by Audrey Storm
“Sean…” she started but he was already leaning forward. His hand was at the back of her neck. “Don’t,” she pleaded softly. She knew almost immediately what he wanted to do.
“Why not?” he asked as he looked right into her brown eyes. Her heart was racing. “If you don’t want me, just tell me and I will back off. I promise you.” Her heart seemed to be beating harder and faster as his piercing green eyes looked right into hers. He was leaning forward slowly and for some reason, she couldn’t pull away. Soon, he was so close that she could feel his breath on her neck. “Just tell me when to stop and I will,” he whispered.
She wanted to tell him to stop. She needed to tell him to stop but somehow, she just couldn’t speak. Her lips were slightly parted as she tried getting her words out but to Sean, it looked like she was waiting for a kiss. She looked at him as he moved closer still until his lips claimed hers. She didn’t even realize when she held the side of his face. She was slowly and softly responding to his lips against her own. She closed her eyes as she felt him kissing her softly. His lips were softer than she had ever imagined. And his touch, oh his touch…it was more perfect than she had ever thought it to be. His tongue and his were doing a slow, soft dance inside her mouth. By the time he finally pulled away, they were both panting for breath. He brushed off a stray strand of her dark hair from her face and looked into her eyes.
“Sean, I don’t think…” Alexis started before he leaned forward and kissed her again, cutting her short.
“Don’t think,” he said in a whisper when he pulled away briefly. He pulled her closer making her shift her weight on the bed moving closer to him. He was suddenly kissing her deeper and more passionately than she had ever been in her life and all she knew at that moment was the feeling she had, getting lost in his embrace. She moaned into his mouth as he gently pushed her down. She slowly laid back on his bed and looked up at him. At the back of her mind, she found herself thinking how he was managing to balance his weight on his side.
Sean ran a hand down the side of her body, gently brushing against her breasts. She closed her eyes and let out a small sigh making him smile. With one hand, he slowly pushed her shirt upwards revealing her breasts concealed in a black satin and lace bra. He lowered his head and began planting small kisses on her tummy slowly working his way up to the impatient push of her breasts. To his advantage, her bra had a front clasp which he undid with ease. Alexis moaned softly when she felt the tightness of her bra suddenly come loose exposing her breasts to him. She opened her eyes just in time to see him looking into her eyes, like he was trying to see her reaction as he caressed her gently. She closed her eyes when he began lowering his head to kiss her sensitive nipples. She sighed softly when his lips brushed against her taut nipples. Her other nipple was getting equal attention from his flicking fingertips as he began running his tongue around her nipple. Her moans were getting louder by the minute as he sucked her harder and kneaded her soft mounds. She moaned her relief when he pulled away but it was only seconds before he took her other nipple in his mouth and sucked hard. It seemed like forever before he finally released her and she was gasping for breath.
“Take off your t-shirt,” he commanded in a whisper. She was looking at him as she did as he asked. She could see that he was having a hard time balancing his weight on one side so she turned completely getting herself on her side and he responded by lying down on his back. She felt awkward being half naked yet he was still fully dressed.
“Do it,” Sean said as if he could read her mind. She was looking right into his eyes as she took off his t-shirt and sweat pants. She was about to pull off his boxer shorts when he shook his head. “You first,” he said gesturing at her pants. She pushed off her pants and pulled off his boxer shorts before she took off her own panties. She had tried as long as she could not to look at his girth but she could feel his cock hard against her thigh. She had straddled him and he had his hands on either side of her hips.
“Got any…” she started before he pointed to the top drawer of his nightstand. She got a condom from the drawer and handed it to him. She was breathing hard as he rolled on the latex onto his length.
“Ride me, baby,” he said as he looked at her. She raised her hips and he positioned his cock at her opening.
She was looking right into her eyes as she began lowering herself onto his length. But as soon as the head of his cock slipped into her pussy, she gasped. She was dripping wet but months of her dry spell made it feel like she was being split into two. She looked at him, her forehead creased and he knew almost immediately what he had to do. He began pulling her down making her moan softly and him groan as he felt his length filling her up. She whimpered when she felt his entire length buried inside her.
“Come here,” he said, one of his hands still secured around her waist. She lowered herself to kiss him as she began moving herself on and off his cock. She was moaning softly as she felt him stretching her out, filling her. He suddenly held her and began moving himself in and out of her hard. She was amazed at how he was able to thrust his hips upwards with his leg still mildly immobilized. She buried her head in his shoulder and groaned as he slammed his hips against hers over and over until she couldn’t hold back anymore. Sean had an arm around her back and his hand in her hair as she felt herself coming apart on him.
“Sean… oh…” she gasped as she felt herself climaxing. Her pussy was squeezing against his cock draining him. She felt his fingers digging into her folds as he worked himself deeper and harder until he gave her one final thrust. She collapsed on him, panting heavily. Their bodies were drenched in sweat.
“You have no idea how long I have been waiting for that,” Sean said in an exhausted whisper. Alexis wanted to answer but at that moment, she couldn’t. Every fear she had kept bottled up had become a reality. She had given in to her desires and she hated the idea of being labeled as one of Sean Elliott’s conquest. She pulled away from him and climbed off the bed holding one of his sheets against her body. “It’s a little too late for that, don’t you think?” Sean asked with a smile but she never smiled back. She began walking towards the door and he raised his head and looked at her.
“Alexis… what’s going on?” he asked as she approached the door. She held the doorframe and looked at him.
“I… I can’t… I’m sorry,” she finally managed to say. Sean shook his head.
“Why are you sorry? What happened?” he asked.
“This was a mistake,” she said before she ran out. She could hear Sean calling out after her but she didn’t want to stop. She kept walking until she got to her room down the hall. She was breathing hard and there was a tear rolling down one cheek as she leaned against the closed door.
“What the hell did I do?” she wondered as she sunk to the floor. “How could I do that?”
Chapter 2
When Alexis woke up the next day, her heart was still beating hard. She had waited until Sean fell asleep the previous night to quietly slip into the master bedroom to check on him. She was as quiet as she possibly could as she checked up on him making sure she didn’t wake him up. She was trying to figure out how she was going to behave when she saw Sean as she dressed. She pulled on her scrubs and put on a pair of dangling earrings. She held her hair up in a low ponytail before she made her way out of her room.
“I will have to face him at some point,” she thought as she walked out. She suddenly felt her blood curl when she noticed Sean limping towards her. She had half a mind to go back into her room as she looked at him biting her lower lip. She wanted to speak but her throat was dry.
“You’re up already?” Sean asked when he saw her. She nodded.
“I was just about to come to your room…to help you with your bath,” she said and he shook his head.
“I already had my bath,” he said in a soft voice as he made his way towards her. “Right now, I just want to have breakfast.” She nodded. “With you,” he added.
“I think Marisol already mad
e some food. I’ll set a plate up for you.” She began walking towards the stairs and Sean was doing his best to catch up with her.
“Did you hear me?” he asked as she got closer to him. “I said I want to have breakfast with you,” he said again. She wanted to answer him but she just couldn’t think of how she was going to turn him down without sounding like a bitch. She couldn’t just walk away because he was literally in her way.
“Sean, please,” she said as she looked at him. “Just let me do my job.”
“Baby,” Sean started as he made his way towards her.
“Don’t call me that,” Alexis said in a low voice.
“Why not?” he asked. She was trying to pull away from him but he did not want to let her go. She looked at him and sighed. “We made love last night and you left me alone while quite frankly, I would have rather woken up next to you.”
Alexis looked into his eyes and managed to pull away.
“We did not make love, Sean,” she said as she walked past him. “We fucked. That’s it.”
She began making her war downstairs leaving a stunned Sean behind.
“Wait, what?” he asked before he began walking after her. “Damn leg,” he muttered when he realized that even though he was walking as fast as he could, he still wasn’t fast enough to catch up with her. “Alex,” he called out again. He was now on the ground floor making his way towards the kitchen where true to her word, Marisol had already made them breakfast.
“There are some hash brown patties and hard boiled eggs,” Alexis announced as she put a plate on the table. “I gave you a side of baked beans and a glass of orange juice Hope that is okay with you.”
Sean was giving her a confused look and she knew all too well that he didn’t understand why she was acting as if nothing had happened. The truth was that she wanted to avoid talking about what had happened as much as she possibly could.
“Alex,” Sean said when he finally got to the table.
“Sit down. I’ll get your pills,” Alexis said before he could get a chance to say anything. She walked to his room as quickly as she could and got some of his pills in a pill crusher. As she made her way downstairs, she realized that she had done everything she was supposed to do. Since he had taken the initiative to give himself a bath, she didn’t have anything else to do until much later that afternoon when she had to check his stats. Her heart was pounding. She needed to get out of there. She rushed back to her room, pills in hand and changed out of her scrubs into a strapless maxi dress and a pair of sandals. She then grabbed her purse and slowly made her way back to the kitchen where Sean was seated at the table. He looked up at her as she placed the pill crusher on the table in front of him.
“Are you heading out or something?” he asked as he looked at her and she nodded. “Where?”
‘I don’t think you have to know every little detail of my life, Sean,” she pointed out a little more curtly than she had originally intended.
“Whoa, Alex. Where is this coming from?” he asked as he looked at her.
“I just think that it is better to maintain a professional relationship from now on,” she said. Sean looked up at her and held her wrist in his hand.
“Will you just sit down and talk to me so I know where this hostility is coming from?” he asked as he looked up at her. She took a long minute before she finally sat down. “Good. Now, will you tell me what is going on with you this morning?” he asked.
“Last night,” she started.
“Yes, what about last night?” he asked.
“Sean, last night was a mistake,” Alexis went on. She was trying hard not to give in to her emotion and let the tears she was fighting roll down her cheeks.
“No, you can’t say that. You cannot mean that, Alexis,” Sean said as he looked into her eyes.
“I mean it, Sean. I am your nurse and I have been here for three weeks and in those three weeks I have seen four different women come and go.”
“So what?” he asked.
“So, I don’t want to be one of those women you bang and forget,” she said. “I don’t want to be a groupie. That is not who my parents raised me to be.”
“And you are not,” he said as he looked at her.
“Well, I…” she pulled her hand away and stood up. “I need some time alone,” she said in a low tone.
“Alexis, please sit down.”
“Maybe I can organize another nurse for you from the…” she started before he shook his head.
“Don’t you dare,” he said. The tone in his voice was everything she needed to let her know that he was getting agitated. She looked at him and the tear she had fought back for so long finally rolled down her cheek.
“I have to go,” she said running out. She would have wanted to explain herself but there was no way of telling her employer that she had fallen for him long before she even started working there. That she knew that she was making the biggest mistake of her life just admitting that to herself?
Chapter 3
As Alexis sat across Tasha at the LA General hospital cafeteria, she was assured that the only thing worse than the coffee she was having was the look Tasha was giving her at that moment.
“I’m sorry, you what?” Tasha asked as she looked at Alexis who was looking at her. “I must be mistaken because it sounded like you said that you screwed Sean Elliot.”
“That’s exactly what I said and you need to keep it down, missy,” Alexis said looking around the almost empty cafeteria. Even though the cafeteria didn’t have much traffic, she could not help but want to keep everything quiet.
“It’s not like there’s anyone around,” Tasha pointed out as if she could read her mind.
“I know but I am going to be coming back here after Sean gets better and I really don’t want to be branded as the slutty nurse.” Tasha took a long deep breath and took a sip of her coffee.
“Okay. Let’s just go slow,” she started. “You and Sean? Together?” she asked and Alexis nodded. “And you are not happy about it?” she asked again.
“Not at all,” Alexis said. “I mean, I still have at least six weeks there and…”
“And what, Alex? So what if it was just a fuck for him? Just move on,” Tasha said shrugging.
“I want to but I don’t think I can,” Alexis said. Tasha rolled her eyes and took another sip of her coffee. Sean was not just a guy she could bang and forget. “Not when I am still working with him.” Tasha raised an eyebrow over the other.
“Wait…Alex, are you falling for this guy or something?” she asked and Alexis shrugged.
“I don’t know, maybe,” she said. She did not want to admit it to her best friend but the truth was that she had fallen for Sean a long time before she noticed his lingering looks. That was the only way she could explain the pang of jealousy she felt when she saw all those women going into his room.
“When you say ‘maybe’, you usually mean yes,” Tasha said in a soft voice. Alexis ran her fingers through her hair.
“I don’t want to be into him. I think that is the issue here,” she said.
“And why is it an issue exactly?” Tasha asked. Alexis shrugged again. She had absolutely no way to put what she was feeling, what she was thinking in words.
“I think I will need a replacement,” she suddenly said making Tasha’s eyes grow wide.
“You cannot be serious,” she said.
“I don’t think I should stay at his place,” Alexis said shaking her head.
“Wait, is this about Daniel?” Tasha asked. Alexis never answered but her silence was all that Tasha needed to prove herself right. “Alex, Sean is not Daniel. Don’t make him pay for the mistakes of all the male assholes out there.”
Alexis opened her mouth to answer her but her pager suddenly went off. She looked at it and sighed.
“Damn it, trauma alert to all medical personnel,” she said before she looked up. “Listen sweetie, I have to go but try not to overthink this. Nothing is ever this serious.” She leane
d forward and gave Alexis a quick hug before she ran out of the cafeteria. Alexis took a sip of her coffee and sighed. She could not help but think that maybe Tasha was right. Maybe she was overthinking things but at the back of her mind she knew that doing as her best friend had suggested was not as easy as she thought it out to be. Daniel Hayes had taken her heart and literally shattered it into a million pieces. She had been afraid to love ever since Daniel left her for a college sophomore. Somehow, she always felt too old, too heavy and too complicated for any man and now that Sean was showing some kind of interest, she couldn’t help but wonder what his angle was.
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When Alexis finally went back to Sean’s place, it was almost one. She had taken a long leisurely drive after meeting Tasha before she finally decided to drive back. She had tried making a call to her supervisor so that he could organize for a replacement but she just could not do it. She knew that what she felt for him was a means to an end but she just couldn’t bring herself to leave. The house was unusually quiet when she walked in.
“Alexis?” she heard Sean calling out from the living room as she stuffed her keys into her purse.
“Yeah, it’s me,” she called out as she began walking towards the living room. Her heart was beating harder and faster with every step she took. “Hi,” she said in a soft voice when she got to the living room.
“Hi,” Sean said looking up at her. He was in the same white linen shirt and black khaki pants he was wearing when she left. “Feeling better?” he asked. She put her purse down and nodded.
“I just needed some fresh air,” she said.
“So no more talk about quitting?” he asked, one eyebrow over the other.
“I am still going to look for a replacement…” she started before Sean stood up.
“Damn it, Alex,” he said as he looked at her. He began walking towards her slowly, using his cane for support. “Why won’t you talk to me?” he asked when he got to where she was. She looked into her eyes and saw something different, something she had seen the previous night. His look was soft and gentle and the way he was talking to her, he could hear the pain in his voice. He was actually genuinely concerned.
