Settling on the end of the bed, he said, “Okay, I won’t. You’re right. We’re in a tight spot. We’re all on edge about it and feeling pretty helpless. Lives will be lost if we can’t stop this thing. Getting your memories back would be great. We can’t count on that, however, so there’s little point in beating you or ourselves up about it. I’m sure Haley feels guilty about your being hurt in the first place. But guilt and anger and frustration’s not going to get the job done. Right?”
Noah sighed. “No, I suppose not.” He slid down on the bed a bit farther. His foot bumped up against Sev’s thigh. Deliberate? Maybe. Sev’s body certainly didn’t give a damn. His skin flushed with excitement. His cock twitched even more to life. “She shouldn’t feel guilty about me,” the other man continued. He didn’t seem to notice the contact, except, hello, was that little Noah peeking out from the front of the boxers?
Sev slid down onto his side, resting his head on the palm of his hand. “Haley cares, a lot. It makes her a good field operative, a good team leader.” His hand crept up to clasp Noah’s leg right below the knee.
“She cares too much, I think. She’s spending too much time with me when she should be concentrating on the mission. I don’t matter.” As he talked, Noah moved his leg and bent it so that his foot could press against Sev’s groin. A groan escaped Sev’s lips at the contact with his already aroused cock. “You shouldn’t be here, either,” Noah admonished, scrunching his toes against the bulging crotch.
Somewhere in his mind Sev realized Noah didn’t know why Haley and Sev were spending so much time with him. He didn’t understand they were trying to fuck his memories back. Just as well, too. Such knowledge couldn’t possibly help matters. Best to leave it alone and concentrate on the pleasure of playing with Noah’s body.
Sitting up abruptly, Sev yanked his t-shirt over his head. “I’ve done all I can for one day,” he said in response to Noah’s concern. “Right now I want to fuck you. Any objections?”
The other man’s eyes widened at the crude words, but his eyes roamed over Sev’s naked chest in obvious interest. His tongue licked his lips as if he were picturing having Sev’s body for a snack. “None whatsoever.” Noah started to sit up. Sev grabbed an ankle and yanked him back down.
“Don’t move, boy. I want you on your back just as you are.”
“Okay,” was Noah’s breathless reply. He settled down once more and kept his gaze on Sev.
Wanting to draw the treat out for both of them, Sev slowly toed off his shoes while undoing his belt. His gaze fixed squarely on the other man, he snapped open his jeans and drew them down his hips, taking his underwear with them. His cock was already at full arousal. It sprang out of the confines of the jeans, an angry red and pumped for action. He stepped out of the pants, and walked around to Noah’s side of the bed. The guy stared at Sev’s erection, his chest rising and falling on more rapid breaths.
“See what you do to me, boy?” Sev said in a voice thick with his own passion. “It’s past time for me to be inside you.”
Noah gnawed at his lower lip. “Have we done that before?” he asked. There was concern laced in his voice.
Sev smiled at him wickedly and placed one knee on the bed beside Noah. “Damn right we have.” Leaning over, Sev pressed both hands on the pillow on either side of Noah’s head. “You love having my cock buried in your ass.” He didn’t wait for a response. Instead he swooped in for a kiss, his tongue plunging into Noah’s mouth without asking permission. The other man met him at the entrance and twined his tongue with Sev’s, sucking hard.
Noah’s hands clasped Sev’s waist and pulled, trying to bring him down so that their bodies would touch. Sev held firm, though. It was too soon, and he wanted to be the one in charge. He pulled out of the kiss just in time to stop Noah from grabbing his cock. “Easy, boy. That’s not for you yet. Put your hands up by your head and keep them there.” Noah blew out a breath of frustration, but otherwise complied as Sev knew he would. Sev had the authority, after all.
He looked down at the lean, hard body and admired its sleekness, the subtle strength of it. Noah’s skin was flushed with his arousal, causing his bruises and cuts to fade into the background. His brown nipples were hard and inviting. Sev bent down to take first one and then the other between his lips. He sucked and he nipped and was rewarded when Noah groaned and arched into his mouth. Sev spent a few minutes with those lovely pecs before he slowly descended the center of Noah’s chest. The skin was so smooth, so hot, so tasty. Noah’s body jerked with each lick. Looking down to his destination, Sev saw Noah’s cock jutting out from its confines.
Sev hooked the shorts by their waistband to get them out of his way, careful to free Noah’s erection before dispensing with the cotton completely. Now they were both naked. Naked, hard, hot. Sev straddled Noah’s legs before sucking the man’s cock into his mouth. It tasted salty and got harder and thicker as Sev sucked it like the treat that it was. Noah gasped and bucked, causing Sev to pull back. A groan of frustration met Sev’s ears.
“Sorry, but I told you I’m going to fuck you. Don’t want you coming too soon.”
Noah looked back at him with slits for eyes and a heaving chest. “Do it now, please.”
Sev shook his head. “Not yet. I didn’t bring any lube, so you’re going to have to slick me up with that sweet mouth of yours.”
“I don’t care.” Noah tried to lift his leg to give Sev access to his ass. Sev held him down.
“I care. I don’t want to hurt you any more than you already have been, so open up. Saliva’s not much, but it’s all we’ve got because I can’t wait long enough to grab some lube from my room.” Sliding toward Noah’s face, Sev pushed his cock down to mouth level. Noah lifted his head and sucked him inside the moist cavern without hesitation.
Sev closed his eyes. His head dropped back as he savored being laved by Noah’s eager tongue. His cock jerked at the touch. His balls tightened higher into his body. Damn if he didn’t want to stay right there, shoot his cum into Noah’s willing mouth. But that was not nearly as wonderful as coming inside the man’s other hole. With reluctance, Sev pulled back. Noah tried to stay with him, but the cock slid out of his mouth. It was nice and slick from Noah’s efforts.
Sev moved enough to bring Noah’s legs up. “Hold them,” he commanded the other man, and nodded when Noah clasped the back of his knees with his hands. The small, tight ass was exposed to Sev’s gaze now. He knew it well, knew what pleasure waited for him. The puckered brown hole winked in invitation. There was work to do first though. Wetting his forefinger, Sev traced the wrinkled skin before pressing against it. The finger went in easily, found the walnut-sized bundle that brought pleasure to all men and rubbed against it. Noah moaned and sighed. His ass was relaxed and ready for Sev.
He said as much. “Please, Sev, I’m ready for you.” Noah’s voice was low and seductive. As seductive as any woman.
Clasping his cock with one hand, Sev lined it up with Noah’s asshole. He spat a little extra moisture on it before pushing it inside. It was not as easy as with the finger, but it went in. Inch by inch, Sev slid his aching cock inside the tight passage. He wanted to thrust hard. It was agony not to. Sweet agony. He moaned at the heat and pressure as he slid farther and farther into the velvety moistness. He stopped when his balls hit Noah’s body. He was all the way home.
Sev opened his eyes to gauge how his lover was doing. Noah’s eyes were shut tight, his teeth clamped on his lower lip. His fingers dug into the flesh behind his knees. “You all right, boy?” Sev choked out the question, his body quivering with the effort to remain still.
Noah kept his eyes shut. “Fuck me, now!” he growled in reply.
Sev smiled. That’s my boy. He rocked his hips back, pulling his cock out. Noah’s muscles tightened around him, trying to keep him from escaping. When the head of Sev’s cock was back to the spot just inside the entrance, he pushed in again harder than before. Noah let out a long groan. Grabbing Noah’s thigh with one h
and for leverage, Sev pulled out and thrust again, and again. His rhythm picked up to a faster, harder pace. He pounded into the other man’s body. Noah took each thrust and his cock bounced with each hit. It needed some attention too of course. Sev wrapped the fingers of his free hand around the hard shaft and tugged the foreskin up and back with each thrust.
Both men grunted and groaned as their passion built. Sev’s climax boiled up and out. His whole body sang with the promise of it. As the first of his semen burst out of his cock and into Noah’s waiting core, warm cum spilled onto his fingers. Noah’s cock pulsed through its orgasm. Sev’s cock did the same. He squeezed Noah’s length hard the way Noah’s ass was squeezing him dry. With a final cry, Sev stopped his thrusting. Pulling out of Noah, he collapsed on top of the other man. No need to worry about his weight. Another man could take it.
As he lay panting, the sounds of Noah’s heart beating hard against Sev’s equally heaving chest, he thought, If this doesn’t make him remember, nothing will.
Chapter Eight
Haley hadn’t slept all night. After seeing the two kids turned over to the local police, she had driven around the Boston area, trying to check the most likely spots for an attack. It had been a waste of gas and effort. There was nothing to see except happy people enjoying the beginning of their three-day weekend. Everywhere she went, there were families and food and music and just plain fun. Everywhere she went she pictured death and destruction, mangled bodies and screams of agony. Even when she returned to home base, she had sat in the communications center until dawn monitoring the “chatter” on the sites they knew were frequented by the Sons. Nothing.
They’d gone to ground once they knew Noah and Jill were plants. How they had figured it out was still a mystery. With the more urgent matter of the imminent attack, there had been little time for her to spend pondering what had gone wrong. There were others digging into the matter and she itched to join them because it was personal. If there was a mole in their organization, he or she had caused Haley’s people to be hurt and killed. The idea of a traitor made her blood pressure climb higher. She was exhausted, frustrated and downright angry with herself most of all. This was her mission, her failure.
With a vague idea of checking on Noah in the vain hope that something had changed with his memory, Haley rounded the hallway leading to his room and saw Severin sauntering toward her. He was grinning, again, and that made her simmer come to a boil. It wasn’t fair and it wasn’t rational, but seeing the clear evidence of how he had spent the night made her tear into him.
“Nice night, Sev?” she demanded when they were within a few feet of each other.
No fool, Sev stopped short and his grin disappeared. “Nice enough,” he hedged.
“I bet.” She stopped as well and folded her arms across her chest. She was acting like a harridan, yet she couldn’t stop. It was all suddenly too much. “Noah’s a pretty guy and a very good lay, wouldn’t you say?”
“Hey, now, Haley,” he chided.
She overrode him. “Did it work?” He grimaced at her. “Did it?”
“No, it didn’t,” he spat out, his own anger finally showing through. “The poor guy woke up gasping for air, shaken by a nightmare. Yet he still doesn’t remember a goddamn thing.”
She closed her eyes briefly. She was disappointed, and not. A part of her, a small nasty part of her was glad. That’s the part that took control of her mouth. “I guess the sword isn’t mightier after all,” she drawled, eyes pinned to him. “We’ve both failed. We’ve both been wasting what little time we have fucking him instead of being out there finding these assholes before they…” She stopped mid-sentence, appalled at her loss of control and even more so because she suddenly saw past Severin and her own frustration to notice Noah coming down the hall. His hands were jammed in the front pockets of his jeans and his eyes were wide as he stared back at her. “Noah,” she breathed.
Sev whipped around and stared at Noah, too. None of them said anything as the other man came to stand before them. “Well,” the younger man said, his eyes darting between the two of them. “I guess that explains a bit.”
“Noah,” Sev started to say something, but was cut off.
“No.” Noah’s voice was firm. “I don’t want to hear anything more from either of you. I’ve felt guilty these last several days. Guilty!” he emphasized, the hurt and anger clear in his voice. “Not just because I couldn’t remember anything important, but because I was taking up so much valuable time, from both of you. I thought you were worried about me. I thought you cared about me.”
“We do,” Haley managed to interject, and Sev nodded in agreement.
Noah, however, merely shook his head in response. “You’ve been trying to fuck my memories back, haven’t you?” His voice was getting louder.
Sev sighed and threaded his fingers through his own hair. “That was the plan, yeah.”
Noah barked out a laugh. “God, what egos you both have to think your touch was so magical.” Haley winced. When he put it like that. “Did you even tell me the truth, either of you, when you said we’d been lovers?”
Before Haley could reassure the poor guy, Sev beat her to it. “Yes! You and Haley and you and I were both involved before this mission. It was no lie, and that’s precisely why we thought it would work.”
“It was my idea originally,” Haley cut in. She didn’t want Sev to take the blame for her boneheaded plan. “The doctor said just about anything might trigger your memories and I thought sex might do the trick.” She shrugged. What more was there to say? Plenty, apparently. Noah rolled his eyes.
“Your idea was your former lover and you should have—what—a contest, to see who could make me remember first?”
“That part was my idea,” Sev replied. “I picked up on what Haley was going to do and decided to give it a go myself. You want to be mad at anyone, be mad at me.” Typical Sev, doing something nice when all she wanted was to be furious at him.
“Don’t worry, I have enough anger to go around. Not that I have a right to it,” he added. “I’m the fuck-up whose cover was blown. I’m the one who can’t remember what’s necessary to save lives tomorrow.” And now he sounded lost and vulnerable. Haley wanted to reach over and hug him. She didn’t try it, though. She knew he would reject her, and with his next words, her maternal instinct flew out of her. “On the other hand, you both have had less than noble agendas. Maybe you told yourself you were trying to help me remember, but even a guy without his memories can tell whatever was between you two isn’t over. You’ve been dancing around each other for the last few days, keeping me as the monkey in the middle.”
“That’s not true!” Haley spat out, appalled. She was not using Noah as a way to get at Sev. She never wanted him to be involved in the first place, although to be honest with herself, she didn’t exactly try hard to stop him, either.
“She’s right,” Sev was quick to agree. “Haley and I are finished.” They looked at each other in the eye. Haley could see uncertainty in Sev’s gaze and feared he could see the same in her.
For sure Noah saw something. He scoffed. “Oh, for God’s sake! I can see in your faces that you still love each other. I’ve been seeing it for days without realizing exactly what it was. Is that what you think of when you’re fucking me, when I’m in you and you’re in me, each other?” His voice cracked in the end, and when Haley tore her gaze from Sev’s, she could see tears forming in Noah’s eyes.
“Oh, Noah,” she cried.
Holding up his hands as if to fend her and Sev off, he said, “No, don’t say anything. It doesn’t matter. I’m sorry, so very sorry, I can’t remember. I hope you figure out what’s going to happen. I really do. Just don’t count on me.” Backing up, he turned and ran down the hall away from them.
“Noah!” she called, and felt Sev’s hand on her arm.
“Let him go,” Sev said in a quiet voice. He didn’t feel quiet or calm, but figured there was little point in venting the frustration well
ing up inside. What a total screw-up! Not only did he feel bad for playing Noah, noble intentions notwithstanding, but he also knew Noah was right. Part of Sev’s decisions over the last few days were tied to his feelings for Haley. While he had never fantasized about the woman when making love to Noah, a part of him had felt connected to her nevertheless. It was time to let Haley know exactly what he felt, not for Noah’s sake or the sake of the mission, but for him and for her. They deserved the truth. Letting go of her arm, Sev took Haley’s chin in his hand and turned her face toward him. She didn’t resist his touch, merely looked back at him with sad, tired eyes. It broke his heart.
“Noah’s right,” he said keeping his gaze locked on hers. “It’s not over between us, at least it’s not over for me.” When she started to open her mouth, he quickly continued, afraid if he didn’t get the words out now, he never would. “Losing you rocked me back on my heels in a way I never thought would happen. Before you, love was an easy concept. I threw the word around with other women and men without understanding what I was really saying. I thought when you walked away I would get over it, get over you, and I’d simply move on to the next person.”
He slid his hand up the side of her face, his fingers threaded into her hair. “I was wrong. I had never before considered forever with another person. I had with you, though, and it caught me by surprise. One night I was picturing us in the future with the house and the two point five kids, the whole nine yards. Then an image popped into my head of me home with those kids while you were away on a mission. And instead of you coming home, I answered the door and it was a couple of our people with sad looks on their faces and saying things like ‘I’m sorry for your loss’ and you were dead and I was alone trying to explain to our children why Mommy wasn’t coming home.”
His voice cracked. Just saying the words made the emotions erupt as if it were really happening. Without thought, he pulled Haley to him and hugged her tight. Amazingly, she didn’t fight his embrace. Instead she wrapped her arms around him and hugged him back. It gave him the courage to finish what he had to say. “I couldn’t tell you how I felt using the right words. I know they came out wrong. They sounded as if I wanted you to knuckle under to me as your husband or something. The logical part of my brain told me you were too dedicated to your career to give it up even for me or our future children. My baser instincts ran my mouth. I could only think in terms of making you safe. I’m sorry, so sorry I pushed you away. The truth is I’m still scared to death of hearing you’ve been killed. Breaking up hasn’t changed anything.” He hesitated before going for broke. “I love you, Haley.”
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