by Julie Berry
“Open them,” she said.
I opened my eyes.
* * *
We stood on a mountaintop, overlooking a valley that stretched forever, with woods and pastures seemingly lit from within themselves. A river curled across the valley, and where it bent and ran off into the mountains, a city rose up as if carved from the ground itself. Its towers and walls shimmered with color and swayed gently in the wind, like trees.
No smoke rose into the sky. No filth ran out its water gates. No cemeteries dotted its hills.
The city was far from me, filled with many thousands of buildings, and the lands beyond it farther still, yet I could see it as clearly as if distance had no meaning. In all this vastness I could see every leaf, every berry, every pebble and fish in the bed of every stream.
In the city, children played in the streets, and adults rested and talked and worked among them. Some were reading, some teaching, some building and sculpting and making music. Animals of all kinds moved freely among the people—bears and wolves and badgers lolling on the ground where infants crawled, snakes draped lovingly over women’s shoulders, falcons nibbling from girls’ hands.
I turned to Beryl, and saw her for the first time.
My heart broke.
She met my gaze, then pointed beyond the city. I looked and saw another mountain, white as cotton. One face was hollowed to form a natural amphitheatre. On the grass inside the hollow stood a well of dark gray stones.
I remembered what she’d told me about banishment. “Is that… ?”
She nodded quickly.
I turned back toward more pleasant sights.
I could have stayed in that illusion forever, but Beryl was suffering.
“Shall we go back?” I asked.
Beryl hung her head. It was, for her, an unanswerable dilemma.
I reached for her hand. “I’ll be with you.” I said. What weak comfort I must be to someone born in this paradise! She squeezed my hand, closed her eyes, and reached for her stone.
A voice called to us.
Beryl’s eyes flew open.
Five people ran toward us, ascending the mountain as easily as I might run down a grassy slope. I looked at Beryl. She stood transfixed, watching them, clutching the stone at her throat.
I couldn’t understand it. Unlike my parents, these people saw us. They were calling and waving. Three women, I saw, and two men, calling to Beryl, with a word I did not understand, nor could I repeat it, though I tried. My mouth could not form it.
“Aren’t we only seeing your memory?” I whispered. Beryl stood trembling, reaching out to them. “I thought so,” she whispered back.
And they were upon us like stampeding cattle, attacking her with kisses and astonished laughter. And tears.
They were her family.
Was it real? I thought she couldn’t go back. I thought—she thought—she was barred forever. Was this only a dream, like my dreams that turned to nightmares when I would wake and find my parents still gone?
I felt out of place, a gross intruder, not even the right kind of creature. I backed away, but Beryl reached for me and pulled me close.
“Lucinda,” she said, her face shining, “this is my family.” Turning to them, she said, in words I could understand, “This is Lucinda, my dearest friend.”
A woman stepped forward and embraced me. The others, each in turn, did the same, smiling warmly. I felt kindness and welcome flow from them into me.
Then, like moths to a flame, they flocked back to Beryl, to pet her and convince themselves she was truly there. Her two sisters linked arms with her and began leading her down the trail with them toward the city.
I hesitated. Beryl turned back. She pulled away from her sisters and came back to me.
“It’s all right,” she said. “We’ll leave now and go back to the garden.”
I had a terrible choice to make. But really, it was no choice at all.
“We?” I said. “Not ‘we.’ You stay.”
Beryl shook her head. “I can’t leave you defenseless. I’ll only say good-bye to them.”
“You won’t,” I said. “You’ve come back home. Whatever barred you before is gone. You mustn’t leave.”
She gripped my arms tightly, at war with herself.
A thought struck me. “You apologized, Beryl. You went to Aunt with an offering, and told her the truth, and how sorry you were. How your heart was broken by it. That took courage.”
She shook her head vehemently. “It doesn’t bring John back,” she said. “It doesn’t fix your aunt’s broken life. That couldn’t be enough.”
“It was all you could do,” I said. And in that moment, I knew it was true. All you can do is enough.
Below us, on the sides of the mountain, grasses and trees swayed gently, as if bidding Beryl welcome. Her family stood at a respectful distance, watching but not interfering.
“I wouldn’t leave, if it were me,” I said. “At least one of us should have her family.” I kissed her forehead. “I’ll be all right. I’ll go where Coxley can’t find me.” I realized something surprising. “After seeing all this, I feel I can do anything.”
She threw her arms around my neck. “Bless you, Lucinda,” she said. “Bless you forever.” She pulled back and looked at me once more, her smile shining. Then she pulled the net that carried her stone off of her neck. “Take this with you,” she said. I started to protest, but she silenced me. “I can forge another. Take this to remember me by, and to protect yourself.”
I took the stone from her hand. “You said it was your soul.”
“I’m not who I was when I left this place,” she said. “Take this, and my soul and I will make ourselves new.” She draped the netting around my neck. “You know what to do,” she said. She kissed my cheek. “Good-bye, dear friend.”
She would be happy at last. How could I not be glad? “Good-bye, Beryl.”
Her family stood some distance off, watching. She turned toward them, and they beckoned to her. She took a step toward them, then looked back at me.
“Lucinda,” she said. “When you get home, look in the tower room. There’s a present for you in the telescope.” I nodded and waved.
Beryl halted halfway between me and her family. I had to leave for her sake.
Light, I told the stone, and it burst with effortless radiance. It, too, was home. I closed my eyes and willed myself inside it. Back to the garden, I told it. Take me home.
Chapter 30
I opened my eyes to cold and darkness. It was the moonlit garden at midnight, and Dog had found me. He nibbled on dried flower stalks.
After the lush heat of Beryl’s world, I couldn’t endure the cold. I ran for the house, with Dog at my heels and Beryl’s stone thumping my breastbone at each step. Once inside I lit a candle from warm embers in the parlor fire, then threw a few more logs on. Before long, flames sprouted up, probing their way around the wood.
I stared at the fire, at the blank spaces on the wall where Beryl’s paintings had been. A wave of loneliness hit me. To drive it away I took a candle and found my way to the tower room in search of my gift.
There was the humpback telescope under its leather wrap. I looked all around it, and the open case lying on the floor, for some type of gift, and saw nothing. So I unscrewed the eyepiece and peered through the telescope at the moon. Something blocked the view. I swiveled the telescope around and reached inside. Resting against the lens was a fabric pouch. I tipped it into my hand, and out poured a cascade of colored stones.
River pebbles from paradise. Worth a sultan’s fortune here.
I poured the stones back in and lay the pouch on the floor. It didn’t matter to me now.
I looked out the windows at the grounds of the Palisades, and the view of the city and the dark sea beyond. Torches in the highest towers of Sebastien Palace winked like fireflies. Everything else was dark.
A pinpoint of light appeared through the trees and was gone. It appeared again, moving toward me,
up the road from the bridge into the city.
Something told me it wasn’t harmless. My tongue felt dry in my mouth.
I swiveled the old telescope in the direction of the light and aimed as best I could. It creaked on its axle, but when I peered through the eyepiece and adjusted the dials, it soon found its focus.
A disembodied head floated toward me. It was a rider carrying a torch that only illuminated his face.
He came closer. I saw that he wore no cloak or overcoat. His pale hair gleamed by torchlight. So did the golden epaulets on his shoulders.
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I dropped down onto the floor. All I could do was breathe.
I’ll go where he can’t find me, I’d said. That’s all right, Beryl, go be with your family here in your heaven-world, and leave me alone with a devil in mine. I insist.
Mother of God.
I wrapped my fingers around the stone at my throat and willed it to make me still and silent. If I stayed here, lay quiet on the dark floor, threw the telescope’s leather cloak over me, would he think the house abandoned and move on?
I thought not.
If I gave him the prize I held in my hands, would he go away and leave me alone?
Not a prayer of it.
And if he got the stone from me, as he surely would, after he killed me, what would he do with its power? As powerful as he was now, Chief Minister of Justice, I knew that was not enough for him. What would he do to Gregor, the future king?
He would tear through the house until he found me, I knew. My only hope was to get out of the house before he did. And here I was, trapped in a tower like the girl in the tale with the long, long hair.
I stood up, moving as softly as I could, and fumbled at the latch of the nearest window. It swung open on squealing hinges. I paused to see if Coxley had heard, but all I heard downstairs was smashing glass.
I leaned out the window and looked down. It was a full story drop to the roof below the tower. From there the roof sloped down to a single-story drop into thick evergreen bushes. If I could survive the first drop without breaking both my legs, I might be able to tumble to safety and run away. If Coxley didn’t hear or see me.
A horrific crash followed by ringing notes told me Coxley had annihilated the piano in the ballroom. Why, why would he do that? Did he think I would hide inside it? Was this his revenge on Beryl? On me?
Wind pummeled me, whipping my hair out of its setting. Perhaps its noise would conceal me. The drop seemed endless in the darkness, but crashing glass below was more fearsome. Jump, now, some good angel whispered in my ear, and I obeyed before I could think. I clambered up on a chair, gripped the upper sill, and hoisted my legs out. My slippers fell off my feet. I leaped forward.
For an instant I lay in the hand of God. Then I landed on the roof, smashing my knees and rolling to the very edge before catching a grip on the slates. I let myself fall into the thorny bushes, and dangled there, trying to catch my breath, my eyes screwed shut, every bit of me scratched and bruised and stinging.
From out here I couldn’t hear Coxley’s rampages, so I didn’t know whether or not they’d stopped. I flexed my ankles and wrists. It appeared that my body still worked. I clawed my way out of the deep shrubs, suffering several more gashes, a ripped-off sleeve, and a tear in my skirt before landing on the ground.
Each step was painful, but I forced myself to run across the dark lawns, sidestepping the drive and aiming directly for the road.
The wind chilled me. It lashed my face, flinging grit into my eyes. I closed my eyes, and dangling branches whipped me. My lungs ached, and my empty belly stabbed with pain.
“Meh-heh-heh!”
Dog galloped along beside me.
I couldn’t see him, but I heard and felt him bash against my shins. I was so glad for his company, until Coxley’s horse neighed, a shrill, piercing cry, and the door of the house slammed.
“Gyup,” I heard him call out.
And galloping hoofbeats were after us.
I reached the road and crossed it. The frozen grass of the margin was easier on my bare feet. I hoped I could disappear in the shadow of the ditch.
I stumbled and fell. My knees wouldn’t let me get up.
I lay praying, clutching my hands around brambles and weeds, wishing the ground would swallow me. Beryl’s stone, just under my neck, pressed into my windpipe.
The horse tore through the hedge and clattered across the road. With a cry from Coxley, it leaped across the ditch, sailing just over me, and landed in a farmer’s field.
In the dark, under the cover of my body, I tore the stone from my throat and scrabbled in the frozen dirt with my fingers, trying to bury it.
I didn’t get far. A stinging whip wrapped itself around my arm, yanking it up and out from under me. The stone fell. I prayed he hadn’t seen it.
The whip relaxed and fell off my arm. I forced myself to rise from the dirt and face him, shivering with cold and pain and dread.
Here is where I die, I told myself.
Coxley sat astride his huge beast, moonlight gleaming on his leather boots.
Even in the winter night, I felt cold waves of malice rolling off him that chilled me far more than the wind. His pale, bloodless cheeks were hollow, sucked in, like withered dead skin over bones. Only his epaulets, and his crystal blue eyes, had any color at all.
Behind him, in the farmer’s field, hollow stumps of mown cornstalks became breathy reeds, sighing and rattling in the wind. His stallion snorted and shook his harnesses.
From out of nowhere, Dog appeared, charging into the horse’s knees. The stallion reared angrily, pawing the air. Dog rammed him again with no regard for the horse’s kicking legs.
“No, Dog!” I cried. “Stop it! Run away!”
Coxley shouted at his horse to stand. There was a loud crack, and Coxley’s whip wrapped itself around Dog’s neck. With a mighty heave, Coxley flung Dog’s body high in the air, his body twisting and kicking.
He landed with a thump and lay still.
Chapter 32
Coxley reined his horse close, his whip handle clenched in his gloved hand. I turned away, waiting for him to strike.
Instead he grabbed my arm and hauled me effortlessly across the pommel of his saddle. Striking his horse on the flank, he spurred him back toward the house.
Each bounce of the saddle sent the pommel pounding into my belly. I couldn’t help touching Coxley, smelling the wool of his uniform, feeling his cold iron form. I nearly retched.
I mourned for Dog.
He dumped me off the horse, and I landed on the gravel drive before the house.
I could barely feel my feet, frozen in their shredded stockings.
Coxley dismounted and picked up the guttering torch that he must have dropped there when he chased after me.
Its flames resurrected, and he held it near my face until I shrank back.
“Where is she?” he said.
“Gone,” I said.
“Gone where?”
I tilted my chin up and looked at the stars in the sky. How could they shine on a night like this?
“Gone where you can’t go,” I told him.
For a moment I saw fear in his eyes, before it turned to anger. He shoved the torch closer until my cheek hurt. “Where is her stone?”
I hesitated. I saw a way. “Gone with her,” I said. He jabbed with the torch.
“You lie.”
He stared at me, as if his gaze alone would crumble me. It might have.
“How do I lie?” I demanded. “How would she have left this world without it?”
He spoke. “Your lie is written on your lips. You can’t deceive me.”
He meant it. I knew it. What to do now? I rubbed my arms and tried to think.
“Cold?” Coxley said. “Let me warm you.” He climbed back into the saddle, nudged his horse toward the house and dangled the torch in the midst of a bare-branched shrub.
The bush caught fire. Orange feathers ruffled alo
ng its spiny branches slowly, almost lovingly. Fire spread through the bush—a woodsy scent, a cheerful crackle.
“Where is the stone?” Coxley shouted. He ambled his horse toward another bush.
The wind fanned the flame from the first bush until it lapped at a windowsill.
No. Please no. The second bush began to gleam red.
I stood, with effort. Should I run? If I reached the stone, could I use it in some way?
The windowsill was burning. The fire threw dancing orange stripes upon the inside wall. It was the ballroom. Glass began to shatter, and the drapes lit with a whoosh.
Coxley tossed his torch inside the house, then came back to where I huddled.
He dismounted and pulled a dagger from its sheath. He pressed its tip gently into my belly.
“Whether or not you tell me where the stone is, I will find it,” he said. “You can make this less painful by helping me.”
Fire had spread to envelop the first floor. Light was already beginning to dance on a second-floor ceiling.
Courage, Lucinda. “You won’t find it,” I said, “and I won’t help you.”
“Very well,” he said, and pressed the dagger in. “No, stop,” I cried.
“Yes?”
Cinders flew high as if ascending to heaven behind him. “The stone is…”
What could I say? I looked at the burning ballroom, and thought of Gregor. Had a thousand things been different, I might have danced with him there in that room. How could I betray him by arming Coxley with Beryl’s stone?
She gave it to me.
I stood as tall as I could. “You killed my parents,” I said. “You killed my little goat. It may be that you’ll kill me, too, but I won’t surrender to fearing you. And I won’t give you Beryl’s stone.”
Coxley stared at me with hatred clamped between his teeth. Behind him, an inferno raged. Its rushing groan filled my ears. Every breath burned my lungs.
“Your parents died slowly, did anyone tell you that?” he said. “I watched them. Your father watched your mother bleed, and there was nothing he could do. His legs didn’t work anymore. A miserable sight. Even for my tastes.”
