by Harris, K
“I’m fine.” Mya tried to conceal the shakiness in her voice. Inhaling a few deep breaths in hopes of calming her erratic heartbeat.
“Are you sure? You don’t look fine.”
“Gee, thanks.”
“You know what I mean.” Barron’s face was void of all humor. He had a mask of seriousness on at all times. The look on his face that held no emotions towards her made her feel like she was being ripped apart all over again.
“I’m fine. Just hormones as usual.” She lied, which has become a part of her daily ritual.
“Figures.” Barron said so low that she barely heard him. “What are you doing up so early?”
“I couldn’t sleep.”
“Kicking?”
“Nah, just uncomfortable.”
“Is there anything you need? I mean to help you sleep better or be more comfortable.”
“No thank you. I will be fine.”
“Of course you will.” He replied. “Well I’m off to train. Your appointment is at two right?”
“Yes. Would you like something to eat or something before you leave?”
“No thank you, I can’t have anything too heavy. I will have a shake when I get to the gym.”
“Oh okay. Well I guess I will meet you there.”
“I can pick you up so we can go together. No need to go separately unless that’s what you prefer.”
“That’s fine.”
“Alright I will see you later.” Barron said walking up to Mya as she stood leaning against the counter bending down to kiss her stomach. With one final whisper of love to his unborn he was out the door. How Mya had longed to hear those words of love from him.
Later in the day Mya was busy trying to remain relaxed and daydreamed about how it would be to one day marry Barron. Just because she couldn’t have the real thing, she could damn sure fantasize about it. How it would feel if he came home every day with kisses and hugs. Even how it would feel to have him curled up behind her as she slept. How sweet it would feel to hear his heartfelt whispered words of love and forever. She often wondered how she would feel if and when he had moved on with his life. How terribly bad it would hurt to see him with other women knowing full well it would never be her. Why couldn’t he love her? Why wasn’t she good enough? She knew it wasn’t her size because he seemed to love it when they did things that lovers do. But then she thought, why would he complain when he was living in the lap of luxury. All the goodies he wanted like an all you can eat buffet without having to pay.
The mistake that females often make when they interlace the fine lines of sex and love has bitten her in the ass. What all started as great sex mixed with her actually falling in love with Barron quickly turned into a one sided love making dance. Letting him continue to do all sorts of things to her body while her feelings had developed well passed just liking him is what screwed it all up. Women really do express themselves through their bodies when men can just get off and be done. All the while she thought just being at his beck and call, giving him the attention of an actual girlfriend that he would somehow see what she had to offer. Stupid move that so many have made when the truth is that it’s a coping mechanism. They will never be more unless they require more.
“Who the hell could this be?” Mya asked a loud referring to the ringing doorbell. “Hey what are you doing here?”
“I came to see you.”
“Why? Shit hold on my phone is ringing.” Mya ran to catch her phone before it stopped going off. She turned around at the sound of the closing door. “I don’t remember inviting you in and Barron isn’t here.”
“Like I don’t know where Barron is. I am his boy remember? I know even when you don’t.”
“Uh okay. So what is it?”
“Since he is finally done playing love sick slave, why don’t you let your boy slide in?”
“Excuse me? Slide in?”
“Stop with the innocent act. I know you get down with the best of them. What us common nigga’s can’t get no play?”
“Fool this ain’t no innocent act. You wouldn’t know who or what I get down with homeboy. But F.Y.I. you ain’t it.”
“Come on now, Kim already done dished your dirt. I’m just trying to get my taste. ”
“That raggedy bitch don’t know shit about me or what I do. For you to listen to a bitch just because her jaws sucked ya dick good to get closer to your famous boy is S.T.U.P.I.D. Nothing that comes out of that dick holster she calls a mouth is ever true. And yo dumb ass came running over here to try your luck with a real woman, nigga please, you couldn’t touch this with a ten foot pole.”
“Bitch you think you a real woman. You just like the rest of these money hungry hoes out here that thought they caught B.A.’s ass. He just passes their asses right on over to me. Sometime we even co-exist. Who you think sent Kim’s ass his way?” He chuckled at his own dead ass joke.
“That is disgusting. Barron is supposed to be your boy and you trying to bed his…” Mya paused because she didn’t really have a dignified title.
“Exactly, bitch you ain’t shit to him. Just like Naomi’s ass.”
“So damn foul, I’m carrying his baby you dumb ass. That is trifling as hell to try and bone the mother of his child before, after, or during the pregnancy.”
“At least I know you couldn’t blame it on me for getting you that way.”
“Bitch you stupid. There is no way in hell I would attempt at giving you the time of day. Not now not ever… I’m not that Naomi bitch. And I guess you fucked the nasty stripper too huh?”
“Later that night after your little scare. Somebody had to record it.”
“You sneaky son of a bitch. You won’t get away with this, you do know that right?”
“Please, he’s made it very clear he’s done with your ass. The time stamp on your ass has already reached its expiration.”
“Fuck you and get out!”
“Gladly. Maybe you’re right this ain’t gonna work. If he is already tired of the pussy it ain’t nothing I want with it.” “Peace.”
Mya couldn’t believe this bastard had the nerve to come here talking all that bull. Tracy was right, he was up to something. It’s just so frustrating to have this many people against them. The sad part is that they weren’t even together but still had haters that didn’t want them to make any attempts to be together. Well, all accept their families. Speaking of their families, they will all be coming into town in two weeks for the baby shower.
Already the tension that fills the house is uncomfortable for her that’s not even adding the extra bodies. Extra bodies that’s going to inquire on what happened from the time they were last together in Arkansas until now. Of course the video has been a constant question about what’s going on in Atlanta but that was easily avoided when it was proved that it wasn’t him. Mya wasn’t even sure she was going to tell Barron that Davey came and tried to make a pass at her. Besides would he even believe her? Barron did deny actually having sex with the two women but he was with them up until that point. Davey says he recorded it so who’s to say that he isn’t the one telling the truth?
~
“What are you doing back here? Did you come back to rub in some more dirt?” Mya answered the door for the second time with a harder edge then before.
“No I didn’t. Mya I need to speak with you.”
“What about? If it’s something else that has to do with Barron I don’t want to know. I don’t care anymore.”
“Nothing happened between me and Barron. Well not in over a year that is.”
“What?” Mya asked confused.
“May I come in? This is going to take some time to explain. Please, I’m not here to start anything or cause any trouble.”
“This time?” Mya said with a roll of the eyes.
“I swear.”
“Would you like something to drink?” Mya offered nicely.
“No thank you.”
“Alright, why are you here?”
“The e
ntire thing was a setup to drive a wedge between you and B.A. Originally I was all in when I was approached mainly because money talks with me so I always let the bullshit walk. Yes, Barron and I have a past but not where you have been led to believe.”
“Okay so what happened?”
“Davey and Naomi’s ole conniving asses called me up about this scheme. They figured if we hooked up in a threesome after one of my shows, record it, and show it to you that you two would be done. I overheard Davey that day telling Naomi that he had planted the seed in Barron’s head that you were keeping some deep dark secret from him concerning that other fighter Damon. That’s how he got him to the strip club to begin with, then the rest was pretty much up to me to tempt him. Before we could get anywhere he got a call from you and left. Davey got the idea to cut the lights, finish the actual act in night vision.”
“But he still followed you to wherever so that means he wanted to.”
“True but with doubts being planted in his head, if he was thinking about you in another light I don’t think he would have. How would you feel?”
“…”
“Exactly. The reason I’m here telling you all of this is because they stabbed me in the back. That video was never supposed to go past your eyes. They leaked it to the web.”
“That’s what happens when you lay with snakes you get bitten.”
“You’re so intuitive. Now if you had been before all this you would have known when someone had it out for you.”
“I deserved that.”
“I did too, I apologize for being snippy with you. It’s just that my family is taking a hit from this fall out. I have danced for close to ten years and that alone has made me a household name. Providing my son and me with enough to live lovely. Now since this has come about a lot of clubs don’t want to associate themselves with me. My son will have to hear about this in school. It’s never going to go away.”
“What the fuck are you doing here?” Barron’s voice boomed so loud it shook the pictures. His face was morphed into a look of pure hate.
“B.A. I just wanted to apologize to Mya for my part in this big ass mess.”
“Fuck you and your apologies. Taj I never disrespected you in any way.”
“I know.”
“Barron just hear her out. You are going to want to hear this.”
“Mya…”
“Please.”
“Fine what is it?”
“Davey and Naomi are the ones behind this.”
“…” He remained silent.
“After you ran out of there, Naomi called Davey to tell him you ran out on us. He came into the room deciding to cut the lights and continue the threesome with camera turned on night vision. Then he would release the video to Mya anonymously. Naomi was behind the bright idea to come here to get under your skin Mya. She wanted to see you up close and personal when you were made aware that B.A. was with us when you were sick. Davey told us that Barron had left to take you to the hospital that’s why we brought that up when we confronted you that day.”
“I know there is no amount of apologizing I can do to make you forgive me but like I was telling Mya, I just thought you should know what you have backing you up.”
“Tracy tried to warn me about him but I didn’t think anything of it. He was here before Taj got here.”
“Really?” Taj asked and then recovered with an apology.
“He said since you two share women all the time he was trying to pitch his hat in the ring for a go with me.”
“…” Barron nodded his head before he rose to his full six foot three height. The look on his face could scare the toughest person.
“Barron, where are you going?”
“To kill that two faced bitch.”
“No Barron that’s not going to solve anything.” Mya tried to convince him to calm down by saying anything that would come to her head. “You have worked so hard to build your career to where you are, don’t let those idiots break you.”
“She’s right B.A., you need to hit them where it hurts instead.”
“Really Taj? I’m trying to stop the payback not devise new plans.”
“Sorry but they need to pay. You need to stop being so damn nice. Even though I was in on it to a certain point, they destroyed your relationship with him.”
“If they would have paid enough attention they would have known we weren’t in a relationship. I’m just the mother of his child.” Mya refuted even if she was feeling terrible about the words that came out of her mouth.
“Oh well… uhh…”
“It’s alright there’s nothing to say so you can save it.” Barron had stopped trying to resist and was silently watching the exchange between the two.
“What were you getting out of this Taj?” Barron asked.
“It was all about the money for me. I’m so sorry B.A. It was twice as much money than I have made doing a single show out of state.”
“Will you be willing to issue a statement if the need arises?”
“Of course anything I can do to make this better for you and to get back at them in the process.”
“Bet. Thanks for fessing up.”
“No problem. I’m really sorry again guys.” Barron and Mya nodded their heads as Taj showed herself out.
~
After the conversation with Mya that had gone completely wrong in his book, Barron went home to work off some much needed steam. He worked out in his gym until he was physically so tired it was a task to just climb the stairs. Mya came back to his house a couple of days later. She didn’t mention their one sided agreement and neither did he. That yes felt like a ton of bricks being dropped on his head or ice cold water during a championship game. All the warm feelings he felt all got washed away. Staying out at all costs was what he went through to keep from making her feel awkward as he felt being around her. It was the hardest thing to keep his hands to himself when they were in one room too long. To see her walk around with her pregnant glow or do her maternity yoga in the den was torture.
The only contact they had now a days is when he would whisper things to his little one and kiss her stomach. Other than that no contact was exchanged between the two. One night he found he couldn’t sleep, so he went downstairs to get something to drink. When he turned the corner to the kitchen he came in contact with the sight of a bent over Mya. She was looking in the fridge for something, completely unaware of his presence. Because he was finding it hard to fight the urge to go behind her plump derriere in the short sleep shirt, he tore his gaze away and hightailed it to his room.
Settling for a cold shower instead, he decided his thirst could wait until morning time. They still needed to deal with the Davey and Toby situation but lately he had been too distracted to even offer that mess a spot in his brain. Davey was missing at the gym when he normally never misses a single sparring match and Toby seemed distracted. Mya was hogging all of his thinking cells lately.
Often he thought that maybe she didn’t mean it but he had to take what she said at face value. If she didn’t desire the need to try to be with him then he wouldn’t try and force her. That would only cause her to regret him later. Damon told him to be forceful but he was finding it hard to snap back from his ego being bruised. Thinking that baby steps might be an effective way of breaking the ice slowly, he thought to leave the gym earlier than planned to take her to lunch. When he pulled up in the driveway he saw another car that was obviously a rental. He knew it wasn’t either one of their parents because they weren’t due for another two weeks. Barron could hear Mya speaking with another female, he decided to listen before making his presence known.
“That’s what happens when you lay with snakes you get bitten.”
“You’re so intuitive. Now if you had been before all this you would have known when someone had it out for you.”
“I deserved that.”
“I did too, I apologize for being snippy with you. It’s just that my family is taking a hit from this fall out. I
have danced for close to ten years and that alone has made me a household name. Providing my son and me with enough to live lovely. Now since this has come about a lot of clubs don’t want to associate themselves with me. My son will have to hear about this in school. It’s never going to go away.”
“What the fuck are you doing here?” Barron had heard enough. He wanted to know what the hell Taj was doing in his house.
“B.A. I just wanted to apologize to Mya for my part in this big ass mess.”
“Fuck you and your apologies. Taj I never disrespected you in any way.”
“I know.”
“Barron just hear her out. You are going to want to hear this.” Mya pleaded.
“Mya…”
“Please.”
“Fine what is it?”
“Davey and Naomi are the ones behind this.”
“…” He figured that much out after thinking for a while but he didn’t have proof.
“After you ran out of there, Naomi called Davey to tell him you left on us. He came into the room deciding to cut the lights and continue the threesome with night vision turned on the camera. Then he would release the video to Mya anonymously. Naomi was behind the bright idea to come here to get under your skin Mya. She wanted to see you up close and personal when you were made aware that B.A. was with us when you were sick. Davey told us that Barron had left to take you to the hospital that’s why we brought that up when we confronted you that day.” Taj stopped for a moment and then turned to Barron to continue talking.
“I know there is no amount of apologizing I can do to make you forgive me but like I was telling Mya, I just thought you should know what you have backing you up.”
“Tracy tried to warn me about him but I didn’t think anything of it. He was here before Taj got here.”
“Really?” Taj asked and then apologized.
“He said since you two share women all the time he was trying to pitch his hat in the ring for a go with me.”
“…” Barron nodded his head thinking he was going to kill his ass for coming at his… Mya.
