“Yes,” Aidan spat. “Yes! I despise you, I despise Lisette, and most of all, I despise myself.”
Valerian yawned. “You have become something of a bore, my friend, always whining about what you are. When are you going to accept the fact that you will be exactly this until the crack of doom and get on with it?”
Aidan turned his back on his companion to stand facing one of the bookshelves, running one hand lightly over the spines of the leather-bound volumes he cherished. “There is a way to end the curse,” he said with despairing certainty. “There has to be.”
“Oh, indeed, there is,” Valerian said cheerfully. “You have only to tell some crusading human where your lair is and let him drive a stake through your heart while you sleep. Or you could find a silver bullet somewhere and shoot yourself.” He shuddered, and his tone took on a note of condescension as he finished. “Neither fate is at all pleasant, I’m afraid. Both are truly terrible deaths, and what lies beyond is even worse, for us if not for mortals.” Aidan did not turn from his inspection of the journals he had written himself, by hand, over the course of two centuries. His musings had kept him from losing his mind and, he hoped, given some perspective on history. He had written a full account of his vampirism as well.
“I don’t need your lectures, Valerian. If you have no other business with me, then kindly leave.”
Valerian sighed philosophically, a sure sign that he was about to pontificate. He surprised Aidan this time, however, by speaking simply. “Lisette stirs again, my friend. Have a care.”
Aidan turned slowly to study his companion. When he’d grown beyond the needs of a fledgling vampire, and spurned her affections, Lisette had first raged, then sulked, then gone into seclusion in some hidden den. She had emerged on occasion and busied herself with her usual dalliances, but she had not troubled Aidan in years. In fact, he seldom worried about her, although Valerian and Maeve constantly chided him for his carelessness.
“She has long since forgotten me,” he said. “I am but one of many conquests, after all.”
“You delude yourself,” Valerian replied tersely. “Lisette has indeed taken many lovers, and made many vampires. But you were the only one who dared to resist her advances. It’s a miracle you haven’t perished long before this, and I honestly can’t say why I keep trying to save you when you seem determined to die.”
Aidan clutched Valerian’s silk lapels in both hands. He was not afraid for himself, but he did fear for Maeve, and the human woman, Neely. “Have you seen Lisette?” he demanded. “Damn you, stop your prattling and tell me!”
Valerian shrugged free of Aidan’s grasp and seemed to settle his garments closer to his skin, the way a raven might do with its feathers. “I have not been so unfortunate as to encounter Lisette,” he said with ominous dignity, “but certain of the others have. She is weak and feeds only sporadically, according to my sources. Nevertheless, she has roused herself, and sooner or later, as mortals so colorfully put it, there will be hell to pay.”
Aidan shoved splayed fingers through his hair, his mind racing. “Where? Where was she seen?”
“Spain, I think,” Valerian answered. He’d shifted his attention to a mechanical music box on Aidan’s desk; Valerian loved gadgets. He turned the key, and the tinkling notes of a long-forgotten tune echoed in the room. “If you say you’re going there to look for her,” he said distractedly, “I swear I’ll wash my hands of you.”
“You’ve made that vow often enough,” Aidan said tersely. “What a pity you never keep it.”
Valerian chuckled, but the snap with which he closed the music box lid was a more accurate measure of his mood. “What an insolent whelp you are. Who but Lisette would change such a difficult human into an immortal, thereby subjecting us all to an eternity of pathos?”
“Who, indeed?” Aidan replied. He sighed, and his shoulders slumped slightly. He was faint with the need for sustenance, but the dawn was too close now. There was no time for a proper hunt. “I’m sorry,” he said, even though he wasn’t, not entirely, and they both knew it. “If you see Lisette, will you let me know?”
The older vampire regarded him coldly for a long time, then said, “You may encounter the creature before I do, Aidan.” He frowned, adjusted his gloves, and set his top hat at a dashing angle. “And now, adieu. Dawn is nearing. Sleep soundly, my friend, and in safety.”
With that, Valerian vanished. He often indulged in dramatic exits.
Aidan banked the fire on the hearth, put the screen in place, and left the house, moving through the silent, snowy woods as noisily as a man, instead of with a vampire’s stealth. Maybe Valerian was right; maybe he was courting destruction, in the unconscious hope that there was no heaven or hell beyond death, but only oblivion.
In oblivion would lie peace.
Aidan’s hunger tore at him as he moved closer and closer to the long-forgotten mine shaft that was his lair. He glanced toward the sky, reasoned that he had about fifteen minutes before the sun would top the horizon. There was time to go to Neely, time for one look to sustain him in the deathlike sleep that awaited him.
He shook his head. No. He dared not approach her now, when he needed to feed.
He wended his way toward his hiding place, lowered himself inside, crouched against one dank wall, and folded his arms atop his knees. Then he yawned, lowered his head, and slept.
The mansion had looked spooky to Neely on Halloween night, but now that she stood before it in the dazzling sunshine of that November afternoon, it seemed very ordinary and innocuous, except for its size.
She wasn’t sure why she’d come; Mr. Tremayne certainly hadn’t invited her to drop by. All Neely really knew was that she was drawn to that house and even more so to its owner. It was as if she’d always known Aidan Tremayne, as if they’d been close once, very close, and then cruelly separated. Encountering him had been a reunion of sorts, a restoration of something stolen long before.
Wedging her hands into the pockets of her coat, Neely proceeded up the walk and climbed the steps onto the gracious old porch. Then, after drawing a deep breath, she rang the bell.
There was no answer, so she tried a second time. Again, no one came.
Neely walked around the large house once, thinking she might encounter the owner in the yard, but she didn’t catch so much as a glimpse of him.
Finally, feeling both relieved and disappointed, Neely turned and walked back along the driveway toward the highway. She had already cleaned the motel rooms that had been rented the night before, and she wasn’t due back at the café until the supper shift. Danny would be in school until three o’clock, and Ben was busy repairing a water pipe under one of the trailers.
Neely was a free woman, and she was at loose ends.
She decided to borrow Ben’s battered old Toyota and head into Bright River. Her emotions were churning; she tried to put Tremayne out of her mind and failed.
She would stop by the local library, she decided. There she would surely find back copies of the Bright River Clarion; she intended to scan the microfilm records for interesting references to Aidan Tremayne or his family. After all, she rationalized as she bumped along Route 7 in her brother’s car, she needed to keep up her professional skills—especially in research. God knew, she couldn’t work as a waitress and maid all her life; her feet would never withstand the strain.
Besides, the project gave her a legitimate reason to think about Aidan on a more practical level, and it would distract her from the riot of emotions and needs that had been bedeviling her ever since their first encounter.
Neely adjusted the car’s temperamental heater and shivered in spite of the blast of hot air that buffeted her. Aidan was going to change her life, and she was going to change his; she knew it as well as if an angel had whispered the fact in her ear. There was a magical mystery afoot here, and she yearned to learn its secrets.
The trick would be to stay alive long enough to investigate.
She sighed and silently reminde
d herself that she knew too much about her ex-boss’s source of campaign funds, among other things. Five years working in the nation’s capital had cured Neely of starry-eyed illusion—even though Hargrove was an easygoing sort who would not relish the prospect of ordering her death or anyone else’s, he loved the power of his office, and the status it gave him. The senator would never sacrifice money, position, and his marriage, much less his personal freedom, for Neely’s sake.
She must be more careful now and stop pretending to herself that all was right with the world.
Chapter 3
When Aidan awakened, he was dangerously weak, a state that rendered him vulnerable to all manner of enemies. He had no choice but to hunt.
He rose slowly and stretched, this last being an unnecessary habit lingering from his days as a mortal. Aidan’s muscles had long since atrophied to a stonelike condition beneath his skin. Even that was changed, he thought, extending his arms and gazing at his hands. The once-living flesh was now as cold and smooth and hard as marble.
Aidan did not stay long in his lair, for the hunger had grown merciless in its intensity, biting into his middle, sapping his strength, threatening his very reason. He climbed deftly up the smooth dirt wall to the surface of the ground. There, the moon shed a silvery light over a new layer of snow.
He thought first of Neely, and ached to be mortal and thoroughly ordinary so that he could be close to her, learn how her mind and heart worked, walk in sunlight with her. Most of all, he wanted to make love to her, feeling his own flesh warm and supple against hers, but that seemed the most impossible of all his dreams.
It was dangerous to think in such a fashion, he reminded himself. He would never be human again, and he would die at the hands of his enemies before he would turn Neely into what he was.
Aidan knew his vampire powers well, despise them though he did, and he feared that the fervor of his emotions would draw Neely to him. If he were to encounter her now, when he was so desperate to feed, when his vile hunger for blood would be coupled with the elemental physical and emotional passion he felt for her, he could not be sure of restraining himself.
As it happened, thrusting Neely from his mind was not enough, for she clung tenaciously to the innermost cords and fibers of his heart.
Maeve hid herself in the chilly mists of the evening and waited. Through the foggy windows of the Lakeview Cafe, she could see Neely Wallace, the woman Valerian was so concerned about.
Valerian was Maeve’s mentor, after a fashion, and he had made her an immortal when Aidan refused. Thus, she trusted Valerian, as much as one vampire ever trusts another, and since he saw the Wallace woman as a threat to Aidan, so had she. Maeve had come to this backward country, this century she heartily disliked, prepared to confront and destroy an enemy. Instead she found herself drifting with the breeze in a parking lot, like so much smoke, and questioning Valerian’s judgment.
Miss Wallace was an attractive young woman, between twenty-five and thirty, Maeve guessed, with short, shiny brown hair and large gamine eyes. She smiled a lot, and the café£ customers seemed to like her, but she was clearly an ordinary mortal with no special powers of any sort.
How could such a creature be a menace to any vampire, even a reluctant one like Aidan?
Maeve was irritated and not a little bored. She’d fed early so that the evening would be her own, and now she was missing at least one very important social event—specifically Columbine Spencer’s supper-dance in Charleston, South Carolina.
“Bother,” said Maeve. In a fit of pique she willed herself to Aidan’s house, solidifying herself very dramatically in the center of his parlor.
He was there, remarkably, sitting behind the antique library table he used as a desk, bent over one of those interminable volumes of his. Even though there was electricity in this crass century, and his house was wired for it, he worked by the light of a smelly oil lamp.
He raised his eyes at Maeve’s appearance, grinned, and stood, as befits a gentleman vampire.
“Kiss, kiss,” said Maeve, making an appropriate motion with her lips. She placed her hands on her trim waist— she was wearing an elaborate white dress decorated with hundreds of tiny iridescent beads, because of the Spencer party—and tossed her head impatiently. Her dark hair was done up in tiny ringlets and curls, her flawless white skin prettily flushed because she’d taken nourishment soon after awakening. “Honestly, darling, you’re becoming the worst sort of curmudgeon.” She held out a slender gloved hand. “Come. I’m on my way to a ball, and I know the Spencers would be delighted to have you among their guests.”
Instead of lowering himself into his chair, Aidan perched on the edge of his desk, his arms folded. “I suppose all the very best fiends will be in attendance,” he teased, arching one dark eyebrow.
Maeve was not amused. “The majority will be mortals, of course,” she said, raising her chin. “Stage actors, an opera singer, some artists of various sorts, I suppose—”
“Along with a vampire or two, a handful of witches and warlocks—”
Color flared in Maeve’s alabaster cheeks. “When did you become such a snob?” she demanded. She didn’t wait for an answer. “Valerian told me you were developing a dangerous predilection for the society of humans. Even after a firsthand look at the supposed object of your fascination, I still thought he was mistaken. Now I’m not so certain.” All friendliness had vanished from Aidan’s manner. His eyes narrowed as he regarded his twin in the smoky light of the oil lamp. “What do you mean, ‘after a firsthand look at the supposed object of my fascination’?”
Maeve gathered all her formidable forces, as she sometimes did when she wanted to intimidate a particularly brazen human. “I went to see Neely Wallace,” she said.
Aidan didn’t move, and yet every fiber of his being seemed to exude challenge. “What?”
Maeve began to pace, folding and unfolding her silk and ivory fan as she moved. “So it’s true, then. You’re actually smitten with a human being.” She stopped and gazed at her brother with tears glittering in her stricken blue eyes. “Oh, Aidan, how could you do something so foolish?”
She saw conflict in her brother’s remarkable face, as well as pain. “Smitten is hardly the word for what I’m feeling,” he confessed. “Maeve, I’ve encountered the woman exactly twice, and it’s as if she owns my soul. I keep recalling what the gypsy woman said that day Mother took us to have our fortunes told. Do you remember?”
Maeve flinched inwardly, wanting to recoil from the memory and all it might mean, even after so many years, but unable to do so. “Yes,” she said grimly, “I remember it perfectly well. We visited a flea-infested camp, and Mama, bless her simple heart, paid an old, ignorant crone to predict our futures.”
Aidan gazed at her in quiet reflection for a long moment, and Maeve saw something uncomfortably like compassion move in his eyes.
She was indignant. “All right,” she conceded, even though her brother had not actually challenged her, “the witch was right about some things—our being cursed, if you want to think of it as that—but there is no reason to believe—” “That Neely is the woman the sorceress mentioned?” Aidan finished gently. “The one who would mean either my salvation or my destruction?” He paused, evidently gathering his thoughts, and frowned pensively when he spoke again. “Oh, to the contrary, my dear, there is every reason to believe it. I know almost nothing about Neely, and as you’ve so often pointed out, she is a mortal. And for all of that, when I saw her, it was as though my very soul leapt out of me and ran to her, desperate to lose itself in her.” Aidan looked so haunted, so beleaguered, that Maeve wanted to weep. She began in that moment to fear the Wallace woman, and to hate her, for if Aidan’s theory was fact and not fancy, then the situation was grave, indeed.
“What are you going to do?” Maeve whispered, struggling to restrain all the wild, violent emotions that suddenly possessed her.
“Do?” Aidan countered softly. “My dear sister, there is nothing to ‘
do.’ It is something that must unfold.”
“No,” Maeve protested, shaken, remembering that long-ago day in the gypsy camp as if it were a part of last week instead of a remnant from a distant century. “The crone said it depended on your choices, yours and hers, whether you would be saved or destroyed!”
Aidan came to her then and laid his hands gently to either side of her face. “But I can only control my own choices,” he pointed out with infinite tenderness. “What Neely decides is quite beyond me—” He must have seen the rebellion brewing in Maeve’s eyes, for he smiled sadly and clarifed, “Beyond both of us.”
Maeve was full of fury and fear. “You want to perish!” she accused. “Damn you, Aidan, I followed you into eternity, and now you would leave me to take refuge in death!” He released her, stepped away, turned his back to stand at one of the tall windows, gazing out upon the snowy night. ‘To be parted from you would be exceedingly painful,” he admitted, almost grudgingly. “Still, we are brother and sister, Maeve, not lovers. Perhaps we simply were not meant to travel the same path.”
Maeve steadied herself, called on all her vampire powers to sustain her, as the agonizing truth of Aidan’s words settled over her spirit. “You’ve decided, then, that you will pursue this madness?”
“Yes,” he replied wearily, without turning to face his sister. For the first time in all the winding length of Maeve’s memory, he seemed unaware of her feelings. “Yes,” he repeated. “For good or ill, I will see it through and find my fate at the end.”
At last Aidan abandoned that wretched window to look at Maeve again, though he kept his distance. She knew the span was not merely physical, but emotional, too, and she was further wounded by this realization.
“You are not to interfere, no matter how consuming the temptation may be,” he warned quietly but with the utmost strength of purpose. “I mean what I say, Maeve—if you value my wishes, if you care for me at all, you will avoid Neely Wallace at all costs.”
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