The blinding smile on her face told me she didn’t care.
A lump filled my throat.
I was asking a lot, and a part of me kept waiting for her to tell me that it was too much, that she couldn’t handle the move to Korea. And yet here she was. Standing in front of me, ready to give me her future, trusting me to do right by her.
I was thirty-three and I’d known plenty of women, but anything before paled to this. It wasn’t just the sex—the way her body welcomed mine, the way sliding into her tight heat felt like heaven. It was my ability to see a future with her, the knowledge that this was forever.
Who would have guessed that I’d find forever in a nightclub in Vegas?
My gaze swept over her, the initial punch staggering. I didn’t know how she did it, how she managed to stun me, and yet she did. There was just something about her. Something beyond the mouthwatering cleavage and curves I couldn’t wait to explore later; it was the spark of her, the promise in her eyes that said she’d take you on the ride of your life. The smile that told the world she’d wring every last drop out of life. It was the way she’d stood by us all when Joker died, thrown into a world she didn’t understand, a world so far out of her depth. She grabbed life by the balls and it was impossible not to be impressed by such a feat.
Impossible not to be impressed by her.
I was a guy, and more than that, I was kind of a simple guy. I didn’t have poetry for her or pretty words, and I wasn’t sure I was even all that great at romance.
But while this life might have molded me, chiseled my edges, hollowed me out of whatever frivolity I had left, it had taught me the value of a promise. Had taught me how to stick through the bad times, how to hold on to the good times with a tight grip, to live the hell out of life, and to spend my life serving something greater than me.
So maybe I couldn’t give her the window dressing of love, but I gave her my heart and soul.
It was like breathing.
Our gazes locked as she started her walk down the aisle. Tears swam and then spilled down her cheeks.
The lump grew bigger.
I felt like an electric charge vibrated through my body, like I was a powder keg waiting to go off. It was a short walk to the altar, and still, I felt some irrational desire to close the distance between us, and take her hand in mine.
And then she was there, right in front of me, looking up at me with a blinding smile on her face.
Christ.
“I love you so much.”
I groaned the words out, past the lump, through the pounding in my chest.
Another tear slipped down her cheek, and I reached out, swiping it away, the pad of my thumb lingering on her skin.
I took her hand in mine, holding on to this moment, some part of me afraid that she’d slip through my fingers, that it wasn’t possible to be this happy.
“I love you, too.”
It escaped her mouth like a vow, one I clutched tightly to me.
The officiant cleared his throat and then he began the ceremony. My voice shook as I spoke the words that bound us together, a tremor running through my fingers as she slid my wedding band over my knuckle, as I did the same to her.
We stared into each other’s eyes the entire time, an entire conversation between us.
I’ll love you forever.
I’ll follow you anywhere.
I’ll spend my life trying to make you happy.
All I need is you.
Only you.
And then it was over, and Jordan threw her arms around me, a laugh escaping her lips, her mouth on mine, kissing the hell out of me.
I was hers and she was mine.
Forever.
JORDAN
We didn’t have three hundred guests, or spend ten thousand dollars on flowers, or dance our first dance in some fancy country club. It wasn’t the wedding I’d imagined when I was a little girl playing with my dolls. It, like my relationship with Noah, was a whirlwind.
Like so many monumental days, the reality of it was like a photograph with blurred edges. It would come back to me in pieces, flashes I would remember for the rest of my life.
Our first dance in front of the Bellagio fountains. Laughter. So much laughter. Kissing Noah on the Strip until onlookers started shouting things like, Get a room. Noah stripping my wedding dress from my body when we got back to our room and bringing me to orgasm after orgasm until we collapsed in bed, exhaustion overtaking us.
It was messy, and chaotic, and unexpectedly amazing.
It was perfect.
It was us.
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INTO THE BLUE,
coming from Berkley in July 2016.
BECCA
I walked into the bar, already feeling about ten years past my prime. Columbia was a college town, especially the closer you got to the University of South Carolina campus, and while Liberty Tap Room managed to straddle the line between students and young professionals fairly well, tonight the place was packed with fans celebrating the Gamecocks’ latest football win.
I pushed through the crowds wearing garnet and black, my gaze peeled for my friend Rachel’s distinctive red hair. I neared the bar, spotting a flash of red through the crowd. Rachel and her friend Julie sat on barstools, locked in conversation with three guys.
Whoa.
Two of the guys had their backs to me, but the view was pretty spectacular. They were both tall with impressive muscles that tapered down to lean waists. The third was something out of a magazine ad—tall, blond, tan, panty-dropping blue eyes, and a shit-eating grin with a body to match. He leaned into Rachel, whispering something in her ear, bracing his muscular forearms on the back of her chair.
In all the times we’d come to Liberty, we’d met some cute guys, had our fair share of successes, but this was something else entirely. This was like an alternate reality. This was karma making up for one failed engagement that resulted in my heart as emotional road kill and the series of less-than-spectacular relationships that followed.
Rachel spotted me, her lips transforming into a wide smile that gave me a pretty good indication of how the night was going.
I lived in my hometown of Bradbury, South Carolina, population twenty-five thousand, and while I loved it there, most of my friends had married long ago and started families. At thirty-one, I was one of the few singles left, so when I needed a night out, I made the hour-long trek to Columbia and Rachel. We’d met at a law school alumni mixer a few months ago, and she and her friends had adopted me into their group.
She waved me over, the guys turned, and my ovaries exploded a bit as three sexy smiles flashed back at me. Rachel closed the distance between us, leaving the hottie behind at the bar. She wrapped her arms around me in an enthusiastic hug that suggested I had some catching up to do.
“Ohmigod, Becca. You got here just in time. We hit the jackpot,” she hissed in my ear.
I grinned. “So I noticed. Which one isn’t taken?”
“The dark-haired one in the blue sweater.”
I pulled back slightly, studying the guy who was apparently “mine” for the night. Cute, and not in the same intimidating way the blond was cute. The dark-haired guy shot me another friendly smile and my heartbeat kicked up a notch.
Rachel led me over to the group, making the introductions, her voice nearly at a shout to be heard over the conversations around us and the pop music blaring from the speakers.
The blond guy introduced himself as Easy, the other one as Merlin, and the dark-haired guy who was “mine” told me his name was Bandit between pulls of beer.
I blinked.
Boy band? Professional wrestlers? Guys reliving their high school years?
My gaze swept from Rachel to Julie and back again, wondering why I seemed to be the
only one concerned about the fact that a group of thirty-something-year-old men had just introduced themselves by such bizarre monikers. Were they part of some preppy motorcycle gang?
“Umm . . .”
“They’re fighter pilots,” Julie announced with a grin, her body angled toward the one called Merlin.
Oh, hell to the no.
Considering Shaw Air Force Base was only an hour away from Columbia and two hours from my hometown, I’d always considered it a stroke of good fortune that I’d managed to avoid meeting any of the F-16 pilots who called South Carolina their temporary home.
Apparently, my luck had changed.
I’d known one fighter pilot in my entire life, and since that experience had left me completely and utterly fucked—and not just in a screaming-orgasm sort of way—once had been enough.
“Why don’t you sit next to me?” Bandit asked, patting the seat of an empty barstool.
Rachel and Julie flashed me encouraging smiles. One of the great things about making new friends was the fact that they didn’t know your every failure or all your flaws. But that meant they also had no clue that this was basically my own personal version of hell.
One night. I’d just wanted one night to go out, have fun, meet a cute guy, and maybe get laid. Okay, so sex was definitely off the table considering lady town had gone into lockdown mode at the phrase “fighter pilot,” but that didn’t mean I still couldn’t have a good time. I mean it wasn’t like Eric was here. And how many F-16 pilots could there be in the world? Maybe they didn’t even know him.
I climbed up onto the bar stool, a lead weight settling in my stomach. I’d stay for a drink. Then all bets were off.
“Can I get you something?” Bandit asked.
“That’s okay. I’ll get it.” I turned and caught the bartender’s attention, ordering a glass of wine for myself, feeling like I’d brought the group’s mood down considerably. Everyone was in full-on flirt mode, the couples clearly paired off for the night, and I felt bad for the one they called Bandit for getting stuck with me.
I turned back to face the group while I waited for the bartender to pour my glass of wine, pasting a smile on my face.
“So how long have you guys been stationed at Shaw?”
“I’ve been there for a year.” He gestured toward Easy and Merlin. “They’re visiting from Bryer Air Force Base . . . here for a buddy’s bachelor party last night . . .”
I heard Bryer and my world came to a crashing stop.
Motherfucker.
The world really was way too small.
I wasn’t one of those girls who kept in touch with her exes—not the ex, at least—the one who took my heart and shattered it, then ran over it with his car, and for an encore set it on fire. We weren’t friends on social media, everyone who knew me from before, who’d known us, knew better than to bring him up with me. But at the same time, we were both from a small town, and even though he hadn’t come home for the better part of a decade, he was the local boy who’d hit it big, the troublemaker who’d turned it around, joined the military, and become an officer and fighter pilot. So I’d heard that Eric was living in Oklahoma. That he flew F-16s there. And despite all my best intentions not to keep tabs on him, he was frequently in the back of my mind. I’d waited for years, my heart in my throat, wondering when someone would mention in passing that he’d gotten married, mentally steeling myself for the inevitable blow that ultimately didn’t come.
Then again, he’d made his choice clear a decade ago when I’d lost out to a hunk of metal. Maybe he didn’t wear a wedding band on his finger, but he’d promised ’til death do us part all the same.
It was on the tip of my tongue to ask if they knew Eric—I figured the fighter community was pretty small, the F-16 community even smaller, and Bryer its own little world—but I wasn’t sure I wanted to know the answer. On one hand, didn’t everyone want to win the “who’s doing better” contest after a breakup? I didn’t want him to be suffering or anything, but if he was desolate in my absence, had developed a weird fetish where he’d stopped clipping his toenails, and had lived a hermit’s life for the last decade, I wouldn’t exactly shed a tear.
“We were going to Tin Roof to see if there’s any music playing. Want to come?” Bandit asked.
I considered his offer for a moment. “Yeah, maybe I’ll come for a bit.”
I could just casually mention him. No big deal, right?
“We’re just waiting on our buddy, Thor,” Bandit whispered in my ear, a flirty smile on his face. I had to give the guy some credit—I had the personality of a wet mop tonight and he was still looking to score.
“Okay.” I took a sip of my wine, making an effort to smile, feeling a little guilty for ruining this guy’s shot at getting laid. Would it be weird if I casually mentioned that nothing was going to happen? It would give him a chance to find someone else for the night, at least.
But what should I say? I’m already in a relationship was a blatant lie that Rachel and Julie could easily debunk. And I didn’t want to hurt his feelings and make him think it was something wrong with him. And, Sorry, but you have the same job as my former fiancé who I have not managed to get over in a decade, sounded really fucking sad.
“Listen—”
“There he is,” Bandit interjected.
I would later appreciate the irony as Taylor Swift filled the bar, singing about a guy being trouble, at the exact moment—
I swiveled in my chair, my world stopped, and my wineglass hit the ground.
Eric—heart-crushing, would-rather-slide-inside-a-jet-than-me, one-that-got-away Eric stood in front of me, his arm draped around the shoulders of a stunning blonde.
He was just as tall as I remembered—tall enough that it was an effort to look up at him. His reddish blond hair was the same—or was it just a touch lighter? His blue eyes seemed more intense than I’d remembered, which was just stupid because of course they hadn’t changed—maybe it was just me and my reaction to him. Or that the way he looked at me had changed. Before, his gaze had been heated and affectionate; now, it just looked . . . I didn’t even know. His shoulders were broader, his body much more impressive than I’d remembered, but I figured that came with the territory and his job.
He looked good. Really good. Better than the mental image I had kept tucked away in the recesses of my mind, which was a pretty impressive feat considering I’d had some good memories to keep me company in his absence.
His hair fell over his forehead, his gaze boring into me, and his teeth sunk into his bottom lip—a lip I’d sucked over and over again—and a little wave of light-headedness hit me. Or maybe it was the sexual drought finally hitting me full force, or the wine, or the loud music, or the fact that my heart hammered in my chest.
More likely, it was the force of Eric. Six-feet-two-inches of Eric.
Fuck me.
THOR
No fucking way.
I blinked, convinced I’d somehow hallucinated her, that Becca Madison couldn’t possibly be here, standing a few feet away from me, Bandit’s arm brushing against her side.
The sound of breaking glass shattered the haze, everyone around us scrambling to pick up her dropped wineglass. We didn’t move; it was like time stood still for the two of us while the world went on.
“Becca?”
I had to say her name, as though somehow that would confirm that this wasn’t a case of mistaken identity or a dream, that she was really here, in front of me.
She looked different and somehow the same—maybe that was the effect of ten years. Her dark hair was up, exposing the curve of her neck and highlighting the deep vee between her breasts. Glasses perched atop her nose, dark frames that somehow complemented her deep brown eyes and made her even more beautiful. She’d never been in-your-face sexy; instead, she’d cornered the market on the sexy librarian fantasy, the good gi
rl who you wanted to play with until she turned bad.
And considering how many times I’d had her naked, my body sliding into hers, drowning in her tight, wet heat, I knew just how mind-blowing the sex could be.
“Do you guys know each other?” the girl next to me—Mandy or something—asked.
“Yes.”
“We used to,” Becca answered at the same time.
I took a step away from Mandy, still feeling like I was in a dream.
“I can’t believe it’s really you.”
She didn’t answer me, her gaze unwavering, assessing. I struggled not to flinch under the weight of her stare, the measure of all that I’d lost.
“How have you been?”
Had it really been ten years? Did it feel like less because there hadn’t been a day when I didn’t think of her? When I didn’t wonder where she was or what she was doing?
And now she was here, looking up at me with those big brown eyes that I was helpless in the face of, her presence a punch in the gut and a knee to the balls as she knocked the wind out of me.
Finally she spoke, her voice making me ache.
“Good. Great, actually,” she squeaked.
“Good. Good.” I swallowed, losing a bit of myself as I stared at her. “You look great.”
A flush of color spread across her cheeks. “Thanks.”
I heard Easy calling my name, felt the blonde tugging on my arm, watched as Bandit slipped his arm around Becca as though he could somehow claim the girl I’d fallen in love with when I was seventeen fucking years old.
I wanted to reach out and hold on to her, wanted to keep her in front of me even as I felt her getting ready to pull away, wanted to fall to my knees and fix the mistake I’d made a decade ago.
I swallowed again, trying to steady my voice, wondering if I sounded as desperate as I felt.
“Do you want to get out of here—”
“I’m going to go.” Becca lurched off her chair, her gaze darting around the group, looking everywhere but at me.
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