by Simply BWWM
She laughed and smiled. “Of course, whatever I can do for you, just name it.”
“Well, after looking at those pictures that you brought in, I got to thinking that it would be nice if I could have a professional photographer take some maternity photos of you while you’re pregnant. My son might want to know someday what his mother looked like while she was pregnant with him, and I know it would mean a great deal to me just to have the documentation of the pregnancy for photo albums and years to come. What do you think? Would you mind if we did a photo shoot for the baby with a professional photographer?” he sounded so hopeful.
She blinked a few times in surprise. “Of course, that sounds like a great idea. I’d be so glad to do that for you.”
“Wonderful! If it’s alright I can pick you up this weekend, we’ll go to the studio and she’ll take the shots and then we’ll be all set.” It was clear that he was thoroughly pleased.
Jasmine chewed at her lower lip, wondering if it was awful of her not to tell him that it was a girl she was carrying and not a boy. She still hadn’t told him and she was hoping to put it off as long as she could. She knew that the news wasn’t going to be well received, and she wanted some time to try to talk him into being happy with a healthy baby, no matter the gender of it.
“I’ll see you this weekend. Just text me the day and time and I’ll be ready,” she replied pleasantly.
They said goodbye and she told herself that she was going to have to act fast to convince him that a girl was just as good as a boy, because they were running out of time. She found herself wondering again what gender baby Eva was going to have, and she felt a twinge of jealously rise up in her, hoping that the other woman wasn’t carrying the boy that Cameron wanted so badly.
Saturday came and midway through the day, Cameron arrived to take her to the photo shoot. He had texted her that she would need a few different clothing styles for the different images that the photographer wanted to get.
She had brought a couple of dresses and a skirt and blouse. Cameron had told her that that was fine.
They got to the studio and saw a beautiful set up waiting for them. There were several backdrops including one with a rocking chair in a mock nursery, as well as one with a bed all set with crisp white linens and a thick white comforter with a soft little green baby blanket. There was a bouquet of helium balloons and on the bottom of them a pair of tiny baby shoes was tied.
The photographer explained that most of the focus of the photographs would be on the baby and mother, though she did explain that there would be some with both Cameron and Jasmine in them. She did those first, showing a close up of Cameron’s hands on the round belly, and then another with both Cameron and Jasmine’s hands on the belly.
She did some with Cameron kissing the belly, and some with Cameron standing behind Jasmine holding her. During those shots, she did her best to keep her thoughts of him at bay, though it wasn’t easy for her. The photographer had her lean her head back into his neck as he stood behind her holding her with his arms around her and his hands on her belly. She knew they were going to be beautiful pictures, but being that close to him and feeling his body against hers made her think things that she had promised herself that she would stop thinking about.
Cameron was doing his best to keep his own mind off her, and try to focus on the baby. When the photographer had him kiss her belly, it was all he could do to keep his mask on and follow instructions. When his lips touched her skin, he closed his eyes and in the back of his mind all he could think was that he wished that he was doing that without the photographer there.
When the couple’s shots were done, the photographer took some images of her sitting in the rocking chair reading a bedtime story, holding a teddy bear with her hand on her belly, and then some with her holding on to the balloons. She put Cameron back into the shots for that, with one of them on either side of the balloons, each of them holding on to the ribbons with the baby shoes beneath their hands and the helium balloons above them.
The photographer told Jasmine that she was going to do shots of her alone, and Jasmine was grateful for it. She had Jasmine lay down on the bed and hold her belly, and then she told her that she would do bare belly shots. She got images of Jasmine’s hands on the belly and different images of the belly at different angles and in different positions laying down and sitting up. She then had Jasmine remove her top and she draped some gauzy material over her breasts.
Jasmine felt like she had somehow become a Greek statue, standing there bare, with the material draped strategically around her. She couldn’t make herself look at Cameron during the shots at first, but she felt a pull to him and finally she looked up to see him staring at her with an expression so raw that it took her breath away. She had never seen him look at her that way, and it drew a warmth up in her that she had not felt in a very long time.
She looked away, trying to focus on anything else but him, listening more closely to the photographer and trying to keep her mind off of what was stirring in her body. The photographer helped her discreetly lower the material from her breasts, asking her to cover her nipples with her hands and leaving her belly bare. She did, and all the while she wanted to look away from Cameron, but he continued to stare at her, and it felt to her like a magnet drawing her in.
She looked up at him and met his gaze, staring back at him as the photographer worked between them. It was easily the most erotic moment of her life, and she hoped that none of that would show in the photographs after they came out.
When that part of the session was over, the photographer announced that she was done with all that she had to do, and she left them alone in the studio so that Jasmine could get dressed again. After the photographer left them, she went behind a curtain and pulled one of her dresses on.
She came back out to see Cameron watching her silently, with that same intense expression on his face. She had begun to worry about it a little and she went to him and reached out her hand to him. “What is it? Do you wish we hadn’t done this?” she asked feeling uncertain about it.
He shook his head and was silent for a moment, but then spoke in a low voice with his eyes locked on hers. “I know I shouldn’t say this, and I am regretting it before I say it, but I can’t not say it… I can’t keep it in any longer. If I don’t say it I’ll do something stupid later on and make a mistake and get too close to you again, but if I just tell you now, then you’ll know, maybe I’ll be lucky and you’ll understand. I don’t know.”
“Tell me what?” she asked in a quiet voice as her heart began to beat quickly. She had no idea what he was going to say, but she was beginning to worry a little bit about it.
He looked as if he wasn’t sure, but then he let out a sigh and shook his head. “I can’t stop thinking about that kiss we shared in my kitchen the day the baby moved. I can’t stop thinking about what it was like to feel you in my arms that way, and I find that the more I’m around you, the more I want to feel that again. The more I want to kiss you again.
Seeing this here today… seeing you this way, it was… god, it was so beautiful. I have never seen a more beautiful woman, and it’s all I can do right now not to kiss you. I just… I can’t stop thinking about it. If that kiss hadn’t happened I might not be feeling this way right now, but something tells me that I would have, and I would be thinking about how much I would want to try to kiss you, rather than remember the kiss we shared, wishing for more, and not being able to get it out of my mind.”
He sighed again as if a great weight was off of his chest and she blinked back a few tears as a smile spread over her face. “I can’t stop thinking about that kiss too, though I’ve been trying to make myself forget about it. I wished that I could because I didn’t want to be out of line with you. I didn’t want to act inappropriately or ask you for too much… but I can’t stop thinking about our kiss either, and when I’m around you, I want more of that same feeling too. I have been trying to ignore it, but I know how you feel. I just can’
t ignore it anymore either.”
Cameron gasped, blinking in surprise as he smiled and shook his head. “I… I can’t believe it… I saw you pulling away so much and I thought that it was because I was getting too close. I thought you didn’t want me near you as much. I had no idea…” he trailed off and it was silent a moment between them as their hearts pounded and their blood and minds raced.
He reached his hands up to her face to cup it in his palms as he watched her eyes and leaned in close to her. “I’ve been wanting to do this since the night you came over for dinner.” He whispered, closing his eyes as he brought his face to hers and brushed his lips gently across hers.
A soft sigh escaped her and she slowly curled her arms around his neck as they drew their bodies nearer together. They kissed softly and gently, taking their time as they savored one another and learned each other’s mouths, tasting and discovering.
Everything in Jasmine began to rush as a wave of relief and joy washed over her. She had been so sure that she was thinking of things that she shouldn’t be, that the realization that he wanted her just as much as she wanted to be with him was overwhelming.
Cameron held her tighter and kissed her deeper, parting her lips with his as he took her over, twisting his tongue around hers and moving his hands along her back. Watching the bare parts of her body before him that day had affected him much more than he had expected, and he could no longer hold back the desires that had been building in him for her.
When their kisses calmed some, he leaned back and looked at her, holding her hands in his. “Jasmine, I don’t know what’s going on with us… I don’t have any answers or direction, I don’t have a plan… there’s nothing in my mind other than this moment. I don’t know where this will go. All I know is that I have wanted this moment with you for so long and now we’ve had it, and it was amazing. I don’t know where we go from here, but I want you to know that right now. I’m not playing any games and I don’t want any disillusion or confusion. I just want you to know the truth and keep this transparent and honest.”
She nodded. “I understand. I think I feel the same. I wasn’t expecting this, and now it’s happened, and maybe we just kind of see where it goes. I have no agendas or expectations, so I think we’re in the same place, but I do want you to know this,” she reached her hand up and touched his face gently, “I’m really glad that it happened.”
He leaned forward with a happy laugh and whispered, “I am too. I’m so glad that this finally happened. God, I’ve been wanting to kiss you for so long.” He leaned in and kissed her long and slow once more before releasing her.
They both let out a big sigh then and he held her hand as they both walked out to the parking lot with big smiles on their faces, and bliss in their hearts.
Jasmine texted Kelly and told her that she needed to talk with her, and Kelly showed up at her house an hour later with fresh vegetables from her garden. She set the bag on the counter and pulled out carrots, beans, potatoes, lettuce, celery, tomatoes, onions, herbs, oranges, plums, nectarines, and lemons as big as her hand.
“I thought I’d give you a little gift from the garden of Eden.” She teased with a smile. “So tell me what’s got me up here visiting you today. What’s going on?”
Jasmine poured them each a tall glass of cold tea and handed Kelly’s to her. “It’s kind of… a tangle.” She began as they walked outside to the patio behind her house and sat under the lights to talk.
“I was over at Cameron’s house a while back and we were having dinner. Something cool happened, the baby moved for the first time, and he was standing right there when I felt it. I took his hand and put it on my belly and he was able to feel it too. We got excited and we… we kissed.”
Kelly’s eyebrows rose up but she stayed quiet as she listened.
“He apologized right away, and we said it wasn’t going to happen again. We’ve spent a lot of time together since then and our friendship has grown, a lot actually, and we’re good friends now. Well, all this time I kept feeling like I wanted to be close to him and I’ll be honest, I wanted to kiss him again, but I knew it shouldn’t happen. I kept my distance and when I wanted that with him, I pulled away, trying to talk myself out of it.
Well, we were at a photo shoot for the baby and part of it was a semi-nude shoot, nothing inappropriate, but there was some bare skin. He kept watching me, and it made me want to kiss him again, and then he told me that he’s been thinking about that first kiss too, and that he’s been struggling with wanting to kiss me. So, this whole time it’s been going both ways.” She laughed a little and down at her drink and then back up to Kelly.
Kelly watched her silently without judgment or opinion expressed on her face. She just listened.
“Well, when we both said it we realized that we’ve both wanted each other, and we’ve both been holding back all of this time, and we kissed again. More this time.” She smiled widely to herself as she thought back to it. “It was so nice.”
She looked back at Kelly. “We both agreed that we don’t know where this is going to go, but we are glad that it happened, and that we were able to admit to each other that we’ve been interested in each other that way. It’s freeing, and there’s a good feeling of release that I don’t have to hold it in anymore and try to repress what I wanted. So, that’s where we are now and neither of us knows what’s coming next.”
Jasmine took a sip of her drink and stopped talking, waiting for Kelly’s response.
Kelly gave her head a shake and set her glass of tea on the table. “I’ll tell you what’s coming next honey. There’s a baby coming next. There’s a baby and there’s also another woman who is carrying one of his babies. Remember her? You are not alone in this, and if he is taking such good care of you and your baby, I’m sure he’s taking just as good a care with her and her baby. Who knows if there’s anything going on between them.”
Jasmine frowned and her shoulders sank down. “I do think of her from time to time. Her name was Eva. Eva Cruz. I haven’t told Cameron that I know about her, and he hasn’t brought her up which makes me think that he doesn’t want me to know about her. I don’t know why he’s keeping her a secret otherwise, unless it’s just about the babies for him and he’s keeping it all a secret. I don’t think that he would have told her about me either, and she doesn’t know that I am carrying his baby because I never told her that.
When she asked me who the father was, I just said it was a businessman in Silicon Valley. I didn’t tell her who it was. She chose to tell me who hers was, and when she did I didn’t speak up and tell her that we are pregnant with the same man’s kids, so she probably has no idea that we’re both carrying babies at the same time for him. The only way that she would know is if he told her about me, and since he hasn’t told me about her, I’m sure that he hasn’t told her about me.” She still felt sick about it, but she tried to push it aside and focus on the good things going on.
Kelly leaned forward and took Jasmine’s hands in hers. “Listen to me, sister. You are pregnant right now. Your body is one giant hormone factory right now, and all those little hormones are raging all over the place, and I’m sure that’s why you are sniffing around Cameron, interested in kissing and all kinds of other natural things. That’s just the way that pregnancy works, but I want you to think with your head and not with your body or your heart.
You are his employee. You are being paid to carry his child, and you are going to hand his child off to him and disappear from the picture. That’s how this works, and you know that, but you’re letting yourself forget it. Not only is this a temporary job, you already know that there’s another woman and another baby involved, and he hasn’t seen fit to tell you about her, even though he and you are getting closer. Now, it might just be me, but that doesn’t sound right to me at all.”
“Jasmine, my dearest, you have to be careful. You cannot afford to be hurt in all of this. You are going to have to look out for yourself and protect yourself. Put yourself fi
rst in this. Keep your head out of the clouds. You don’t know where this is going to go, and you need to keep your eyes open about that. Don’t get all caught up in a romance that is going to end in you walking away. Be careful. Be true to yourself.” Kelly leaned back then and watched Jasmine.
Jasmine pressed her lips together thoughtfully. “I know that you’re right. You are. I do have to think ahead here. I have to be careful. I do like him though, and there’s no denying that.” She wished that it was easy, but Kelly was right. She had to be true to herself, and in being honest with herself she had to face the fact that she liked him and she did want him romantically.
Chapter5
Jasmine saw Cameron about once or twice a week for different things; outings to the park to walk, dinner out, movies, classical music concerts. Every time they saw each other they grew closer, holding hands, holding each other, and kissing; sometimes just a little, and sometimes when there was no one else around, a bit more, leaving them thinking about things beyond kissing.
They didn’t talk about where it was going, or what they might want beyond it, but they both savored the time that they shared and each other’s company, and both of them were glad and relieved that they had admitted it to each other and had found that they both wanted to share it with one another.
