“I fell in love with St. Marcos, and I bought a house. Well, I didn’t know I’d bought a house. I made an offer, and I didn’t think they would accept it, but they did. I’m quitting my job and moving there in two weeks. I’m going to do a few renovations—” I had my fingers crossed, so this was not a lie, “then practice law on the island.” This part was. I was tempted to speak loudly and draw my words out longer, since this was seeming hard for them to process, but I thought better of it. I was delivering them a game changer. “I’m excited, and I wanted to tell you guys first. After today, you’ve got to admit that I need a total life makeover.”
They turned to each other, twin images of dismay. They didn’t speak. Now did not seem the appropriate time to disclose that the house “spoke” to me. I’d left out that my realtor didn’t think it was a safe place for a woman to live alone. I also omitted that I took inexplicable comfort from the house’s nearness to where Mom and Dad died. And I sure hadn’t told them that it would take a year and another half a million to finish the house. I felt the first reemergence of the confident and strong Katie that had been hiding from the world for the last month.
When they did start to speak, I agreed to “think about it carefully” and “not rush into anything.” Not that I intended to think or slow down. I only needed them to know my decision. I was a grown-up, and I didn’t need their approval. But I wanted to make them feel better about it. I would no more change their minds than they would mine. I needed to get to work, not argue with Collin and Emily about the inevitable.
“And all this happened since I got here tonight?” Collin asked.
“No. It all happened since I went to St. Marcos. But I got the call tonight telling me my dreams were coming true. All since you got here.”
Emily nodded, but Collin just stared through me. I waited for more questions, but there were none. Really, there was nothing more left to say.
Chapter Twenty-five
The next day, I called my island friends.
First Ava. “Guess whose crazy red-headed friend is moving to St. Marcos in two weeks?” I asked her.
Ava shouted so loud I had to pull the phone away from my ear. “For real? You moving here for real?”
“I am. I bought Estate Annalise.”
“You crazy. Anyone buy that jumbie house crazy. Good crazy, brave crazy. But then I know that about you already.”
“Well, that jumbie house won’t be ready for me to live in for a long time. I need a friend who’d like a roommate for a few months.”
“And that friend be me, of course,” she said.
“I’m going to need more help, the kind of help that requires a truck and a lot of experience on the west end of the island,” I said, putting my drop line in the water.
Ava bit. “Rashidi good for that. You got his number?”
I didn’t so she gave it to me. One issue solved. I called Rashidi next.
I was unsure how to begin. “This is Ava’s friend Katie. How’s it going?” I asked him.
He made things just right immediately. “I good, but I hear a rumor some continental lady trying to buy Annalise. That be you?”
“Not only tried, but was successful,” I said.
“Wah? You buy the jumbie place? You for real?”
“I’m afraid I am. I think I’m going to need some help. Ava suggested I call you.”
“No worries. Any red-haired friend of Ava a friend of mine.”
I told Rashidi I needed an agent to help me buy a truck before I got back on-island. He informed me I needed a pack of dogs more.
“Locals scared of dogs. All dogs. You gonna need them to watch over Annalise once you start prettying her up and putting supplies and things there. And you gotta have dogs dem to protect you if you live up in the bush. I get you some good dogs, three or four be about right.”
I hadn’t anticipated a pack of guard dogs, but I could see his point. And he was the local, not me. If I remembered correctly, I liked dogs. Or maybe it was cats I liked. We’d had both when I was a kid, twenty years before. It didn’t really matter, though, as Rashidi and I were talking about outside, working guard dogs. I wouldn’t have to deal with slobber or dog hair or bodily functions.
“So, if I wired you the money, could I get you to pick up a truck for me? I found a used one for sale in the St. Marcos Source online. It looks like exactly what I need.”
“Yah mon. Why don’t you let me drive it ’round first, make sure it OK.”
“Wow, thanks. I’m going to pay you for your help, of course.”
“Now why you want to insult a man like that? We new friends.” First Ava, then Rashidi. It was raining blessings.
“Fine, thank you. Then I’m at least going to feed you when I see you.”
“That I let you do, for true.”
He hung up, promising to check out the truck and start the hunt for the right dogs immediately.
More issues resolved. I pinched myself. It hurt. This was actually going to happen.
I continued making my mega-list, because that was just the way I rolled. I had only four big things left on it for Dallas. I needed to give my two-week notice at work, list my condo, secure the services of a moving company, and finish things gracefully with Nick.
I told Gino that same day. My decision shocked him, if his slack face was any indication. That or he had a mini stroke.
“Take a leave of absence instead. We can give you up to a year,” Gino said.
That was gracious, especially given the disastrous outcome of Zane’s trial and my new internet fame.
“Thank you, Gino, but I want to make a clean break,” I said.
“Is this because I made you take the McMillan case? I’m sorry for that. I had no idea that witness would turn,” he said, the epitome of concern and kindness.
I winced. Emily and Nick must not have told him the story behind the story, or he’d have kicked me out of the partnership. Instead, he felt responsible. Which in turn made me feel guilty. I’d been wasting a lot of time on guilty lately. I’d been causing my own trouble.
“I’m not leaving because of that. Thank you, though. None of us knew about Sherry.” And now I was going to hell for lying, but no good could come of fessing up now. “It was God’s way of making me earn the double fees,” I said, and Gino laughed.
Wrapping up my law practice took most of my attention over the next two weeks, but there were no complications, other than warding off the morbid curiosity of the onlookers who lurked outside my office door whispering to each other. “Did Gino fire her?” “It’s probably because of the McMillan case. Did you hear she had a nervous breakdown in the courtroom? I saw it on YouTube.” Seriously, if YouTube’s world headquarters burned to the ground, the authorities would be crazy not to take a hard look at me. But I ignored them all. Their opinions didn’t matter to me anymore, and I had things left to do.
My condo building had a waiting list of potential buyers. It was on McKinney Avenue in the uptown area, close to downtown Dallas and humming with the energy burned by the upwardly mobile. It was either trés chic or way cool, depending on your demographic. I found someone eager to pay my price and close immediately. Not only that, but the couple recognized me from the TV coverage of Zane’s trial. Super. And guess what? They’d even seen the YouTube video. I asked. Now they’d have stories to tell at their dinner parties about how they bought the place from the Paula Abdul of defense attorneys.
With the condo sold furnished, I had much less to ship, which was good because shipping to the Caribbean was quite pricey.
“You realize that mid-September is the peak of hurricane season?” the representative from the moving company asked me when I called. “Some people would rather store their belongings until the season is over, then ship them.”
I hadn’t thought about that. Wasn’t that why God invented insurance, though?
“I want to ship now,” I said.
No escape hatches. All in. And everything fell into place so easily
that I knew it was meant to be.
Except for one thing. The finish-with-Nick thing.
After deleting the email Nick sent after the McMillan trial, I’d hidden from him at work like a yellow-bellied sapsucker. When I caught a glimpse of him, I ducked into the bathroom or reversed course as if I’d forgotten something. I wasn’t yet ready to explain myself about anything. Like ignoring his olive branch. Or moving. The awkwardness between us. I wanted to wait until the day before I left to talk to him, so I wouldn’t have to face him again afterwards. The last minute in the last hour of the last day, if I had my choice. Bwock bwock, said the chicken.
I rehearsed every word I was going to say to him. The gist of it? I wanted to tell him I was sorry. For Shreveport, for the McMillan trial, for everything. That I appreciated his email, and that he had nothing left to apologize for to me. I knew he was my true friend before Shreveport, and that I’d driven him away. I needed him to know that I was leaving. That I was taking his advice and accepting help. Granted, it was my kind of help from a jumbie house and friends I barely knew, but I would leave that part unsaid.
And when the conversation was over, then I would let it go, and I would have the closure I craved. After that, I didn’t ever want to see him again. Unless he declared undying love for me. Which he wouldn’t.
The days flew by. I didn’t see Collin or Emily as much as I’d hoped. When I did, it was hard. They kept trying to talk me out of the best decision of my life.
Collin tried emotional pressure. “You can’t sever your ties to our past, Katie. This is where Mom and Dad raised us. You’re going to lose your connection to everything that has always mattered to you.”
Emily worked the same theme, without the sledgehammer. “You can change jobs and condos here, you know. You don’t have to run halfway around the world. Besides, I haven’t even taught you to ride a horse properly yet.”
When the emotional blackmail didn’t work, Collin suggested a compromise. “Back out of this purchase for now. Wait a month and I’ll come with you for a visit. We’ll work this through together. It would be good for me to go to St. Marcos and face what happened to Mom and Dad, too.”
Finally, Emily broke. “What about me, with my best friend so far away? I’m at least coming to help you get settled, and I won’t take no for an answer.”
Now this was the kind of emotional gesture I could work with. “Of course!” I said. We booked her a flight to follow me the day after I left. I could show her a good time on St. Marcos and pay her back for all she had done for me lately, for the embarrassment I’d made her a part of. St. Marcos was a long way from Amarillo, even from Dallas, and she had never been to the Caribbean.
And then, the night after the painful but well-meaning going away party the firm threw for me at Uncle Julio’s, the party where I spent the entire evening fake-laughing at McZillion jokes and eyeing the exit, I got an email from Nick. Nick who had not come to my party.
I opened it cautiously, hoping for a miracle but expecting the boogeyman to jump out.
To: [email protected] (Hailey & Hart, All Attorneys and Staff)
From: [email protected]
Subject: Out of the Office
I will be out of the office from August 15 through August 29. If this is an emergency, please write “Emergency” in the subject of your email, or call me on my mobile phone.
It was a Thursday. I was flying out Saturday. And he was already gone. My Friday afternoon speech would never happen. I would never see him again. Never.
Months of fighting it had made no difference. I loved this man. I needed to get over it and move on. But how was I supposed to turn my Only One into nothing? I couldn’t. Not yet, anyway.
Well, that was that, then. I drew three lines through the last item on my list, ripping a hole in the paper as I did. I was ready to go. But I would keep my same cell phone number. Just in case.
Chapter Twenty-six
Thank God for my on-time plane. I stuck my hand into the recess in the wheel well above the front driver’s-side tire of a gold Chevy Silverado pickup and probed around. Dirt. Something greasy. Keys—right where Rashidi had promised to leave them. Excellent. I love it when a plan comes together.
A voice behind me pulled a smile from my lips. “Good afternoon, miss. Welcome to the islands. Can I interest you in a rainforest tour?”
I spun around to hug Rashidi. “What are you doing here?”
“I figure I stay to greet you, since I only drop the truck five minutes ago,” he said sheepishly.
I put my hand on the front hood of the Silverado. Still hot. I laughed. “You were cutting it close. I can’t tell you how much I appreciate it.” I glanced at my watch, then unfastened it, removed it, and dropped it in my purse. I was on island time from now on. “Hey, I have an hour before I have to be at the Annalise closing. You have time for me to feed you like I promised?”
Rashidi straightened a pretend collar on his green-with-yellow-letters “University of the Virgin Islands” t-shirt. “Let we go.”
I followed closely behind Rashidi’s old but well cared for red Jeep as he led me to his favorite vegetarian restaurant. I had forgotten about his whole vegan lifestyle thing. Oh, well. I could always drive through Wendy’s on my way to the bank, although when I’d done that on my last visit I’d had to honk the chickens out of the drive-through lane, and then sat there for twenty minutes until my food was ready.
Rashidi and I sat at a window table inside the dark soul food restaurant. Jimmy Cliff was crooning “I can see clearly now,” the reggae song by Johnny Nash he’d remade and performed far better than the original. There wasn’t an excess ounce of body fat on anyone besides me in the place. And I thought I was skinny. I was also the only patron without dreadlocks.
I perused the menu, lost. Protein, protein, where could I find protein? A turbaned Rasta waitress took our order. In a tone of reverence, Rashidi ordered rice noodles with Asian pesto and stir-fried vegetables with lemongrass. I settled on a red pepper and garlic hummus and roasted Mediterranean eggplant, and hoped for the best.
“The food here manna from the gods. And it close to the university. That good. I teaching a class in an hour,” Rashidi said.
I realized I knew next to nothing about Rashidi, other than he was kind to white tourist ladies. “What do you teach?” I asked.
“Coupla things. I’m an associate professor, not tenured, so I teach classes as part of degree programs, like botany, and I do continuing education classes, too, community stuff,” he said. “This afternoon I teaching a hydroponic farming class.”
I was impressed, and lost. “A what?”
“Hydroponic farming. I trying to get the local farmers to use fish to fertilize their plants. Farm the tilapia, farm the crops. It’s Jah’s perfect match.”
“Jeez Louise, Rashidi, where’d you learn to do that?”
“I got my degree in botany from the University of Florida. I learn about the fish farming there.”
“So where do the rainforest tours come in?” I asked him. He was a professor dragging the likes of me up and down the hills of the rainforest. On a haunted house tour, no less.
“Cash,” he said, and his white teeth gleamed in his wide smile. “U.V.I. don’t pay enough for me to eat here.”
Our food arrived. Rashidi bowed his head and whispered a prayer under his breath, so I ducked mine, too. I decided to eat my eggplant first, while it was still hot. I slid my fork slowly into the gooey golden mess and lifted it to my face, trying to smell it without making my concern obvious to everyone in the building. Allspice. Nutmeg. Garlic. The aroma was shockingly good. I slipped it into my mouth and the flavors melted into my tongue.
“Oh my God,” I said, or tried to, through a mouth full of eggplant. “This is amazing.”
Rashidi nodded as he ate. We chewed in bliss together until we had polished the surfaces of the bowls before us. Rashidi pushed his chair back a few inches from the table like a fat man from Thanksgiving din
ner. This mannerism from the lithe Rashidi tickled me.
He spoke again. “Ava not doing so good. She pretty beat up about her friend dying.”
I wondered if Rashidi knew that Guy was more than a friend to Ava. I wouldn’t be the one to unload that on him, just in case. “I hope I can help her,” I said.
“It help just you coming. A good distraction. She talking ’bout working with you to find out what happen to your parents here,” he said.
“Yes. She’s already been invaluable with that.”
“The cop on that case my school chum. Michael. He at the University of Florida for a year when I there, but he drop out and come home.”
“Really?” I asked. “Do you know what happened to him? I was told he went out fishing alone and drowned less than a month after my parents died.”
Rashidi shook his head. “Make no sense. I fish with Michael, time to time. He never go out alone, he can’t swim. Loved to fish, scared of water. They found his empty boat floating a mile off the west end of the island.” He shook his head again, his eyes far away.
I swallowed. “You think someone killed him?” I asked.
“Dunno. Maybe an accident and folks dem scared they’d get in trouble. Maybe he helped into the water by someone bad. Maybe I wrong and he fish alone.”
My antenna quivered. I couldn’t believe Michael’s death was a coincidence.
The Rasta waitress brought our bill, and I handed her a twenty and a ten. It covered the bill plus tip. The food here rocked and was cheaper than the flying fish hut. Quite a find.
Rashidi changed the subject. “Ava say you a lawyer.”
“Was.” I looked down. “Now I’m a house remodeler.”
Rashidi’s eyes cut to the wall clock, and he stood abruptly. “And I a teacher almost late for class,” he said. “I’ll come around Annalise later today. Ava want me to bring her by.”
I stood too, and we walked out together. “Thank you so much, Rashidi. I love the truck.”
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