A look of bewilderment on his face, he shakes his head from side to side. “I’m sorry, Alison. Really. I . . .”
“Don’t be sorry. I get it. Women drop to their knees for you.” I flick the handle and pull the door open. “Good luck in your campaign, Barrett.”
I’m around the corner of the door before he realizes it.
"Alison!" he calls as I hit the landing and dart out the door, but I don't look back. And thankfully or not, he doesn't come after me.
Barrett
“FUCK IT,” I MUTTER, SHOVING away from my desk. My chair rolls back on the hardwood floor of my office, coming to a rest a few inches from the wall.
It’s been three days since I saw Alison Baker. I figured I’d feel differently in a few days. I’d forget the sweet taste of her lips, the way her breasts pushed against my chest, and the sound of her laugh caressing my ears. Never did I think I’d still be replaying our conversations, jacking off every night to the vision of her body sitting on my cock.
Fuck. Me.
Her body is curvy perfection, her face is beautiful, her voice a call right to a place inside my chest that makes me feel like I light up on the inside when she speaks to me. But none of those reasons are why I’m a mess over this girl. I’ve seen banging bodies a hundred times before. Faces are a dime a dozen and I’ve heard the sexiest things, sweetest things, filthiest things whispered in my ear.
It’s not what Alison looks like, it’s not what she sounds like that has me messed up. It’s what she’s not.
She’s not calculated or conniving. She doesn’t have every word, every move thought out in advance. As crazy as it sounds, she’s a real person and one I can’t shake.
And that’s what has me fucked up, feeling guilt over something I said to a woman for quite possibly the first time in my life.
I feel like a complete cocksucker for making her feel like just another girl because clearly she’s not. I love that she has the confidence to not just be another girl. That makes her even more intriguing . . . and me even more of an asshole.
A soft thud raps against the door before it pushes open. Camilla’s heels, a delicate tick against the hardwood, announce her arrival.
She slips inside my office and shuts the door securely behind her.
“Hey, big brother,” she smiles, taking a seat across from my desk.
“How are you, Swink?”
“Good! Mom had some paperwork for Rose, so I brought it by on my way to meet a friend for lunch.”
“A friend?” I ask, cocking a brow.
“A friend. Her name is Joy, so don’t panic.”
Laughing, I sit back in the chair and watch my sister fiddle with her watch. “How are things going around here?” she asks. “Anything you need help with?”
“Nope. Everything’s peachy.”
She assesses me quickly. “I’m gonna have to call you out on that, Barrett.”
“Call me out on what?”
“That little ‘peachy’ comment. You don’t say things like that,” she smirks, “and your face just gave you away. So . . . tell me. What’s up?”
“You’ve earned your nickname, Swink. Such a meddler.”
“It’s what I do. Now spill it, Barrett,” she prompts.
Sighing, I try to consider getting around it, but I know she’ll pick at it until I come clean.
“All right,” I say, folding my hands on my desk, “I’m going to give you an opportunity to give me some advice.”
Her jaw drops. “Really? You’re really going to open up to me? Wow. Wait,” she says, shaking her head, “don’t overthink this. It’s a monumental day for sure, but you just talk and I’ll revel in the excitement afterwards.”
I roll my eyes. “Let’s say a guy you like says something that, I don’t know, offends you. Nothing terrible, just . . . said things he’s used to saying, but he obviously should’ve known better. And now he wants to apologize.”
“Oh, God, Barrett. What did you do?”
I toss her a look and she motions like she’s zipping her lips.
“How do I say I’m sorry?” I ask as she lifts a brow.
“Well,” she says, “the fact you didn’t just chase this girl and make her bend to your will is throwing me a bit. You’re usually a more ‘I’ll take what I want’ kind of guy.”
“Maybe I’m changing tactics.”
“Maybe I need to know who she is.”
“Maybe not.”
“Fine,” she groans. “Okay, you should apologize. But here’s the thing—you can say you’re sorry all you want, but words are pretty useless. Everyone says they’re sorry but rarely means it.”
“So what do I do? I mean it, Camilla. I’m sorry as fuck. I feel . . . I think I feel guilty.”
“Wow,” she breathes.
“Yeah,” I nod. “Wow.”
“Okay, so what you need is a grand gesture,” she exclaims, her eyes sparkling. “You need to convince her you aren’t the douchebag you presented yourself to be. Make her think you were just having a bad day. And if she believes you, you can’t go back to douchebag mode, okay?”
I sag. “Of course not. I . . . she . . . I . . .”
Camilla giggles at my stumbling.
“I don’t want to make her feel like I think I did. I hate feeling like this,” I admit, throwing a pen across my desk.
“You have to win her over and you do that by showing her you’re still thinking about her. You need to demonstrate that you listen when she talks, that you care about what she has to say. That is, of course, if you really did listen to her.”
Camilla flashes me a look like she expects me to laugh it off. I don’t.
“Of course I listened to her.”
“Well then, if that’s true, find something she loves, something she’s mentioned in conversation. Something small that she wouldn’t expect you to remember, and then act on it.”
I scratch my head. “So, I should send her flowers?”
“No,” she scoffs. “Flowers are what you send your mother or, I guess, you can send to your wife for a holiday as long as you follow it up with something else.” She starts to grin, but I put a stop to that, reading right through the lines.
“I can’t discuss the follow-ups with you with that look in your eye. You’re my baby sister.”
“Good point.” She fidgets in her seat before exhaling a breath. “Find something else. Not flowers. Something that will mean something to her. If you want to win her over, that’s your plan.”
It’s not a bad plan. It’s even a good plan, really. If only I could think of something to send her that’s not flowers.
“You do realize I’ve never sent a woman something before, right?” I ask. “Rose sends people flowers—which we aren’t doing,” I add as she starts to object. “This is all new to me.”
And overwhelming.
I glance at the stack of papers on my desk and wonder if I have enough energy left in me to expend on Alison.
“I love that it’s new to you,” my sister says. “That means she’s special. Just tell me this isn’t Daphne we’re talking about.”
Laughing, I stand and walk around my desk. “No, Swink. It’s not Daphne.”
“Thank God,” she giggles. Standing up, she reaches for me and I pull her into a big hug. “I’m glad you’ve found someone that makes you want to do better.”
“Do better?” I pull away and smirk. “You don’t want to know—”
“Remember how you don’t want to hear about certain things in my life?” she interrupts. “Well, that works both ways, Mayor Landry.”
“Noted.”
She heads to the door but pauses before she leaves. “If you need anything, call me. I love this romantic stuff.”
“It isn’t romance,” I point out. “It’s just . . . me trying to not be a jerk.”
Camilla grins the same grin our mother gives us when she sees right through our fibs. “If you care enough that you looked like a jerk that you want to go out of
your way to fix it, that’s romantic, Barrett. Sorry to break the news to you.”
I watch her leave, her words hitting me head-on.
If I go out of my way to apologize, that would lead her to believe I’m interested.
I am interested.
But do I want to be that interested? Can I afford to be that interested?
The sound of the door closing at the Farm as she walked out echoes through my memories.
Alison
THE CHEESE OOZES DOWN THE side of the bowl, inching slowly down the china, before it globs on the plate below.
It looks divine.
I carry the leftover macaroni and cheese to the living room and sit at the coffee table, stretching my legs out in front of me. The television is playing a soap opera that my grandma used to watch growing up. I always find it hysterical that I can not watch it for months at a time and tune in and feel like I didn’t miss a beat.
Glancing at the clock, I still have a few hours before Huxley gets home from school. After paying bills this morning and doing oddball household chores, I decided to indulge in my favorite food before taking a long bubble bath . . . the one I haven’t had a chance to take since my missed opportunity three days ago.
My chest tightens at the thought.
So do my thighs.
Barrett is everything I knew he would be. Intense, mesmerizing, and at the end of the day, a bit arrogant. Who is he to think I would just roll over for him? Or under him?
I fan my face at the thought of being beneath his hard, chiseled body.
Damn it!
Even now, days later and with the knowledge that he has the same conceited vein I hated in Hayden, I can’t stop thinking about him. Arrogant or not, I’d be lying if I said he didn’t make me feel alive, that he didn’t make me feel like switches were turned on in my life.
Up until he opened his mouth right before I left, I could’ve been convinced there was a chance that he was different. But he’s not. And while I guess that kind of behavior is somewhat normal for men of his caliber—how could it not be when they always get what they want?—it’s a deal breaker for me, plain and simple.
I dig my fork into the goopy pile of cheese and try not to let my spirits sink. I’m doing things the right way, building a future for Huxley. Protecting him from men that will only do damage to our lives . . . like his pathetic excuse of a father.
My chest pangs a little as I remember the life I thought we had. The comfortable, stable life that showered him with love and confidence. But his father went up the ladder and left us ducking the consequences of his activities as he scaled higher. Now, here we are in this little house hundreds of miles away, starting over.
Starting smarter.
I want to build a future for my son. I want to fall in love. I just want to do both things in a cohesive manner . . . which means staying away from men that have the potential of landing me and Hux right back where we started.
Groaning at the sound of the doorbell ringing, I scramble to my feet and glance down at my t-shirt, hoping it’s clean.
“Who is it?” I call through the heavy wooden frame.
“A delivery for Alison Baker.”
Curious, I pull open the door to see a local courier on my stoop with an envelope in his hand. “Are you Ms. Baker?”
“I am.”
He smiles. “I have this for you. Sign here, please.”
I give him a loopy signature and take the envelope. There’s no return address, no indication who it’s from or what’s inside.
Once the door is shut tight and I’m back on the couch, I rip open the top. Pulling out a letter on Georgia Hornets, the professional baseball team in Atlanta, letterhead, I gasp.
Dear Ms. Baker,
It is with great pleasure that we inform you that we’ve set aside season tickets to all of our home games next season. Two passes will be available for you and a guest in Will Call before each and every game. If you’re unable to attend, you’re more than welcome to send someone in your place. Please give us a courtesy notice prior so we can have them appropriately saved.
We look forward to seeing you in the stands!
Go Hornets!
Peter Capinella, CEO
Oh my God!
I squeal a little, imagining Huxley’s face. He’s never been to a professional game before and—season tickets? Getting to see every home game? He’ll be over the moon. Even I’m giddy about it and I hate baseball. We’ve been to a handful of minor league games, but never a professional one. I can’t wait to see his face when he finds out.
And then reality hits and I have no idea why we now have season tickets to the Hornets’ games. I dig through the envelope for another letter, an indication of what we won or how this happened, but it’s empty.
Before I can think it through, the doorbell chimes again. Jumping up, I speed to the front door and pull it open. A bouquet of roses and a smiling delivery girl are waiting for me.
“Ms. Baker?” she chirps, thrusting the elaborate design at me.
“Yes.”
“These are for you. Have a super day!”
I take the flowers with a shaky hand and go back inside. My head is swimming, my heart clattering in my chest, as I sit on the sofa and place the vase next to my food.
Spotting a card buried in the foliage, I pull it out and open it.
Alison,
Camilla said I shouldn’t send flowers as a form of apology, so I sent you something else instead. I hope it’s something you can do with Huxley. I know he’s a big baseball fan and I still have hope that you can find your love of the game.
I would appreciate the opportunity to apologize for my behavior. I’ll leave my number at the bottom if you’re willing to hear me grovel. Trust me, not many people have heard me do that before. And it would mean a lot to me to be able to do it for you.
It was very nice seeing you the other day.
Barrett
Sure enough, his number is printed very carefully at the bottom of the card.
I look from the glass popping with oranges and pinks to the envelope from the Hornets. My jaw hangs open at the over-the-top gift. I can’t fathom how much season tickets to the games would cost, let alone the fact that he remembered I have a son that likes baseball and I’m not a fan.
I laugh out loud. I can’t help it. The entire thing is ridiculous in the most spectacular way. I find myself wondering if this is real or a well-practiced charm.
But if it is charm, if you’re him, why bother if you don’t mean it?
My phone mocks me from beside the flowers, my fingers itching to dial the digits.
I need to be reasonable.
He went out of his way to send these things, and I’m seriously touched that he remembered Huxley. That deserves a phone call.
Calling him doesn’t mean anything specifically, just having the manners to say thank you and giving him the opportunity to apologize for being an asshole.
I can do that. Besides, hearing him humble himself will be fun.
Dialing his number, a grin slips across my lips. The line rings twice before he answers.
“Landry,” he says, his voice as smooth and delicious as I remember.
“Hi, Barrett. It’s Alison.”
I can feel him smile through the line. “What a nice surprise.”
“Is it really?” I laugh. “I’m pretty sure you expected this call.”
“There’s nothing I expect of you. Believe that,” he mumbles.
A pause extends between us and I can imagine him cringing, knowing what has to happen, trying to think of a way around it.
Not happening.
“So . . .” I say, giving him an opening.
“So . . .”
I blow out a breath in exasperation even though I’m smiling. “You know, I expected more groveling.”
“Yeah, about that.” He chuckles under his breath. “Alison, I would like to apologize for acting out of line the other day. I . . . I was wrong.”
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I know he’s wincing as he says this and it makes me smile wider. “How’d it taste to say those words?”
“Like vinegar.”
Laughing, I settle back on the sofa with the letter from the Hornets in my lap. “Well, thank you for saying it.”
“Thank you for calling me and allowing me to say it.”
“Did I have a choice? You softened me with beautiful flowers and Major League baseball, both of which were unnecessary, for the record. I had to call and thank you.”
He takes a deep breath. I close my eyes and imagine his face, the way the lines crinkle around his eyes before he speaks.
“You are very welcome,” he says softly. “I know ‘sorry’ is an overused term, but I am. I just . . . I suppose I normally don’t have to jump through a lot of hoops to get a woman to agree to spend time with me. And I just figured . . .”
“You figured I would cave to your charm and be an easy lay?”
“No,” he rushes, but stops in his tracks. “Well, maybe. Obviously I was wrong.”
“Obviously.”
I hear papers shuffling in the background and the sound of an incoming email dinging. Wondering where he is and what he’s doing, I catch myself.
I’m calling to thank him. That’s it.
“Alison,” he begins, his voice a little shaky, “can we start over? Well, not start over, exactly. I think I did pretty well at the event. I’d just appreciate having another opportunity to . . .”
“Not be an ass?” I suggest.
“To win back your vote,” he volleys back cheekily. “I’ve regretted letting you leave the Farm without apologizing to you a million times these last few days. For not remembering who I was dealing with and treating you accordingly. Like a respectable woman that is honoring me by giving me her attention.”
I smile. I swoon. But I don’t lose my head. “You know what that sounds like?”
“A good idea?”
“A perfectly executed line.”
He sighs into the phone, the sound of his breath rapping against the speaker making me shiver.
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