by Jodi McIsaac
ALSO BY JODI MCISAAC
The Thin Veil Series
Through the Door
Into the Fire
The characters and events portrayed in this book are fictitious. Any similarity to real persons, living or dead, is coincidental and not intended by the author.
Text copyright © 2013 Jodi McIsaac
All rights reserved.
No part of this book may be reproduced, or stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording, or otherwise, without express written permission of the publisher.
Cover Illustrated by Gene Mollica
Published by 47North – Seattle, Washington
ISBN-13: 9781477808696
ISBN-10: 1477808698
Library of Congress Control Number: 2013936773
FOR LAUREN
CONTENTS
PRONUNCIATION GUIDE
PROLOGUE
CHAPTER 1
CHAPTER 2
CHAPTER 3
CHAPTER 4
CHAPTER 5
CHAPTER 6
CHAPTER 7
CHAPTER 8
CHAPTER 9
CHAPTER 10
CHAPTER 11
CHAPTER 12
CHAPTER 13
CHAPTER 14
CHAPTER 15
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
PRONUNCIATION GUIDE
The guide below is meant to help you pronounce some of the trickier words that pop up in this story. But, seeing as there is little agreement as to the “proper” pronunciation of most of these words even among native Irish speakers and scholars, feel free to say them any way you like.
Aiofe—EEF ah
Airgetlam—AR get lum
Brighid—BREE yit
Conchobhar—KON cho var
Cúchulainn—koo CULL in
Dian Cecht—DEE an KAY
Ériu—AY roo
file—FEE luh
Fionnbharr—FYUN var
Fionnghuala—fyun OO la
leannán sí—LAH nawn SHEE
Lia Fáil—LEE-ah FOIL
Manannan mac Lir—Man na non mac LEER
neamh-mairbh—NEE uv MAOW (rhymes with “now”)
Nuala—NOO uh la
Ruadhan—ROO awn
Scone—SCOON
sidh—SHEE
sidhe (plural of sidh)—SHEE
Tara—TAH ra
Tír na nÓg—TEER na NOHG
Toirdhealbhach MacDail re Deachai—TUR a lakh mac DOLL ray DAW hai
Tuatha Dé Danann—TOOa ha DAY DONN an
PROLOGUE
She waited until darkness fell. There were no stars tonight, no moonlight to illuminate her waves of red hair as she crouched on the edge of a wood, beneath the tangled branches of a hawthorn tree. The tree was dead, like all the trees in Tír na nÓg, and provided little cover. It didn’t matter; no one had come looking for her. But it was only a matter of time. They would come, and they would want revenge.
Fortunately, chaos was on her side. Her mind was still reeling from how quickly her fortune had turned the moment the High King’s head had been separated from his body. Lorcan was dead, and she no longer needed to waste her time or her power on bending him to her will. The throne was hers for the seizing, but she had to act quickly.
Tentatively, she stepped out from under the cover of the wood. There was no light to guide her, but she knew this path by heart. The dry grass crunched beneath her feet as she crossed the clearing, glancing behind to make sure she was not being followed. A small mound rose before her, and her hands quickly found the polished stone set in its side. She pressed firmly and watched as the side of the hill dissolved and was replaced by a door of wrought silver. She was home.
CHAPTER 1
Cedar McLeod was contemplating her mother’s secrets as she prepared to leave them behind. She stood alone in the empty living room of her childhood home. The lace curtains swayed toward her, carrying the smell of the ocean, taunting her. Stay, they seemed to say as they reached out for her. Discover the truth about the woman who lived here. She walked over and shut the window, forcing the stubborn latch closed. I have to go, she told herself. She pushed the curtains aside and looked out through the glass. The evening sun seemed to hover over the water in the bay, as though it might rest there for a while before disappearing beneath the waves. Cedar had always loved the passage from day to night; it was a time when the air felt thick with mystery.
She walked through the old house one more time, saying her good-byes. She had never been particularly sentimental… but she had also never traveled so far away without knowing if and when she would return. And so she closed her eyes and tried to savor the memories this house held for her. She felt the soft, plush carpet under her bare feet and remembered losing Barbie shoes and marbles in its depth, and the scoldings she’d received when her mother—when Maeve—had stepped on them. She ran her hand along the polished banister as she slowly climbed the staircase, avoiding the creakiest spots by habit. It was a path she’d memorized as a teenager when she was going through what Maeve had called “her rebellious stage.” Sliding down the banister had always been the easiest escape; coming back home had been another matter.
She reached her bedroom and sat down on the edge of the bed, smoothing the threadbare quilt beneath her fingers. She was tempted to lie down, to stare at the ceiling and think about all the reasons for doing what she was about to do. But no, she had to go home. Finn and Eden were waiting for her. She had made her decision. And so she picked up the last box and carried it downstairs, her arms sore from a weekend of packing and cleaning the old house. She locked up and then squeezed the box into the trunk of her car.
Only the workshop was left.
She walked around it for what must have been the dozenth time. It was such an ordinary building on the outside: white clapboard with only one door and a small square window. It had sat there in their front yard, just off the gravel driveway, for as long as she could remember. She’d never been allowed to enter it. “It’s nothing that would interest you,” Maeve would say. “Just a desk and a chair and a few books. I’m entitled to a little privacy.”
When she was fifteen, Cedar had tried to break into the workshop with one of her friends. But Maeve discovered them, and Cedar had never seen her in such a rage. Cedar was grounded for a week, and when she was finally allowed out, she discovered that her friend had suddenly moved to the city. After that, whenever Cedar was tempted to try again, she’d find herself remembering an urgent test that needed to be studied for, or a drawing that she’d been meaning to work on.
But now she knew better.
She finished her circuit around the outside and stopped in front of the door, which refused to open. She knew now there must be some sort of spell on it and that whatever was inside had something to do with Maeve’s secret life as a druid. But now Maeve was dead, and whatever secrets she still held were buried with her. Cedar rattled the doorknob, knowing it wouldn’t work.
She had tried to get in several times since Maeve’s death three weeks ago. She had brought a locksmith out, but his tools had broken on the first attempt, and then he’d been too busy to try again. She’d tried to break the window with a crowbar, but it hadn’t even scratched the glass. A curtain covered the window, and she could not see inside, except for a small ragged space in the corner—but even then all she could see was dust and darkness. She had asked Finn to help her, but he had just warned her to not drive herself crazy. Some mysteries were best left unsolved, he had said, and meddling in the affairs of druids never turned out particularly well.
She glanced at her watch and knew she ha
d to get going. But she hated the thought of not knowing this side of her mother. She felt certain that if she could only get inside Maeve’s private sanctuary, all of her questions would be answered.
She placed her hand on the rough wood of the door. “Open,” she whispered, feeling foolish. She glanced over at the tree under which Maeve was buried, then turned back to the door. “Mum?” she whispered. “It’s okay now. You can let me in. Let me in.” Nothing happened. Cedar kicked at the door in frustration, and the wood creaked. Encouraged, she kicked it again. Then she took several steps back and flung herself shoulder-first into the door.
She was not expecting the explosion. A loud crack like a rifle shot ruptured the silence of the evening, and a force like a hot wind sent Cedar flying backward through the air. She landed hard on the gravel driveway amid a torrent of red sparks. Her head hit something hard, and she felt the darkness close in on her.
When she opened her eyes again, something was obscuring her view. She could see a rim of light in her peripheral vision. It surrounded the object in front of her like a halo. She recognized it as the porch light. The sky was black; night had fallen. She started to sit up and winced as a sudden burst of pain shot through her head.
“Wait,” the object said. “Let me help you.”
She felt herself being gently lifted into a sitting position. The world swam around her, and she closed her eyes, waiting for the pain in her head to subside. After a moment she opened her eyes again and blinked a few times. Gradually, the object in front of her came into focus. It was a man. He was kneeling beside her, his light gray eyes fixed on her with concern. He was handsome, though old enough to be her father. His shaggy brown hair was generously flecked with gray, his long face was lined and pale, and he was wearing a worn brown leather jacket over beige pants and a buttoned shirt. Behind him, the workshop looked as intact and impenetrable as always, despite the blast that had knocked Cedar off her feet.
“How do you feel?” the man asked.
“Um… surprised,” she answered. “Who are you?”
“You hit your head pretty hard,” he said. “You might want to get it checked out.”
“No, I’m fine, thank you,” Cedar said. She slowly got to her feet, running a hand over the large bump on the back of her head. She waited for him to introduce himself, feeling increasingly uncomfortable, but he only gazed at her silently. Finally, she said, “I’m Cedar. And you are…?”
His gaze slid from her face to the tree behind her, where Maeve and Kier were resting among the roots.
“Cedar,” he said, more to himself than to her. “Well, that’s certainly fitting.” His voice was soft and slightly accented. Irish, she thought. Then his eyes returned to her. “I’m Liam,” he said.
She waited again for him to elaborate, but this time he walked past her and knelt down at Maeve’s grave, which was covered in wildflowers.
“Thank you for your help, but why are you here?” she asked, suspicion in her voice. As far as she knew, Maeve hadn’t been friendly with any of the neighbors. In fact, she wasn’t sure that her mother had had any friends at all.
“I came to pay my respects,” he said simply.
“After dark?” she asked.
“It was better this way,” he replied. “I didn’t anticipate finding anyone else here.”
He wove his fingers through the grass and the delicate stems of the evening primroses and mayflowers. “She loved wildflowers,” he murmured. In the dim light, Cedar could see that his face was wet with tears. Quietly, he spoke some words in a language she didn’t recognize. Small green tendrils pushed up from the ground through his fingers, spreading upward with a life of their own and growing longer and thicker. He lifted his hand from the ground and watched as leaves grew on the branches, expanding up and out until the bush was the size of a small child. Then blossoms erupted from every branch in shades of red, white, and pink. “She also loved roses,” he said, not looking at Cedar. “It will bloom every year on the anniversary of her death.”
Cedar gaped at him in astonishment, wondering if she had hit her head harder than she’d thought. “How did you do that?” she asked. “Who are you?” She was about to ask if he was one of the Tuatha Dé Danann but stopped herself.
He stood and brushed a few specks of dirt and grass off his knees. His eyes were wells of enormous sadness when he answered, “I’m no one of importance.” He started to walk away but then stopped. “I would stop trying to get in there if I were you,” he said, indicating the workshop with a nod of his head. “It won’t open for you, or anyone for that matter. I know the spells she used, and they’ll only get nastier the harder you fight them. It is impossible for a human to get inside. And if you somehow managed it by magic, you would likely find yourself unable to get out. Just leave it be.”
“What do you mean? How do you know all of this?” Cedar demanded. Her mind was racing. If this man knew about Maeve, then maybe he also knew about Eden, and she didn’t like strangers knowing her daughter’s secret. She had to find out who he was and what he wanted.
He ignored her questions and turned his back on her, starting to walk toward the road. She ran after him and they almost collided when he abruptly stopped and turned around. She grabbed one of his arms to balance herself and didn’t let go. “Who are you?” she said again, tightening her grip.
He stared into her face for a long moment, as though trying to memorize it. His voice caught when he tried to speak. “Someone who cares,” he said. “Don’t go back there, Cedar.”
“Where?” she demanded.
“You think it’s a place of safety, but it’s not. There is nothing but pain for you in Tír na nÓg.” Then he wrenched his arm out of her grasp and walked briskly down the gravel driveway and around the corner.
“Wait!” she yelled, and ran after him. But when she reached the end of the driveway there was no sign of him, nor of any vehicle. There was only a small cloud of dust rising up from the dirt road and into the breezeless night.
When Cedar opened the door to her apartment, she was met by a flurry of activity. Eden, who had been sitting on the sofa reading The Hobbit, squealed, “Mummy!” and ran toward her. Finn and Jane were up to their elbows in boxes, setting out lamps, picture frames, and Star Wars figurines on Cedar’s bare bookshelves and end tables. Most of Cedar’s belongings had gone into a storage unit, except for her deluxe espresso maker and a few pieces of furniture. Jane was dancing to the sound of Milo Greene on the stereo, but she stopped mid-groove when she saw Cedar.
“Hey, look who’s back!” Jane said, a wide grin on her face. Her hair was completely shaved on one side of her head, and the other side hung down over her eyes, which were lined with turquoise today. Bright red streaks stood out from the black hair around them. A series of small skulls adorned her ears and hung like gruesome trophies from a bangle on her wrist. Cedar started to say hello, but then Eden barreled into her and she winced, her body still tender from her collision with the gravel driveway.
“Hey, there, Honey Lime,” Finn said, coming in for his own hug as Eden returned to her book on the sofa. “Honey Lime” was his new favorite nickname for her, out of several that he’d tried on for size. He said it was the color of her eyes when she was happy. Jane said it sounded more like a margarita and pretended to gag whenever he used it around her.
“Are you okay?” he asked, running his hands gently along her sides where Eden had squeezed her. Cedar nodded and laughed. She couldn’t get a paper cut without Finn noticing. Ever since her miraculous return to life he had barely left her side, or Eden’s. He had wanted to accompany her to Maeve’s house this weekend, but Cedar had been worried about bringing Eden there. On the surface, Eden seemed to be coping fine with what had happened, but Cedar had heard her crying out for Gran in her sleep. Taking her back to the place where Maeve had been killed and buried might be too much right now. So she’d convinced Finn to have a daddy-daughter weekend in Halifax, and he had reluctantly agreed. Cedar was tempte
d to keep what had happened at Maeve’s a secret, to avoid encouraging Finn’s overprotective tendencies. But the temptation was fleeting. They had promised each other that there would be no more secrets.
“Something strange happened, actually,” she said. She told Finn and Jane about her encounter with Maeve’s workshop and about the strange man who had come to pay his respects.
“Super weird,” Jane said.
“He didn’t say anything else?” Finn asked. He looked troubled.
Cedar shook her head. “No, he just told me to stop trying to get into the workshop and that we shouldn’t go back to Tír na nÓg. I thought you might know who he was. Is he one of the Tuatha Dé Danann?”
“I don’t think so,” Finn said. “I don’t know anyone called Liam, though that might not be his real name. But if he knew our plans to return to Tír na nÓg, one of the others might know him. I’ll ask around. I, for one, want to know who he is and how he knows so much about us.”
“Why do you think he’d warn you against going to Tír na nÓg?” Jane asked. “Not that I disagree with him,” she added, arching an eyebrow. “I think Tír na nÓg is far too dangerous for you. The three of you should just stay here with me.”
Cedar grinned. “Wait a second, did you pay this guy to scare me off?”
“It’s not funny,” Finn said, frowning. “Without knowing who he is, it’s hard to know how seriously we should take him. But my guess is that he’s a druid. I didn’t think Maeve was in touch with other druids, but maybe she kept that a secret too. If he is a druid, his warning shouldn’t be taken lightly.”
Cedar glanced over at Eden, who appeared to be reading but was more likely hanging on their every word. “Hey, Eden, do you want to watch a quick show before bed?”
Eden looked over the cover of her book and said, “I’d rather know what you guys are talking about.”
“Nothing. Boring, grown-up stuff,” Cedar answered, rifling through a stack of DVDs and putting in Secret of the Wings, Eden’s new favorite. Eden’s fascination with fairies had grown exponentially since she had discovered that she technically was one, although she considered her lack of wings to be a tragic oversight. Cedar had tried to explain the difference between the Tuatha Dé Danann and the pixie-like fairies of cartoons and toys, and Eden had seemed to understand. But every once in a while Cedar found her daughter staring wistfully at her Tinker Bell doll or racing around her room wearing the wings from last year’s Halloween costume and jumping off her bed in the hopes that she’d suddenly be able to fly. Tír na nÓg will be good for her, Cedar thought. And it will be good for me too. Both of them had a lot to learn about the world they belonged to by birthright, if nothing else. And Tír na nÓg would be safer.… If they stayed here, it would be impossible to keep Eden’s ability hidden from friends, teachers, babysitters, and other parents, who wouldn’t be able to ignore the sudden appearance of a portal to wherever Eden happened to be daydreaming about at the moment.
