just made guns."
"And tanks and chemical warfare too."
"Chemical warfare? But no one does that anymore. Not since World War I."
"Well, Dewhurst-McFarland figured that would last only until someone used them again. And then people would use them back. It's the way war works."
I made a face. "That's horrible."
He shrugged. "Maybe."
I trudged after him. "Can we take a break soon?"
He looked over his shoulder. "Oh come on, doll. Keep up."
I rolled my eyes.
"You know," he said. "If we were suddenly being chased by Op Wraith, then you-"
"Would get shot whether I was in shape or not," I interrupted. "Besides, I have no problem with running while I'm being chased. It's just the exercising for fun that I don't really understand."
He laughed.
"So, Dewhurst-McFarland," I said. "They did other stuff besides guns."
"Yeah," he said. "Crazy stuff. All of which they used on the people who they tried the serum out on to make sure that it works. Those poor sods got shot and cut and gassed-"
"Gassed? Like Hitler?"
"Yeah," he said. "They had this room where they would gas people. And they still use it for people who have the serum. It's an easy way to subdue them and make it easier to cut their spinal cords."
"They gas people?" I was feeling sick. "And my dad worked for these guys? Did he know about this stuff?"
"Know about it?" said Griffin. "Of course he did. When we were breaking out of Op Wraith together, he told me that the gas room wouldn't work on him. He said he knew the password to get out."
"Wait," I said. "My dad worked for Dewhurst-McFarland. Not Op Wraith."
"No, he worked for both," said Griffin. "He brought one of his Dewhurst-McFarland projects into Op Wraith. It was this injection that caused memory loss."
"What?" I said. "My
dad made things to make people lose their memory?" I sighed. "You know, the more I know, the more I think I was right about him all along. He was not the world's greatest guy."
Griffin considered. "He did some shady things, I guess. But in the end, he did the right thing. He saved you, and he opposed Dewhurst-McFarland."
"Maybe it was the right thing."
"You'd rather be dead?"
"No, of course not." I took a deep breath. "Anyway, that still doesn't make any sense. Why were the two of you escaping Op Wraith together?"
"Well," said Griffin, "I was on my way out. Your father had to get some of the serum, so he came into headquarters. We were both on our way through to the exit when we saw each other. At first, we thought the other one was going to turn us in, but then we realized we were both running. We decided to help each other out."
"Oh," I said. "Well, I guess that makes sense."
"Your dad saved my ass," said Griffin. "More than once. I owe him."
Right. The part about owing my dad again. "Is that why you stopped things last night?"
Oh my God, had I just said that out loud? From the way he'd just halted in his tracks, I must have. I felt my face grow hot. I picked my way around him on the trail. "Never mind," I mumbled. "Forget I said anything."
I kept walking.
Was that the noise of rushing water up ahead? I quickened my pace. Maybe we were close to the waterfall. I rounded a bend. Yup! There it was. I turned. "Griffin, the waterfall!"
He was several feet behind me, walking slowly.
I grinned, forgetting all about asking embarrassing questions. "Hurry up!"
I turned and skipped down the trail, getting closer to the waterfall.
It wasn't a tall or majestic thing like Niagra Falls or anything big. But it was very regal, in its own way. I stood staring at it, close enough to feel the spray on my face.
Griffin's hand settled on my shoulder. "Listen, doll, I guess we should talk."
I turned to him. "Yeah?"
He shifted on his feet. "See, the thing is, I haven't been with a girl since I was a teenager. And that was... you know, a really long time ago."
I remembered that he'd seemed overly worried about not doing things properly last night. "You stopped because you were afraid you weren't good in bed? Because that's silly. You're amazing."
He laughed, looking embarrassed. "That's nice of you to say, but that's not..." He shoved his hands in his pockets and looked at the ground.
I waited, watching him. He didn't say anything. I touched his arm. "Griffin, you can talk to me."
He shook his head. "That's the thing, doll, I can't. I want to, but I don't..."
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