“That was incredible.” I say breathlessly. I glance down at my body, wow he got me off and we’re both still fully dressed. Matt is a medical marvel – no – he’s a sex God.
He lowers his head and kisses the tip of my nose. “Baby, that was nothing. We’re just getting started. We have a lot of orgasms to make up for.”
Holy fucking shit! Just his words have my body aching again.
All of these years this is what I’ve been missing. Now I’m a little depressed.
CHAPTER 34
MATT
God damn, the way Taylor looked when she come, I almost lost it, right then and there. She is the most beautiful person I’ve ever laid my eyes on. Knowing that me, and only me, has ever made her feel like that, is a powerful aphrodisiac.
If I thought that I was falling for her before, it’s nothing compared to how I feel right now, in this moment. Taylor fucking owns me, body, mind, and soul. I’ve never felt anything like this before, not even with Crystal.
I honestly don’t think Crystal and I were ever truly in love. We were both so young when we got together. We were each other’s first, and I’m beginning to realize, that our relationship was more of a convenience, than anything else.
Ever since I opened up to Taylor about my parents, I realize that Dad fucked me up more than I realized, by abandoning me. I think I stayed with Crystal as long as I did, because I didn’t think that I deserved any better. Crystal wasn’t a very good person. Some of the things she did really got on my nerves, but I overlooked them. It’s ironic, that her fucking around on me, turned out to be the best thing that ever happened to me.
If it wasn’t for her cheating, I never would have kicked Cooper out, and I would have never met Taylor.
I glance down at Taylor, and she’s still breathing heavily, as she looks up at me. Her big brown eyes are practically begging me to take her, right now. But, as turned on as I am, this isn’t about me. Right now, this is about her. I want to give her so much pleasure, that she has a hard time walking tomorrow.
I reach down and caress her cheek with my palm. “Are you ready for round two?”
Her eyes widen and her lips part. “Round two?” Her voice has a slight tremble to it.
“Yeah, I love the face that I’m the only person to ever make you come. I want to make you come over and over, again. Is that okay with you?”
She bops her head up and down. “Yeah, okay.”
I smile and begin unbuttoning her jeans. This is going to be fun. I’ve wanted a taste of her for weeks. I slowly slide her jeans down her legs, never taking my eyes off of her. Her eyes are wide as she watches me intently.
I crawl up her legs and press my face against her silk panties, inhaling her deeply.
She presses her legs together. “What are you doing?” Her voice is high and wobbly.
I look up at her in confusion. “Hasn’t anyone ever gone down on you, before?”
She shakes her head back and forth. “No.”
Wow, unbelievable. I push her knees apart. “Well I’m going to. I want to taste you.” I slip my hand into her underwear, and slip my finger inside of her, before she can object.
Damn, she’s tight. My dick begins swelling. I really hope I can hold out. I want to give her all of the pleasure that she’s never had in the past eighteen years. I sound like a stingy motherfucker, but I want all of her orgasms.
“God, Taylor, you’re so wet.” I growl, as I slip another finger inside of her. She arches her hips off of the bed, grinding herself against my hand, as I rub her with my thumb.
“Matt,” she moans, bucking off of the bed. I can feel her orgasm, clenching around my fingers. Fuck yeah! I have never got so much out of getting someone off, before. This is new for me, too. I quickly slide her panties down her legs, unable to wait any longer. I have to taste her – now!
I suck her clit into my mouth. She lifts up onto her elbows, and begins watching me. I twirl my tongue around her, and slip my finger back inside of her. “Mmm, Taylor, you taste so fucking good.” I moan against her.
“Oh Matt, that feels so good. Don’t stop.” She throws her head back, as her body begins quivering beneath my touch.
“That’s right, baby. Let it go. Come for me.” I pull my fingers out and slide my tongue inside of her. She tastes so good – sweet and salty – all at the same time.
I hear her suck in a deep breath, as her entire body bucks up off of the bed, with her most powerful orgasm, so far. That’s what I’m talking about. I want to give her so much pleasure that she never wants to be with any other man. She is mine.
She collapses back onto the bed. “Matt, that was…you are…” Her words trail off and she closes her eyes.
I crawl up and lie down beside of her. “How are you feeling?” I reach out and tuck a strand of her hair behind her ear.
She rolls onto her hip and looks at me. “I feel like I’ve died and gone to Heaven.” She gives me a shy smile, and rakes the back of her hand down my jaw. “You are the most incredible guy, I’ve ever met. I can’t believe that that’s what I’ve been missing out on, all of these years. Thank you.”
“Anytime.” I lean forward and press my lips against hers. It was meant to be just a sweet kiss, but she fists her hand in my hair and deepens the kiss. She slips her tongue into my mouth, and begins teasing me.
“I think it’s time for you to get off.” She says, against my mouth. I hadn’t planned on taking it any further tonight, even though my dick is throbbing painfully. But when she slips her hand into my jeans and begins stroking me, I lose it.
I roll her over so that I’m hovering above her. “Are you sure this is what you want?” I ask, pressing myself against her hand. I tried so hard for weeks to keep her at a safe distance, but now, all I want to do is bury myself deep inside of her, and make her want to be with me forever. I have never felt like this before, with anyone. Taylor is just as beautiful on the inside as she is on the outside. I love that about her. Son of a bitch! Love?
She nods her head and sucks my tongue into her mouth.
“I want to feel you inside of me, please.”
Fuck that’s hot having her beg me.
CHAPTER 35
TAYLOR
I feel like Christmas came early, as I watch Matt rolling a condom on. Wow, this guy is the sexiest thing I’ve ever seen. The way he’s made me feel, these past few hours, is mind blowing. Holy shit! I glance over at the clock. We’ve really been at it for over two hours. Matt is incredible. He’s a real man. He takes his time and puts me first. He makes me feel like I’m the only girl on the planet.
He leans over me, supporting his weight on his elbows. He kisses me passionately, as he slowly slips inside of me. I tip my head back, relishing in the filling sensation.
This guy has no idea what he’s doing to me. I have so many feelings and emotions coursing through me, as I stare up into his beautiful caramel eyes.
He told me earlier that if we had sex, that he’d get emotionally involved. I hope he was being honest with me, because I’m definitely falling for him – hard.
My heart feels like it’s going to beat right out of my chest. I don’t have a clue what’s going through Matt’s mind, as he slides in and out of me, at a Heavenly pace. But, for me, this is so much more than just sex. I feel connected to him. I want him to be mine. The thought of him doing these things to anyone else, makes me see red. He is mine. I just hope that he feels the same way. Because, after tonight, I’ll never be able to be with another guy. Crystal must have been out of her freaking mine.
Matt groans as he begins picking up his pace. I feel that familiar pull in the pit of my stomach, as my body clenches around him. My breathing gets shallow, as my body begins to orgasm.
“That’s right, baby. Give it to me.” My body explodes into an intense orgasm at his words. Wow, just the things he says has my body humming. He buries himself deep inside of me as he finds his own release.
I wrap my arms around his back, clinging on
to him, as we fall back down from our bliss.
Matt, rolls onto his side and discards the condom. I’m scared that he’s going to walk out and leave me alone, but he rolls back over, so that he’s facing me.
“How are you feeling?” He asks me, as he pulls the covers around us.
“Tired,” I say in all honesty. I’m completely exhausted.
“Come here.” He stretches his arm out and I snuggle up against his chest. “Let’s go to sleep.”
I pull back slightly so that I can get a good look at him. “You don’t mind me spending the night in your bed?” I’m so used to guys abandoning me when they get what they want. Ryan never stayed long enough for the bed to get cold.
His brows crease. “No, I don’t mind. I want you to sleep with me.”
Wow, I’m actually going to spend the night in Matt’s bed, and in his arms. I could get used to this.
I really wish I could tell him how intense my feelings are for him, but I’m too scared. The last thing I want to do is to freak him out. I tip my head slightly and plant a kiss on the side of his neck.
“Matt…”
“Huh,” he mumbles, pulling me closer to his chest.
“I think I’m going to tell Dean about me and Ryan tomorrow. Will you come with me?” For some strange reason, being in Matt’s arms is making me brave. I’ve lied to Dean for far too long. I want to come clean, so that I can truly move on.
He leans over and presses his lips against my forehead. “Of course I’ll go with you. I’ll do whatever you want me to.”
I smile and bury my face in his neck. “Thank you. Good night.”
“Good night, Taylor.”
CHAPTER 36
MATT
I can’t hide the huge grin stretching across my face, as I look down at Taylor, sleeping peacefully in my bed. She is everything I never thought I could have.
She arches her back and stretches her arm above her head. Her eyes slowly open and she gives me a big smile. “Good morning.”
Watching her body extend like that, has me wanting to climb back in the bed with her, but I can’t. She told me last night that she wanted me to go with her today, to talk to Dean.
“Good morning.” I tell her, bending over and planting a sweet kiss on her cheek. “I’m going to go take a shower. Would you like to join me?”
She bites down on the corner of her mouth and swallows hard. “I don’t think so. I’m not feeling so well, right now.”
I really hope she isn’t regretting last night, because it was literally the best night of my entire life.
“It has nothing to do with last night.” She says quickly, making me breathe a sigh of relief.
“Well, what’s wrong?” I sit down on the edge of the bed and take her hand into mine. I want to make her feel better.
She pushes up and leans back against the wall. “I’m just nervous about telling Dean. I really hope he doesn’t hate me.”
“He won’t hate you. He’ll be pissed and hurt, but eventually he’ll get over it. You can’t back out. He deserves the truth.”
“I know. I’m just nervous.”
I give her hand a squeeze. “I’ll be there for you. We’ll get through this together.”
This seems to relax her a little. She lets out a breath and throws her arms around my neck. “Thank you.” I absolutely love the way her body feels pressed up against me.
“No problem.” I tell her, pulling back before I take her again.
I grab some clean clothes and head to the bathroom.
I’ve just stepped into the shower when I hear a light tapping on the door. I pull the curtain back as Taylor pokes her head inside of the door. “Did you change your mind?” I ask her, enjoying the way she blushes.
She steps inside of the room and begins fidgeting with my towel. “Um…no. It’s just…that you have company.”
Son of a bitch! That man cannot take a fucking hint. I’ve been sending all of his calls to my voicemail. I’m pretty sure he’s made it his life’s mission to make my life a living hell. He hasn’t left a single message, so I guess he’s stepping up his game.
“What in the fuck does he want?” I mutter beneath my breath, as I reach for my towel.
“He?” Taylor says, her brows creasing in confusion.
“Yeah, it is my Dad, right?”
She shakes her head and stares down at her feet. “No.” Her voice is hesitant and unsure.
“Well, then who is it?” I wrap the towel around my waist, stepping around her.
“You may want to get dressed before you go out there.” Taylor tells me, sounding all nervous.
I turn to face her. “Why? Who’s out there?”
She looks up at me with an unreadable expression. “Crystal.”
Mother fucker! Why won’t these people leave me the fuck alone?
Taylor drops her chin. She looks so scared and insecure, right now. I hate seeing her look like this. She doesn’t have anything to worry about. She fucking owns me.
“Hey,” I reach out and take her chin, tipping her head up, so that she’s looking at me. I don’t want her to have any doubts about my feelings towards her. “I didn’t invite her here. I’m done with her. You’re the one that I want. The only one.” I assure her.
“Just give me a couple of minutes. I’ll get rid of her, and then we’ll go and see Dean. After that, I’m going to bring you home, pack you into the bedroom, and make you scream my name over and over again. Okay?”
She relaxes her shoulders slightly and bops her head up and down. “Okay.” She still doesn’t look convinced.
After I get dressed I head out into the living room. Crystal is sitting on the couch, her legs are crossed, and her arms are folded over her chest. I stare at her for several seconds, wondering what it was that I ever seen in her. She has on a ton of make-up, her clothes are so tight, I honestly don’t know how she moves in them, and she looks like a frigid bitch.
“What do you want?” I ask, as I step around in front of her.
She looks up at me and narrows her eyes. “Who is that girl?” She asks snidely.
Girl? Taylor is more of a woman than she’ll ever be. “None of your fucking business.” I practically growl. Who in the hell does she think she is? She has no say over my life anymore. She’s the one who cheated on me. I’ve done nothing wrong.
“What do you want, Crystal?” I ask again, barely maintaining my temper.
“Are you sleeping with her?” There’s a slight tremble in her tone, and her eyes are beginning to fill with tears. But, unfortunately for her, I don’t give a damn about her anymore. She has some fucking nerve coming to my apartment after everything she’s done. She knows good and well that I’m not taking her back. I think I’ve made that pretty clear.
“Tell me what you want or get the hell out.” I don’t have time for any of her shit. Taylor is waiting on me.
“Matt,” she stands up and steps up in front of me. “I’m so sorry for what I did.” She reaches out for me, but I hold up my hands, stopping her. “Please don’t throw away what we had. I miss you so much.” The tears are flowing freely now.
“What did we have, Crystal?” I ask her. Surely she’s figured out that we were just young and stupid. “We never loved each other, not really. You must have figured that out before I did. That’s why you were having second thoughts in the first place. You don’t fuck around on someone, if you love them.”
She chokes on a sob and lunges forward, wrapping her arms around my neck. “That’s not true. You were the absolute best thing that ever happened to me. I just made a stupid mistake. I want to marry you, I really do. Please say it isn’t too late.”
I reach up and remove her arms from around my neck. I hate that she’s upset, but I don’t love her. “I’m sorry, Crystal. I really am, but I don’t love you. I’m not trying to hurt you, I’m really not, but I don’t think that I ever truly loved you.”
She drops her head and sniffles. “Is it because of that girl? Is tha
t why you won’t give me a second chance?”
“No. This has absolutely nothing to do with her. This is about me. I know what I want and what I don’t want. I don’t want you. You need to tell your Dad that we’re no longer together. And you need to move on. This…” - I point back and forth between us - “is never going to happen.”
“Fine,” she spins on her heels and grabs her purse off of the sofa. She walks over and opens the front door, then stops and turns back to face me. “I truly am sorry. And for the record, I do love you. I always will.” She turns and walks out of the door. Finally!
CHAPTER 37
TAYLOR
I feel a little guilty for ease dropping on Matt and Crystal’s conversation, but the thought of him taking her back, has me sick to my stomach. I have to know what she’s doing here.
I sigh and lean back against the wall when I hear her leave. “You can come out now.” Matt says, from the other side of the door.
I ease it open and step out. He gives me a big grin. “Did you get all of that?”
I drop my head as my face heats. “Yeah, sorry, I couldn’t help myself.”
“That’s okay. I don’t blame you.” He pulls me into his arms and kisses the top of my head. “If the situation were reversed, I sure as hell would have been listening.” He says with a chuckle. He glances down at me. “Are you ready to go?”
I nod my head. “Yeah, I just want to get this over with.”
My heart feels like it’s in my throat, as we pull up in front of Dean’s fraternity house. Matt reaches out and takes my hand, stroking his thumb back and forth across my knuckles. It’s such a small thing, but somehow it helps me to breathe a little easier. He brings it up to his lips and kisses my knuckles. “Are you okay?”
I look up at him and force a smile. “I will be.”
He opens his door and helps me across the seat, so that I climb out on his side. He wraps his arm around my waist as we walk up to the front door.
I feel like I’m going to vomit as the door swings open. I sigh with relief when I look up and see Cal standing in front of us. I was scared it was going to be Dean.
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