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by Laura Van Wormer


  “Isn’t that good, dear?”

  Jason nodded, chewing, looking around.

  It took another second for it to register on Rosanne that there was someone else present. The chef at the waffle iron. “Howie,” Rosanne said, eyes wide.

  “Good morning, Mrs. DiSantos.” He bowed, fork in hand. “You better take your seat. Your waffle’s coming up next.”

  “Hello, dear,” Mrs. Goldblum called, patting Jason’s mouth with her napkin.

  Eyes on Howard, Rosanne edged over to the table, felt for the chair, and sat down.

  Amanda opened a cabinet, reached for a plate, and placed it on the counter next to Howard. She kissed him on the back of the neck and then came back to the table, Rosanne’s eyes following her. When she sat down, Rosanne leaned forward to get her attention, her head practically on Amanda’s place mat.

  “It’s not polite to stare, Rosanne,” Amanda said, smiling, reaching for the pitcher of orange juice.

  Rosanne’s head swung to Mrs. Goldblum. She was busy discussing with Jason the probability of Missy’s whereabouts at the moment. Rosanne’s head swung to Amanda, who was pouring her a glass of orange juice. Rosanne’s head swung back to Mrs. Goldblum; Jason ran off in search of the cat and Mrs. Goldblum resumed eating her breakfast. “Am I going crazy,” Rosanne finally asked, “or doesn’t anyone else notice that somebody’s livin’ in the wrong house? You know, like—what’s wrong with this picture?”

  “What, dear?” Mrs. Goldblum said, sipping her tea.

  Rosanne leaned toward Mrs. Goldblum, hands resting against the edge of the table. “Was that guy here when you got here?”

  Amanda gave a low chuckle.

  Mrs. Goldblum lofted her eyebrows. “Do you mean Howard?”

  “Howard,” Rosanne repeated, “yeah.”

  Mrs. Goldblum patted her mouth with her napkin and leaned forward slightly too. “Amanda and Howard have an arrangement,” she said confidentially.

  Rosanne fell back in her chair, looking to Amanda. “Oh, well, that explains everything.”

  “One perfect waffle, coming up!” Howard said, walking over and swooping a plate down in front of Rosanne. “Will Jason eat now, do you think?”

  “He should eat his fruit first,” Mrs. Goldblum said.

  Rosanne clapped her hands over her eyes and then peeked out between them. “I thought I recognized this scene—it’s the Waltons.”

  “Who are the Waltons?” Amanda said, rising from her chair.

  “I so enjoyed that program,” Mrs. Goldblum said.

  Howard placed a small bowl of fresh fruit on the place setting next to Rosanne. “I’m John Boy.”

  “Jason,” Amanda called at the door to the writing room, “your breakfast is ready.”

  “So what’s this arrangement?” Rosanne said. “Mrs. G? Come on, somebody...”

  “Well,” Mrs. Goldblum began, refolding her napkin, “Howard stays with us on Wednesday and Friday and Saturday nights, and when my visit is over here, Amanda will stay with Howard on Friday nights.” She lowered her voice and added, “It makes Amanda very happy, otherwise I might not approve.”

  Jason came thundering into the kitchen, Missy bundled in his arms. “Found her,” he said, jumping to a stop.

  “Put the cat down, sweetie, and eat your fruit,” Rosanne said, patting the chair beside her.

  Amanda took the cat out of his arms and Jason climbed up into the chair. Amanda kissed the top of the cat’s head and rubbed it against her cheek, looking across the room at Howard.

  “Somebody ate the canary and it wasn’t the cat,” Rosanne observed, shaking the napkin open and tucking it in under Jason’s chin.

  “Rosanne,” Howard said, bending to check the progress of his work from a side angle,” when do you want to move—Friday, Saturday or Sunday?”

  “Like this, sweetie,” Rosanne said, adjusting the spoon in Jason’s hand. “I get Jason on Sunday.”

  “I’m returning home on Saturday,” Mrs. Goldblum said.

  “Do you think you could bring Jason home on Saturday?” This was from Amanda.

  “Maybe.”

  Amanda put the cat down on the floor and returned to her seat.

  “Watch what you’re doing, Jason,” Rosanne said. “The cat will still be here after breakfast.”

  “It would be nice if you all could move in at the same time,” Amanda said.

  “That would be very nice,” Mrs. Goldblum said.

  Rosanne ate a piece of her waffle. “I’ll try for Saturday.”

  “I’ll help you pack,” Howard said. “And the Wyatts said we could borrow their station wagon to move your things.”

  “And Jason can stay here, and then we’ll meet you over at the apartment,” Amanda said.

  Rosanne frowned slightly. “Hey—Mrs. G.”

  “Yes, dear?”

  “There’s somethin’ funny going on around here. Or as Miss Spoony over here would say, ‘A plot is afoot, methinks.”

  “I don’t think so, dear,” Mrs. Goldblum said brightly. Rosanne’s eyes shifted to Amanda.

  “Not a thing,” Amanda said, sipping her juice. She put the glass down. “What time do you have to be at Cassy’s?”

  Rosanne shrugged. “Any time. I don’t think she’s back yet—why?”

  “Would you tell her something for me? If you see her?”

  “Sure. What?”

  “Tell her I took her advice.”

  Rosanne’s eyes narrowed, suspicious. “So what’s Mrs. C been givin’ you advice about?” Amanda smiled and looked across the room at Howard. “No kiddin’,” Rosanne said, falling back in her chair. “Mrs. C talked to you?”

  Amanda nodded.

  “Huh,” Rosanne said, straightening up, smoothing her napkin and picking up her fork with great ceremony, “and I wasn’t even sure if she was listenin’.”

  42

  SUNDAY

  PART II: CASSY COMES BACK

  FROM MINNESOTA

  Alexandra was waiting at the gate at Kennedy. In sunglasses. And a scarf. Until she took Cassy’s hand, Cassy wasn’t even aware that it was she. “Don’t be angry,” Alexandra said, taking Cassy’s overnight bag from her. “I’ve got a car waiting. I needed to see you,” she added, pulling Cassy along.

  “Alexandra—”

  She stopped and the sunglasses swung in Cassy’s direction. “I needed to see you,” she repeated quietly.

  Cassy sighed, looking somewhere over Alexandra’s shoulder. “Of course you do,” she finally said, looking back at the sunglasses. She offered a sad smile, lowered her head, and then slung her arm through Alexandra’s. “Let’s go.” They walked through the rest of the airport without speaking.

  Alexandra had a limo waiting. After the driver closed their doors Alexandra took off her glasses and untied her scarf. Shaking out her hair, she said, “He can’t see us. He can’t hear us.” Cassy’s expression was blank. “The driver,” Alexandra explained.

  “Oh,” Cassy said.

  “I’m sorry to surprise you like this,” Alexandra said, “but I knew it would be the only time I could see you.” She reached for Cassy’s hand. It was given, reluctantly, and after a moment Alexandra released it “So he’s in,” she said.

  “He’s in,” Cassy said, nodding, looking at the dark glass between them and the driver.

  “Is it—was it a nice place?”

  “Oh, yes,” Cassy said, still looking ahead. “Very. And they were very nice.” Pause. “He was so frightened. It’s very strange, you know—seeing him so frightened. Crying, sober. I’ve never seen him cry when he wasn’t drinking.”

  Silence.

  The car pulled out onto the expressway.

  “Cassy,” Alexandra said softly.

  After a moment Cassy turned to look at her.

  “I want to help you,” Alexandra whispered, reaching for her hand again.

  Cassy swallowed and turned away. “I’m afraid you can’t.” She sighed. “Not this time.”

  S
ilence.

  “I don’t want to lose you.” Cassy dropped her head, closing her eyes. “I know we can’t—” Alexandra stopped, her lower lip starting to give way. “I need you. As a friend. I’m willing to just be—”

  “We’ve gone too far, Alexandra.”

  It was said in scarcely a whisper, but Alexandra heard it. She turned to her door, jammed her elbow down on the rest, and looked out the window. In a few moments she started to cry.

  Cassy slumped back in her seat and looked up at the roof, blinking back tears.

  Alexandra’s crying eventually subsided and she tried to pull herself together. “I always knew he’d come back,” she said, wiping her eyes with a tissue, looking at herself in a compact mirror. She snapped it shut and slid it back into her purse. “I feel rather stupid carrying on like this.”

  Cassy rolled her head to the side, looking at her. “Come here,” she said gently, holding out an arm. After a moment Alexandra moved over to be held. She started to cry again. Cassy, resting her chin on top of Alexandra’s head, stroking her hair, started to talk. “I don’t think I’m stupid for caring for you,” she murmured, looking ahead. “You’re one of the most wonderful things that has ever happened to me. The timing...” She sighed and was quiet for awhile.

  “I love Michael, I’ve never lied to you about that. But, sometimes, I wonder if I even know what love is. Or what kind of love it is I have for Michael—or if I even know who he is anymore. Or who I am, for that matter.” She absently kissed the top of Alexandra’s head. “I’m not even sure how you happened to me.”

  A low moan came from somewhere inside of Alexandra.

  Cassy swallowed. “I’m a mother, Alexandra, and that...You know I have to see this through, see my family through. Twenty years...” A sigh. “I’ve got to see what this will mean—if things will—oh, Lord, I don’t know, it may be too late. I just don’t know. But I’ve got to find out.” She shifted suddenly. “But—Alexandra—” Cassy brought her face up with her hand to look at her. “You mustn’t wait for me. Hope that we can—really, it’s so very important that you don’t. That you go on with your life because I have to go on with mine.” She swallowed and whispered, “You so badly need someone who can give you what you need, what you want.”

  Alexandra closed her eyes and resettled her head under Cassy’s chin. A long sigh. “I need you.”

  “No, Alexandra, you don’t,” Cassy said. “You need someone nearer your own age, for starters. You’re just coming into—into”—sigh—”into what I’m leaving.”

  “Age isn’t the issue and you know it.”

  Pause. “It is an issue. An important one. One day you’ll know it. Feel it.”

  “God,” Alexandra said, “I wish you’d give that up.”

  “What?”

  “Your obsession with age.” She reached to touch the diamond of Cassy’s engagement ring. “If I married a forty-one-year-old man, no one—not even you—would say a word. You’d think it was great.”

  Cassy shifted slightly, moving Alexandra’s head a bit. “It’s very different with men.”

  “Tell me about it.”

  Cassy gently laughed. “No, that’s not what I meant.”

  “I know what you meant.”

  “I know you do,” she said, patting her back.

  Silence.

  “I really fell in love with you, you know,” Alexandra said.

  Silence.

  Alexandra sat up to look at her. “When I was in college I thought I was in love with Gordon. Later I thought I wanted to marry Tyler, but then Lisa—” She let out a slow breath, eyes drifting away.

  “When Lisa happened, all I knew was that getting married to Tyler was not such a great idea. Not until I figured out what it was I was looking for.” Her eyes came back to Cassy’s. “I didn’t want to fall in love with you, Cassy. I wanted you to be like Lisa. But you weren’t.” Her eyes started to fill. “Where I want to go, the world I want to work in—Cassy, you are the biggest handicap I could choose. But I haven’t had a choice since I met you. It’s you I want. With me.”

  In the course of this, Cassy had closed her eyes. A single tear was now working its way out from under one lid.

  “I’m not trying to talk you out of what I know you have to do,” she continued, sniffing, wiping at one eye. She dropped her hand back down onto Cassy’s shoulder. “I just wanted to tell you this, so you would know— because I’ll never bring it up again.” She paused. “I want us to stay friends.”

  Cassy opened her eyes. After a moment she pushed Alexandra’s hair back off her face. “We need to give it time,” she said.

  Alexandra let out a breath. “I can handle it.”

  Cassy sighed, a faint smile on her lips, twisting a strand of Alexandra’s hair between her fingers. She let go of it and eased Alexandra away from her. “It’s not you I’m worried about,” she said. “You don’t know it, but you’ll get over me a lot quicker than I’ll—” She clamped her eyes shut and covered them with her hands, sucking her breath in through her teeth. “Damn it,” she said, dropping forward into her lap.

  The rest of the ride was no less difficult.

  By the time the limo pulled up Riverside Drive, neither was able to talk. The driver opened Cassy’s door and she simply gave Alexandra’s hand a squeeze and got out. The driver handed her bag to the doorman and he took it into the lobby. As the driver was walking back around the car to get inside, Cassy ran back to the door and opened it.

  Alexandra just looked up at her, eyes a wreck.

  Cassy hesitated, mouth trembling, and then leaned down. “I did love you, Alexandra,” she said, kissing her on the mouth. “Don’t think I didn’t.” She pulled back—hitting her head on the roof—but cared about nothing except getting the door closed between them. And then she stood there, looking down at her own reflection in the window.

  The car pulled away.

  Cassy held her face in her hand for a moment, composing herself. And then she turned around and saw Rosanne. Standing there. Looking at her. Her expression was one of shock, and one of concern, and Cassy did not want to see it. She walked past Rosanne into the building. “Are you coming or going?”

  “Coming,” Rosanne said, following her in.

  Cassy did not meet Rosanne’s eyes once. Walking into the elevator, she said hello to the elevator man, turned around, watched him close the gate, and said,” Mr. C will be home in six weeks.”

  “Great,” Rosanne said. And then, “I’m sorry I had to switch Friday on you. With Jason and the move and everything—”

  “It’s quite all right,” Cassy said, watching the floors go by. “In fact, it’s better.” She transferred her bag from one hand to the other. “Henry’s girl friend is coming for dinner tonight.”

  “Oh,” Rosanne said.

  Cassy got off the elevator first and led the way to the apartment. “I thought you might bring Jason,” she said, turning the key in the door and opening it.

  “He’s at Amanda’s.”

  “Henry?”Cassy called, throwing her keys in the bowl and walking on.

  Rosanne closed the door and stood there a moment, thinking. When she walked into the kitchen, Cassy turned from the counter. “He went to Connecticut to pick the girl up,” she said, tossing the note in the trash. She shook her head. “Can you imagine? Our little Henry?”

  “He’s not so little anymore,” Rosanne said, putting her bag down and going to the pantry.

  “No, he sure isn’t,” Cassy said, walking on with her bag to the back hall.

  Rosanne took out the bucket of cleaning supplies and a fresh cloth and headed for the living room. She put the bucket down and started picking up magazines and neatly stacking them, throwing out newspapers and fluffing the pillows of the couch and easy chairs. She was in the process of taking everything off the tables to dust when Cassy came in.

  “Rosanne,” she said, folding her arms and leaning against the side of the bookcase.

  “Yeah?” Rosanne
glanced back at her; her expression was innocent.

  Cassy sighed and held the bridge of her nose for a moment. Releasing it, she said,” Tell me what you’re thinking.”

  Rosanne’s eyes slid away and she bent over to take a can of Pledge out of the bucket. “What do ya mean?”

  Cassy pushed off the bookcase and took a step forward. “I mean I don’t want you to—”She couldn’t finish.

  Rosanne looked at her. “I saw,” she said. And then she proceeded to spray Pledge on the coffee table. “And I’m glad it was me and not Henry.”

  Cassy rubbed her face. Dropping her hands, she walked over and threw herself down in a chair. Rosanne was polishing the table. “It’s over,” Cassy said. When there was no response (except a very well polished table) she said,” I can’t pretend I have a good explanation for why or how—”

  “Look, Mrs. C,” Rosanne said, suddenly straightening up. She paused and then turned around. “I’m on your side—always was, always will be. I just don’t want to see the kid get hurt. Or you,” she added. She tossed the cloth into the bucket, sighing. “I knew there was somebody, ya know. I just didn’t figure it to be—” She gave a little laugh, yanking on her bandanna. “You know who I thought it was—for a while?”

  Cassy was not up to answering.

  “Mr. W. Yeah.”

  “Oh, Rosanne,” Cassy said, holding her forehead in her hand.

  Rosanne looked at her for a moment and then came over to stand in front of Cassy’s chair. “Look, Mrs. C,” she said, kneeling down and resting the can of Pledge on the floor.

  Cassy was shaking her head.

  Rosanne thought a moment and then spoke. “If she likes you, then I like her.” No reaction. Mouth cinched up to the side, thinking. And then, “It happened ‘cause of Mr. C, didn’t it?”

  “I don’t know,” Cassy said honestly.

  “And it’s over ‘cause of Mr. C, isn’t it?”

  “I don’t know,” Cassy said honestly.

  Rosanne shrugged, playing with the can of Pledge.

  “How did you know?”

 

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