"Daddy was an art director for one of the big publishing houses in New York," she said. "Mummy was an interior designer. We lived in Manhattan, on Park Avenue, and had a place in Palm Beach and another on Long Island— Southampton. I was their only little girl."
The last sentence was uttered with special solemnity, as if lacking siblings were an honor of the first rank.
"They were active people, traveled a lot by themselves. But it didn't bother me because I knew they loved me very much. Last year they were in Spain, on holiday near
Majorca. They were driving home from a party when their car went off a cliff."
I took her in my arms. She felt loose and relaxed, could have been talking about the weather. Unable to read her face in the darkness, I listened for a catch in her voice, rapid breathing, some evidence of sorrow. Nothing.
"I'm so sorry for you, Sharon."
"Thank you. It's been very hard. That's why I didn't want to talk about them—it was just too much to handle. Intellectually, I know that's not the optimal way to deal with it, that keeping it bottled up only leads to pathological grief and raises the risk of all kinds of symptoms. But affectively, I just couldn't talk about it. Every time I tried, I just couldn't."
"Don't pressure yourself. Everyone goes at their own pace."
"Yes. Yes, that's true. I'm just explaining to you why I didn't want to talk about them. Why I really still don't, Alex."
"I understand."
"I know you do." Deep kiss. "You're so right for me, Alex."
I thought of the constricted way we'd just made love. "Am I?"
"Oh, God, yes. Paul—" She stopped.
"Paul what?"
"Nothing."
"Paul approves of me?"
"It's not like that, Alex. But, yes. Yes, he does. I always talk about how wonderful you are and he says he's glad I've found someone so good for me. He likes you."
"We've never met."
Pause.
"He likes what I've told him about you."
"I see."
"What's the matter, Alex?"
"Sounds like you and Paul have lots to talk about."
I felt her hand reach around and take hold of me. She squeezed gently, kneaded. This time I didn't respond and
she lowered her fingers, let them rest upon my scrotum.
"He's my faculty adviser, Alex. He supervises my cases. That means we have to talk." Gentle stroking. "Let's not discuss him or anyone else anymore, okay?"
"Okay. But I'm still curious about where the house came from."
"The house?" she said, surprised. "Oh. The house. Inheritance, of course. It belonged to them. My parents. They were both born in California, lived here before moving back East—before I was bom. I was their only little girl, so it's mine now. It took time for the estate to clear, there was so much paperwork. That's the reason I couldn't go with you to San Francisco—I had to clear everything up. Anyway, now I have a house and some money—there's a trust fund, administered back East. That's how I got the Alfa. I know it's a little showy, but I thought it was cute. What do you think?"
"It's adorable."
She went on for a while, talking about the car, the places we could go in it.
But all I could think about was: a house. We could live here together. I was earning good money now, could pay the utilities—pay all the expenses.
"You've got a lot more room now," I said, nibbling her ear. "Enough for two."
"Oh, yes. After the dorm room, I'm looking forward to being able to stretch. And you can visit me up here, any time you want. We'll have fun, Alex."
"... good-sized, especially by today's standards." Mickey Mehrabian was hitting her stride. "Tremendous decorator potential, fabulous flow, and
the price includes all the furnishings. Some of these pieces
are really deco classics—you could keep them or sell
them. Everything's tiptop. The place is really a gem,
Doctor."
We toured the kitchen and walked through the short
foyer that led to the bedrooms. The first door was closed.
She passed it by. I opened it and went in.
"Oh, yes," she said. "This was the master bedroom."
The shampoo/disinfectant smell was stronger here, mixed with other industrial scents: the ammonia of glass cleaner, the malathion bite of insecticide, lye soap. A toxic cocktail. The drapes had been removed; only a tangle of cords and pulleys remained. All the furniture was gone. The carpet had been pulled up, revealing hardwood flooring marred by tacks. The two high windows revealed a view of treetops and power lines. But no breeze, no dilution of the chemical bath.
No apple drawings.
I heard a buzz. She heard it too. Both of us looked around for the source, found it immediately:
A swarm of gnats circling the center of the room, an animate cloud, its borders shifting amoebically.
Pinpointing the spot.
Despite the attempts to wash away the aura of death, the insects knew—had sensed with their primitive little gnat brains—exactly what had taken place in this room. On that spot.
I remembered something Milo had told me. Women kill in the kitchen and die in the bedroom.
Mickey Mehrabian saw the look on my face and mistook it for squeamishness.
"The open windows, this time of year," she said. "No problem taking care of it. There's a motivated seller, extremely flexible. I'm sure you'll have no problem including any repairs or adjustments as contingencies during escrow. Doctor."
"Why is he or she selling?"
The wide smile reappeared. "Not he or she—an it, really. A corporation. They own lots of properties, turn them over regularly."
"Speculators?"
The smile froze. "That's a naughty word, Doctor. Investors."
"Who lives here now?"
"No one. The tenant moved out recently."
"And took the bed."
"Yes. Only the bedroom furniture belonged to her—I believe it was a woman." She lowered her voice to a conspiratorial whisper. "You know L.A., people coming and going. Now, let's take a look at the other bedrooms."
We left the death room. She asked, "Do you live alone, Dr. Delaware?"
I had to think before answering. "Yes."
"Then you can use one of the bedrooms for a study, or even to see your patients."
Patients. According to the newspaper, Sharon had seen her patients here.
I wondered about the people she treated. The impact her death could be having on them.
Then I realized there was someone else in her life. Someone upon whom the impact would be tremendous.
My mind went into overdrive. I wanted to be out of there.
But I let Mickey show me around, allowed her patter to pass through me for a while before consulting my watch and saying, "Oops, I've got to get going."
"Do you think you'll be putting in an offer, Doctor?"
"I need time to think about it. Thanks for showing it to me."
"If it's a view site you're after, I've got some other listings. I could show you."
I tapped the watch. "Love to, but can't right now."
"Why don't we make an appointment for another day?"
"Not even time for that," 1 said. "I'll call you when I'm free."
"Fine," she said, coolly.
We left the house and she locked up. We walked silently to separate Cadillacs. Before she could open the door of her Fleetwood, a hint of movement caught our attention. The rustle of foliage—burrowing animals?
A man shot out of the greenery and began running away.
"Excuse me!" Mickey called out, struggling to stay calm, her weirdo fantasies come to life.
The runner looked back, stared at us, stumbled, fell, and picked himself up again.
Young. Disheveled hair. Wild-eyed. Mouth open as if in a silent scream. Terrified, or mad, or both.
Patients...
"That gate," said Mickey. "It needs to be fixed. Better security—
no problem."
I was looking at the runner, called: "Hold on!"
"What is it? Do you know him?"
He picked up speed, disappeared around the curve in the driveway. I heard an engine start, began running myself, to the bottom of the drive. Got there just as an old green pickup pulled away from the curb. Gears grinding, swerving erratically, going too fast, weaving. Some letters were painted in white on the door, but I couldn't make them out.
I ran back to my car, got in.
"Who is that?" said Mickey. "Do you know him?"
"Not yet."
I MANAGED to catch up to him, flashed my brights and honked. He ignored me, was all over the road, weaving, speeding. Then more gear-grinding as he tried to shift. The truck got stuck in neutral, slowed to a coast, the engine racing as he fed gas without disengaging the clutch. He hit the brakes suddenly, came to a full stop. I stayed back, could see him through the truck's rear window, struggling, tugging.
The truck stalled. Started, stalled again. He began coasting, picking up some speed on the downhill, then braking, sliding, reducing it to a crawl.
At the fenced marshland he let go of the wheel and threw his hands up. The truck skidded, veered, headed straight for the chain-link fence.
He hit it, but not hard—didn't even dent his fender. I pulled over behind him. The tires spun for a while; then the engine went dead.
Before I had a chance to get out of the car, he was out
of the truck, lurching, arms hanging gorillalike, a bottle in one hand. I locked the car. He was right next to me, kicking the Seville's tires, pressing both hands on my door. The bottle was empty. Gatorade. He raised it as if to smash my window, lost his grip and let it spin out of his hand. He followed its descent, gave up, looked at me. His eyes were watery, swollen, rimmed scarlet.
"Gonna... kill your... ass, man." Slurred speech. Theatrical grimaces.
"The fuck... following me?"
He closed his eyes, staggered, fell forward, knocked his forehead on the roof of the car.
The brain-damaged stance of a lifelong boozehound. But his life hadn't been that long—what was he, twenty-two or three?
He kicked the car, grabbed the door handle, missed, and stumbled. Little more than a kid. Baby bulldog face. Short—five four or five—but strong-looking, with sloping shoulders and thick, sunburned arms. Red hair, shoulder-length, coarse, uncombed. Wispy mustache and a beard the color of lint. Pimples on his brow and cheeks. He wore a sweat-stained T-shirt, cutoff shorts, tennis shoes without socks.
"Fuck, man," he said, and scratched an armpit. His hands were blunt-edged, scarred and scabbed, caked with grime.
He rocked on his heels, finally lost balance completely and landed on his rear.
He stayed that way for a while. I slid across the seat and exited the Seville on the passenger side. He watched me, not moving, let his eyes drop shut again, as if lacking the strength to keep them open.
I walked to his truck. Thirty-year-old Ford, poorly maintained. Wobbly white letters spelled out, D.J. RASMUSSEN, CARPENTRY AND FRAMING on the door. Under that, a post office box in Newhall. In the truck bed were two ladders, a toolbox, a couple of blankets weighed down by metal parts.
The interior was littered with empty bottles—more
Gatorade, Southern Comfort, several brands of wine cooler.
I pocketed the key, removed the distributor cap, and returned to where he still sat.
"You D.J.?"
Glazed look. Up close he smelled of ferment and vomit.
"What were you doing up there?"
No answer.
"Were you paying last respects? To Dr. Ransom?"
The glaze melted fast. Right track.
"Me too," I said.
"Fu-uck you." Followed by a putrid belch that made me step back. He mumbled, tried to move an arm, couldn't. Closed his eyes, seemed in pain.
I said, "I was a friend of hers."
Belch and a gurgle. He looked ready to throw up. I took another couple of steps back, waited.
An unproductive dry retch. His eyes opened, stared at nothing.
"I was her friend," I repeated. "How about you?"
He moaned. Dry-retched.
"D.J.?"
"Oh, man... you're..." He trailed off.
"What?"
"Fucking... with... my head."
"I'm not trying to," I said. "Just trying to understand why she's dead."
More moaning.
He ran his tongue over his lips, tried to spit and ended up drooling.
"If she was more than just a friend, it could be harder on you," I said. "Losing a therapist can be like losing a parent."
"Fuck you."
"Was she your doctor, D.J.?"
"Fuck you!" After several efforts he managed to get to his feet, came at me, fell upon me.
Limp as a bundle of rags, his arms bulky but booze-
dead, carrying no punch. I stopped him easily with a hand to the chest. Took hold of his arm and sat him back down.
I showed him the cap and the keys.
"Hey, man... what the..."
"You're in no shape to drive. I'm holding on to these until you show me you've got it together."
"Fuck you." Less conviction.
"Talk to me, D.J. Then I'll be out of your hair."
"What... about?"
"About being Dr. Ransom's patient?"
Exaggerated shake of head. "Uh-uh... not... crazy."
"What's your connection to her?"
"Bad back."
"Lot of pain?"
"Hurt... fucking job." Remembering, he bit his lip.
"Dr. Ransom was helping you with the pain?"
Nod. "And... after—" He made a feeble try for the keys. "Gimme my shit!"
"After what?"
"Gimme my shit, man!"
"After she helped you with the pain, then what?"
"Fuck you!" he screamed. The cords on his neck swelled; he punched out wildly, missed, tried to get up, couldn't lift his butt from the ground.
I'd pushed a button. It set me thinking.
"Fuck nothing after! Fuck nothing!" He flapped his arms, swore, tried to get up and buckled.
"Who referred you to Dr. Ransom, D.J.?"
Silence.
I repeated the question.
"Fu-uck you-u."
"There may be other patients who are feeling as bad as you do, D.J."
He gave a sick smile, then a feeble head shake. "Uh-uh."
"If we can find out who referred them, we can track them down. Help them."
"No... fuck... ingway."
"Someone should get in touch with them, D.J."
"I'm... You're some... fucking Robin Hood?"
"A friend," I said. "A psychologist, like her."
He looked around, seemed to be noticing his surroundings for the first time. "Where am I?"
"Side of the road. Just down from Dr. Ransom's house."
"Who're you, some fucking... Robin Hood?"
"A friend. Who referred you to her, D.J.?"
"Doctor."
"Which doctor?"
"Carmen."
"Dr. Carmen?"
He giggled. "Carmen... doctor."
"Carmen's doctor?"
Nod.
"Who's Carmen?"
"Fuck you."
"What's the name of Carmen's doctor?"
A few more go-rounds before he said, "Bev... Hills Jew... Wein..."
I wasn't sure if he was giving me a name or asking for a drink. "Wine?"
"Dr. Weinfu-ck."
"Wein something? Weinstein? Weinberg?"
"Garden, grow grow grow."
"Weingarden? Dr. Weingarden?"
"Big... mouthed Jew."
He slumped and fell over, lay on his side.
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