He couldn’t look at Iris. Most of the time he felt normal, or as normal as a vampire could ever feel. But when these memories intruded, darkness engulfed Connor. He’d become something he despised, a killer of the innocent. He was unworthy of any good thing this life could offer.
Staring back at him, in the form of these dead lovers, was love, something he would never know, not in this life. He wasn’t deserving on any level.
Suddenly, Iris clutched his arm. “Connor!” Her voice carried panic.
He turned to her. “What?”
She released his arm and spread her hands wide, but stared down at her feet or maybe at the bridge pavement. He knew witches sometimes had a sixth sense about things. “What’s going on?”
She met his gaze, her dark eyes panicky. “The stones of the bridge structure are talking to me. I know you don’t trust me because I’m a witch, but can you levitate us the hell out of here? This bridge is going to blow.”
He didn’t think twice, but picked her up and shot into the air. He flew straight up and as he did a deafening boom shattered the night sky. The resulting force blasted him hard, propelling him higher and higher. Bridge shrapnel bruised him but good. He could feel his pants getting ripped to shreds, though his boots seemed to be holding steady.
The witch held him tight, both arms wrapped around his neck, her head buried against his shoulder. Flying pieces of pavement kept hitting him, most ricocheting off the bottom of his boots. They had to be delivering up some hurt to her as well.
“How you doin’?”
“My ass. Jesus H. Christ, that hurts!”
He had no idea who’d set the bomb, but he was pretty sure it was meant for him and for Iris, too. What he couldn’t figure out was why. Who would want them both dead?
***
Iris trembled for more than one reason. She hurt, the bomb had scared her to death, and she had her arms wrapped around Connor. And he was the source of way too many fantasies that could never be fulfilled.
“Can you loosen your grip?” he asked, his voice sounding hoarse.
“Yes.” She slowly released the stranglehold.
The truth was, she’d never flown before and the sight of the earth so far below freaked her out.
His voice rumbled against her ear. “I’ve got you.”
For some reason, those exact words and in the man’s low timbre did something to her, made her wish her life was different.
Made her wish he was anything but a vampire.
She couldn’t remember the last time she’d been this close to a man, any man. Her life in Elegance Territory and as a TPS officer had left her hardened, displaced, and alone.
“I take it you haven’t been in the air before.”
“No.” The word came out on a squeak.
“Don’t look down. It’ll be easier that way.”
This had all been too much. She was flying for the first time and a Trib assignment had resulted in an explosion on Sentinel Bridge. But equally unsettling was the discovery that a witch she knew had taken a vampire for a lover.
All this, in less than an hour.
She was also cut up and had to spend a lot of her energy healing the wounds on her backside and legs.
As Connor continued to fly her north, she kept her gaze fixed on the distant line of lights, where Phoenix still thrived safely beyond a heavily patrolled border. It was only a couple of miles away, but might as well have been separated by an ocean.
“Where are you taking me?” She knew they were well inside Crescent Territory. She could also feel he’d begun his descent.
“My place. I’ve got a few cuts and bruises I need to get fixed up and my pants are shredded. How about you?”
“My butt hurts and I’m feeling the cold air where I shouldn’t.”
She felt him chuckle as he descended in front of a townhouse, landing on the front porch.
Once on solid ground, she found she had a hard time letting go. The muscles in her arms were stiff from holding on. She dragged them off his shoulders and shook them out.
She’d almost died back there.
And now she owed Connor. She stared at him, trying to form a sentence to offer her gratitude, but all she did was purse her lips. Nothing would come out.
Connor frowned at her. “You’re in shock. Let’s get you taken care of. I have a nice Cabernet Sauvignon, if you like wine.”
“Thanks.” She lifted a hand, staring at it. She was shaking bad. “Jesus.”
“It’ll pass.”
She looked up at him. “You’re not upset?”
“Oh, I need some wine, too. But I’ve been in a lot of over-the-top situations through the years. Border Patrol isn’t for sissies.”
“I’m sure it isn’t.”
Connor slid his arm around her waist as he guided her inside his home. The kitchen was opposite the slate tiled entrance. It was very spare-looking in stainless steel, dark wood cabinets and a black granite island. The dining area was next with a small glass table and four chairs. On the far wall was a large poster of a motorcycle she recognized.
“A Ducati,” she murmured. Her voice sounded dull to her own ears. Yep, shock.
“You know bikes?”
“Some. Especially the café racers. It’s either been beautifully restored or is in unbelievable condition.”
“I owned one before I went through the alter. When I had it shipped to Five Bridges, it was gone within a week. Somebody stole it, probably to use the money for flame drugs of one kind or another.” He drew a deep breath. “I’ve acquired a couple of others since, a Honda and a Kawasaki. But one day, I hope to locate and restore a Ducati.” A faraway look entered his eye. She thought she understood, especially when he added, “That is, once we have some kind of order in Crescent and the other territories.”
He moved into the kitchen and pulled a bottle of wine from a tall rack housing at least twenty bottles.
“Do a lot of drinking?” She meant it as a joke, but her words came out dull and weird.
He glanced at her over his shoulder, frowning. “No. You?”
She sighed heavily. He’d just saved her life. For that alone she should cut him some slack. “I thought it would sound funny but it didn’t. Sorry.”
He lifted a clear glass goblet to her. “You’re allowed.”
As he poured, she moved close to the island and took the glass. She sipped then moaned. “Oh, that’s good.”
But her throat closed up unexpectedly and she leaned over the island, a sob erupting from her throat. She set her goblet down and planted her hands over her face because she started crying for no damn good reason at all.
And she wasn’t a crier.
And her ass felt thoroughly exposed and still hurt like hell.
The next thing she felt was the vampire’s hand on her back, rubbing in a gentle circle. “Go ahead, let it out, Iris. You’ll be the better for it.”
“I don’t want to cry.”
“Do it anyway. My mom told me women sometimes need to let the waterworks flow to keep the lid from blowing.”
She chuckled softly, because he was right.
And Connor remembered his mother, which made her really sad in another way at the same time.
So for the next few minutes, she wept. She kept feeling the rumble beneath the bridge as the old stones spoke to her, telling their horrible secret.
She should have died out there. Connor as well.
A box of tissues appeared and she blew her nose. She then rose upright, meeting his gaze. “You saved us.”
“So did you.” He frowned as he stared at her. “We can call it even.”
“I don’t think it’s even at all. You didn’t have to do anything. You could have just taken off and left me there, but you didn’t. You picked me up.”
“And you didn’t have to warn me. But you did.”
At that, her smile was crooked. “I had some self-interest in the matter.”
At that, he smiled.
Oh,
God, he was even better-looking when he showed some teeth. For a moment, she was drawn away from the disaster on the bridge. Connor was handsome as hell. His eyes were blue and intense, he had strong cheekbones, a straight nose with a sexy dip at the bridge, and arched eyebrows. He wore his dark brown hair pulled away from his face, the upper portion bound in a leather strap. The rest was wavy and hung to his shoulders. She loved the look on him.
He didn’t look a day over thirty, though she knew from the Internet he’d been one of the early alters and had some years on him. Long-life had been the trade-off for the heinous change that had made him a vampire and her a witch.
She took another sip of wine then caught Connor’s arm. “Thank you. Seriously. I’m more grateful than words can possibly express.”
***
Connor couldn’t breathe. The forbidden woman of his dreams had her hand on his arm and once more that strange powerful energy radiated where she touched him. He didn’t want to move. He wanted to stay in this position for about a year, looking at her, feeling her hand on him.
He was nothing but grateful as well that Iris was still alive. His own ass, he hardly cared about. But Iris was a good woman, someone who should stay as far away from him as she could. If it ever made sense for her to date a vampire, he should be a last choice, not a first.
His gaze fell to her lips. He’d imagined kissing her, plunging his tongue deep, letting her feel what he really wanted to be doing.
When she sighed, he searched her eyes. She shifted toward him just enough and her breathing changed, higher in her chest.
Her lips parted.
If ever there was an invitation …
She wanted the kiss and that was something he hadn’t expected. Was it possible she was into him?
“Iris?”
She blinked and caught her breath, then turned back to the island. She picked up her wine once more and took a long drink.
He’d always been certain he was alone in his interest, which in many ways had kept him safe. Now he knew something very different to be true.
His heart started pounding and he couldn’t move. He should have though, because he saw the mounds of her ass through her torn clothes. He leaned close and breathed in deep. “You smell like your garden.”
She chuckled, then sniffed. “And you smell like a blown up bridge with just a hint of leather.” She glanced at him, her lips swollen as hell, ready to be plundered. But a sheen of tears covered her eyes once more.
What the hell was he thinking? She was feeling vulnerable and he couldn’t take advantage of her. Besides, he needed to be smart. She was a witch and could kill him with one touch of her fingers to either his temple or the base of his skull.
The breath he released sounded like a hiss of steam.
He nodded then looked away from her. His frown deepened as he rounded the island once more to pour himself a glass. He drank along with her, but stayed on the other side of the thick slab of granite. His brow had a tight, pinched feel as he stared at nothing in particular.
A change of subject would help.
He met her gaze once more. “Who would want both you and me dead? That’s what I don’t get. One or the other of us would make sense. I have enough enemies—”
“And your entire territory would be happy to see me in my grave.”
“I won’t argue with that.” But his lips curved.
***
She wasn’t offended. She knew how hard her species was on vampires, the number of massacres employed against his kind by the dark witch covens. Elegance had a number of her kind intent on destroying Crescent.
But, oh, that smile again.
He was the sort of man who pulled no punches and didn’t have a lot of frills around him either. Some men needed to be hand-held. He would need something else held, but that would be about it. God help her, she liked him.
She slowly turned away from him, pretending to take in the room. She sipped her wine some more, then put her hand up against the bare parts of her ass. She flipped back around, her cheeks warming. “Have you got a long shirt or maybe a t-shirt I could borrow?”
“I do. And if you don’t mind, I’m going to shower and change gear.” He moved in her direction once more.
“Please. Do what you need to do.”
Wine in hand, he moved past her heading beyond the dining table. He was so tall, at least six-five, and built. His shoulders looked massive against his black tank. The sight of his Glock and holster clipped on one side of his belt and his half-sword with a sheath clipped to the other, made her feminine soul long for more from him.
She also had a clear view of his torn up leathers and a lot of what lay beneath. Maybe he knew she was looking, but he didn’t seem at all embarrassed by the rips in his pants. She wanted to look away, but couldn’t and desire for him rose once more.
Her craving for him returned full force. Maybe because he wasn’t standing right next to her, she felt free to indulge.
Once he disappeared down the hall, she released a heavy rush of air. Part of her was relieved to have a break from all the lust and longing. The other part was curious to discover more about Connor.
She took another sip of wine and had a look around. Though she knew a lot about James Connor from the Internet, she now had a chance to see his surroundings.
Their homes had one similarity that surprised her. Each was small, that was true. But the first room in both was the dining area.
Wine glass in hand, she moved past the table and into a small living room with black leather furniture and, not surprising, a large flat-screen TV opposite. Very male, but at the same time, he had jumbles of books stacked here and there.
She picked one up from the end table. It was a book about Egypt and the pharaohs. Beneath lay a large coffee table tome with several pictures of swords and daggers on the front. The Border Patrol officers carried a smallish sword since the drug world loved their blades. Hence the ridiculously sexy black leather wrist guards the men wore as well to protect their arms from getting sliced up. The leather was reinforced with steel. The female BP officers, of which there were a few, wore them as well.
She set the Egypt book back down and meandered in the direction of a small patio. There was a single Adirondack chair and a nearby table. She had a strong sense of Connor’s solitude, otherwise there would have been two chairs or more and a patio table.
He appeared to be as alone as she was.
But she was stunned to find a collection of nicely crafted redwood planters outside, each bearing some kind of succulent or cactus.
As a witch, she knew better than anyone the importance of having and caring for a garden. All kinds of energies moved in and out of the plants and the soil. Even the insects that arrived to partake of the bounty had a purpose and changed things.
Checking to make sure the wood was sanded down smooth, she slowly lowered her bare-ish bottom onto the chair. So far, so good. She sipped more of her wine and tried to figure out what she was seeing. Connor’s home looked thought-out, not just jumbled together, another sign he’d been around longer than the thirty-years he looked.
After a few minutes, she went back inside, closing the sliding glass door behind her. A black t-shirt lay on the couch and in the distance, she heard the shower running.
She unclipped her Sig holster and settled it on the nearest sofa cushion. Her belt and jeans were next. After she unbuckled and set the button loose, she unzipped then slowly slid her pants down her achy body.
Her cuts and bruises were only half healed. If she’d been badly injured, she would have needed some quiet time and a homemade salve made with her favorite medicinal herbs. And a long soak in her tub steeped with bay leaves, lavender, and rosemary.
Sliding off her top, she donned Connor’s black t-shirt. It hit her mid-thigh, which would cover her well enough for now. She folded up her clothes and pulled her cell from her pants pocket, grateful not to have lost her phone in the blast. She then gathered up her belongings and placed
them in a neat pile on the dining table.
She smelled the sleeve of Connor’s shirt, liking how fresh it was. She’d been a witch for ten years and in all that time she’d never been this close to a vampire. She’d long since supposed they all lived like animals. She knew it wasn’t universally true, but so many did, lost as a lot of them were to the flame drugs.
She thought about calling for a cab and heading home, but chose to wait. She needed to talk with Connor before she left, even to thank him again.
But as her thoughts turned back to the explosion, once more she pondered why she and Connor had been summoned to Sentinel. Who the hell wanted them dead?
***
After showering, Connor returned to the living room and invited Iris to join him at the dining table. He had a solid reason for not wanting to sit beside her on the couch. Her legs were way too bare and some of his damn fantasies, especially the more involved ones, had taken place on his couch.
He’d done a lot of thinking in the shower. He suspected he’d get some answers from Big Nuts about who or what was behind the set-up.
What he couldn’t put together was how he might be connected to a witch he’d never formally met before.
Iris sat down at the table, angling her chair toward him. He leaned his forearms on his thighs, his chair also turned away from the table. The relative position however, gave him another solid view of her shapely legs.
He slid his gaze up, intending to land on her face, but got stuck on her throat. He saw the pulse and a different kind of lust worked him. He’d heard witch blood was the best. He’d had it once, but he’d been lost in blood flame and had no memories of it. Guilt of course tried to rise, but he pushed it down and for a bare moment allowed himself to wonder what her blood would be like flowing down his throat.
This led to other issues, so he finally forced himself to focus on what had led them here together tonight. “What’s your job description at the Tribunal? I know you’re a Public Safety officer, but what do you do specifically?”
“I work the tip-line and observe crime scenes. Mostly, I make a lot of reports that are usually ignored. Occasionally, I’m sent out to assess an out of control vampire, wizard, witch or shifter. If needed, I’ll take him or her out, but always with an eye to public safety.”
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