He gave Sukharam a moment to think about this. The sounds of the waves breaking on the rocks to the east was the only sound.
“We go, Sukharam, the three of us-you, me, and Rabiah-to find the pieces of the Atalayina and to make it whole.”
“Can it be made whole? The Al-Aqim must have tried.”
“They did not. They felt as though the fates were punishing them. They felt as though a riddle had been posed with the three pieces of this stone as the clues. They felt that they had to find a way, through searching themselves, through meditation, to close the rift with the broken pieces of the Atalayina the fates had seen fit to grant them.”
Sukharam thought on this for a moment, but then he turned to Nasim. He seemed severe under the pale light of the moon. “How can you know these things?”
“Because I remember them. I was Khamal, and he granted me memories of his life. He, like the others, was trapped, and he came to believe that the only way to truly be free, to escape the shackles that had been placed on them and to try again, was to leave. To retain what he had learned in his next life- my life-and return to Ghayavand.”
“He killed himself?”
“He was killed, by the others.”
“But why? If he wanted to return, if he had planned to do so, would he not simply kill himself?”
It was a taboo thing they spoke of. The Aramahn did not take lives, others or their own, and it was a credit to Sukharam that he could speak of it at all. Sadly, though, it was probably a result of the distance he’d had from his own culture since finding himself at the orphanage.
“Do you remember things from your past lives?” Nasim asked him.
“I… Of course not. Not directly. That isn’t-”
“But it might be, mightn’t it? Do we not one day hope to remember more and more, so that we can reach vashaqiram?”
“Of course, but-”
“Khamal did so. He found a way, and his fate was so entwined with the others that he needed them to send him off. He could not do it on his own.”
“So the others agreed to it?”
“They did not.”
A rustle in the grass drew Sukharam’s attention-a vole, perhaps. “I don’t understand.”
“Neither do I,” Nasim replied. “I remember some, but much is still closed to me. The ritual Khamal had hoped to complete did not go as he planned. Muqallad and Sariya, at the end, tried to stop him, and to a degree they succeeded. I was reborn halfway between Erahm and Adhiya. I could… I could see both worlds…”
Nasim stopped. Even years after the ritual on Oshtoyets, even years after Fahroz had helped him to regain himself, images of that time returned to him. The lights of Adhiya, the sounds of Erahm, the touch of a human hand and the caress of a hezhan.
“Are you well, kuadim?”
Nasim focused on that which lay around him, the wind and the high clouds, barely visible against the star-filled sky. These things grounded him, but the title Sukharam had granted him helped as well. Kuadim, Sukharam had said-teacher, mentor, father, and many more things wrapped up into one.
“I am well.” Nasim breathed deeply of the chill night air. “There are times still when I become lost. But I have long since returned to myself, and the memories of Khamal come to me, more and more.”
“What of the others, Muqallad and Sariya? Will they not be lying in wait?”
“They woke when I was brought to Ghayavand five years ago, but it is my hope that they fell back under Khamal’s spell, and that we will be able to do what we need before they awaken fully.”
“But you know not?”
“ Neh, I do not,” Nasim replied.
Sukharam was silent for a time, perhaps considering the weight of Nasim’s request. “What did you do to me, in the orphanage?” He said the words quickly, as if he were afraid to speak them, but once he had, he pulled himself taller. He was scared. Nasim could see it in the stiff way he stood, in the way the whites of his eyes reflected the light of the moon.
“As I said before, I was lost, but there was one who saved me. His name is Nikandr Iaroslov Khalakovo, a prince of the Grand Duchy. Five years ago he healed me on Khalakovo, but it was not complete.” Nasim reached up and placed his palm over his heart. “I can feel him still. I owe him much, but it was the way in which I was saved that keeps me grounded to this world. In fact, it grounds me so fully I cannot touch Adhiya on my own. I can see it, I can feel it, but I can’t touch it, not without the help of another qiram.”
“You cannot commune with hezhan on your own?”
“I cannot.”
“Then we are lost before we’ve begun.”
“ Neh,” Nasim said. “With the Atalayina, I will find a way. Of this I am sure.”
“Perhaps we can wait, find a way to heal you before we leave.”
“I would wait, Sukharam, but the rifts have grown worse. The islands have felt it the worst, but surely you have felt it even here, and soon it will encompass the world. And so we must go. We must go to the island of Ghayavand to heal the rift that was forged on her shores. Too long has it infected Erahm, and it is time it was closed.”
Sukharam was silent and pensive for a time. “Will we return?”
Nasim shook his head sadly. “We will not. When you make your decision to come, it will be knowing that you give your life to our cause.”
“There were others, weren’t there?” Sukharam asked. “There must have been if you’ve been looking for years.”
“There have been others. I found three besides Rabiah that I thought worthy to the task.”
“And they all declined.”
“One declined,” Nasim said. “The others agreed for the wrong reasons, so I sent them away.”
This was the moment they’d been working toward. Sukharam had enough to make his decision, and there was nothing left but for Sukharam to weigh his choices. Nasim would not press. He would not manipulate. Those who would follow him would come willingly or he would have no one at all.
The wind rustled the thin bushes along the sides of the hill. Sukharam pulled his arms around his waist. He looked small and lost, and Nasim began to doubt whether Sukharam were made of stern enough stuff to come.
“Take your time, Sukharam, son of Hadir and Dahanan. Make your decision before the sun rises. Return to us if you will. If not, fare you well.”
Nasim stepped down the hill, wending his way along the path, his feet crunching against the flaked stone, but before he had gone ten paces, Sukharam called out to him. “I would come, Nasim. I would join you.”
“Even knowing what you know?”
“Especially knowing what I know.”
“Tell me why.”
“My parents were taken from me when I was young. My mother died from the wasting. My father was hung by the courts of Aleke s ir for refusing a summons. I was taken and sold to the orphanage two days later. I do not remember my father well, my mother even less, but I remember this. We are ephemeral, here in Erahm and in Adhiya, both. There is so little time for us to do something great. Sometimes there is no time at all.” Sukharam paused. “If there is something I can do to help us-to help all of us-then I would do it, or die in the trying. This is what my parents left me-the notion that in giving, we receive-and I cherish it.”
Nasim smiled, for his words rang true. “Then come.”
They left before dawn the next morning.
CHAPTER THREE
The sun hung low over the western end of Ivosladna in the Duchy of Mirkotsk. Long shadows stretched over the capital square that sprawled near the old stone wall of the posadnik’s mansion. The weather had already turned cold in the northern islands, but the last few days had brought with it a small reprieve from the bitter winds and early snows.
Still, Nikandr Iaroslov Khalakovo pulled the collar of his cherkesska up. Two young streltsi wearing the gold-and-red tassels of Mirkotsk walked along the stone cobbles of the square, the echoes of their boot heels clicking among the monstrous buildings surround
ing it. They glanced at Nikandr, but he stumbled and caught himself, as a man too deep into his cups might do, and they laughed and kept on moving.
He waited as a pair of ponies clopped past the street in front of him and then ducked into a narrow lane that led down a steep slope toward the river. When he came to the first intersection, he waited, but not for long. To his right, from a doorway not far down the alleyway, a bearded man with a wine-colored kaftan waved to him. It was Anatoliy, the nephew of Duke Yevgeny Mirkotsk.
Nikandr made his way into his home. Only after the door was closed did Nikandr step in to hug him. They kissed cheeks and held one another by the shoulders, slapping each other several times.
“You look well, Nischka.” Anatoliy’s long black beard waggled as he spoke. He was thin-practically emaciated-and despite his warm greeting, his eyes were sunken and dark and filled with worry.
“And you look miserable, Toliy.”
Anatoliy smiled, ignoring the gibe. “I’m grateful you could come.” He motioned to the next room, and the two of them stepped into his sitting room, where a small fire lay dying in the fireplace. Nikandr unwrapped his scarf and took off his coat. After setting it onto the back of one of the two chairs, he sat while Anatoliy poured two healthy servings of vodka into wide pewter mazers. He handed one to Nikandr before lowering himself carefully into the other chair, as if his body had only enough energy left to perform this one final act.
“Where is Kseniya?” Nikandr asked carefully.
“She could not bear to be here.”
Nikandr thought that statement through. “Does she not approve?”
Before Nikandr had finished speaking, Anatoliy was already shaking his head. “She stands with me in this, but she cannot be here when you… When you try.”
“And Mirketta? How is she?”
Anatoliy glanced up toward the second floor, where his daughter would be resting. “Not well.”
“You gave her the elixir?”
“ Da.”
“When?”
“An hour ago, as you instructed.”
Nikandr looked through the wavy glass of the nearby window. He could see little more than the building across the street, lit by the pale light of the dying sun. “We’ll give her some time yet.”
Anatoliy released a deep breath, and with it some of the tension he was clearly harboring was released. “Thank you for coming. I wouldn’t blame you if you’d decided not to.”
“I wouldn’t think of it,” Nikandr said. “But what of Yevgeny?”
Anatoliy’s smile in the darkness of the room was grim. “My uncle, the duke, would not wish to hear of your presence in this house, but he will not ask me of it, nor protest if he learns of Ketta’s sudden return to health.”
Nikandr shook his head. “I fear the same cannot be said of Borund. He will protest when he hears of it. And loudly.”
“Borund can go fuck a goat.”
Nikandr laughed, raising his glass and taking a healthy swallow of vodka. “ Da. He can do that, and sooner rather than later.”
Anatoliy laughed ruefully, sitting deeper in his chair. He looked defeated as he stared into the fire. “It is unfortunate what has become of us,” he said, though he seemed to be saying it more to the darkness of the room than he was to Nikandr. “But what are we to do? The empire looms to the west, and here we are five years after the conflict, weaker than we were before.”
The conflict was how most referred to the Battle of Uyadensk and the blockade that preceded it. Most had never heard of Nasim or what he’d done, or if they had they didn’t believe that he’d saved Khalakovo from ruin. All they knew was that they were worse off. Hungrier. Less safe.
Nikandr swirled his vodka and clacked the mazer down on the arm of his chair. “It would not be so if Zhabyn did not tax our coffers bare and demand every stone we mined.”
“You sit in a different seat than I” — Anatoliy bowed his head respectfully- “of this there can be no doubt, but from what My Lord Duke tells me, there is little choice in the matter. The tributes have become more dear.”
“The Kamarisi has become greedy.”
“Perhaps, but Yevgeny tells me they are in little position to make unreasonable demands. It is their war with the Haelish, not greed, that forces their hand. The war is twenty years old if it is a day, and now news has come that late this summer much of the bountiful land to the west was raided or burned. They are not desperate, but they must be careful, now more than ever, with the food they grant. So if the Grand Duchy comes to them yet again, our hands folded, asking to be fed, it will cost us, and dearly.”
“I suppose I should not be surprised, but you would think the Kamarisi would have long ago settled a dispute that is nearly as old as he is.”
“It is not a simple matter of pride. If they lose the land to the Haelish, the Wredes will become emboldened.”
“If they would merely ask for our help…”
Anatoliy’s smile was suddenly fierce. “Such a thing the Kamarisi will never do. Within a fortnight he would find a knife in his back and a cousin upon his throne.”
Nikandr raised his mazer in salute. “We learned much from them, did we not?”
“Traditions handed down are difficult to set aside.”
Nikandr finished his vodka and stood. “Come. The elixir will have done its work by now.”
Anatoliy, for the first time since Nikandr had entered his home, showed vigor as he stood and lit a small lamp. He led Nikandr up the creaking stairs to a small bedroom with a single bed. Lying there was a girl of fourteen, bedcovers kicked away, her blonde hair and shift damp with sweat. She was calm, however-the primary effect of the elixir he’d had delivered to Anatoliy earlier in the day.
“I’ve said it in letters, Anatoliy, but I say it again. This may kill her.”
Anatoliy’s eyes searched about the room, looking for courage, or insight. Like so many others Nikandr had seen, he was making a decision for his daughter knowing it was risky, but knowing as well that doing nothing was just as dangerous. Those taken by the wasting did not heal of themselves. At least, not often. Nikandr could see in him the same sense of desperation that Nikandr himself had felt years ago, first when he’d been searching for a cure for Victania, and then again as he’d searched for himself. It was strange to Nikandr, the feeling that he himself had now become a potential cure, another of the long list of things that Anatoliy had no doubt tried. It was a measure of Anatoliy’s desperation-in some ways no different than the grub Nikandr had eaten, and in other ways much worse-that he had contacted Nikandr in the first place.
“She will die if I do nothing, Nischka.” He motioned to Mirketta, a simple but tender gesture. “Do what you can for her.”
“I will,” he said, gripping Anatoliy’s shoulder. “Now, please, leave us. I must have peace and quiet.”
“I would stay, Nischka.”
“ Nyet,” Nikandr said. “If I do this, I do it alone.”
Anatoliy seemed unsure of himself, but when Nikandr did not waver, he nodded and set the lamp on the chest near the bed and closed the door behind him.
As his creaking steps made their way down the stairs, Nikandr turned to Mirketta. He brushed her hair away from her face, feeling the burn of her skin.
And then he pulled his soulstone from inside his shirt. He stared at the unmarred surface of the milky chalcedony. In the dimness of the room it glowed ever so softly.
The stone was young, only five years old. He’d taken another after giving his first-the one he’d had since the day he’d been born-to Nasim. He didn’t regret what he’d done-far from it-but this stone was a constant reminder of what he’d given up. He would now leave only half his legacy to the crypts of Khalakovo when he died. But in a way it was fitting. The time of his youth felt distant to him-like a different life, so changed had the world become. And, he told himself while shifting to kneel over Mirketta, there was still much he could do. There was still much he could leave behind for the sons and dau
ghters of Khalakovo.
Not the least of which was this.
He pulled the necklace over his head. After a brief word of prayer to the ancients, he lifted her shift and placed the stone against her bare chest, over her heart. Mirketta’s face had been still if not calm, but it grew worried as the stone rested there. This was not something he would have considered years ago-royalty did not give up their stones, to anyone-but he had found that it helped, and if he inherited some small amount of pain or discomfort from those he tried to heal, he would gladly accept that burden.
After placing his other hand over the stone so that he could feel both it and her heartbeat, he closed his eyes and opened himself to the spirit that had been with him since it had been summoned by the Maharraht on the cliffs below Radiskoye.
He had spoken not only to Jahalan about this, but many havaqiram. None of them had a clear explanation, some even doubted his claims, but the spirit was always there, waiting. He treated the hezhan with respect, as it seemed he should, for he considered this both gift and fortune, some small compensation from the ancients for what the Maharraht had done.
He felt his breath release as he reached across the aether’s veil and touched the world beyond. His awareness expanded. He felt the draft in the room coming from the small window to his left, felt the wind as it ran across the rooftops and the streets of Ivosladna. He felt the clouds over the city and the larger currents of air as they drifted beyond the city and out to sea. It was at these times, when he had a foot placed firmly in both worlds, that he could touch those stricken by the wasting.
He stared down at Mirketta, her face flush, her breathing shallow. Her eyes were sunken, and the rank smell of her breath told him that she had little time remaining-a few weeks, a month at the most.
He could also feel something else near her-a spirit, in this case a vanahezhan. It drew upon her, slowly but surely, weighing her down and sapping her strength. He waited until he understood her well enough to approach, and then he drew upon her soul as his havahezhan led the other spirit away. Together, they began to separate the two. It was not easy, but neither was it dangerous for him. He’d done it dozens of times already, though he knew it was easier because most of the rifts had closed and those few that remained were narrow gaps-barely rifts at all.
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