Was this the price of trying to rip my soul from his? Was this the consequences of rejecting the plan the gods gave me as the once complete puzzle pieces broke away into a million pieces as it was no longer whole?
Or was this the crime of not fulfilling my deal with the twilight being?
“Erg! This again! You really are weak, such a pity with all that untouched power at your fingertips” It says in a bored tone.
“If I am so boring and weak then please, leave me in fucking peace!”
“Suits me fine as I better he already has another woman warming his bed. I mean you was a virgin what experience do you truly have to please a man such as he?”
“FUCK OFF!” I screamed out unable to cope.
Rage. Jealous. Pain.
They racked my body and it sent cruel images of Dante in a pile of naked limbs all pleasing him. His moans of ecstasy could be heard inside my head as I struggle to fight away this illusion.
I’ve felt like I was going completely out of my mind as I could already picture the men in their clean white coats coming to take me away. Their coming to take me away to lock me up where life would be beautifully all the time drugged up on pills.
“Ho. Ho. He. He. Ha. Ha” The voice says as I spiral out of control.
“STOP!” I screamed with tears falling down as I rocked in the corner of my room praying for this nightmare to end. This so wasn’t how I expected this break up to go.
I must have fallen asleep as soft small hands gentle shock me awake as I was so tired.
“See what I mean now?”
“Yeah. You were right to call me. leave her with me” I know that voice.
“Alice?” I ask
“Yes Belle. Come on lets get you up and showered”
“What are you doing here?” I snuffle as I use my forearm to wipe my red running nose.
“We, my friend. We are having a much-needed girls’ night where no boy talks will be allowed. Tonight, will be full of junk food, ice cream and bad comedy. I hear it’s the best recipe for a broken heart”
“Oh, look another person to witness you being pathetic as you mope about the room”
I can’t reply with Alice being here as I don’t want her to know I have completely and utterly lost my mind. I wonder if this is what Jasper feels like when the madness takes over?
“Go shower and wipe that makeup of because girl, you look like a clown who partied way to hard last night” Alice says as her nose twitches.
“On whose orders” I said trying for a bit of humour.
“Mine! So, unless you want me going full crazy on your ass then I suggest you walk your ass right into that shower and wash” She demanded as her amber eyes twisted with power.
Holy shit! I’ve never felt her power before as I can feel it in the air as it moves around us. I may not be able to see it, but I can feel the waves she emits.
“You surround yourself with powerful friends to hide how weak and frighten you are”
“Yes, Doc!” I said as I saluted her from the ground. I didn’t move quick enough for Alice’s liking as she used her magic to pull me up before putting me in the shower herself.
“That was dramatic”
“You took too long now wash!” She states as she plays with her long nails, each one has a different representative of a suit on them, ranging from Aces to Queens.
“Are you going to watch me as well?” I snapped.
“Don’t get on snappy and bitchy on me darling. I told you I would let you make your own mistake, but I’ll be damned if I let you take your shit out on me”
I couldn’t help but lower my face in shame as she said this. I shouldn’t be taking out my emotional baggage on her. “I’m sorry”
“Apology accepted… Just don’t push me away, ok?” Alice said as she tilted her head to the side to hide the pain in her eyes, but I could hear the worry in her voice.
“I won’t I promise” I tell her before stripping down. “BITCH!” I scream out as freezing cold water blasted into me. Alice had turned the shower head on and stuck it to freezing before skipping out the door with hysterical laughter.
“That shall be your wake-up call” She sings out as I shake.
I try my best to get it to turn onto hot water however, it seems to be stuck on cold. So, instead of fighting I hurry to wash myself to prevent my body from getting ammonia.
As soon as the last of the conditioner was out, I got out the shower and wrapped myself up as I was shivering and shaking as even my teeth were chattering.
“You…. Are…. Cruel…” I punched each word out, even my lips were blue.
“Its call tough love darling and you were in need of a reality check. My girl will not be moping behind closed door” Alice had made herself comfortably on my bed as she was sprawled out flickering through her phone.
I decided there was no point in talking to Alice until I was dressed and warm as she was ignoring me. I was unsure why she was being so hot and cold with me.
“Because you are not worth her time”
Could the voice be right in saying I didn’t deserve her? NO! I had to stop myself before I lost my mind into the darkness that threatens to swallow me up. I can’t keep thinking like this.
“Oh, but you can. You will. You must” I could hear the smirk in the voice.
I closed my eyes shutting them before talking a deep breath as I slipped into some clean clothes and tied my long hair back. If this was going to be a girl night, then I will make sure I wear some comfortable clothes.
A light tap on my shoulder had me turning to see Alice back to having amber eyes. “Ready?”
“Yeah, shall we go into the living?”
“Of course! Who would waste such an amazing sofa! It’s like a bloody big bed where you could have a massive orgy session… If you do decide to have one just make sure to invite me. I do so love them” She tells me as she leads me away like a house pet.
“Please don’t”
“This one time, I had been invited to a session with some frisky felines shifters who really get down and dirty”
“Please stop”
“One of them had a really long, wet, thick tongue. And believe me when I tell you he really-“
“Enough!” I shout as I cover her mouth before she tells me about her freakiness. “You a sex addict I get it! Don’t need to tell me about all the details”
She doesn’t just lick my hand like a normal person would, oh no. Not Alice. She curls her tongue between the cracks in my fingers before wiggling her tongue.
“You just had to do that didn’t you! I’ve just washed myself”
“Well, that what the first one said, but… I told him we could get all sweaty and dirty before washing ourselves, if you know what I mean” At this she found hilarious as she laughed at her own words.
Me, I just looked at her in disbelieve as I wasn’t sure I wanted to spend the night with her, if her mind was firmly stuck in the gutter.
“Tada. What do you think” She says spinning around like a professional ballerina as she looks at me with such happiness that I melt just a little bit for her. I wish I could have her energy and enthusiasm.
“I..” Words could not express what she had done for me as its clear she had been here longer then I through. I took in the side of how the living was no longer clean and tidy. It had been transformed into something out of this world! Tiny balls of magic in lanterns floated around the top of the room in colours of silver and gold. The sofa had been turned into a large tent as the entrance was left open by being tied to the side giving way to the tv, silky material cover the walls in shades of rich purple, a small carved table was inside the tent where the sofa no longer was. Cushions of different shape and sizes were scattered around strategically as it looked like one of those cushion sofas that you could fall asleep in.
Once inside I looked up as the material above had the cosmos and star stitched into it. “I did that with my magic, I through maybe tonight you would enjoy being un
der the stars as we watched films” Alice says seeing the look in my eyes.
“Thank you, my friend,” I said as I took a seat on the cushion floor. On the tables was rows and rows of junk food that would rot a person’s teeth where diabetes would be quick to catch.
“Ok… So, I have brough my own person collection of movies… what are you fancying? Pirates, beasts, Disney, comedy, horror, violence action, sex, classic-“
“Slow down! How about you pick the first movie and I’ll pick the next?” I said as I struggled to open the popcorn box.
“That’s the problem… I can’t choose one” She says as she waves her hand and the lid flies off.
Taking the time to think, what film did I want to watch? Such an easy choice yet a struggle to pick. I don’t fancy any romance films, or action films…
“Frozen?” I shrugged my shoulders as the choice I made.
“Frozen” she deadpans.
“You really are sad! A Childs film?! Really! Of all the films you could have picked! You pick a film for children! You have so lost any respect I had for you” The voice comments.
“You never had any in the first place”
“Well you dropped lower than low” She says in grating voice.
“Belle, why Frozen?” Alice asks pulling me out of my mind.
“Because the main story is about a talking snowman and two sisters” I don’t need to say any more as she gets the hint for why I choose it.
“Belle” Alice says as she sets the film up.
“Yeah”
“Do you want to build a Snowman?” She sings as the movie starts up. “Come on and lets go and play, I never see you anymore, come out the door, its like your gone away, we use to be best buddies and now were not, I wish you would tell me why!”
“No” I laugh
“That’s not how it goes, and you never even let me finish!”
“Sorry but not!”
“Oh please, it’s the sing along version”
“Dare lord my ears will bleed”
“Fine let’s do it” I say as Alice gives me her wide innocent eyes and I know it will annoy the voice.
“Someone save me now” the voice whines
“Maybe it’s time for you to up and leave this body”
“Nope”
“Then shut the fuck up and suffer” I snap. It huffs in annoyance before going quiet inside my head.
Ah, finally! Peace and quiet. Now I can enjoy myself. I sit back and watch the movie munching on popcorn and chocolate.
“Oh, I so love this part” She says as it’s the part where Elsa saves Anna.
It gives me an idea of what I could do to Dante if I ever found someone with powers of ice. “Do you think we could freeze Dante like that?”
“Bit dark but sure, why not” She agree without a second through. I wonder what she would say if I ever called her up to hide a body.
“Maybe we would take a page out of his book and mount his statue on my wall”
“Might break it” she says as she looks at the wall with a calculated look.
“Be worth it” I said as I pop another bit of chocolate.
“What would you do?” She is intrigued by what I’m suggesting.
“Dress him in female clothes and put makeup on him” He might melt before I could complete my masterpiece, but it would so be worth it. I would take pictures and splash it all over the internet.
“Yes!” she fists pumps “We are so doing this” The grin she gives me sends chills down my spine.
“We will” I say as we watch the rest of the film.
Chapter Thirty-Two
Day 3: Bargaining In Haunting Castles
I walked along the muddy path where the sound of bare feet squished into the earth, coating the soles in mud and grim. The ground was cold to walk on as I slipped around almost losing my footing from how muddy and damp it was. Balancing myself out I kept walking forwards as the path behind me would disappear from sight, getting swallowed by the mouth of darkness that followed behind me. Someone wanted me here tonight, someone called me to this place. For once more I was dragged into Underland and I was not a happy bunny about it.
Not when defeating noises created by thunder could be heard from miles away as lighting crashed into the very top of the mysterious haunted castle. One that beckon me forward to walk into the mouth of the beast. Heavy rain poured around me as mist started to coat the ground I walked on, the problem with this was one wrong slip of the foot, and I would find myself at the bottom of the gorge with a twisted neck. I dreaded to think what would happen if I died in this realm.
Dead trees dotted the land either side of me as they were dancing in the dark night where the smell of decay and death twisted into my nose. Which every step I took forward the smell would increase as I tasted sulphur on the icy winds. One could mistake this place for hell as it had that hellish feeling to it.
With every step I took forward I could hear the haunting sounds of lost souls that lived in the forest. How I knew this I didn’t know but I didn’t want to find out. Their silence cries and pleas from lost souls who were forever mad and forgotten cried out the closer I got.
I was by the gates of the gloomy castle as they seemed to hold a supernatural stillness to them. Beyond the gates were illuminated by blue lighting which struck the gate causing them to fly open.
I jumped back in fright from how it had almost hit me as my heart pounded it fear. Looking behind me the path, I walked on was covered in the darkness which meant I had no choice but to keep going forward. The courtyard had dead trees that had shrivelled up and died, leaving its black roots and trunk left to break the walkway turning the concert up as the debris had begun to litter the floor. A centre piece which should have been clear crystal water running was more like black tar that over filled the bowl and poured onto the land around it. A burning smell came from what I could only presume as toxic liquid as it ate the dead land.
Nothing was what it seemed as large birds took to the night and flew away. They squeaked out in fear before escaping what had startled them. This place was desolated and ruined by years of neglect. Even the castle had broken down into complete destruction where one of the turrets had broken through the roof, being the reason why there was debris everywhere.
I took a long look at the castle as I tried to see if any one was home. But who would want to live in a place like this? Lights turned on in the shattered windows as shadows moved and danced about. It didn’t make it any more inviting, if anything I wanted to run away.
I really didn’t want to be here.
“If you could find it in your dreams, you can find it in your day life, somewhere south of hell” A voice cried out halting my entrance as I looked for the culprit. I didn’t feel safe here.
“No shit! Your pretty much in fucking wonderland right now! and what do you want to do?! Explore the fucking castle of doom!” The voice screams in my head leaving a throbbing pain behind.
“Underland” I said out loud
“Wonderland, Underland. There both the same thing. You say tomato, I say tomahto “
“Alright smart ass” I fire back as the voice chuckles. I take careful slow steps as I avoid the debris trying to remain quiet.
“Heavy is the crown that was always hidden” someone sings this time. I spin around as whatever is singing, is doing it to freak me out and its working. I through I could sneak a peek without anyone knowing I was here. But I guess I was wrong.
“Come down the rabbit hole and forsake the life you once knew” it says in a daunting chid like voice.
“Leave behind the riddles of your truth that sprout madness” It sings again as it changes abruptly as maniacal laughter replaced it.
I jumped at the sound of a child screaming emerged from far behind it, it was distant, too far away to even justify what it could have been. But it came steadily closer becoming more intense, more distressed until it was undeniably within this courtyard.
I didn’t know what to
do! Did I run inside and pray the being couldn’t find me? Or do I take my chance outside with god knows what?!
My heart leaped into my throat as the sound of bones cracking sounded, panic surged within me as I decided inside was better than out here. Just as I’m about to run, two single fingers tap on each shoulder. A wave of fresh terror reared up inside me as the colour drained from my face. I shouldn’t do it. It was a really bad idea.
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