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Copyright © 2017 by Brian Van Reet
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A version of “Communications Blackout” first appeared in the Antioch Review.
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Contents
Cover
Title Page
Copyright
Dedication
PART I Chapter 1: Cassandra: Roundabout
PART II Chapter 2: Abu Al-Hool: the Dry Time
Chapter 3: Cassandra: Communications Blackout
Chapter 4: Sleed: Trophies
Chapter 5: Abu Al-Hool: the Time When Camels are in Calf
Chapter 6: Cassandra: Suffer the Children
Chapter 7: Abu Al-Hool: the Forbidden Time
Chapter 8: Sleed: Victory Over America
PART III Chapter 9: Cassandra: the Prisoner’s Dilemma
Chapter 10: Sleed: Collateral
Chapter 11: Abu Al-Hool: the Empty Time
Chapter 12: Cassandra: Antibody
Chapter 13: Sleed: the Lack of Life
PART IV Chapter 14: Abu Al-Hool: the Time of Scorching Dryness
Chapter 15: Cassandra: the Profession
Chapter 16: Abu Al-Hool: the Time of Separation
Chapter 17: Cassandra: Mother of Ammara
Chapter 18: Sleed: Spoil
Acknowledgments
About the Author
Newsletters
For Heidi
PART I
Low lie the shattered towers whereas they fell,
And I—ah burning heart!—shall soon lie low as well.
—AESCHYLUS
1
CASSANDRA: ROUNDABOUT
Day Of
IRAQ (TRIANGLETOWN)
She is the most dangerous thing around. The best soldiers are like her, just on the far side of childhood. Their exact reasons for fighting don’t matter much. They can carry deep resentments or have been blessed with an easygoing temperament; fear and shame are the army’s two great teaching tools, and they work equally well on most personality types. The main thing, what makes Cassandra good at soldiering, is simply her age. The training won’t transform anyone much over thirty. No amount of drilling and shouting and rote repetition through pain and humiliation and hardship can erase the kind of wariness that comes through the accumulated calamity of years, the adult fear of death that makes taking the kind of risks you must take to personally win a ground war too unlikely a feat for anyone but a megalomaniac, a latent suicide, or a teenager.
This one is bored tonight. Rather than guard the roundabout, she would move closer to the war’s hot center. Even with what she has seen so far, she wants more. She knows this is a naive and even foolhardy thing to want. Nevertheless, the desire is there, this crazy urge to strap on her rifle and leave behind the Humvee, Crump and McGinnis, to walk the dark and rainy highway to Baghdad like a modern-day ronin. A ridiculous thought, but lingering. The rain pelts her parka with a crackling sound, and rainwater beads on the black oily machine gun in front of her. Never would’ve thought it could rain so hard in Iraq. Leaning against the rim of the gunner’s hatch, she wipes the fifty’s action with a soggy towel and stows the towel and jams her hands into the armholes of her bulletproof vest. Wet, exposed, the skin has begun to blanch, joints stiffening, a wave of shivers, thinking off and on about Haider, his fruitless search for a doctor for his sister.
Time passes, and Sergeant McGinnis knocks on the Humvee’s roof.
“Wigheard. Put the cover on the fifty and get in here.”
For half an hour the rain has been blowing diagonally into their truck through the gunner’s hatch, soaking McGinnis and, to a lesser degree, Private Crump, who has the good fortune to be seated on the leeward side. Crump is asleep again. Snoring in an odd rhythm, he takes quick sharp breaths, his face smushed against the foggy driver’s-side window.
She’d been on the verge of asking if she could be relieved from her post for a few minutes to sit inside the truck and warm up. But when this relief becomes an order, she resents it a little, decides to have some fun with it.
“Negative,” she says, pitching her voice too chipper. “Shit, Sarn’t. Send Crump’s sleepy ass up here. Then I’ll come down.”
“Wigheard. Shut that damn hatch and get in here.”
She can’t help but grin at his kindness veiled in saltiness, ducking into the truck’s cab, taking a knee on the transmission hump that doubles as the platform on which she has been standing to gun. She squats deeply, swings the hatch over her, and buttons it tight. Rain peppers the roof, and the steady staccato drum of it, like a million ghostly fingertips rapping on the truck, diffuses the throaty growl of its diesel. McGinnis and Crump have the heater running full-bore. Right away she can feel it drying the black fleece she wears under her parka and body armor, drying her skin and eyeballs. Apparently, the heater is the one thing on this ramshackle vehicle that works perfectly.
She scoots from the gunner’s platform into one of the rear canvas seats. The Humvee’s interior is a dun-colored exercise in sharp edges and constricted, cost-saving efficiencies. McGinnis has added the only human touches. Fuzzy dice dangle from the rearview, and on the die-cut aluminum dashboard, he has taped a novelty baseball card featuring a photo of his son in a Little League uniform, Louisville Slugger slung over his shoulder, sweaty mop of hair plastered under a red ball cap.
The photo makes Cassandra uneasy. Has from the very start, back in Kuwait, when he taped it there. She thinks it’s a bad idea for it to be posted on the dash, where he can’t escape the kid—she is having trouble even remembering his name—always occupying his father’s line of sight, continually reminding him of the stakes, what he might lose if he were to slip up. It’s like McGinnis is deliberately tormenting himself.
Her eyes have grown inflamed from lack of sleep and the recycled hot air steadily blowing, and she blinks to wet them, losing focus sleepily, the kid’s photo blurring into a nondescript splotch. She’s lulled by the darkness and the roaring heater and the rain that pools on the gunner’s hatch and drips through a leaky rubber seal. Like Chinese water torture. Like they are trapped in an unsound submarine. With the hatch closed it has grown muggy inside, hot and slimy as a locker room with all the showerheads blasting steam. Beads of condensation join in branched rivulets that dart down the windows, themselves no more than flexible sheets of vi
nyl. Their crew wasn’t lucky enough to draw an up-armored truck. Lieutenant Choi and his bunch have received the only one allotted for the platoon. Their own is nothing but a rolling coffin. No, not even that sturdy. Oak would at least stop some shrapnel, but these vinyl doors wouldn’t stop a pellet gun.
The heater, the rain, sleeplessness, bring on a rheumy-eyed stupor, fuzzy and electronic. Her pruned hands twitch involuntarily, a hypnic jerk acute enough to bring her back. She wills her eyes open. McGinnis and Crump are both nodded off in the front seats. Radio and GPS cables lie kinked around them like black umbilical cords; there’s the humming sound of the truck, and, half dreaming, caught in the tripping sensation of present eternity dwarfing the past, for a moment she forgets herself and might be convinced that all her days have been lived like this, in here, the truck, the only solid place in the universe.
The three of them jolt awake at the same time. Something pounding on the hood, thunk thunk thunk.
McGinnis just sits there rigidly, looking out from under a confusion of gear. She’s never seen him like this. All through their predeployment training, the poison-gas drills in Kuwait, the first weeks of the war, he always seemed so competent, poised, always with the answers, and now it shakes her to see him lacking.
Crump stops waiting for someone to tell him what to do. He shoots forward and with his sleeve wipes the film of moisture that obscures the view out the windshield. At the same time, Cassandra dings her knee scrambling from the backseat to throw open the hatch, man her station, charge the fifty; she takes an underhanded grip on the gun’s handle but before she can rack a round, she sees it is only Haider, down near the hood of the truck. The kid looks even thinner now that he has been soaked in the rain, his green nylon soccer jersey clinging to his skin.
McGinnis sees him, too, and curses in both relief and anger at the kid who has officially graduated into a pest with this second appearance at the traffic circle. “See,” McGinnis says, projecting his voice up through the hatch, “this is why we don’t feed them. We’re an army. We’re not damn Save the Children.” He reaches back and unlatches the passenger’s door, flinging it open, and Haider climbs into the truck, out of the rain.
Cassandra drops back into the cab.
“Special-ist, my friend.” The boy points down the highway in the direction of Triangletown. “There. Mujahideen. Very bad Ali Baba.”
The woodcutter from One Thousand and One Nights, a rare point of cultural overlap between them and the locals, has in a short span of time come to be conflated with the den of thieves that he stumbles on, a kind of literary guilt by association, Ali Baba standing in for any bad guy.
“Ah, bullshit,” Crump says. “You know he’s just playing us for more chocolate. Watch, he’s about to ask for some.”
“Long way to come in the rain just for that,” she says.
McGinnis looks Haider squarely in the face. “Where did you see the mujahideen?”
“They go… Kay fallah quooloo… They go to the father to my father.”
“Your grandfather?”
“Grandfather, yes. He is sheikh. He is saying to them, Ishta, ishta. Mujahideen are saying…” In pantomime he acts like he is driving a car that crashes. He beats his hands on an imaginary steering wheel in frustration. “They are wanting good car. Grandfather Toyota. They take.”
“When—today? Tonight?”
“Today, yes.” Haider nods enthusiastically and cranes his neck like he is peering over the horizon. Then he turns back to McGinnis, his face suddenly too serious for a child’s. “Mujahideen and you are like this.” He finishes the thought by drawing the index finger of his good hand like a blade across his throat. “My friend, go now, okay? Very bad for you here. We go soon. Sister, very bad. We are leaving to doctor. Okay? You leave now?”
“Hell no, we ain’t running,” Crump says. “Go back where you came from. Tell them dickless muja fucks to bring it on.”
“Hey,” McGinnis says. “Quiet, all you.” He picks up the handheld mic and keys the military-radio net. He raises Lieutenant Choi, parked on the far side of the roundabout, using his on-air call sign. “Red One, this is Three. I’ve got a local national here advising foreign fighters may be in our AO. Over.”
There follows a ponderous silence, a static squelch, a clearing of a throat, the lieutenant, sounding sleepy: “Three, say again?”
McGinnis scowls at the hand mic. He breaks radio protocol by slipping into the vernacular, enunciating each word and phrase with admonishing clarity. “LT. I’ve just been told by a local kid. Jihadis went through Triangletown earlier. Supposedly they’re driving a Toyota. How copy? Over.”
“Roger. I’m calling it up to Higher. Wait one.”
The radio falls silent while Lieutenant Choi switches frequencies from platoon to company, where he will pass the intelligence report to the captain, who will in turn call Lieutenant Colonel Easton on the battalion frequency and deliver the news. Both of these last two officers are back at Palace Row, in the battalion’s operations center. It seems so difficult for any of her junior leaders to make a critical decision on their own in the field. Though it isn’t really their fault. They aren’t naturally cowards or idiots. They are, for the most part, highly able and motivated, but they’ve been trained not to act independently, instead to report the situation up the chain of command, sit tight, and await further guidance. Death by micromanagement.
The lieutenant comes back over the net. “Three, this is One. Battalion says they’ve called the report in to Brigade. They’re saying charlie mike for now.” Charlie mike is alpha-phonetic shorthand for continue the mission. Maintain their position at the roundabout.
“I copy. Break.” McGinnis goes on to tell the other three truck crews that Haider will be passing back through their perimeter. Hold your fire. Don’t shoot the kid. It’s not a good sign he was able to sneak through their lines in the first place. No one mentions it, but Cassandra is thinking it, we fucked up, bad. Everyone sheltering from the rain, catching z’s, and she’s pissed at McGinnis for encouraging her—maybe not to fall asleep—but he did tell her to leave her post and take a break; he let them all fall asleep and did it himself. She stares at the back of his head as he briefs the other trucks on Haider’s intel. When he finishes with the radios he sets the hand mic on the dash near the baseball card of his son, brushing his forefinger along the edge of the photo to straighten it where it has started to curl in the humidity, taking refuge for a moment in that mawkish sentiment when instead he should be arguing the case with headquarters, insisting on permission to go out and hunt the enemy. Why else are they here if not for that?
“So we’re not going to collapse this thing and drive around looking for these guys? Just sit here and wait for them to hit us. Bullshit, Sarn’t.”
He turns around in his seat and ruffles Haider’s thick black hair at the same time that he gives her a canny look. She gets the message: Show solidarity in front of outsiders, even if children. “Thanks for what you did,” he tells Haider. “That was brave of you to come out here alone. But you have to go home now. You understand?”
She suspects she might’ve taken one too many. The crew has been passing around its communal bottle of diet pills, dosing themselves in the four hours since Haider left the truck. No more falling asleep on watch. The kid’s warning, heeded.
Hydroxycut is the thing for staying awake, but she wishes she would’ve stopped while she was ahead, about two pills ago. She works her jaw muscles and scrapes her tongue over a palate gone dry with tacky cotton mouth, head aching, blood vessels constricted by stimulant, her focus inexplicably stuck on a few lines of jogging cadence sung during early-morning physical training sessions at Fort Hood before they deployed.
Line a hundred Iraqis up against a wall.
Bet a hundred dollars I couldn’t kill ’em all.
Shot ninety-eight till my barrel turned blue.
Then I pulled out my knife and stabbed the other two.
Stupid stuff, she
knows. Nothing more than brutal background noise, but she hasn’t gotten more than a few hours’ sleep at any one time in the past three days, and her mind is doing strange things. No matter how much she wants to, she can’t close her eyes, and even if she did, no sleep would come. Her heart feels like it’s working too hard, straining itself like a leaky pump with more air than blood rushing through fleshy valves. Time stretches thinner and thinner, shedding its one elemental quality, forward progression, like a strand of gold spun so fine, it loses its atomic color and becomes clear.
McGinnis flexes his knees to keep limber. From her vantage point inside the truck, he’s a pair of disembodied legs, the rest of him extending out the hatch, pulling a shift behind the fifty, her relief. This time, when he offered to take her place up there, she didn’t object, not even to joke.
Couple hours after dark, the rain stops. The wind hasn’t. The latest chatter on the radio is about a sandstorm that Brigade is tracking. A shamal—as some show-off staff officer keeps calling it—blowing in on the back edge of the cold front that brought rain to central Iraq as a dry western wind rushed across the country, hitting the moist salt air coming off the gulf.
Crump listens to the traffic about the storm and sneers at the blinking radio console when he hears something he doesn’t like. He squirms incessantly behind the wheel as if sitting on a tack. His right foot pumps the brake, the pedal on an imagined kick drum, and with his thumbs he taps an angry beat on the dash.
“They’s fucking fools,” he declares in response to nothing, his abrasive tenor wavering under the effect of jangly stimulants and wrath. Boys that age, she thinks. The absolute worst.
He waits for her to take the bait, to ask why they—whoever they are—are fools. She expects he will soon embark on one of his asinine political tangents. His views on modern life are uncomplicated, to put it kindly. Against her better judgment, however, she decides to indulge him. Bullshitting to kill the time, besides the killing itself, is the one great and necessary art form practiced in the army. In these circumstances, to deny conversation to a willing participant is just plain mean.
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