by KB Winters
I stepped inside and began to close the door behind me and found that Jameson was standing there, his foot stopping me from shutting it. In a moment of panic, I started yelling for him to leave me alone.
“Isabelle, stop, please. Jerry’ll be calling the cops.”
“Yeah, well that’s what I want him to do. Get out of here.”
He pushed hard against the door and before I knew it he was inside standing in front of me, shushing me like crazy trying to shut me up. I reacted the only way I knew how—I kicked him out. Literally. But my open-toed shoes didn’t give my foot much protection when it connected with his shins and both of us yelped in pain.
Jameson grabbed me by the arms looking all kinds of irritated.
“Isabelle, calm down, I'm not going to hurt you!” he said through gritted teeth.
“You said you'd leave me alone,” I cried out, trying to force him out the door. “So leave me alone. Go away!”
Jameson backed into the door and leaned against it until it closed. He held up his hands to prove he wasn’t going to beat me up. “Look, I'm worried about you,” he said. “I can't help it. I wish I wasn't. I really wish I could just walk away and not think about the scared woman with the black eye I found on the side of the road. Believe me, I wish I could. You've been nothing but a pain in my ass since I found you. But I can't. I'm not that type of man—nor would I want to be honestly.”
“You don't need to worry about me,” I lied. “I'm fine.”
He was annoyed, I could tell by the look on his face. I wasn’t sure why he was bothering with me. Truthfully, I wished he'd just stop. I wanted to be left alone. I didn't want to have to explain myself or have any man mess with me at that moment. I'd had more than my fill of men screwing with me, hurting me, and I just wanted to be left the hell alone. Was that too much to ask?
“You don't have a phone, a car, no way to reach your family—don't you have anyone you'd like to reach out to? Somebody who can help you? Aside from me, since you obviously don't want my help.”
His question burned my insides, and my blood boiled. I wasn't going to spill my life story to him. He didn't need to know my background. He didn't have a right to know my story.
“No, I don't,” I said. “There's no one I want to talk to right now.”
“Don't you have parents? People who care about you? Who might want to know you're in trouble?”
I squeezed my eyes shut, forcing back tears I didn’t want to shed in front of him. I was not going to let him see me cry. I'd kill myself first. As much as he didn't deserve to hear my story, he didn't deserve to see my tears.
“That's none of your business.”
“Okay then, a best friend?” he pressed. “Somebody you can turn to?”
“No. I told you that. I wish you'd understand.” How could I even explain how humiliating it was to run away from one horrible guy only to get stuck in a miserable motel room with another?
There was a moment of silence as he looked at me with wide, sad eyes full of pity. Pity for me. The poor little rich girl in the middle of nowhere with no family or friends to turn to. God, I was seriously pathetic.
“Isabelle, you don't have to be alone,” he said. “I'm alone, too, just let me in. I can help you.”
“No one can help me,” I said quietly. “No one.”
His shoulders slumped and for a moment he looked as sad as I felt. “Believe it or not, Isabelle, I'm actually the kind of guy who can help you. If you want me to, that is. I'm not as bad as you seem to think I am.”
I looked at him for a long time. He made no move; he was waiting for me to make a decision.
I don’t know what he saw as he looked into my eyes, if he could see the fight I was waging with my fears. He was right. I had no one. I wasn't in a position to turn down help, no matter where it came from. But the very idea of letting a man like Jameson into my world scared me—especially after everything I'd been through. He looked like a bad guy, the kind of guy people like me feared. With his rough clothes, his tats and unkempt hair, his careless swagger, he looked like the kind of guy who hurt people. And that was the last thing I needed in that moment.
Hell, Scott didn't even look like he was a bad guy, and he'd turned out to be one of the worst guys I'd ever met. He’d had everyone fooled—my parents included. They loved him, thought the world of him. Thought he walked on water and never imagined he could hurt me. What would they think of Jameson? They’d take one look at him, his motorcycle, and come up with one word: lowlife.
And if Scott could turn out to be a monster, why couldn't Jameson? He certainly looked like he fit the part—right out of central casting. A gangbanger. Yet, standing there, waiting for me to respond to him, he let down his guard. Maybe for just a minute. I saw through the tough guy exterior. All of a sudden, he wasn’t sending up red flags anymore—even though my mind argued that he should.
Maybe I was naive. Maybe the ordeal with Scott had worn me down.
Then he surprised me. He opened the door. “I’m going to be outside. For as long as you need me.”
What girl could resist an offer like that?
Chapter Ten
Jameson
I’d been sitting on a planter outside the motel for about an hour, smoking a cigarette and keeping an eye on things, when a bike rumbled into the parking lot and pulled to a stop beside me. I recognized the bike—and its rider—instantly.
“Hey, man,” the guy said once he took off his helmet. “Been lookin' for ya, man. Haven't heard from you in a few days.”
I shrugged. “Yeah, I've been dealing with some shit, Ace. What's up?”
Ace couldn't have been looking for me all that hard. The town wasn't too large—you could practically spit from one side of the town limits and have it land on the other. It wasn’t hard to find the person you were looking for. Unless, of course, they were trying to hide from you. Then they’d leave town—if they were smart, that is.
“We found the guy,” Ace said, scratching his beard. “Stupid fucker came back to town. Can you believe it? Dude must have a death wish or something.”
I threw my smoke down on the ground and crushed it out with my boot, shooting a look to Isabelle's motel room door before putting on my helmet. I tiptoed to Isabelle’s door and knocked softly. No answer. I whispered so Ace wouldn’t hear, “Some serious business just drove up. I’ll be back later.”
Then I mounted my bike and said, “Lead the way, Ace.”
“That's the spirit, man.”
The two of us peeled out of the parking lot, and I followed him as he led me to our clubhouse—a ratty old joint on the outskirts of town. We weren't big like the Hells Angels or the Mongols, but our members had a place to hang out. We didn't run drugs or guns—hell, we worked hard to keep that shit out of Milling. It was our mission.
When we pulled up, the clubhouse parking lot was full of bikes—all of them familiar. I'd lied when I told Isabelle I was alone. I wasn't alone. Not really. I had my brothers. My family. But these guys weren't the type of men I could open my heart up to. We weren't exactly the touchy-feely type. I could however, count on them to help me when I found myself in a bind. Which was exactly what they were doing now. I knew my brothers—without question—always had my back.
“Where is he?” I asked Ace. “Is he here?”
“Yeah, the dumbass is here,” Ace said. “We scooped him up when we found out the dumb shit was back in town. Follow me.”
Ace led me to the garage out behind the clubhouse where we usually worked on our bikes and took care of some club business. Business like the stupid looking motherfucker tied to a chair. His face had already been bloodied for me, since my guys had given him a little bit of a tune up before they found me.
“Joaquin, Joaquin, Joaquin,” I repeated, pacing in front of him. Didn’t I tell you to get the fuck out of town?”
He looked at me through a pair of puffy, dark eyes that reminded me of Isabelle. He sneered and spit blood on the concrete ground.
“I asked you a question.”
He looked around, seemingly pretending to have not heard me. I grabbed him by the chin and forced him to look me in my eyes and then spit squarely in his face. I saw a look of revulsion flash through his eyes, but he still remained silent. I smacked him across the face. His head rocked to the side and he groaned, but that was about the only reaction I got from him. He was a fucking moron, but he knew how to take a beating. I had to give him that.
“Might as well tell me what you’re doing here. Save yourself some hurt.”
“You know what I do,” he said, his voice raspy. “Besides, what's it matter? I'm a dead man either way.” He hocked back and spat, a large glob of blood and snot landing on the ground by my boot. I reared back and punched him in the gut. As best as he could while tied up, he doubled over in his chair and wheezed. Ace handed over a driver's license with his name printed on it, clear as day. And lest there be any doubt, the card had his picture, too. He'd been worked over pretty good, and I was having trouble seeing the resemblance between the man in the picture and the bloody lump of meat sitting in front of me.
I held his license up in my hand and then pointedly looked at him. “You know,” I started, “you have a really stupid-looking face.”
He snorted but said nothing more. I threw the driver's license in a nearby trash can.
“You won't be needing that anymore, Joaquin De le Rosa,” I said, kneeling in front of him and cracking my knuckles. “No, you won't be needing that at all. Not when we're done with you. In fact, there's going to be a lot of shit you're not going to need anymore.”
He met my gaze and smiled a bloody smile, his front teeth missing—likely because of my boys. But even through the blood and gunk, I could see that the rest of his teeth had rotted out of his fucking ugly head.
“Ahh, I guess there's my answer,” I said, nodding my head.
“Answer to what?” he slurred.
“I was just going to ask if you're the one supplying the meth in Milling,” I replied. “But I didn't because I figured you were going to lie to me anyway. But there's always one dead giveaway for you stupid, fucking tweakers.”
“Yeah? What's that?”
“Your nasty ass, rotted out teeth,” I replied. “They told me all I needed to know.”
“He's the one,” one of the other guys who was standing behind him said, his own knuckles covered in blood. “Caught him selling down by the school.”
“By the motherfucking school? Are you even fucking kidding me right now?” I seethed. I got down at eye level with him and stared him in the eye. “Starting them early, shithead?”
My rage—a deep, dark, abiding rage—boiled inside of me. As I stared into his face, I felt like I might burst a vein in my head. I wanted to bash his goddamn face in—more so than my guys already had.
“I guess I shouldn't be surprised,” I hissed. “You piece of shit have no motherfucking morals. You're lower than dog shit.”
I stood up and clenched my fists as I paced around this chair. I watched his body tense up and knew he could feel the hammer starting to come down. He was nervous despite putting on the tough guy act. There was a tremor in his shoulders, and a closer look at his hands showed me that they were shaking. Yeah, ol' Joaquin knew something bad was about to happen, and he was scared shitless.
“Know a woman named Jen?” I asked. “Bleached blonde hair, blue eyes, about five feet tall or so. Pretty smile—or at least, she used to have one. Great ass and hot tits—used to dance at the club outside of town? Sound familiar?”
He still didn't answer me, but I saw the recognition flash across his bloodied, beaten face. He knew exactly who I was talking about. And the realization of why he was strapped to that chair finally dawned on him.
“Look, man—” he started.
“Oh look,” I said, cutting him off. “The shithead actually speaks. The cat doesn't actually have this scumbag's tongue like I'd thought.”
The guys all laughed, which only made Joaquin look more nervous than he already was—something I didn't think was humanly possible.
“Of course, you know who she is,” I continued. “You know her because you were Jen's dealer.”
“She had money, man,” he said, his voice thick. “What am I supposed to do, turn her away? I didn't know her from anythin', dude. Seriously. She came to me, man. She's an adult, she ain't no schoolkid, so what the fuck, bro? Why you and your boys got me tied to this chair, whoopin' my ass like this for?”
“One, because my boys and I here work hard to keep Milling a nice place to live. A place you can raise a family in peace,” I said. “We don't tolerate lowlifes and degenerates. Especially when those lowlifes and degenerates are pumping poison into our streets.”
He shook his head. “I'm just supplyin' a service, bro,” he said. “There's a demand—”
“I don't give a shit,” I said. “Like I said, my brothers and I work hard to keep the streets of Milling clean and safe. It's our job to take out the trash here—trash like you, asshole.”
“C'mon man,” he whined. “Gimmie a break here. I promise to leave Milling. Never come back. I swear on my mama's grave.”
Ace laughed and shook his head. “Yeah, you swore on your poor, dead mama's grave last time, too,” he said. “We see how that worked out, huh?”
“Did you know that Jen was cleaning herself up?” I asked, staring him in the eye. “Did you know that she was getting clean and was starting to put her life back together?”
“C'mon, bro,” he said. “You know hardcore junkies like her ain't ever gonna get clean. Not for long, anyway.”
“Not as long as there are pieces of shit like you running around, preying on people,” I said. “Even after she tried to stop, you wouldn't let her go, would you? She was already into you for a lot of money, wasn't she? And if she got clean, you might never see that cash, huh? So after she went to that fancy rehab and was getting straight, you had to run right over and make sure she didn't actually get off the stuff, didn't you? You had to make sure she was still hooked to your shit, didn't you, dickhead?”
“Man, that's not even how it went down,” Joaquin said. “I'm bein' one hundred percent here, bro. I didn't look for her to get back on the shit. She came to me.”
I laughed bitterly. “Yeah, and you knew she'd been in rehab,” I said. “You knew she was fighting to keep her sobriety and you went and fucked it all up for her. Because you're greedy. You're selfish. You're a worthless piece of shit.”
“You're a shit stain on the ass of Milling, Joaquin,” Ace said.
“That's not how it went, bro—”
“Stand him up,” I said. “I'm tired of listening to his mouth.”
A couple of the guys cut the duct tape off his hands and ankles. He flexed his hands to work through some of cramping. They hauled him to his feet, and he looked petrified.
“You scared, Joaquin?” I asked.
He looked around one more time, and his nearly swollen shut eyes looked like something straight out of the comic books.
“You're fuckin A- right he's scared,” I said. “As he should be.”
“Look, bro—”
I never let Joaquin finish his sentence. Instead, I drove my fist into his midsection and was rewarded with a satisfying grunt of pain. He doubled over, nearly falling to his knees. Two of my guys grabbed him and picked him up, forcing him to stay up on his feet.
“We don't tolerate your kind of trash around here,” I said. “That kind of shit might fly in whatever ghetto you come from, but it don't fly here—bro.”
“Dude,” he gasped. “I swear you're never gonna see me again. Just let me go. Please. I'm beggin' ya.”
“Yeah, you're right,” I said. “We're never gonna see you again, that's for sure.”
“Please, bro,” he started to cry. “Please, don't do this. I swear—”
“Yeah, your word means exactly shit,” Ace growled. “You're a proven liar, for one thing—”
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�And you poison fucking children,” I finished. “Not to mention the fact that you prey on people trying to get their lives together.”
“The weak and the kids,” Ace said. “That makes you a two-time loser.”
I stepped forward again and drove my fist into his stomach once more. The men continued to hold him up, laughing as Joaquin continued to cry and beg for his life. I reached back and drove my fist into his face, feeling his nose crumple beneath my knuckles.
“Oh Jesus Christ,” Ace said. “The little bitch pissed himself.”
I looked up and saw that the front of Joaquin's jeans were soaked through with piss. The guys holding him grumbled in disgust and let him fall to the ground—and into his puddle of piss—where he curled into a ball and wept loudly.
I rolled my eyes. “Have some fuckin' dignity, man.”
I delivered a vicious kick to Joaquin's kidneys. He squealed in pain as my steel-toed boot connected with his flesh, and his sobs only grew louder. I reached back and delivered kick after kick after kick, to any body part that made itself available to me. He wheezed and cried the whole time.
After a while, I grew tired of it. Tired of hearing him crying. And especially tired of smelling piss in the air.
“Time to say goodnight, Joaquin.”
I picked my foot up and brought it down, heel first onto his head. He grunted and groaned—and then wailed like a child.
“Okay, guys,” I said. “Civic duty time. We're taking out the trash and keeping the streets of our fair city free from pricks like this. Everybody step on up and give it a whack.”
There was some applause and excited chatter among the boys. Taking out the trash was something we all enjoyed. Yeah, we should have felt bad because technically, they were still human beings. But the fact that they were scumbags like Joaquin took a lot of the guilt away.
One by one, the brothers stepped up and drove the heel of their boots down onto the head of this piece of shit, just like I had. With each successive man, the cracking sound in Joaquin's head grew louder. Eventually, there was a loud snap and a pop—and then he stopped moving altogether.
