ASCENSION
A Tangled Axon Novel
Jacqueline Koyanagi
For all those who were born to be in the sky.
Copyright © 2013 by Jacqueline Koyanagi.
Cover art by Scott Grimando.
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Chapter One
Heat buffeted my face, whipping my locs behind me. Sweat and dirt stung my eyes as I held my breath.
Please let their waveguides hold. We can’t lose another ship.
Aunt Lai and I watched the Series IV Greenbelt disappear into the atmosphere, carrying a team of biosynths with it. They couldn’t even think about seeding the universe with new species without a working ship, and that’s where we came in, the engineers: stitching together humanity’s lifeline out in the Big Quiet.
The biosynths could only cover half the labor costs for repairing their damaged waveguides, but we took the work anyway. Money was money in this economy. Even when it wasn’t enough money.
The team had cast impatient glances toward the sky while we worked, as if those naked planets might bioform without them. I knew that look. That craving to break free of the ground. Dirt doesn’t feel right on the heels of someone born to be in the sky.
I’d had my hands in the entrails of so many ships I’d lost count, but even after over thirty system-years of life on Orpim, I’d never set foot off-planet. An entire universe carried on without me out there in the silence while I kept everyone else flying. I couldn’t tell you how many nights I lost sleep imagining tendrils of electromagnetism arcing through the cosmos, holding together the galaxies and planets our biosynths ignited with life. And there I was, a woman who yearned so hard for the sky there had to be stars in my blood, yet I was stuck in Heliodor City, missing it all.
Neither Lai nor I said the obvious as we stood with dust in our hair and mouths, watching the place in the sky where the Greenbelt had disappeared into the upper atmosphere.
Our last pending job.
Maybe solar winds would blow in another one tomorrow, but we never knew, and debt didn’t pay itself back. When the economy tanked twelve years ago, the freelance shipping industry took the biggest hit. Ships and pilots alike fell into disrepair when manufacturers and medical facilities started outsourcing to Transliminal Solutions in a desperate attempt to save their businesses. Starship surgeons like Lai and me? We struggled along behind everyone else, taking whatever repairs folks could afford to throw at us. Half the ships out there probably floated along in the silence on a spirit guide’s prayer, hoping their sails and waveguides and thrusters held for just one more month, one more year, instead of coming in for the tune-ups that could save their engines when it counted.
During times of need, it was always the people with the least to give who ended up sacrificing the most. Hardly a building remained in our sector that wasn’t a palimpsest of closed businesses.
“Well,” Lai said with one heavy slap on my back, mouth forced into a smile. “That’s that.”
I twisted a copper wire around one finger, coiling and uncoiling it needlessly. A leather tool belt hung heavy at my waist, like old hope gone slack. “Yeah. That’s that.”
She winked at me, gripping my shoulder with a rough hand. Despite her smile, the tension in her muscles betrayed her true feelings. I’d been watching her grow more frightened with every launched vessel. Seemed like the time between jobs got bigger by the day.
“Supposed to get warmer overnight,” she said, heading to the entrance of the shop and inputting the security code. Her hands shook: age and disease catching up with her faster than it should have.
“Mm-hmm.”
There was so much we weren’t saying as we stepped inside, door whispering closed behind us. So much about our empty shipyard. About the chronic meds we couldn’t afford. About the gear we needed to replace. About the back rent we still owed my sister Nova, and the magnanimously offered debt forgiveness she continued to hold over my head.
“I heard Bran closed shop yesterday,” Lai said. “Took a job at Translim.”
“Yeah, she told me that was coming.” I sat on the counter at the front of the shop, picking at the grime under my nails. Did we have to talk about this? What good did it do to be reminded?
Lai dropped her tool belt onto the rusted table and dabbed the sweat from her face with a towel. “At least they’re paying her decent. Got the shift supervisor position.”
Tension drew the air drum-tight between us at the mention of Transliminal. Quietly, Lai tied back her locs, avoiding my gaze. She traded her cargos and boots for slacks and a tie, and called a transport to take her to her second job at the call center. I wanted to tell her to quit, to have more faith in her work. If all the fringe folk folded, there’d be no one left to hold up our cities.
No point in saying it again. As much as the sight of Lai in that damned costume gnawed at me, I just let her put it on without comment. Old arguments tasted sour, anyway.
Within five minutes the shuttle arrived, the letters “TS” slicing across its black hull in sharp, iridescent white. As the transport attendant grabbed Lai’s hand and helped her up, I caught a glimpse of the face below the pilot’s helmet. My heart stuttered before I could ice it over.
Kugler, my friend-turned-girlfriend-turned-ex-wife. The girl I grew up chasing around the Adul research station on our school breaks, three planets away, while our parents worked on translating an alien language. The woman I’d thought I’d fallen for until I realized the difference between love and nostalgia.
I leaned on the shuttle and shoved my hands in my pockets. “I didn’t think you worked this shift anymore.”
Kugler was quiet for a beat, eyes darting over my hair, my work-worn clothes. The crisp lines of her pristine uniform looked alien out here on the fringe. Even more so on her.
A memory flashed through my mind—an image of her face pressed against a viewport on the station, making goofy expressions at the Adulan giants floating outside. She’d painted a stolen dermal layer over her cheeks; it shimmered in cascades of white and blue as it translated our message into the Adulan color-language. White, blue, white, followed by a complex ripple.
Do you dream?
Or at least that’s what we were trying to ask. We knew it was probably gibberish to the Adulans, and that we’d never understand the response even if we got one.
Today, Kugler ignored me while Lai settled herself into the nearest transport seat, making no effort to conceal her eavesdropping.
“I thought you hated nights,” I said.
“Yeah, well,” Kugler said. “Third shift pays better. I bet you’re still barely scraping by just so you can flirt with old ships.”
I clenched my teeth.
“Thought so,” she said, then turned toward the navigational controls. I wanted to retort with some nasty comment about roping women into long-term relationships with grand promises of metal and flight, only to tell them to give it all up for babies and real estate. Our final argument—a year ago—happened when she tried to get me to leave the shop to work for Transliminal Solutions like her. “Stabilit
y is more important than playing with dying vessels,” she’d said, clutching one of my medical bills.
I felt lied to. With her rakish hair and quick wit, it was as if she’d promised me someone more independent and left-of-center than she ultimately was. Seeing her there now, wearing her cool posture like a mask, she couldn’t fool me—she still hated me for choosing my work, just like I hated her because I lost her friendship in the divorce.
Whether it was dignity or pride that kept me from saying anything while standing in front of the transport doorway, I don’t know. Maybe it was the lines around her mouth that were now much deeper than when we’d met. Heliodoran life wasn’t kind to anyone.
A light pressure landed on my arm. Lai crouched in the shuttle to reach down and touch me, jogging me out of my bitterness. Her soft-but-stern expression said everything: Be the bigger person.
“You take care of yourself, Kugler,” I said, then turned to my aunt without giving Kugler room to respond. “Do you have your medication?”
Kugler rolled her eyes and threw herself into the pilot’s seat, passive-aggressively checking the time display embedded in the sleeve of her jacket. She tossed me a final glance—one I couldn’t quite parse—and activated the anti-glare lenses over her retinas, darkening her eyes.
Lai held up a bright blue bottle, then raised her eyebrows to ask me whether I had my medication too. I held up my own: Yep, I’ve got it.
We popped the lids, fished out a pill each, did a mock toast over the short distance between us, and tossed them back. We were pros; no need for a chaser.
I backed away as the shuttle took off toward downtown Heliodor, kicking up a small vortex of dirt. Every time Lai left, I worried about her. She didn’t fit into the city center’s culture, Translim tech coating it to a high sheen. Out here, we were all old stone and rotting wood, with a grotesque touch of high-tech gloss here and there where someone had dumped their savings into one last push, one last effort to not be left behind.
But let’s face it. We were dirt to flick from the shoulder of the city, nothing more.
As I went back to cleaning up the mess we’d made working on the Greenbelt, I fell into a natural rhythm that helped me think about something other than money. I recalled the distinct sounds of the Greenbelt’s engine, its song stuck in my head. Metal and coil resonating quietly around a heart of fire. Every piece of scrap felt good in my hands, and the heft of my tools was as natural to me as my own skin. Nothing that provided this much purpose and joy could ever be in vain, no matter what Kugler said.
The sun set on the city while I worked, orange light glinting off the opalescent albacite exterior of its central buildings. Heliodor’s eyelids grew heavy, but out here we never really went to bed, just in case a job showed up. You slept in your office, your shipyard, your bar. Some of us even figured out how to nap on our feet. The trick was to stand with your feet shoulder-width apart, hips in front of something solid in case you leaned forward. And to make sure your neural interface’s notification settings were on if you had one; nothing woke me up like a screech in the ear when someone walked into the shop.
As if reading my thoughts, a notification buzzed in my right ear, followed by a sonorous voice: Monthly check-in with Doctor Shrike, due within the hour. My fourth reminder today.
Ugh. Fine.
I dropped the scrap and looked at my empty hands to determine how bad the tremors were today—hands that should have been learning the curves of a ship instead of reaching for prescriptions. Hands that would become unreliable without medication, weak and gnarled. I didn’t feel sorry for myself. I knew I could accomplish amazing feats with these hands, given the right tools and a ship to love. It’s just that, well, I got frustrated that my ability to function—to do the one thing I’d loved since childhood—was entirely dependent on synthesized chemicals.
No use dwelling on it. Besides, after three years of saving, my bank account said I was halfway to the Transliminal Solutions remedy that would fix both me and Lai—our system’s medicine could only treat, not heal. Transliminal would cure.
I washed my hands and turned on the comm panel at the back of the shop. An old model left over from when this place was a dentist’s office, before my sister bought it. I beeped Dr. Shrike, and her face soon appeared on the screen.
I barely recognized her. In lieu of her usual short blond hair, she’d grown parrot feathers. Her aged skin was now smooth and youthful, while storms of shifting color undulated in her eyes.
Transliminal mods. Envy surged in my gut.
“Doctor,” I said, leaning back into my chair and resting my hands on my stomach. “You’ve had work done. Going on vacation?”
She laughed and looked away, nervously touching her feathers—the anxiety of the privileged. “How are you feeling, Alana? Any pain today?”
“Some. Just the usual.”
“Hands? Back? Neck?”
“Yes.”
“Legs?” Each time she blinked, it drew my attention to the auroras in her eyes.
“Yes.”
She took notes on the implant along her inner arm. “We can try anti-inflammatories to—”
“No, that’s okay. I can’t afford it.”
“We have payment plans for meds. I really wish you’d consider one and upgrade your pain management. Doing these check-ins is already a stretch. What I really need is for you to come in every month and let me examine—”
“I have the Dexitek. I’m good.”
She sighed and shook her head a little, then continued with her litany of questions. She tried the same thing every month, and every month I refused. People like Shrike had no idea what it meant to have to choose between paying bills and paying for food. How could she understand? And if I paid for a new cocktail of pain management meds now, I wouldn’t be able to afford the real treatment later.
The one that would mean saving myself.
“Any lameness, numbness?” she said. “Loss of motor function?”
“A little tingling in the fingers of my left hand about a week ago.”
She nodded and tapped in my answer, feathers bobbing. “Nothing to be too alarmed about. Loss of visual or aural acuity?”
“Come again?”
“Very funny. Loss of appetite?”
“Definitely not.”
“Heart palpitations?”
“Only when I beep you, Doctor.” I bounced my eyebrows at her and laughed when she tried ignoring my flirting. Though I did get a tiny grin out of her.
“Any reactions to the medication or other concerns to report?”
“All systems functioning within normal parameters, Captain.”
“Okay, okay.” Shrike swept a finger along her implant and its light went dim. She clasped her hands together and leaned closer to the screen. “Alana. This,” she said, gesturing to her modifications, “feels incredible. I don’t even experience light the same way now—”
“How nice for you.”
Shrike raised her hands defensively. “I’m getting to a point here. I had no idea how easily Transliminal could manipulate the body until I experienced it myself. This has real promise. I know you’re saving for the treatment, but I’m sending you a free Translim sample.”
“Of what? Feathers?”
“A slow-acting cure.”
I sat up. “What do you mean?”
“This is a viable alternative to the one-time treatment. It’s a proven cure to Metak’s Disease, PTSD, agoraphobia, drug addiction, even Holme’s—”
“And Mel’s Disorder?” I nearly whispered.
“Yes, Alana.” Shrike smiled in that condescending way doctors had when they believed they could save you. “Mel’s too.”
A small light flickered near the bottom of the screen, and the distribution panel next to it flicked open. Inside the compartment was a small, clear package vacuum-sealed around a tiny purple pill with a “P” engraved on it. I took it between my fingers.
“Stands for Panacea,” she said. “Appro
priately.”
“How does it work?”
She flushed. “That, I’m not sure. Transliminal is playing its cards as close to its chest as it can. We do know the Nulan government has sanctioned it, and that it’s a genetic treatment that comes in a series, but I couldn’t get more than one sample dose per month. They may be doing a lot to help the people on our side of the breach, but profit is still the bottom line, and they want you to know what you’re missing after you’ve taken just one. You’ll develop a temporary dependency after one dose. Take it, but only when you’re absolutely sure you want to. After the first treatment, you will either need to take it the rest of your life or suffer a . . . very uncomfortable week of withdrawal. Your condition might even worsen. Be careful.”
“How much?” I said, weighing the package in my palm.
“Alana, we can figure out—”
“Doctor Shrike, how much?”
“Three-thousand credits a month.”
I sighed, examining the unassuming little thing that could supposedly give me a small taste of healing. Take the pill, and I’d know what it meant to be in a state of no-pain for four weeks, but to stay that way, I’d have to come up with more than I usually made in a month. Translim sure knew how to rope us in.
“Transliminal does offer payment plans, Alana,” Shrike said quietly.
Great. I knew all about their “payment plans.” More like indentured servitude. They’d own not just my city, but my body. My suffering and its relief. My life. Not sure how I felt about this so-called panacea.
She avoided looking directly at me. “I still think asking your sister to help you would be a good idea.”
“I told you. She doesn’t support Transliminal’s technology. She won’t even take clients who work for them.”
“Well . . . ” Shrike fidgeted. “As I said, they do have payment plans.”
“Don’t you have to work for Transliminal to qualify?”
She was quiet for a beat. “I think they could use someone with your experience in their outreach department—”
“No.” Make that hell no. Not if I had to hang up my tool belt.
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