“Is that an advantage?” I asked. “I would think that would make the sorrow even harder to bear.”
“Actually, if a marital relationship is troubled at the time of a death, there may be even more residual feelings of guilt and anger to deal with. But I bet that if this lady will get involved in our fellowship, over time she’ll be able live on — building new, happy memories while the sad ones fade. But the long and critical task for us as a church is to help her establish new meaning and new joys as the years go on.”
“Is she going to sell the farm?” Barb asked.
“I don’t know,” Ken answered. “But I do know that following a trauma like this, it’s extremely hard to face the future. So I’m encouraging her not to make any big decisions right now. I’m hoping our church members can help her live in the present — so she can avoid being overwhelmed by her past — and to help her slowly build up positive expectations for the future. She’ll be asking a lot of ‘why’ questions, none of which she’ll find answers for. I’m hopeful that our congregation can be instrumental in starting her on the road to healing and in walking through the murder trial with her.”
“I’ve heard that Fred Moody has been assigned the job of defending the accused,” I said. “I’ve worked with him on other criminal cases.”
Ken laughed. “Folks still chuckle about how he treated you on the witness stand when you were an expert witness for the first time.”
Barb joined him in laughing.
“That’s not funny,” I complained.
“It really is,” Barb countered. “There you were on the stand, dressed up in your best suit — ”
“My only suit,” I interjected.
“Indeed!” Barb agreed as she continued. “And after Fred allowed the district attorney to qualify you as an expert, he asked you to tell the jury how many cases you had worked as a medical examiner. And you had to admit it was your first.”
Barb and Ken were now both laughing at my expense. I could feel my face flushing with embarrassment, and then I began to chuckle.
“It really was pretty funny,” I commented. “Anyway, he’s a great attorney and a good friend. But I don’t think there’s much he can do to get this guy off the hook. The CSI folks found both the husband’s and wife’s blood under the handyman’s fingernails, as well as in the drain trap of the sink in his house where he washed his hands.”
“Any idea what the motive was?” Ken asked.
“According to one of the deputies down at the jail, the accused has admitted to going into the kitchen to get a glass of water while the husband was in the barn. He says the woman made advances toward him. When he turned her down, she began to scream that he was attacking her. He told the deputies that she then tried to attack him, and when he fought her off and grabbed the knife, it cut her as she continued to punch him. Then the husband rushed in and began to attack him, and he was simply defending himself.”
“That story won’t hold water, will it?” Ken asked.
“Nope. If it had happened that way, the accused would have told 911 what went on and then stayed at the scene until help arrived. But this guy left the scene and then lied about it.”
“Couldn’t he say he panicked?” Barb asked.
“That’s what he is saying. But there are other problems with his alibi. First, the wounds on the man and woman are totally inconsistent with his story — especially the woman’s. All the wounds are defensive. Second, he had no bruises or marks on his body — nothing that would indicate that either the husband or the wife had attacked him in any way.”
“So,” Ken inquired again, “what was his motive?”
“Well, in my experience, unpremeditated murders like this are usually prompted by passion. Most of the time, drugs, sex, or money are at stake. In this case, there is no evidence to indicate he was trying to rob the couple, nor was there any indication of any sort of drug use by him or the couple.”
“Sex, then?” Barb wondered out loud.
“That’s the current theory,” I responded. “The investigators think he may have entered the kitchen and tried to seduce the wife. Likely she refused in a way that triggered him to erupt. My theory is that he grabbed the knife she was using to peel some vegetables and turned it on her. I think her screams caused her husband to run from the barn to the kitchen, where he was murdered. It turns out that his last act in this life may have saved the life of his wife.”
“But didn’t the handyman notice that the wife wasn’t dead? Why didn’t he go ahead and kill her? He left a witness behind,” Ken observed.
I nodded. “Here’s my theory on that. She was covered with blood from her chest wounds and was out cold on the kitchen floor in shock. Likely her breathing was very shallow, and he may not have seen her breathing at all. In addition, he was probably panicking about what he had done and wanted to get out of there as soon as possible.”
Ken furrowed his brow and thought for a second. “But Walt, I don’t understand why he would call 911. Why didn’t he just run? It would have given him the night to collect his senses. He could have called the next morning and reported it then — as though he had found the dead couple when he came to work.”
“Good question, Ken. I mean, we know it was he who called 911. His fingerprints were on the phone. And it appears he tried to wipe them off. Maybe he does have a conscience. Maybe he did realize the horror of what he had done.”
We were quiet for a moment, and then Barb startled us with a theory I had not considered.
“Or,” she began, “maybe he did see her breathing. Maybe he realized that if he called 911, they could identify the number and send help. Maybe he was trying to save her life.”
“Well, no matter the motive or what actually happened,” Ken concluded, “we’ve got our work cut out to minister to them both.”
“Both?” Barb asked, a bit startled.
“Yes. The church and community need to continue helping the wife as she begins her healing. And we need to try to reach out to the accused.”
“But he’s a murderer!” Barb exclaimed.
“I know, but I believe we still need to reach out to him.”
“Why?”
“Remember the two men crucified with Jesus? Jesus was innocent, but they were — ”
“Murderers,” Barb filled in.
Ken nodded and took a sip of his coffee. “One man rejected Jesus, and one pleaded to him for mercy. To the one who begged for mercy, Jesus promised paradise. He would still die on the cross for the evil he had been accused of — but at the same time, he could enter eternal life with God through his Son’s pardon.”
“That doesn’t seem fair,” Barb stated.
“Why not?” Ken countered. “I mean, if God were fair and gave each of us what we deserved for our own wrongdoing and sin, we’d all be in a heap of trouble. The miracle is not that some of us come into a personal relationship with God, but that any of us do. So I’m planning to make a pastoral visit to the handyman and talk to him about the divine mercy and love available to him. My prayer is that he’ll accept the invitation to begin his own relationship with his Creator. It won’t change the horror of what he’s done — or the penalty and consequences he’ll no doubt have to pay. But the simple truth is that our Lord loves him the same way he does each of us. And Jesus died for him the same way he did for me and you.”
Barb and I were quiet as we pondered what Pastor Hicks was saying. Frankly, even though I had prayed for the handyman the night of the crime, part of me didn’t want to accept the premise that the Creator of the universe would and could love a murderer as much as he would love anyone else. Why wouldn’t God want this man to suffer for the suffering he had inflicted and the life he had taken? Isn’t there a certain amount of evil that cannot be forgiven — that should not be forgiven?
That night, after the bedtime stories were finished and the kids tucked into bed, Barb and I had a long talk over a cup of tea, a Bible open on the table in front of us. Having been students
of the Bible for about ten years, we knew that looking for life principles in its pages was a fruitful exercise.
We had both felt uneasy about our pastor’s approach to this brutal criminal. As we reviewed a number of passages together, however, we were pointedly reminded that the most vile and evil people were offered the same love and grace as anyone else.
As Barb read aloud from the gospel of John, the ancient truth humbled me and penetrated my heart: “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because he has not believed in the name of God’s one and only Son.” I nodded my head slowly as I was again reminded that God’s invitation to every person is the same.
“Pastor Hicks is right,” I commented to Barb. “Even if the handyman is guilty of murder, he really does have a choice. He can continue in darkness and be condemned by an earthly judge and a heavenly Judge, or he can turn his life and his heart over to the One who is the source of all light and life and freely obtain mercy.”
Barb reached out for my hand, and we found ourselves praying together with a new earnestness and humility that night — both for a woman whose body and heart had been deeply wounded, as well as for her assailant, that he might find healing for his spirit and a salve for his soul.
chapter nine
TOO LATE?
Tommy was seven years old and had never been in a doctor’s office before. His family lived deep in the hills and believed, as did many locals in those days, that doctors and hospitals were only for birthing and dying. And the acceptance of the hospital for birthing was a fairly modern phenomenon, as most of the Swain County natives over the age of forty had been delivered at home.
Furthermore, Tommy’s mom and dad saw no need for preventive medicine, well-child visits, or immunizations. To them it was just an unnecessary cost foisted on unsuspecting folks by the already-too-rich doctors and hospital administrators. Doctors, in their considered opinion, were of use for dealing with trauma or surgery or the rare malady that couldn’t be handled by one of the local granny midwives — who also dispensed herbs, vitamins, and a variety of medicinal potions.
I hadn’t seen Tommy’s parents since helping a midwife deliver one of their younger children at home. Mom and unborn baby were in deep distress, but even with the child’s life at risk Donnie and Isabella Shoap had been very reluctant to allow a strange doctor near the bedside. They steered clear of “modern medicine” as much as possible, so when Bonnie told me that Tommy and his dad were coming over to the office, having been sent by a nurse in the emergency room, I was curious, to say the least.
I was seeing another patient when Bonnie knocked on the door.
“What is it?”
“Dr. Larimore, I need you.” The alarm in the nurse’s voice was subtle but, to me, noticeable. I quickly excused myself and stepped into the hallway.
Bonnie was holding a chest X-ray. “I thought you’d want to see this.”
I held it up toward the florescent ceiling light. It was a chest X-ray of a child. The heart and ribs looked normal. The left lung had an infiltrate in the lower lobe — indicating probable pneumonia. But the shock was the area of the right lung. The X-ray was completely white, which meant the lung was filled with fluid. My concern was immediate. “Where’d you get this?”
“It’s Tommy Shoap’s X-ray. He and his dad are in the exam room across the hall. I think you need to see them now.”
I handed her the X-ray and stepped across the hall. A deep rattling cough greeted me as I opened the exam room door, but when I actually entered the room and saw the boy, my inquisitiveness transitioned to immediate alarm. He appeared cyanotic and emaciated. His respiratory rate was shallow and at least two or three times faster than normal. His shirt was off, and I could see him rapidly using the normally relaxed accessory breathing muscles to catch as much oxygen as quickly as he could. I instantly knew this boy was in severe respiratory trouble.
I quickly nodded at his dad — who looked appropriately worried — and spoke softly to Tommy. “How ya doing, partner?” Then I turned to Bonnie and as calmly as possible requested, “O2 stat! And let’s get some help. Now! ”
Bonnie left, and I put my stethoscope to my ears and began to listen to the boy’s chest. As I suspected after seeing the X-ray, there were no breath sounds over his right lung. The left lung resonated with sounds that indicated infection — most likely pneumonia. His chest skin was cold and clammy, and he began to shake with a chill. I touched his forehead, which was burning with fever. His eyes were glazed. Other than some clear nasal discharge, his head and neck exams were normal — as were his heart and abdominal exams.
Bonnie and Patty Hughes, Rick’s nurse, rushed into the room. I could see from Patty’s eyes, which visibly widened, that she too was alarmed by what she saw. As the nurses set up the oxygen, Donnie Shoap sat quietly by as I tapped various areas of his son’s chest. The dull thuds told me that the chest was probably full of fluid. My hope was that it was full of pneumonia, which typically could be easily cured with antibiotics, but my fear was that it was full of pus between the outside of the lung and the inside of the chest wall. If Tommy had this condition, called empyema, then I knew the pressure of the pus could be crushing the lung and collapsing it. The infected fluid can build up to a quantity of a pint or more, which puts pressure on the lungs, causing shortness of breath and much pain.
When Bonnie called out the young patient’s systolic blood pressure, heart rate, and respiratory rate, they were all about 60, telling me his blood pressure was dangerously low, his respiratory rate three or four times greater than normal, and, worst of all, his heart rate precariously slow. Given his critical condition, his heart should have been racing — well above one hundred beats per minute. The fact that it was so slow meant we were in deep weeds indeed.
Once the oxygen was flowing, Tommy’s cyanosis decreased, and his respiratory rate began to fall a bit. As he pinked up and began to breathe more easily, he was able to recline a bit on a pillow. He looked famished and exhausted.
“Bonnie, call Don and Billy,” I softly instructed. “We need transport stat. Call Louise and get me an ICU bed.” I turned to Patty. “Let’s get an IV started with normal saline. Draw blood for cultures and lab tests.” Both nodded and leaped into action.
I looked down at Tommy and squeezed his arm. “How ya doing, tiger?”
He tried to smile back. “Not so good, Doc.”
“Tommy, I think you’ve got an infection in your lung. We call it pneumonia. I need to take you to the hospital.”
I could see Tommy’s eyes widen and hear his pop’s gasp behind me.
“Patty has to start an IV. You’ll feel a prick — just like a bee sting — but only for a second. It will allow me to get some blood for testing — just a little bit — and allow me to give you some fluids and then some medicine to get you well. Sound OK?”
I could see his eyes moisten and wondered if his inclination was to shake his head. He glanced over to his dad, and I turned to face Tommy’s father.
“Donnie, how long has he been sick?”
Donnie blushed and then looked down as he mumbled, “A couple a weeks.”
I wanted to ask him, “Why’d you wait?” In fact, I wanted to shake him and holler it into his face. But I knew the answer, and I knew that shaming a man in front of his son was one of the cardinal sins in mountain culture.
I walked over and touched his shoulder. He looked up, and I could see the humiliation in his face. He didn’t need my criticism. I squeezed his shoulder. “Glad you got him here, Donnie. I think we can fix this. But I’m going to have to do this work at the hospital.”
“That’s what the nurse in the ER told me. But I refused. I told her I wanted her to let me bring Tommy over here. I was hopin’ yo
u could jest give ’im a shot or somethin’.”
“I think it’s going to take more than that, Donnie. I suspect that his right chest is filled with pus. It’s like a big ole boil. I’m going to have to lance it and let the poison out.”
His eyes widened, and I could see his concern.
“I’ll numb the skin, of course, and then slide a small tube into the chest. The tube will be on the inside of the ribs, but on the outside of the lung. The lung is just like a balloon inside the chest wall. And I suspect it’s being compressed by the pus. By washing out all that pus, the lung will inflate and be more likely to heal itself a lot more quickly.”
I knew that the pus was highly toxic to the lining of the lung. The longer it stayed in the chest, the more likely it would be to scar the lung and the lining of the lung. I’d have to wash it out, using the chest tube, and then connect the tube to suction until the antibiotics began to clear the infection.
I sat down next to Donnie and explained the procedure I was about to do on his son in the ICU. It was not without formidable risks but was potentially lifesaving. Bonnie brought in a consent form, and he signed it.
Just then there was a knock on the door. Don and Billy had arrived. They quickly prepared Tommy for transport, transferred him to their stretcher, and scurried out of the office to take him to the hospital.
As soon as they were out of the room, Donnie asked me, “Will he die?”
I lowered my head and nodded ever so slightly as I explained, “He could, Donnie. This is the most serious case of childhood pneumonia I’ve ever seen. But if we get that pus out, put some fluids in his system, and then get him some powerful medicines flowing through those veins and into his lungs, my prayer is that he’ll do well. But this road is not going to be an easy one.”
“Do I need to take him to Asheville?”
“Donnie, to be frank, I don’t think he’d survive the trip. We need to get that pus out of his chest now.”
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