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  that Buxton would understand it. He added, “Mrs. Post and Miss Perdy.”

  And over these names, as he uttered them, there played his uncompro-

  mising genteel reserve.

  Buxton said with some irritation, “Well, show them in! Show them

  in!”

  But they were already in. At the door there appeared first a figure

  of giant size, then one of fairy slightness, the one all darkness of com-

  plexion and eyebrows, the other almost startlingly blond. The first figure

  hesitated with a certain archness. “May we come in?” said Mrs. Post. “We

  are bad, we are interrupting, we shouldn’t—but then we’ve never met

  Mr. Hammell, and we’ve been wanting to for ever so long.”

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  “Mrs. Post, Mr. Hammell,” said Barrett promptly. “Miss Aiken, Mr.

  Hammell.” But he was quite without his usual pleasure in the social

  forms. The introduction was almost wrung from him.

  Vincent had risen at the sound of Mrs. Post’s arch voice. He bowed.

  He saw that there was nothing gigantic about Mrs. Post. She was really

  not much taller than many women are. But she bulked large beside the

  girl and there was a degree of force in her bearing as she stood there

  smiling that suggested the gigantic. As for the girl, she would naturally

  be accompanied by giants, or dwarfs, or elves, or witches, for she looked

  as if she had stepped from the illustrations of a book of fairy tales. She

  was amazingly slim, she wore a bright green dress, she had a large red

  mouth in a tiny face which was made the smaller, which seemed almost

  crushed, by a massive coif of blond curls. Two large eyes looked out from

  under the startling pile of her hair and two little apple-like breasts lift-

  ed the green dress. The great eyes were turned to Vincent when Barrett

  made the introduction, but what they signified, or whether they signified

  anything at all, or whether the little breasts were anything more than

  the expectable details in the representation of the princess who had felt

  the pea through the thirty mattresses, or of any well-known picture-book

  princess, Vincent could not tell. But upon seeing her, his heart quick-

  ened with astonishment and excitement, for he was seeing here in reality

  the pictured fantasy of his early boyhood.

  But the quickening was stilled almost as soon as begun. The vague-

  ness and insubstantiality that had once charmed his dreams now chilled

  him when he saw it in a literal actuality. Still, she made a very charming

  figure as she stood there with her sweet, inconclusive smile, leaning a

  little forward, standing almost on tiptoe.

  To Mrs. Post Buxton said cordially, “Do sit down, Claudine,” and to

  the girl he said, “How do you do, Perdita?” and to her he gravely held out

  his large dry hand into which she placed her little bright one. She did not

  actually drop a courtesy, but her attitude suggested that she was on the

  point of doing so. Buxton regarded her with a quiet tolerant pleasure,

  “How are you getting on, my dear?” he said.

  Perdita turned her head to look at Claudine Post. “Dr. Buxton means

  with your lessons, dear,” said Mrs. Post. “Perdy has a lovely voice, Mr.

  Hammell, and Dr. Buxton has—”

  Buxton lifted his hand in imperious admonition, but Mrs. Post was

  not to be checked. She shook a finger at Buxton and said, “No, no, I’ll not

  have you disclaiming it. No indeed. If Mr. Hammell is your biographer,

  then you can hide nothing from him. Mr. Hammell should especially

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  know it, he of all people should know it.” And she made a gay and affec-

  tionate gesture of flouting Buxton’s wish to deprecate himself. Now she

  became perfectly and defiantly explicit. “Mr. Hammell—Dr. Buxton has

  arranged for Perdy to have singing lessons. And her teacher has great

  hopes of her. No, I’ll not have it hidden. Nor will Perdy. Will you, dear?”

  There had of course been affection in Buxton’s effort to keep Mrs.

  Post from disclosing his kindness. But he did give up the effort very eas-

  ily as Mrs. Post refused to permit it, and he seemed visibly to relax into

  geniality under her praise. And when Perdy responded to Mrs. Post’s

  question by giving Buxton a timid little smile and shaking her ringlet-

  massed head, the old man quite glowed with the gentle satisfaction of

  his benevolence.

  Now that Vincent had the opportunity of finding out about Claudine

  Post for himself, there was nothing about her that he liked. Neither in ap-

  pearance nor in manner was there anything to approve of, from her jutting

  nose and too-quick eye to her voice which was both loud and consciously

  polite, a demonstrative voice which seemed to evoke an unseen listener

  to whom the demonstration was being made over the heads of whom-

  ever else might be present. Yet whatever his judgment of Mrs. Post might

  be, Vincent found that there was some unnameable charm to which he

  responded. When, after this first meeting, she began to force the acquain-

  tanceship, to insist that he come to tea at her house, sometimes sending

  Perdy to fetch him at Buxton’s when his work was done, sometimes her-

  self waylaying him as he passed, he became increasingly aware of this

  charm. He used that word of her, not in the usual metaphoric sense, but

  literally. She was not delightful—she had a charm, in the sense of a magic

  which had no connection with anything visibly hers, with any observable

  grace or interest. It was, as it were, something concealed under her dress,

  like the battery of a hearing-aid or a religious medal, or an amulet. It was a

  power, and Vincent understood what Garda Thorne had meant when she

  spoke of Claudine Post as an enchantress. For Vincent found that if he

  looked at her dark face or her body clothed in dark fabrics which always

  seemed to have been worn a little too long, he was on the whole repelled;

  but when she began to talk to him the charm asserted itself. The charm

  of flattery has nothing to do either with the grace of the flatterer or with

  the truth of what is said, but only with the intention of the flatterer, and

  Vincent found that in some way he was flattered by Claudine Post. When

  he was with her he found that he was relaxed and gratified. When she

  centered him in the conversation and directed all her energy of attention

  upon him, he could not resist the feelings that came. They puzzled him,

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  these feelings, because mingled with the glow of pleasure was some ele-

  ment of almost physical fear.

  His dislike of Claudine Post soon became a settled thing with him.

  Yet the force of that charm was always able to reach him. Part of the

  charm, perhaps, was the presence of young Perdita Aiken. Perdita had

  no attraction for Vincent, although, whenever he saw her he found a cu-

  rious thin pleasure in her story-book beauty, but whenever the two wom-

  en were together, Claudine Post’s charm was the surer and more potent.

  And Vincent, aware of the girl’s odd dependence on the older woman,

  wondered whether the awareness of the bawds in the
old plays of lechery

  was merely a comic awareness, whether the old woman who provided

  the occasion for the sexual act in which she did not participate did not in

  some way contribute perversely to its enjoyment, for hers was the task

  of serving the masculinity of her customers, of bringing it to conscious-

  ness, of reassuring it.

  “Perhaps, darling,” said Mrs. Post, “you’d sing for Dr. Buxton now.”

  Perdita smiled and rose without any protest or hanging back.

  “Canterbury Bells?” she asked. It was the first time she had spoken.

  “No, dear,” Mrs. Post said, as if Perdita should have known a great

  deal better than that, “Not Canterbury Bells.” The tone was as to an intel-

  ligent child. For the first time Vincent made specific calculation of Perdi-

  ta’s age. She was surely eighteen.

  “Voi che s’ appete?” Perdita asked. But she pronounced “voi” as if it

  were French.

  “Not ‘vwa,’ dear— voi as in boy.” Mrs. Post’s voice was kind.

  Perdita made a pretty little gesture of impatience with herself, snap-

  ping her fingers and ducking her head.

  Mrs. Post arose and went to the piano. With a somewhat too large

  air of preparation, she stripped off a sizable onyx ring and a wedding

  ring and laid them down. How the sheet of music had got into Perdita’s

  hands was impossible to say, but she stood there holding it and no doubt

  Mrs. Post had brought it for the purpose of putting it there. Mrs. Post sat

  at the piano in a masterly way. Her back was to Buxton and Vincent and

  Perdita, but before striking the first notes she turned and said, “This is

  an aria from Mozart’s opera, The Marriage of Figaro. Cherubino sings it

  to the Countess in her apartment. Cherubino is a charming boy, but the

  part is always sung by a soprano, a girl.”

  Buxton said drily, “Thank you, Claudine. You are quite right, as I

  know—I have heard seven Cherubinos and, as you say, they were all so-

  pranos and females.”

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  Vincent had never heard Buxton use irony. Its effect upon Mrs.

  Post was startling. She rose from the piano seat. “Oh you mustn’t—!”

  she cried. “I was explaining only for Perdita. She has never heard the

  opera. I wanted to help her visualize the part.” A deep dark flush over-

  spread her face and neck and that part of her chest that was exposed

  by the V of her dress. “Please don’t misunderstand,” she said. “You

  mustn’t. If I didn’t know your feeling for Mozart, would I have chosen

  this for Perdy?”

  Buxton waved away the fault and the explanation, grandly, kindly.

  But it had been clear that his vanity had been touched. Mrs. Post stood

  there deeply troubled. She would have gone on with her apology, but

  Buxton’s hand had turned into a gesture that was a command to leave

  off. She turned back to the piano and Perdy came and stood beside her.

  The piano sounded the few opening notes and Perdy began to sing

  her Voi che s’ appete. Vincent had always thought the song a strange one,

  for it begins in a falsetto and even in an affected manner—it is an in-

  terpolated song, intended to have the manner of a performance, and it

  had even occurred to Vincent that it was intended by Mozart as a parody

  on a certain mincing style of his day. But the song moves beyond that

  style to an intensity of feeling that is almost martial, so deep-throated

  and affirmative does it become. Perdy’s voice was reed-like, thin, sweet

  and wholly without flow. She sang the opening bars with a pedantic pre-

  cision, nodding her head to each of the clearly marked phrases. Mrs.

  Post’s head nodded to keep time for her. The first few bars suited the

  strange unreal innocence of Perdita and the gauche little pedantry with

  which she nodded them out was most beguiling. But this same manner,

  which might almost have been an inspired one for the beginning of the

  song, continued through to its end and what had been beguiling became

  absurd and pathetic. The song was utterly beyond the child’s powers of

  voice. But she went most courageously on to the end, borne up by the

  piano and carried along by Mrs. Post’s nodding head. The piano and the

  voice sounded their last notes together and the silence of absurdity filled

  the room.

  Or did it? For Mrs. Post said to Perdita, “Sweet, dearest,” and turned

  to Buxton for his appreciation. And Buxton said, “Perdita, my dear, that

  was very charming.” He got up and went to the girl. The sheet of music

  was still trembling in her hands. “Your hands are cold,” he said. “Does it

  frighten you to sing?”

  She shook her head. “No, not really frighten,” she said.

  “Doesn’t she have a lovely voice, Mr. Hammell?” said Mrs. Post.

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  Vincent gave his answer to Perdy herself. “I enjoyed it very much,”

  he said. “It was so nice.” He felt very kind and mature, the girl was so

  strangely young. For the first time she looked at him with a personal rec-

  ognition, a bashful, small responsiveness. He smiled to her and felt no less

  paternal than Buxton. But part of his paternal feeling arose from his pity

  for the perfect hopelessness of that thin, foolish voice of hers. He did not

  know whether Buxton had the same reason for tenderness or whether an

  old man, even one who had heard seven Cherubinos, had lost the ability to

  tell a good voice from a bad, or any interest in discriminating, and found

  his pleasure in the mere sight of the singing girl. And certainly Perdita,

  standing in her green dress, with the sheet of music in her hand, and her

  large tender mouth articulating the Italian words, was, in a way, in her way,

  a pretty and touching sight. And the two of them, Buxton in his achieved

  oaklike age, Perdy in her odd, excessive youth, their hands meeting, all of

  Buxton’s warmth flowing toward this ungrown, unrealized child, made for

  Vincent a moment of the strangest intensity, the more intense because he

  could attach no significance to it, could not understand what generaliza-

  tion could be drawn from it about youth, age, about life and death—could

  not, because Buxton stood in the perfection of his existence and Perdita

  in the odd inadequacy of hers. The intensity of the moment seemed to

  become the greater when Claudine Post stood beside Perdita and put her

  arm about the girl’s shoulder. “It was lovely, wasn’t it?” she said.

  “Yes, lovely,” Buxton said.

  The grouping was close and intimate. As if aware of it, Mrs. Post said

  with a large inclusive benignity, “I’m so glad you liked it, Mr. Hammell,”

  and leaned her head sideways, mild and tender.

  Vincent left. On the lawn outside Brooks Barrett stood lean as a rake

  and leaning on one. Barrett made a few tidying passes with the rake and

  Vincent had already walked down the path and was on the road before

  Barrett spoke. “Mr. Hammell,” he said in a low voice. Vincent stopped.

  Barrett made a gesture with his head and eyes back to the house. “Now

  you know, Mr. Hammell, what I meant when I used the expression t
o

  you, ‘human relations.’ Do you remember that I said to you on the occa-

  sion of our first meeting that I could be of help to you and you thought

  that I meant science. I said that the only help I could give you was in hu-

  man relations. Do you happen to remember that?”

  “Yes, I do remember.”

  The “assistant” made another gesture with his head back to the

  house. “That was what I had in mind. Those relations, Mr. Hammell, are

  not—harmless.”

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  That moment when Buxton stood with Perdita, her hands in his, was

  too charged for Vincent for him to permit Barrett to intrude into it. Not

  harmless—as Barrett uttered those words, Vincent could suppose that

  they were accurate, that any human relation that Claudine Post presided

  over was not a harmless one, that what Claudine Post had brought to the

  moment to intensify it was precisely the possibility of harm.

  But the sense he had had of life summarized in that moment was his

  own and he rejected Barrett’s intrusion into it. So he dropped his eyes

  rather haughtily and said, “Indeed?” And then, to crush Barrett he said,

  “All human relations, Mr. Barrett, have their dangers, you know.”

  Barrett consented to be crushed. He shrank back into himself, hum-

  ble, sorry and submissive. But having thus suppressed and effaced him-

  self, he permitted himself to murmur, “Later, perhaps,” and he gave Vin-

  cent a glance that was bolder than his words, a glance that had irony and

  knowledge in it and that seemed to say, “You are not yet ready for what

  you could know, but perhaps you will be.”

  But perhaps the glance was bolder than Barrett meant, for when Vin-

  cent had turned to go, Barrett came after him and said, “By the way, I

  should tell you that I am a typist and nothing would give me more plea-

  sure—I assure you, nothing—than to make your task lighter by typing

  your manuscript when you are ready.”

  “That’s very kind of you,” Vincent said. “Thank you very much.”

  “Oh, don’t thank me—it would be a privilege,” Barrett said.

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  trilling’s commentary

  The time of the story is, let us say, 1937—or any time after 1929 and

  before 1939 in which it is possible to think about life without the most

 

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