Simone
van der Vlugt
Translated from the Dutch by
MICHELE HUTCHISON
Published in Great Britain in 2013 by Canongate Books Ltd, 14 High
Street, Edinburgh EH1 1TE
www.canongate.tv
This digital edition first published in 2013 by Canongate Books
Copyright © Simone van der Vlugt, 2013
English translation copyright © Michele Hutchison
The moral rights of the author and translator have been asserted
Originally published in 2012 in Dutch as Blauw water by Anthos,
Amsterdam
British Library Cataloguing-in-Publication Data
A catalogue record for this book is available on
request from the British Library
ISBN 978 1 78211 073 6
ePub ISBN 978 1 78211 074 3
Mobi ISBN 978 1 78211 074 3
Typeset in Sabon by Palimpsest Book Production Ltd,
Falkirk, Stirlingshire
Contents
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Chapter 36
Chapter 37
Chapter 38
Chapter 39
Chapter 40
Chapter 41
Chapter 42
Chapter 43
1
She doesn’t see the man until right at the last moment. Lisa is in the garden, hanging the washing on the rotary washing line, when all of a sudden he appears from behind the flapping sheets. She drops the sheet in her hands on to the grass with a yelp. The man looks so terrifying that she recoils, bumping into the table behind her. The washing basket tumbles to the ground, followed by the pegs.
The man studies her with squinted eyes. He looks quite scruffy, with crew-cut black hair and at least two days’ worth of stubble. He is wearing worn-out cowboy boots, and his clothes are covered in grass stains, but it is mainly the icy look in his eyes that frightens Lisa.
A gust of wind makes the washing line spin, and the flapping laundry hides the man from view for a few seconds. Lisa seizes her chance and runs towards the kitchen door. The man steps around the washing line, beating aside the sheets that blow at him, and follows her. Just before she reaches the house, he breaks into a sprint. Lisa slams the door in his face, but before she can throw the bolt the man pushes it open and forces himself inside. His presence fills the entire kitchen.
Lisa’s eyes race over to the knives hanging on the tiled wall above the worktop, but she knows she’d never be quick enough to reach them. She inches cautiously backwards towards the open door of the sitting room. The shrill sounds of the television programme her five-year-old daughter, Anouk, is watching on the sofa emerge from inside the room.
Lisa waits, motionless. The intruder does too, and they stare at each other for a length of time. Just as long as Anouk doesn’t notice, just as long as she stays put, absorbed in her cartoon.
The man doesn’t look particularly muscular, but he is very tall and Lisa knows that he could have her on the ground, no problem. She isn’t going to fool herself into thinking that she could hold him off, though she can prevent him from catching sight of her daughter.
It occurs to her that he hasn’t yet said a single word. She can’t fathom him out – she has no idea who she’s dealing with or what he wants from her.
As the man advances towards her, she retreats and holds on to the doorpost, but he heads towards the worktop. The remains of their lunch are there: the breadboard, half a loaf of brown bread, a packet of crackers and some chocolate sprinkles. Anouk’s half-finished glass of milk is in the sink. She didn’t want more than that today, and Lisa didn’t want to force her. She probably would have spat it out again anyway.
The man grabs the glass and finishes the milk. Then he swipes the bread bag, ignores the knot Lisa has made in it and tears open the plastic. The slices come tumbling out, and the man stuffs one into his mouth without even considering the fillings on the worktop. He keeps one eye on Lisa as he eats.
She watches the scene in astonishment. The man is starving! Seeing him eat ravenously, she is in two minds. If she’d been alone, she could have run away by now. But she won’t get far with Anouk. The best she can do is to try to make it clear to him that she’s not his enemy, that she wants to help him.
She opens the fridge with trembling hands and reaches inside. As she does so, his large hand grabs her arm and his aggressive face looms very close, but when he sees that Lisa is holding a box of eggs he relaxes.
‘I . . . I thought I’d fry you some eggs,’ Lisa stammers. ‘Would you like some?’
The anxious, submissive tone she hears in her own voice doesn’t please her, but the man lets go of her arm.
Her legs feel as though they’re about to disappear from under her, but she makes it to the worktop and opens a cupboard. As calmly as she can and without any sudden movements, she gets out a frying pan and sets to work.
Too close, he’s standing too close to her. Lisa’s hands clutch at the packet of butter. She’ll have to slice off a pat, but she’d rather not draw his attention to a knife.
The butter is cold and hard, and she has to fiddle at it to remove the paper and squeeze off a chunk. She throws it into the frying pan and wipes her fingers on her jeans.
The butter hisses in the pan. Soon the eggs follow; she has broken them so clumsily she has to fish out pieces of eggshell. She is far too extravagant with the salt and pepper. It annoys her that she has lost control of her hands. At the same time she needs to keep herself busy and maintain the appearance of being calm.
She moves slowly and deliberately to the fridge, and this time he leaves her alone. Cheese and ham land haphazardly on top of the eggs, whose yolks are slowly congealing. The gas can be turned down now, and with a metal skimmer she lifts up the fried eggs from time to time. It feels good to be holding something she can use as a weapon, ill suited or not.
The man stares at the eggs. He inhales the cooking smell and then roughly pushes Lisa aside, grabbing the pan from the heat and dumping the ham and eggs on to the breadboard. He picks up the eggs and spreads them over two slices of bread, then he eats the meal standing.
Lisa watches him with her back pressed against the tiled wall. Hell, the man can eat. If he takes any bigger bites, he’ll choke.
But the man manages to swallow every mouthful. When he’s done, he lunges towards Lisa. She lets out a strangled cry, but he is only opening the fridge door to take out a carton of milk. He puts the opening to his mouth and swills down its contents, trickling milk over his unshaven chin and his clothes.
Lisa is suddenly breathless from the shock of it all. She leans back against the wall. What now? Will she be able to walk away and phone someone, or leave the house with Anouk? No, she has to avoid anything that might make him aggressive. Her house is just too far off the mai
n road to take a risk. She would have attempted it on her own, but not with a sick child.
Her only chance is to make a call. Her mobile is on the dresser. All she has to do is to dial 112 for the emergency services.
Slowly she peels her back from the wall, but the man stations himself in front of her in an instant.
‘Stay there.’
The command sounds very calm, which makes it all the more threatening. Lisa doesn’t move.
The man throws the empty milk carton on to the worktop and looks through the open door into the sitting room. Anouk looks back at him from the sofa with frightened eyes. She is not keen on strangers. She is even shy with people she knows, if she hasn’t seen them for a while. There have been times when she has stood in the hall for hours, not daring to enter the fray of a birthday party. Only when nobody is looking does Anouk creep in, and then her nervousness slowly but surely wears off.
Now she sits there in her purple Dora the Explorer pyjamas, staring at the strange man in the doorway. She gives her mother a panicky glance and her lip begins to wobble.
‘Mummy?’
Lisa swiftly pushes herself past the man and places her body as a buffer between the uninvited guest and her daughter. If he wants to do anything to Anouk, he’ll have to get past her first. It wouldn’t be that difficult for him, but every second that she can keep him in the kitchen counts.
‘Don’t worry, darling,’ she calls out reassuringly.
‘Who is that?’ the child asks fearfully.
‘This man was very hungry. I made him something to eat.’
‘But who is he?’ Anouk repeats with the stubborn determination of a five-year-old.
The answer sticks in Lisa’s throat. The man pushes her aside and lets his eyes travel around the open-plan dining-and-sitting room. It seems as though he is not sure what to do next.
Then his eyes rest on Lisa again and a look of calculation appears on his face.
‘In there,’ he says abruptly.
2
Deep in her heart she had hoped he would leave once his belly was full. Instead he is roaming around her house, picking up photos, opening drawers and looking in cupboards. She’ll leave him to it: he can take everything in it, just so long as he leaves them alone.
‘You have a lovely house.’
‘Thanks.’ It sounds stupid, as if he’s an acquaintance paying a duty call rather than an intruder, but it’s the only thing she can think of. Don’t provoke him, whatever you do, don’t provoke him. Wait calmly to see what his next move will be, and in the meantime keep standing between him and Anouk.
Thank God Anouk is sitting quietly on the sofa, her toy monkey clutched to her, as if she senses that it’s best to remain as inconspicuous as possible.
‘Nice stuff you have too.’ His hand glides over an antique sideboard; he taps his nail on the edge of a crystal wine glass. Lisa shuffles backwards towards the kitchen and gestures discreetly to Anouk, but before she can slip off the sofa the man enters the sitting-room area.
He walks around the coffee table, his eyes fixed on the large colourful painting above the sofa. It’s a piece Mark painted the year they first met, and it means more to Lisa than she can say.
‘Art,’ the man says, as though he were pointing out a flying saucer.
Should she say something or is it better to remain quiet? Not trusting her voice, she opts for the latter.
The man’s gaze drops to Anouk. Unexpectedly he bends forward and holds out his hand to her. As Lisa rushes towards him, stumbling, Anouk begins to scream and kick her feet.
A wildness appears in the man’s eyes. ‘Stop it! Be quiet! Stop!’
Anouk begins to cry instead and runs towards her mother. Lisa tries to calm her with reassuring words, but she can’t prevent her body shaking. If there’s any chance to escape, this is it.
Keeping a careful watch on the man, she frees herself as gently as possible from the clasping arms of her daughter. And then she runs.
Pulling Anouk behind her, she runs into the kitchen, then outside, into the garden. Just when she thinks they might stand a chance, she is grabbed by the hair and thrown to the ground. ‘Run, Anouk, go next door to Aunty Rose!’ she shouts.
Anouk stands a way off, hesitating. Their neighbour lives quite far away, and she is not normally allowed to go there. Her face is a giant question mark, full of confusion and unwillingness to leave her mother behind.
The man roughly drags Lisa back into the kitchen and stares at Anouk.
‘Stay there!’
‘Mummy!’ Anouk’s voice threatens tears.
‘Run away, Anouk! Run as fast as you can!’ Lisa shouts before disappearing into the kitchen.
The crunch of Anouk’s feet running along the gravel path. For a second Lisa is relieved, then she sees the fist coming towards her face. The ceiling and the kitchen floor swap places in an explosion of pain. The kitchen floor is hard, but the feeling doesn’t last for long. What follows is a soft darkness.
When Lisa comes to, she is lying on the sofa and she can hear the television news. A sobbing noise reaches her ears. ‘Mummy, Mummy, wake up. Your nose is bleeding, Mummy.’ Anouk gently wipes the blood from her mother’s face with her pyjama sleeve.
There is no part of her face that doesn’t hurt, but she is immediately alert. ‘Where is he?’ she whispers.
Anouk nods towards the kitchen. ‘He’s locked all the doors and windows,’ she says, her voice shaking. ‘And he’s got out all the knives in the kitchen.’
‘The ones from the wall?’
‘And the ones we eat with.’
Lisa closes her eyes with a quiet groan. It seems like the bastard is preparing himself for a longer stay. They have to get out of here. But how to get out of a house in which all the doors and windows are locked?
Her eyes seek out those of her daughter. ‘And upstairs? Has he been upstairs as well?’
‘Everywhere. He was running around.’
It seems that he has made the most of the time she was unconscious. That’s not a good sign. Where is the house phone? Its cradle is empty.
‘Get my mobile. It’s on the dresser,’ she says quietly.
A small headshake from Anouk.
‘He put it in his pocket. And the normal phone too.’
Defeated, Lisa sinks back down on to the sofa and racks her brains, trying to make use of the fact that he doesn’t know she has come to and is able to make a fresh attempt to escape.
The garage. If they can get into the garage, they’re safe. Her car is there, and the keys are in the ignition. The door to the garage is in the utility room, and it can’t be locked: she lost the key ages ago and never went to the trouble of having the locks replaced. If the man leaves the kitchen, they can slip into the garage.
‘Anouk,’ she whispers.
Anouk’s face immediately comes so close that their noses touch. ‘Yes?’ she whispers back.
‘I’m going to pretend to be asleep so that he’ll leave us alone. You mustn’t let on that I’m awake, all right?’
‘All right,’ Anouk whispers.
‘When he comes out of the kitchen, I want you to tell me, very quietly, OK?’
‘OK.’
Lisa closes her eyes.
‘Mummy?’
‘Shh.’
Anouk stays sitting next to her mother, as quiet as a mouse, and Lisa can hardly control her emotions. Her sweet, big, little, brave daughter. What kind of a bastard do you have to be to do this to a child? Whatever else happens, she’ll never allow him to do anything to Anouk, even if she has to scratch his eyes out.
Footsteps on the wooden floor. He’s back. For a few seconds nothing. He’s probably looking at her. She opens her eyes the tiniest of cracks but can make out only his shape. What kind of expression is he wearing? What is he going to do? Anouk’s back against her stomach is familiar and warm, but it also brings out all her maternal instincts and an enormous sense of vulnerability. Then his footsteps move off, towards th
e dining area, the hall. She feels Anouk make a quarter-turn.
‘Mummy, he’s gone.’
In the hall the toilet door opens and shortly afterwards there’s a clattering sound in the toilet bowl. Lisa sits up cautiously and puts her feet on the ground.
‘Quick,’ she says as quietly as she can.
3
There is no question of moving at speed. When Lisa tries to stand up, it is as if the walls around them are wobbling. Her hand reaches for Anouk’s shoulder, and the child gives her a worried look.
‘I’m all right again now. Come, quickly to the car.’
As quietly and as fast as they can, they tiptoe to the kitchen. The man flushes the toilet in the hall.
Lisa pulls her daughter by the hand through to the utility room and opens the door. It’s dark in the garage, but they don’t dare to switch on the light. A single gesture is enough to get Anouk into the car, and Lisa feels her way to the garage door. The heavy door begins to move with squeaks and scrapes, and after a further shove it slides open with a crash. Sunlight and fresh air stream in. Then a pair of boots appears in her field of vision, followed by a torn pair of jeans, and a hand holding a large knife.
It’s only a few steps to her car. Lisa turns and runs to it. She pulls open the door, drops into her seat and sees in a single glance that the keys are no longer in the ignition. She jumps out of the car again, swearing. It is as though the presence of the man has filled up all the space and taken all the oxygen.
‘Mummy!’
‘Get out, out!’ Lisa screams as she runs to the workbench at the back of the garage. She expects to be grabbed at any moment, but the only thing she hears is the scrape of the door as the garage is returned to the dark. In blind haste her fingers reach for the workbench. She finds a tool box and rummages around in it until she feels the heavy weight of a hammer. She spins around, looking for both the man and her daughter, but can see neither of them in the darkness.
‘Anouk!’
All of a sudden the strip lighting comes on, blinking hesitantly and then resolutely bathing the garage in its violent glare. The man is on the left of the car; Anouk is in the backseat, sliding hurriedly across to the opposite side and tugging helplessly at the child lock.
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