Cassandra Carter
16 Isn't Always Sweet
CONTENTS
ACKNOWLEDGMENT
CHAPTER 1
CHAPTER 2
CHAPTER 3
CHAPTER 4
CHAPTER 5
CHAPTER 6
CHAPTER 7
CHAPTER 8
CHAPTER 9
CHAPTER 10
CHAPTER 11
CHAPTER 12
CHAPTER 13
CHAPTER 14
CHAPTER 15
CHAPTER 16
CHAPTER 17
CHAPTER 18
CHAPTER 19
Acknowledgment
To He who deserves the most praise. God, thank you for blessing me with this talent and enabling me to learn from my mistakes and go on to accomplish so much. Just as I’ve been writing since I was a little girl, I pray I can continue to share my vision with the world forever with your guidance.
To all of my fans who have come with me this far, and everybody who has shown me love! To all who have sent their best wishes for my success or put in hard work to help make it so. It means more than I can say. Thank you!
CHAPTER 1
“HappyBirthday!”
The smoke from all sixteen candles tickled Jordan’s nose as she came up from her beautifully decorated birthday cake and into the applause that filled the community center. She couldn’t hold back her smile as she took in the cheerful faces around her, and well wishes that swirled around in her head. She was sixteen years old today, and she had been waiting for this moment for as long as she could remember. She was eager to free herself from her parents’ rules and take control of her life. This day brought her one step closer to the freedom she craved.
As Jordan’s mother took charge and began slicing the cake, hungry guests flocked around the table, giving Jordan a chance to sneak off to the bathroom. As the door creaked shut behind her, Jordan nearly jumped at the sight of her own reflection. Though her transformation had taken place gradually over the past two weeks, she barely recognized herself. Her gray eyes were no longer shielded by thick lenses. Her metal braces had been removed, and her long black hair had been cut to her shoulders.
Jordan checked herself out in the mirror as she twirled around in the denim Baby Phat dress her parents had finally agreed to buy for her. She had done far too much pleading over the eighty-two-dollar price tag, in her opinion. After all, it was her birthday, and this year she wasn’t celebrating just any birthday—this was her sweet sixteen. She had just hit a milestone on the journey to womanhood, and everything had to be absolutely perfect. Or at least as close as she could get it.
She frowned as she looked at her petite figure in the mirror. As badly as she wanted to be a woman, she still felt she lacked certain feminine qualities. She glanced at her breasts as if she could somehow will them to grow. She was already well into her junior year of high school, yet she still hadn’t graduated from an A-cup.
Jordan pretended to busy herself with the cat logo pendant hanging from her neck where her cleavage should have been, when a harsh cough interrupted her thoughts. She hadn’t even noticed the closed stall upon entry.
The occupant of the stall flung the door open, neglecting to flush the toilet. Jordan turned the water on, letting it flow over her freshly manicured hands.
“What are you doing in here? You scared me! I thought I was in here alone,” she remarked as she turned off the faucet and shook her hands dry.
Her best friend, Adrienne, didn’t bother to respond as she nudged Jordan away from the sink with her elbow. She let the cold water run for a few moments. Her eyes were shut, and it was clear to see she was exhausted by the way her head hung low. Loose strands from Adrienne’s updo tickled her cheeks but stuck to her skin only when she splashed a handful of water on her face.
“I should be asking you the same question. This is your birthday party. Shouldn’t you be out there with everybody else?” she asked, holding her hand over her stomach.
“No kidding. I just came in here to catch my breath for a minute, you know? But you can’t expect me to go back out there without you. How long have you been in here?”
“I don’t know…I’m sorry.”
“Don’t be. You just overdid it last night.” Jordan was understanding of her friend’s hungover condition. She always forgot that her birthday was only one day into the New Year—she anticipated her day more than the holiday.
“What did I miss?”
“Jordan?” Jordan’s mother, Olivia, called from the doorway. “Hey, I’ve been looking all over for you. You don’t want any of your cake? I saved you the first piece.”
“No, I’m fine.”
“Is everything okay in here?” her mother asked, obviously concerned. “Adrienne, are you all right?”
“She’s fine. We’ll be out in a minute,” Jordan was quick to reply, and flashed a phony smile.
“Well, you two better hurry. We’re opening presents next!”
Jordan nervously watched as the door shut and her mother disappeared. A sigh escaped her and she turned to assess her friend. “So, how do you feel now? Better?”
“Yeah, I think I’m good.” Adrienne tucked a few wild strands into the mass of hair on her head and took a deep breath. She gave herself a quick once-over in the mirror before turning her attention back to Jordan. “So, what’d you wish for, birthday girl?”
“I’m not tellin’ or else it won’t come true! Now come on. But whatever you do, don’t you dare throw up on my dress or these shoes,” she joked, pointing at her Baby Phat wedge sandals. She’d had to beg her aunt Lisa for them, and Lisa had put up a tougher fight about the money than her own parents had.
Adrienne rolled her eyes back as she pretended to throw up, causing Jordan to giggle. “That’s why your breath stank.”
“That’s why I hope nobody got you a thing!” Adrienne said as she resumed primping in the mirror.
“You ain’t cute. Let’s go.”
The girls’ laughter continued as they rejoined the party. Jordan was glowing as she shuffled through the dancing crowd to where her family was waiting. Her younger brother, Tariq, was only in the first grade, and all they ever did was argue. Now, however, a hug from him upon her arrival lifted her spirits.
Jordan could see the pride in her parents’ eyes as they watched her tear at the rainbow of wrapping paper covering presents stacked at least a foot high. Jordan made confetti of the gift wrap as she hummed the song the DJ was spinning in the background.
Half an hour later, she had received several gift cards, two Southpole outfits, body sprays with matching lotions and body washes from Bath & Body Works, and more than a dozen CDs. Now all that was left in her hands was one sizable box. Jordan was beaming. She couldn’t wait to see what was in store for her.
CHAPTER 2
Strawberry and banana flavors exploded in Jordan’s mouth as she and Adrienne leisurely walked the mall with smoothies in hand. It was Friday, and after an especially boring day of school, she was enjoying her free time. All the gift cards she’d gotten for her birthday were already maxed out, and the small amount of money she had with her was burning a hole in her pocket. Her hands were overloaded with bags, yet her eyes continued to scope the mall for spending potential in every store window she passed.
“Hey, guess what?” Adrienne seemed to suddenly perk up. A cherry Jolly Rancher from a twenty-five-cent candy dispenser had kept her quiet until this point.
“What?”
“Warren talked to me today.” By now, her dimples were unmistakable and her red-stained mouth seemed to sing every word. Any contact with her ex still excited her.
“Adrienne, give it up,” Jordan said coldly as she tossed her
now-empty plastic cup into a nearby trash can.
“Aw! What kind of friend are you?” Adrienne’s jaw dropped in mock surprise.
“I’m just saying you guys have been over now for how many years? Don’t you think it’s time to move on?”
“Um, that’s months, bitch. It’s been exactly four months and nine days.”
“Nice to see you’re not counting.”
“I can’t help it! He’s just so…sexy.” Adrienne seemed to lose herself with thoughts of Warren, and her voice trailed off.
“Please. Do stop there.” She’s probably envisioning him naked, Jordan thought.
“Jordan! I really think I love him!”
“Adrienne, you went out with the boy for what? A week?”
“Yeah, but we had been talking, you know. We were kickin’ it way before then, so do not try and play me. And at least I pull somebody. Damn, what about you?”
The pair slowed as they neared a public sitting area. Jordan was preparing to address her inexperience with boys when someone else suddenly approached.
“Um…excuse me?”
“Can’t you see we’re talking?” Adrienne snapped at the man who’d interrupted their conversation. He was no more than an inch taller than her, and his deep voice was the only thing that belied his baby face and convinced Jordan he wasn’t a teenager.
“Never mind her.” Jordan hid her annoyance as she greeted the stranger.
“How are you ladies doing today?”
“All right.” Only Jordan answered. Adrienne simply looked at him in disgust as she rotated her candy between her pouty lips.
“That’s good to hear. My name is Frankie, and I’m out here reppin’ for Dirty Mouf Records.” With his introduction, he extended a flyer to Jordan while Adrienne impatiently shifted her weight. She looked ready to gag at his faded T-shirt and jeans resting on his hips. The brown leather belt holding them in place was plain, Jordan noticed, and he wore no jewelry of any kind. His shoes were worn and dirty. The only thing pleasing about him was the occasional whiff of cologne she caught when he moved.
“Shoot. We ain’t got all day. What do you want, Frankie?” Adrienne rudely interjected. He was a small-timer in Adrienne’s eyes and didn’t deserve the time he was wasting. Not to mention, he was probably just some pervert. A woman had to keep her guard up these days.
“Adrienne!” Jordan scolded her friend as she scanned the flimsy piece of paper. The pitch of her voice had risen considerably after reading and rereading the flyer. She glanced up to see a small cluster of girls nearby and picked up on the commotion surrounding two men.
“What? I’m trying to get in and out of Macy’s before they close.”
Jordan smacked her lips at the comment. It was only six-thirty.
“Well, if it’s of any interest to either of you…Jadian Brown is featured on our artist Yung Fatal’s debut single, ‘Fast Life,’ and production is still looking for a few women to serve as models in the video—”
“I’m there.” Frankie didn’t even have a chance to finish his sentence before Adrienne answered. Her mood did a complete turnaround at the mere mention of the multiplatinum star.
Jordan would’ve answered but found herself unable to do so. Her vocal cords were in a knot as she reminded herself to breathe. She vaguely recognized the name of the local label and the advertised musician, but her eyes were glued to a very special eleven letters.
Jadian Brown was all over her walls, from the ceiling to the floor. She was a borderline fanatic. Her family teased her about being obsessed with the rapper, but that didn’t bother her. All of her notebooks were covered with her and Jadian’s names encirled by scribbled hearts. She had every album he’d ever released. She even knew every last one of his songs by heart.
Only a week after turning sixteen, and she literally had the chance of a lifetime in her hands—to come face-to-face with the man of her dreams.
She felt dizzy picturing her favorite poster, the one taped right above her bed. She’d fantasized for years about his shirtless portrait and had counted all of his tattoos. She almost fainted at the idea of just shaking his hand, let alone looking him in the eye and talking to him.
“Look, the casting call is open, but they’re gonna cut off auditions at a certain point. Call the number on the back if you have any questions.”
“Thank you.” Jordan couldn’t muster more than a whisper. He had no idea how much this meant to her.
The girls were barely able to contain their excitement as they watched Frankie disappear around a corner. They held each other’s hands as they jumped for joy and screeched with delight.
“I can’t believe this!”
“We’re going to meet Jadian Brown! Ahhh!” Jordan screamed. She could feel her hands trembling and her eyes welled with tears of happiness.
“Race you to Macy’s!”
The girls took off through the mall, unconcerned with the crowd of customers milling about and nearly tripping over their own feet. Their number-one priority was to find something to wear for the music video tryout, and no one and nothing would stand in their way.
As they held up designer clothes to their frames, all kinds of scenarios and possibilities raced through their minds. Adrienne toyed with the idea of her rising celebrity status at school, while Jordan dreamed of being whisked away by her lyrical prince and living happily ever after.
Jordan was bursting with energy as she took her seat at the dinner table. “You guys will never guess what happened to me today!” she announced to her family, and waited for someone to take the bait. She could feel disappointment creeping up on her as she watched them clear their plates of steak, mashed potatoes and her least favorite vegetable in the world, peas.
“What is it, sweetie?” Her mother’s gentle tone finally broke the silence reviving Jordan’s glee.
“Jadian Brown is shooting a new video, and I have a chance to be in it!” She sugar-coated the details of the situation in an attempt to ease their skepticism. She wasn’t positive it was legit but anything involving Jadian Brown was worth at least checking out.
“Who?” Her father only lifted his head at the mention of the name. He was a burly man. He worked years as an auto mechanic and did a stint in prison decades ago. Jordan was his only daughter and he was ready to take out any boys who even looked at her.
“That rapper she likes, honey. The one all over her room.” Her mother reassured him with a gentle pat on his hand.
“Oh, him,” he grumbled, and then sipped his bottle of beer. He still wore his grease-stained uniform after a long day of work at the auto shop, and his gruff face was smeared with dirt.
“Daddy…” Jordan purred, warming up her daddy’s-girl charm to try to get her way.
“No.”
“But—”
“Jordan, I’ve seen the girls in those videos. You’re not about to be walking around half-naked and shaking your goods in front of a camera for the world to see. Not now, not ever. I’m not about to sit up here and watch my daughter become some video hoochie. Jordan is too smart for that.”
“But, Daddy, I’ve seen some where the girls were decently dressed,” Jordan objected. “What if I—”
“No.” Her father was blatantly uncaring and spoke with his mouth full.
“So, when are they going to start filming?” her mother asked. Jordan’s smile was now a pitiful sulk. “I don’t know. Casting is tomorrow at noon.”
“Tomorrow? Oh, sweetie, your little brother has a basketball game tomorrow,” her mother said. “See that, you couldn’t have gone anyway.” Her mother hustled to the kitchen to retrieve the homemade apple pie she’d baked for dessert.
Jordan sighed and propped her head on her hands, her elbows resting on the oak table.
“Get your elbows off the table.”
Jordan pouted after being scolded by her father but didn’t utter a word. She looked to her left to see Tariq snickering and narrowed her eyes. He obviously found her misfortune entertainin
g.
She watched her father for a moment to make sure he hadn’t seen the disappointment in her eyes, and began to focus on the staircase beyond. She pictured the sexy outfit she’d purchased earlier and suddenly raised a single eyebrow. Jordan had a plan.
“Hi, Ms. Hayes. Is Adrienne home?” Jordan asked politely as she paced the length of her room.
“Hello? Mom, I got it!” Jordan could hear a few scuffling noises, until a click secured their privacy. “Who’s this?”
“Girl, it’s me.”
“Oh, hey! You’ll never guess what I’m doing.” As Adrienne spoke, the low beat of “Promise” by Ciara had Jordan hooked.
“What?”
“Practicing my dance moves. I’m about to blow all those byatches out the water tomorrow! Watch! I’m telling you!” she heaved.
“Yeah, um…about that,” Jordan said hesitantly.
“That don’t sound good. Out with it.”
“My parents said I can’t go.”
“What!”
“I said I can’t go.”
“No, I heard you loud and clear, but why’d you even ask? What happened?” Adrienne demanded.
“I couldn’t help it! They want me to go watch my bratty-ass brother miss every basket he shoots.”
“Damn. And I thought I was mean.” Adrienne chuckled.
“Well, how would you feel? First, my dad starts trippin’ about me being a ‘video hoochie,’ as he called it, and then my mom just happens to throw in that Riq has a game tomorrow. And you know us. We’re just one big happy family.” Jordan snorted. “Every Saturday we go cheer Tariq on at whatever sport he’s participating in that season. And while my dad is dying to make him this big-time athlete, I’m missing out on sleeping in on one of the few days of the week I can.” She fell back onto her bed and began watching the TV upside down.
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