Table of Contents
Title Page
Dedication
What’s your sign? Check out ours.
Chapter 1
NOTES TO SELF
Chapter 2
NOTES TO SELF
Chapter 3
NOTES TO SELF
Chapter 4
NOTES TO SELF
Chapter 5
NOTES TO SELF
Chapter 6
NOTES TO SELF
Chapter 7
NOTES TO SELF
Chapter 8
NOTES TO SELF
Chapter 9
NOTES TO SELF
Chapter 10
NOTES TO SELF
Chapter 11
NOTES TO SELF
Chapter 12
NOTES TO SELF
Chapter 13
NOTES TO SELF
Chapter 14
NOTES TO SELF
Chapter 15
NOTES TO SELF
Chapter 16
NOTES TO SELF
Chapter 17
NOTES TO SELF
Chapter 18
NOTES TO SELF
Chapter 19
WHERE’S YOUR MARS?
THE SOUND OF MY OWN VOICE
Chapter 20
NOTES TO SELF
Chapter 21
NOTES TO SELF
Chapter 22
NOTES TO SELF
Chapter 23
NOTES TO SELF
Chapter 24
WHERE’S YOUR VENUS?
Chapter 25
NOTES TO SELF
Chapter 26
NOTES TO SELF
Chapter 27
NOTES TO SELF
Chapter 28
NOTES TO SELF
Chapter 29
NOTES TO SELF
Chapter 30
WHAT’S YOUR SUN SIGN?
Teaser chapter
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Copyright Page
For Christopher Allen Poe, Aries Sun, Artist’s soul
What’s your sign? Check out ours.
Jeremy, a hot Taurus, and what Taurus isn’t? It’s about the eyes. And the passion. And the sense of purpose. And the eyes. I think he likes me, but we have the same topic for our class article: a dead folksinger whose spirit just might be haunting Monterey. I would like to think our stars are lined up, but it doesn’t look good. That Taurus is not going to change his focused, fixed ways for me.
Sean Baylor, the Gemini folksinger who is responsible for all of the excitement. A sailboat accident in the sixties ended his career and his life. Now his ghost is supposed to be back, which really takes his sign’s natural curiosity to the next level.
Henry Jaffa, Aquarius, the famous paranormal investigative writer leading our summer writing workshop. If I get my way, he will be my new writing mentor. He won’t make rapid decisions, though. Aquarius needs to think things through. Just ask me.
Vanessa, an Aries. Sexy, clueless, and absolutely after Jeremy. And the Ram of the zodiac, even a clueless one, usually gets what she goes after. But she is so not a writer. Why is she really here?
Candice, my Virgo roommate from Colorado. Rich, gorgeous, and a perfectionist true to her sign. Although Virgos can be critical, she is kind about the way she does it. And she is the social center of our lives.
Tatiyana, a trendy, hard-working Capricorn with a violet streak in her black hair, she is Vanessa’s long-suffering roommate. This sign is all about the work and all about making the money, but it is also Earth, which means she’s stable. I hope she is because Vanessa certainly isn’t.
Dirk, Sagittarius. Cute ponytail guy from the United Kingdom, with accent to match. He is Jeremy’s roommate and seems really into Candice, or maybe Vanessa. Or is it Tatiyana? The guy gets around as Sadges do, both geographically, and sometimes in their personal lives.
Nathan, my first serious crush. He’s a Leo, and is always drawing people to him, making it look easy. Do I really want to see him again?
Mercedes, Libra reporter who once interviewed Baylor. Air sign Libra can see both sides of a situation, but is she trying to get at the truth or to hide it?
Ren Baylor, Sean Baylor’s emotional Cancer sister, willing to use her influence to cause serious problems for me. Cancer cares deeply about family, and this one is none too happy about the publicity her dead brother’s ghost is receiving.
Eldon, make that Cookie, Scorpio drummer who performed with Sean Baylor on the night of Baylor’s death. What secrets about that night is this guy hiding?
Christopher Ritter (Critter), a laid-back party guy who rarely takes off his shades. A Pisces, all the way, he is everybody’s friend, except maybe his own.
And me, Logan McRae, a living-in-my-head Aquarius, the same as Jaffa. This is my chance. I need to convince this mentor to many that I am worth mentoring as well, and I might be able to outsmart Jeremy and actually get my article published. The only problem is that I don’t want to outsmart Jeremy. I want to work together. And, yes, I want our stars to be aligned. Maybe they will be if I just give it a little more time. And if I can find out what really happened to Sean Baylor.
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WELCOME TO Fearless Astrology, Volume 2. USE THE
KNOWLEDGE THAT YOU GAIN HERE WISELY. IT WILL
SERVE YOU WELL THROUGH TIMES OF JOY AND TIMES
OF CHALLENGE.
—Fearless Astrology
The ghost tour leader was ten minutes late. I didn’t care. Although I’d put on a good show, I, Logan McRae, was miserable. My mom had left for another golf tour. My two best girlfriends were on vacation. Worst of all, I’d lost a guy I really cared about, and in a very public way.
So, no, I wasn’t all that interested in Monterey’s ghosts, its Cannery Row or the tantalizing fragrance of the sea air.
Breaking up with someone you care about can do that to you. Times of challenge. You got that one right, Fearless.
I glanced up at the moon. It would be in the emotional sign of Cancer for another day-and-a-half. No way was I going to let that moon influence my wallowing. Time to focus on the good.
Here I was with a fellowship to the California State University at Monterey Bay for outstanding high school journalism students. My new roommate, Candice Armstrong, and I would soon join twelve other kids to take a tour of Monterey’s supposedly haunted downtown. Our guest lecturer was none other than Henry Jaffa. The Henry Jaffa. Bestselling paranormal investigative journalist, who donated time and money to help young writers. That Henry Jaffa.
He had sat right across the table from me at dinner, and I’d barely been able to eat. All of us had just kept staring at him. Except for Vanessa Lowe, that is, a pushy, curvy brunette from Texas. She’d hammered him with questions and flattery from the clam chowder right through the halibut parmesan. She was still talking while Jaffa tried to swallow a few spoonfuls of his melting hazelnut gelato.
Candice and I stood together outside the restaurant waiting for the tour bus. We both wore jeans and our black T-shirts with Writers Camp in purple letters on the front. I had to admit neither of us filled them out the way Vanessa did hers.
Candice was about my size, except on her, thin looked good. She had shiny, streaked rich-girl hair and a way of carrying herself that made her appear taller than she was. In a word, she was elegant. A steady Earth sign, I guessed, with a cool exterior that made me guess Capricorn somewhere in her chart. Dirk, a cute British guy with a long ponytail, had been checking her out at dinner, but she told me she had a boyfriend back home in Colorado. She also had two older sisters, who were, she said, a royal pain. I had worried that I would get stuck with a Vanessa-type roommate and was glad that Candice seemed so calm and easygoing.
The two redheads from New York were twins and, of course, r
oomed together. Christopher Ritter, who introduced himself as Critter, was a stoner with blond curls and a laid-back way of speaking that must have taken a lot of practice to pull off. I didn’t have names for the others yet.
“Could you believe the wicked witch of west Texas?” Candice asked. “With Vanessa in the workshop, we’ll be lucky to even talk to Jaffa.”
“With him,” I said. “I don’t think it’s about the talking.”
Candice nodded. “It’s about the writing. Let’s hope she sucks at it.”
“Or that she’s easily distracted.” On the other side of the walkway, Vanessa chatted up a cute guy in a khaki jacket with a matching bag over his shoulder. “If that guy’s part of our workshop, she might not be that interested in Jaffa after all.”
“He’s cute, but he isn’t a bestselling writer,” Candice said.
“He is hot, though,” I replied.
Just then, a dark green bus pulled up, and a woman with a gray bob stepped out. Her face was younger than her hair, her eyes hidden behind pink-tinted glasses.
“Writers Camp tour boarding now,” she called out in a starched, professional voice. “We leave in ten minutes. Mr. Jaffa, please come forward.”
Jaffa emerged from the crowd and climbed up the stairs.
The cute guy was next. Then came the African American chick who’d sat on the other side of Jaffa at dinner. As she swung up the steps to the bus, her violet tie-dyed scarf blew behind her. It matched the streak of hair falling over one eye.
“Let’s go,” Candice said, and we began to run.
She got there first. Then, finally, I was aboard. Ahead of me, Henry Jaffa sat next to a window paging through a guidebook. His bushy gray hair caught the lights of the bus. The seat beside him was empty. This was my chance. I started toward him.
Then I felt someone hit me from behind. In the back. Hard.
As I fought to maintain my balance, Vanessa gave me a final shove, pushed ahead of me, and claimed the seat beside Jaffa.
A hand on the other side of the aisle shot out and grabbed mine. I looked up into riveting eyes the color of the sea. The noise of the others blurred into a steady hum. It was the cute guy who’d been talking to Vanessa outside.
He was about my age with hair so straight and shiny black that I immediately thought about my own auburn curls, no doubt hopelessly frizzed by the sea air. Although our connection must have lasted only moments, time stretched out. Then slowly, he pulled me down in the seat next to him.
Finally, the sound in my head switched back on. I heard the chatter of the others and was able to remove my hand from his.
“Thank you,” I said. “I guess I tripped.” The words fell out of me clunky and stupid.
“What’s your name?”
“Logan.”
“I’m Jeremy.” His voice was husky, yet soft. “Jeremy Novack.”
“And you’re part of the Writers Camp too?”
He opened his jacket, pointed at his shirt, identical to mine. “My plane was late. I just got in.”
“Where are you from?”
“Jersey,” he said. “I’m sorry I missed the dinner, but I can’t believe I bothered to show up for this sham.”
“They’re doing it because Jaffa’s next book is going to be about ghost sightings,” I said.
“He needs to stick to the investigative stuff. You don’t believe any of the ghost stories are real, do you?”
“I don’t know.” Those eyes of his made it almost impossible for me to remember my name, let alone anything else.
“It’s hype.”
Taurus. He had to be that fixed Bull of the Zodiac. I could guess his opinion of astrology.
The silver-haired tour guide stepped inside the bus.
“Is everyone aboard? Our first stop will be a bar and restaurant that has two ghosts.”
Jeremy sighed.
Ahead and to the other side of us, I watched Jaffa nod. Beside him, Vanessa paged through what looked like a well used booklet. She’d obviously done her Monterey-lore homework.
“Big deal,” Jeremy whispered to me. “All that stuff’s easy to fake.”
“The female ghost at the restaurant leaves salt in the wineglasses,” Vanessa piped up.
Jaffa looked intrigued. “Monterey is full of legends and mysteries,” he said. “That’s one of the reasons I agreed to come here.”
“Sean Baylor is another one.” Vanessa glanced up from her book with a superior smile. “He was a folk singer who almost made it big in the late sixties. Some believe his spirit still occupies the restaurant where he drank before he went out on his boat that last time after the Monterey Pop Festival.”
“There’s no proof that Baylor is a ghost,” Jeremy said. Then to me, he whispered, “Do you see what I mean about this stuff?”
Before I could reply, the tour guide said, “Well, his sailboat was found deserted in a storm. There’s no way he could have survived.”
“So that means he decided to stick around and haunt old Monterey?”
The woman flashed him a condescending smile. “There’s no way we can know which spirits remain, or why. And, for your information, this is one of the most popular walking tours in Monterey.”
“Well, have fun with your popular walking tour.” He stood, said “Nice meeting you, Logan,” stepped across me, and headed down the aisle toward the door.
“Wait,” our tour guide shouted as he brushed past her. “This bus leaves in five minutes. It isn’t going to wait for you.”
“That’s all right.” He looked back at me again. I felt the connection and realized I couldn’t stay in my seat.
“Logan,” Candice called from behind me. “What are you doing?”
“I’ll be right back,” I said. Then I hurried past the guide, got off the bus, and started after him.
“Jeremy, wait.”
He stopped, turned his head, and gave me that look again. “You’d better get back on the bus.”
“Not without you,” I said. “I know how hard you must have worked to get this fellowship. How can you walk away from it? How can you walk away from Henry Jaffa?”
He pulled his jacket closer and met my gaze. “I can walk away from anyone, if I have to.”
I felt a chill and forced myself to ignore his words. “But you don’t have to. Please come back on that bus with me.”
“No way. I have to check in at the college, and I’m up to here with the ghost stuff.”
“All right. If that’s the way you want it.” I felt like a fool for chasing after him. Slowly, I turned away. This was the smartest thing I’d done all day. Just walk back to the bus.
“Logan, don’t go.”
He was right behind me. I could feel his breath on my neck.
I whirled around and found myself face-to-face with him. “ What?”
For the first time since he’d grabbed my hand back in the bus, he smiled.
“Let’s ditch the tour and get something to eat.”
“I can’t.”
“Why not?”
Because Henry Jaffa was on that bus. Because the beginning of the fellowship I’d fought like hell for was on that bus. Because regardless of how hot Jeremy was, I couldn’t blow my dream.
“I’m sorry,” I said. “I really wish . . .”
“Three minutes,” announced the tour guide. She’d stepped outside the bus and was glaring at us now. “Two minutes, forty-five seconds. Are you two boarding, or would you like to walk back to the college?”
“I’ll walk,” Jeremy shouted back at her.
I ran for the bus.
The doors whooshed shut behind me.
The bus driver hit the gas, and I had to grab the back of his seat to steady myself. Our guide slid behind him. I made my way to the seats Jeremy and I had occupied earlier. When I saw his empty one next to the window, I felt unreasonably sad.
I’d made the right choice, though. This fellowship could change my life. I looked up to where Henry Jaffa sat. It was only
then that I realized that Vanessa was still occupying the outside seat. She gave me a smirk and then she turned back to Jaffa.
Oh great. My first night in Monterey, and I already had an enemy.
NOTES TO SELF
For some reason, Vanessa hates me. When we had to introduce ourselves on the bus and tell where we were from, she made fun of my answer. I’d said Terra Bella Beach and explained it was about ninety minutes south between here and Santa Barbara. “I can tell you’re from California, Logan,” she’d said with a condescending smile. “You give directions by how long it takes to get to a place.” I didn’t like the way she looked at me; I didn’t like the laughter of the others. I especially didn’t like that Jeremy wasn’t in the seat beside me. So, yes, I have an enemy, a Fire sign, I’ll bet. Tomorrow is our first day in class, and I’d better be ready for her.
HAMLET WAS A LIBRA
By Logan McRae
“To be or not to be?” With all of his wondering and all of his questioning, Hamlet had to be a Libra. They frequently have trouble making up their minds. His love for beauty—think Ophelia—is par for the course for one ruled by Venus. There’s a lot of talk from this Air sign, too, and Libras are known for their communication skills.
I stop writing. The talk could also mean that Hamlet was a Gemini or even a Sadge. And with all of that karmic family emotional stuff, he could have been a Scorpio or a Cancer. The emoting on stage could be the sign of a Leo or Aries. Many Capricorns have unsettled childhoods. He certainly qualified in that department. Then, there are emotionally stuck Pisces, pondering Aquarius, perfectionist Virgo, and uncompromising Taurus. When I first discovered Fearless Astrology, I would have made that easy assumption about Libra. Now I realize that what I need to do with my article is to show how the Sun sign is really only the beginning. Yes. Instead of trying to argue the sign of a fictional character, I’m going to show how impossible it is to use only the Sun to understand someone, fictional or otherwise.
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