by Jean Haus
Rock My Heart
Kindle Edition
Copyright © 2015 by Jean Haus
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Cover Photo by by Robert Bejil Photography
Cover by S. Warren
Other Luminescent Juliet Series Titles
(Each are a standalone)
In the Band
Ink My Heart
With the Band
Chapter 1
~April~
Once upon a time, I used to be a music fanatic—breathed, lived, and luuuved it. Now music is background noise, a popular radio station to fill in the silence while studying or cleaning my apartment or driving in the car. I don’t have playlists, songs to pump me up or remind me of a past affection, at least not since high school. Back then, music was my life and connected to every emotion. These days I try to stay emotionless. Yet here I am again in a dingy bar to see a local band.
This bar might be the dingiest.
Even in the dim light, the tiles overhead are a dark, stained yellow. The walls brown, battered paneling. The stage is tiny, and the ‘dance’ floor in front of the stage much smaller. As I walk across the room, my shoes stick to the dirty carpet. There are five tables occupied on this Thursday night. Not exactly hopping. I spot Romeo sitting in the back.
Fine, six tables.
Yet a band is currently setting up on the small stage, speaking in hushed tones as they arrange the drum kit, speakers, and microphone stands.
At his table, I tug out a chair and Romeo says with a warm smile, “Hey, April. I already got you a drink. Thought you could nurse at least one.” He nods to the tall glass on the table.
“Hey, thanks.” I sit and lift the pinkish orange mixture waiting for me. “What is it exactly?”
“Um a…some concoction with fruit juice, the bartender says it doesn’t taste much like alcohol,” he says with a slight grin. His dark hair is messy and he’s wearing his usual black shirt and jeans.
I return the grin. Romeo knows me rather well—he was the only one in my small circle of friends who didn’t insist I go out for my twenty-first birthday last winter—at least compared to most people. I’m not much of a drinker. Besides the taste, I don’t like losing control. I take a sip of the fruity smelling drink—huh, not too bad—then lean toward Romeo. “So have they finally decided on a band name?”
“Yeah.”
“Well?”
He grimaces before spitting out, “Shush.”
“Shush? Like be quiet?”
He shrugs.
“Really? Knowing Riley they have to be loud, so…”
“Riley got out voted. The singer thinks it’s ironic, since they are so loud. And you know Riley.”
“She doesn’t really care.”
He smiles. “Nope.”
We both say together, “She just wants to play,” then laugh.
As I watch them finish setting up on the little stage, I ask, “Why would Riley want to play here?”
All of a sudden serious, Romeo glances across the room at his girlfriend. “She wanted a small venue. It’s just a short practice round before the U-Palooza. The singer and guitar player have never performed in front of a crowd.”
I inspect the small half-filled bar. U-Palooza, a concert the fraternities and sororities of our university put on every autumn, is huge compared to this. “Not much of a crowd here.”
He shrugs. “Riley didn’t want a big crowd. Too much pressure for the singer.”
“Is that why it’s just you and me?” I’m guessing Riley didn’t want Romeo’s bandmates, who recently finished a national tour with two major bands less than a month ago, from Luminescent Juliet making her bandmates nervous.
Romeo gestures with an index finger toward the bar. “And Gabe. He knows the owner. Hooked Riley up.”
Gabe Reed, the drummer for Luminescent Juliet, leans on the bar, talking with the older, female bartender. Tall and lean, he looks like a mix between a biker and a surfer with his brown and sun streaked jaw length hair, five o’clock shadow, old tatty jeans, white T-shirt, and permanent scowl.
“Ah, this venue is making more sense by the minute.” I take another sip of the fruit mixture.
Romeo raises a brow.
“Seems like Gabe’s type of place.”
“He knows the bartender. His father’s girlfriend…I think. Gabe’s never very forthcoming.”
The band finishes setting up and Riley comes over to our table. Her and I look like complete opposites, me in white capris, silver flats, and an aqua polo—that my mother bought because she claimed it perfectly matches my eyes—her in tight jean shorts, combat boots, and a black tank. My light brown hair is pulled back in a low ponytail at the base of my neck. Her dark hair with its dyed blonde streaks is in a ratted out ponytail.
She gives me a quick hug. “Thanks so much for coming.”
Hugging her back, I say, “Wouldn’t miss your debut. I’m super excited to see your band play.”
She lets out a nervous laugh. “Hope we don’t suck too much.”
Romeo drags her onto his lap. “Drummer extraordinaire and suck don’t go in the same sentence.”
Gabe shows up, his presence and scowl as usual intimidating, sliding a tray of shots on the table, but then he smirks at Riley. “Liquid courage?”
“Hell yes! Thanks.” Riley grabs a shot with shaky fingers. “One won’t hurt.”
I’ve never seen her so nervous. Actually, I don’t think I’ve ever seen Riley nervous. Even her ever-present ponytail is bobbing with obvious apprehension.
Gabe pushes the tray closer for Romeo and me to grab a shot glass. I take one, trying to be polite.
Riley lifts hers and we all follow suit. “To not sucking!”
I nearly spit the stuff—tequila?—out, but somehow choke it down. Yuck. I haven’t done a shot since high school. I found the taste of pure alcohol awful then too.
Romeo takes the shot glass from Riley’s shaky fingers, gives her a quick kiss, and shoves her off his lap. “Go get em’,” he says and playfully slaps her butt. She glares at him furiously before marching toward the little stage.
Unfortunately, Gabe grabs a chair, turns it backwards, and sits at our table. Though across from me, his hard profile faces the stage and he rests his lean muscled forearms on the back of the chair.
I take a huge gulp of my fruity drink. I’ve never been popular with Romeo’s band. He and I dated a few years ago, but decided to be just friends. While we dated, the rest of the band kept their distance. Though Justin, the singer, did call me an ice princess, behind my back and to my face. When Romeo and Riley started getting together, both Sam, the bass player, and Justin resented me, thinking I was still after Romeo. Yet, they’ve slowly come to the realization that we are just good friends and have been more tolerant of me. And though I never would have let them come between our friendship, it’s nice not to get the evil eye all the time.
But Gabe is different. Although he rarely speaks to me, or is even near me, I can almost feel his irritated indifference toward me. It has nothing to do with Romeo or Riley. He simply doesn’t like me. Usually, I take dislike with an air of acceptance—few people really know me—but for whatever r
idiculous reason—and it is ridiculous—Gabe’s dislike puts me on edge, which is probably why when he handed me a shot, I didn’t decline like usual.
He leans over and murmurs something low to Romeo, who’s setting out his phone on the table to record Shush’s performance. Ignoring Gabe’s rudeness and refusing to contemplate if he is talking about me, I scoot my chair, facing it toward the stage.
I’m here to see the band.
That’s it.
Riley has settled behind the drums. The guitar and bass player are looking back at her. The singer clenches the microphone stand in a near death grip. They’re all dressed in black or dark tones. One of the girls even wears fishnet stockings. Riley nods to the guitarist, the lone male in the group, and he faces forward, eyeing his guitar stem before twanging out the first riff.
And in seconds—without any introduction—they’re banging out Zepplin’s “Communication Breakdown.” The music roars through the little bar, and I almost laugh. First, because Riley would pick this song. It’s heavy drumming would appeal to her. Second, the lyrics remain the same except for ‘girl’ changed to ‘boy’, and the song from a female perspective is a bit sexually empowering. Unsurprisingly, the few patrons, most who are older, instantly recognize and pay rapt attention. However, none of them seem to notice the changes made to the guitar solo to make it more simplistic.
Once the song and some surprised clapping is over, Gabe turns to Romeo. “They changed the guitar solo.”
Obviously, I wasn’t the only one who noticed. I’m sure Romeo being a guitar player noticed too. But Gabe plays the drums, so I’m surprised he spotted the changes.
“He’s working on it.” Romeo shrugs. “Most people can’t tell.”
Before Gabe can reply, the next song starts with the singer screaming out, “I miss the misery!” The band kicks in at the end of scream into a heavy tune I don’t recognize. Between the angry lyrics and loud music, the song is rocking, on the edge of metal, and obviously the title is, “I Miss the Misery.” The entire band head bangs for an added effect. How fun.
Out of the corner of my eye, I notice Gabe with his arms crossed over the back of the chair, tapping his thumb to the rhythm and paying close attention to the performance.
When the song is over, he turns to Romeo. “That one was better, but they’re not staying with Riley.”
I take a long sip of my drink. I’d been thinking the same thing. They’re just a touch behind her with the rhythm.
Romeo shrugs again. “Riley isn’t going for perfection, merely sounding good enough to do a few gigs here and there. They’ll get better eventually.”
The start of the next song, which is “I’m Just a Girl” by No Doubt, cuts their conversation off. I’m instantly thrown through a time loop. I used to love, love, love this song. The memories, various flashes of my past filled with music, it evokes makes it hard for me to pay attention to the performance, especially after a shot and half a drink. Imaginary notes dance across my brain and fingertips. Until the emotions become too much. I guzzle the rest of my drink, hoping to kill the overwhelming nostalgia with alcohol.
Luckily, they practically roll right into “Been Caught Stealing” by Jane’s Addiction, which is purely a feel good song to me.
Both Romeo and Gabe watch the band intently as I get my emotions in control. Once the song is over, the singer shouts out a, “Thank you!” amid a few claps—I clap wildly—then the band heads off to the side of the stage for a pow wow.
Gabe and Romeo lean toward each other discussing the performance. It’s mostly about the guitar player and how Riley is leading perfect but the band needs to keep up. Then Gabe takes off toward the bar.
“So what do you think?” Romeo asks, turning to me.
I glance at the band in discussion. “Well…I agree. They’re not keeping up with Riley and the guitar player, while proficient, needs to work on the solos. A lot. Yet the songs, I’m assuming Riley picked, work for the singer and the band as a whole. Though they’re not perfect, they have a great energy and judging them as a local band, they’d be one of the better ones.”
Romeo nods. “Finding a good guitar player has been a challenge, but the dude is willing to work at it, so Riley finally settled.” His look at me is pointed. “She’s not out to make an album or write originals, so she’s not after that type of talent.”
I nod, understanding Riley’s goals. She simply enjoys playing.
Gabe suddenly returns with a huge tray of shots, a beer for Romeo, and a drink for me.
Ugh. I’m already feeling light headed, but I’m shocked that he even thought about me. He sets the tall glass in front of me. Before I can thank him for the unwanted drink, Riley and her band are surrounding the table.
“Well?” she asks hopefully, looking between Romeo and Gabe. The other band members watch them too.
Romeo grins. “Two more songs, and I think you’re ready for the U-Palooza.”
Though that didn’t sound like approval, it was quite the compliment. While only a local venue to raise money for our university’s sororities and fraternities, Romeo takes every public performance seriously.
Riley laughs, jumping in Romeo’s lap. The rest of her band beams. Gabe hands out shots. He raises his and everyone else follows, including me.
“Congrats,” he says with a smirk. “Getting Romeo’s approval ain’t easy.” He downs his shot and we all follow suit.
Yuck. I’m not sure what the clear liquor was, but I’m getting light headed. I usually watch Luminescent Juliet perform, then take off after the show. Even when I dated Romeo, we didn’t hang out much at the after party. I take a gulp of my drink to get rid of the awful shot taste.
The band members grab chairs and a long discussion about what their other two songs should be commences. I’d choose something with the grittier vocals that the singer excels at and hardcore drums since Riley is their best musician. Maybe something like “Violet” by Hole. Yet, I don’t say anything, just listen and take small sips of my second fruity concoction. And feeling strangely mellow, I don’t bat an eyelash at the offer of a third shot.
Not really part of the conversation, I glance around the bar at the drinking patrons, people playing pool, and the empty stage. Maybe I come to these things to get a taste of what I’m missing. And perhaps the booze is allowing me to be more honest with myself. I push the last quarter of the drink away.
When the discussion ends, Riley jumps off Romeo’s lap and heads toward the stage. One by one, we all follow and begin dismantling the stage. In my foggy state, I’m not much help. I only take two microphone stands to Romeo’s van waiting out back.
Once the van is full, I realize—seeing as how everyone is leaving—that there is no way that I can drive in my current state.
“Um, Romeo?” I ask as he shuts the back doors of the van. “Could I get a ride?”
His expression is stunned. “You drank too much?”
I nod vigorously and hold up three fingers. “Three shots and almost two full drinks.”
He grins. “How you feeling?”
“A little dizzy,” I say and let out a laugh.
He laughs too. “Well, that’s a first. Of course you can ride with us. I can bring you to your car in the morning” he says, and tosses the keys over my head. “But Gabe’s driving.”
I turn to Gabe as he catches the keys. “Weren’t you drinking too?”
His expression is flat. “Just two shots.”
Romeo shakes his head. “Gabe’s like you, not much of a drinker, unless we’re on tour,” he adds under his breath, then tugs me to the side of the van and opens the door.
“April!” Riley happily yells and scoots over next to her bass player.
As we head toward the direction of Riley’s house, the conversation stays on the topic of the performance. Giddy with excitement, Riley bounces in the middle of the seat. I try to keep the interior of the van from spinning. I don’t feel sick, just very disorientated.
At her hous
e, Riley hugs me quick, then bounces out of the van. Romeo and the bass player leave too, which means, I’m alone with Gabe. Feeling lightheaded, I lay across the back seat, while Romeo explains that I live in Sam’s—their bass player—apartment complex across from the university.
The van is silent as Gabe drives across town and into the township where the local university is located.
I’m almost asleep, when Gabe asks, “What’s your number?”
I push up. My number? Is he going to call me? About what I don’t know, but whatever. “Nine eight nine four—”
“Your apartment number.” His tone is flat and dry.
“Oh, sixty two,” I say while my body over sways with the movement of the van. Whoa. Grabbing onto the back of his seat, I try to figure out where we are. I point to the right, about to tell him to turn, but he figures it out without my directions.
He pulls in front of my building and I start scooting across the seat. Before I can open the side door, he’s somehow outside, opening it for me.
“Thanks.” I step out and trip right into him.
Gabe catches me by the arms.
“Sorry,” I mumble on his chest, breathing in the clean laundry soap scent of his shirt.
Without responding, he sets me upright. The strengthening of his perpetual frown deepens the cut of his cheekbones.
I wobble into a stance. “Okay, um, thanks for the ride.” I take a step, sway, and draw in a gulp of much needed fresh air. The night is lusciously warm for September in Michigan.
He grabs me by the arm, right above my elbow. “Let me help you.”
“No, s-okay,” I say, trying to wrench my arm from his grip while swaying.
“You’re on the second floor. I’ll just walk you to your door.”
“S-okay,” I repeat and try to take another swaying step and almost fall against him again. “Ugh, I’m like on a boat!” I giggle at that, recalling the famous SNL video. I used to watch that show religiously, not only for the comedy, but also for the plethora of up and coming musicians. Sadly, I’m not into funny or music anymore.
