His face was devoid of compassion. Nothing would stop him. He had a job to do, to rape and humiliate her and prove his loyalty to the gang, and he was determined to do it. He was going to rip away her pride and dignity and self-respect, but to him that would be a small price to pay for a few minutes of pleasure.
He kissed her, and this time she had the presence of mind to bite him. She sank her teeth into his probing tongue, he jerked his head back, and she could see blood on his lip. “Christ,” he muttered, looking at the crimson smear on his hand where he’d run it across his mouth. That was all the pause she needed. She bolted. His hand snaked out to hold her and ripped the shoulder of her bodice. Tiny jet buttons sprayed over the grass, leaving him and the rest of the outlaws a good view of the full white flesh that peeked over the lace of her corset cover. By instinct, her hands covered her chest. A fatal error. He quickly had her in his embrace again, triumph in his eyes, but strangely, no satisfaction.
“God have mercy on your soul if you will have none on mine,” she whispered, her words like acid before he silenced her with another kiss. Subduing her with superior strength, he forced her mouth open again, and she could taste the salty metallic essence of his blood, smell the animal scent of him, a rutting scent like that of territorial wolves. She released an inward sob.
She fought him with all her strength, but she was no match for him, as he had proven in the saloon. Quickly her hands hurt from hitting him, her lips were sore from trying to break free. Little by little her strength waned, and she came under his control. Until she realized she was going to lose. He had her. All he would have to do would be to lay her on the ground, throw her skirts over her head, and rape her in front of everyone through the open seam in her pantalettes. The innocence she had protected and nurtured within her core would be destroyed, and after tonight the girl she used to be would be gone. And another girl, one damaged and diminished, would be there to take her place.
Her legs buckled beneath her; his hand wrapped over her derriere and held her up. Behind them the men continued to jeer and laugh and applaud Cain’s dominance. Distantly, she wondered what kind of monster would do this to a woman. His thumb pressed against the bottom of her breast as he held her waist, but, growing numb, she hardly felt it. She was in a daze by the time he stopped kissing her and led her out of the perimeter of light. Just beyond the firelight, there was a ramshackle lean-to ready to fall to the ground. He pushed her behind it, as if somehow he had some shame and wanted his privacy.
Behind the lean-to, she heard catcalls, then the men began to fall silent. The show was over; they made do with listening. Cain pushed her to the ground. The pine needles, dry from the summer heat, crackled beneath her skirts, but the ground was cold and its chill gave her one last moment of strength. She struggled with him, ripping the underarm of her sleeve. The gang seemed to like the noise of tearing fabric, for they mumbled and one man let loose a laugh. Finally his hands caught hers and pinned them to the ground. He covered her.
He lay there, his tall, lean body heavy upon her own. Her breath came hard and fast as she waited for the onslaught. At any moment, he would start fumbling with the buttons on his jeans. Desperately she tried to separate herself from her body, so that the damage might only be physical.
“Cry out,” he breathed into her ear, shifting his weight and grunting in the process.
She shut her eyes and refused his perverse request, glad she couldn’t see him in the dark.
He groaned and shifted his weight again. “I said cry out, moan, whimper,” he whispered. “Do it.”
Her eyes flew open. She couldn’t see his face, and now she cursed the dark. It seemed trickery, but she could have sworn there was something in his voice that seemed willing to help her.
He shifted again and his legs lay between her parted thighs. She felt every inch of his hardened frame, but he had yet to unfasten his trousers or lift her skirts.
“I said whimper, God damn you,” he grunted, and rustled the pine needles some more.
She whimpered.
It didn’t take much for it to be convincing for she was shaken and confused. The sound came out as a wavering, feminine plea, and she could hear the men twitter beyond the lean-to, excited by her submission.
“Again,” he groaned, now grunting in earnest.
She suddenly understood what he was doing. A sob caught in her throat. This outlaw played God with her life, her doom or salvation utterly under his control. And now he’d chosen to spare her. He was a criminal, sparing her from crimes he himself would commit, yet she was overwhelmed by a strong, insane gratitude that he chose to spare her at all.
He grew louder and more urgent. She began to weep, unable to deal with her conflicting emotions. Finally, he released a savage sound from deep in his chest, and lay over her, silent, waiting to see if they were believed.
The only sound was her soft crying. Beyond the lean-to the men were quiet. Then they began to talk as if they hadn’t been listening at all.
Her senses came back to her. She could feel Cain’s weight upon her. Her back felt like ice, but her chest where he covered her was warm. He breathed heavily. They were so close, she could feel his heart pounding.
“Why—?” she whispered, but he touched her lips, silencing her.
His words were low and harsh. “If you speak of this, you’ll get me killed. Worse than that, you’ll get yourself killed.”
She nodded, but still she questioned why he’d helped her. He had every reason to carry out the rape, and he’d given an elaborate show to convince the other men. Yet he hadn’t harmed her. Despite how she rebelled at the thought, she wondered if maybe he wasn’t a bit like herself, that maybe his hard, cold renegade exterior hid another person, a person raised decent and kind, one who knew about compassion and mercy, yet who’d been forced by injustice to hide and seldom emerge.
Her emotions rent into tatters, she watched as he rolled off her. Tears still fell down her cheeks. Her nerves were overwrought, her feelings utterly confused. Macaulay Cain was the devil incarnate. He’d kidnapped her and treated her little better than a slave. Yet when her fate had been in his hands, he’d saved her and now his charity appeared five times more than it actually was because it came from an outlaw, a man who was not expected to show charity at all.
He sat up and his fingers caught in the tear at her shoulder. Hesitantly, he caressed her there, just once, his callused fingers on tender skin. Then he heaved himself to his knees, pulled out his shirttail, and unbuttoned his trousers. She shivered, the warmth of his body gone. He dragged her to her feet, and she wiped her tears, her emotions still in turmoil.
Grimly he pushed her in front of him as he had so many times that day. They walked back into the firelight, she looking stunned and ravaged, he, satisfied and dominant, slowly buttoning his pants and tucking in his shirttail. The outlaws were pleased. Kineson looked at her disheveled appearance and said snidely, “Here comes the merry widow now.”
They all laughed. Except Cain. He gave her an indecipherable look, then returned to polishing his gun.
She sat by the fire, unable to think of anything but what had just happened. The men began to retire to their bedrolls and an outlaw brought back the dishes the passengers had used up at the saloon. Grateful to have something to occupy her, she gathered all the tin plates scattered among the men, removed her black cotton gloves, careful to hide her scarred palm, and washed the dishes. When she was done, she put on her gloves, then sat by the fireplace, her head leaning wearily against the rock.
She hadn’t eaten all day, and she was exhausted. But she had no need for food or sleep. Fear left her every sense attuned to only what was around her, not within her.
There were more and more snores as the outlaws drifted to sleep. From where she sat, she could feel Kineson’s gaze on her as he lay in his bedroll. After a long time, she finally had the courage to look over at him. She was unspeakably relieved that he, too, had fallen asleep. Briefly she mulled over the
possibility that all the men would fall asleep and she could sneak off into the woods. But she knew it wouldn’t happen. Cain was not going to allow it.
She watched him place his bedroll alongside the back of the fireplace, the choicest spot in the entire camp. She wasn’t surprised the gang allowed him such a spot, only that such a hardened outlaw would require the comfort of the fireplace. But then her heart skipped a beat when she realized he might want it if he were sleeping with a woman. Her gaze never left him as he bent and untied the thongs around his thighs that secured his holstered guns. Slowly he unbuckled the holster. He held it with one hand and reached for her with the other.
She should have expected he would make her sleep with him. The gang considered her his woman and it was necessary to keep her from escaping; still, she drew back, and he had to force her down onto his blanket. With unexpected chivalry, he put her next to the heat of the fireplace, his own back to the cold night air. The holster he stuffed between them, shoving it low where he could get to his revolver quickly. Then, without a word, he pulled the blanket across his shoulders and closed his eyes.
An hour passed as she stared at the back of the fireplace. She was warm, unbelievably warm, so warm that she actually had to fight off sleep. But what kept her awake was the thought of those six-shooters pressed into her buttocks. She couldn’t get around the notion that if she could take Cain’s gun, freedom would be hers.
Another hour passed. Slowly she turned on her side and faced him. His breathing was regular and deep. Inch by excruciating inch, her hand slid down the blanket until it reached the smooth handle of one revolver. The rapid fire of her heartbeat drowned out the distant lone howl of a wolf. Her finger wiggled through the trigger guard until it rested on the trigger. Her other hand reached down and took hold of the holster. She pulled on the gun. A hand clamped down on her wrist.
“You go reaching down there, Mrs. Smith, you just might find something.”
It was too dark to see his face. She released a small moan as he squeezed her wrist. A pain shot through her arm. She surrendered her hold and tried to draw back her hand, but in punishment, he wouldn’t let her. He held her hand down between them until she felt the hardness. It singed her hand.
Crying out, she struggled to pull away. This time he let her, shoving her away while he removed the holster from between them. She began to scramble out from beneath the blanket, but before she could, he thrust her back against his chest and threw his arm around her, its weight effectively rendering her own arms useless. The holster was in his hand, the guns right beneath her nose, so close, yet so far away.
She could tell by his breathing that it took him a long time to go to sleep. Unable and unwilling to move, she lay against him, his hardness burning through her skirts into her flesh. They lay there for a long time until, seemingly out of the blue, he asked in a low, surprisingly gentle voice, “You have any babies missing you right now?”
She could barely whisper, “No.”
He released a long breath, almost as if in relief. Then, being an outlaw, he went to sleep just as he awoke. Quickly.
In the darkness, the memory of his near rape came back to her. Unbidden, she recalled his movements, his groans, and finally that deep animal sound that had seemed to emanate from his very soul. He made her feel things she wished she didn’t. She cursed him, unable to move beneath the rocklike muscle of his arm. Sleep took a very long time to come.
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Acknowledgments
First, I’d like to thank my cousins Anna and Morton Delson, who’ve always made Manhattan a more wonderful place than it already is. Thanks goes also to my agent, Pamela Gray Ahearn, who’s worked so hard on my behalf and had to work especially hard for this one. My appreciation to the institutions who keep the past alive: the New-York Historical Society, the Museum of the City of New York, the New York Public Library, the Newport Historical Society, Columbia University, and the A. B. Freeman School of Business Rare Books Library.
Special thanks to dear Turlogh O’Faolin for so generously sharing his vast knowledge; to Jill Barnett, who finds brilliance even when, alas, there is none; and to my editor, Damaris Rowland, who showed faith and enthusiasm. I couldn’t have done it without all of you.
Lastly, regarding all things Gaelic, thanks to the grand-nephews of the Irish writer Liam O’Flaherty: to Danny and Patrick O’Flaherty, owners of the best Irish pub this side of the Atlantic. I invite all my readers to have a pint and hear them play “Bridget O’Malley” at O’Flaherty’s in the French Quarter of New Orleans.
About the Author
Meagan McKinney is the author of numerous romantic novels, including Till Dawn Tames the Night, Lions and Lace, Fair Is the Rose, and The Ground She Walks Upon. McKinney is a winner of the Romantic Times Lifetime Achievement Award. Her historical romance, No Choice But Surrender, won the Romantic Times Award for Best Historical Romance by a New Writer and her second novel, My Wicked Enchantress, was a finalist for the Romance Writers of America’s RITA Award.
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