His eyelids sagged closed again, and he felt hands on his body, was lifted and moved, placed on a firm surface, with hands on his shoulders and ankles holding him in place. The cold fabric underneath his back caused an immediate shiver to sweep through him. His muscles jerked and shuddered uncontrollably, the pain of movement overwhelming. Cold. So cold. A cold more bitter than even the wildest storm sweeping off the lake in February.
More movement jostled him, taking Sal along with it and he fought to open his eyes again, barely parting the lids a scarce sliver before he gave up, catching a brief glimpse of the cloud-covered sky, dim light framed by the bars of his eyelashes before they closed again. Darkness swirled and sucked him down even as they got closer to one of the unrelenting sirens, the wail louder and louder until he thought it might split the skin from his bones.
Everything around him began to fade away. All sound muting, the light behind his lids fading, even the air around him seeming to die down, warming, growing softer. The surface underneath him shifted, tilted as those impossible hands held him tightly at his shoulders and ankles, pressed him down firmly. Radio noises fled through the air, making him think of a television cop show: muted hisses and crackles followed by words and phrases, call signs and names. Oscar, alpha, beta. Salvador, Estrella.
He felt the cold press of metal moving up and across his body, and then at the waistband of his pants, down the sides of his legs. An exposed feeling was followed by a bone-deep chill. Then, and then—Dios, how good—warmth enveloped him, wrapped him from the waist down in a heat that began to fight back the cold, calm his jerking muscles.
Voices came at him from all sides, talking, saying things he could not understand. The pain in his chest swelled and then receded, his arms going cold at his sides. Motion jarred him, an undulating shift as the fabric of the sheet slid across the flat pad on which he lay. The sound of movement beside him, then he felt the clasp of a hand, hot and hard on his. Mama, he thought. He tried to say but his mouth would not cooperate, and he did not know why. Then, he did not know anything for a very long time.
Life in transition
2011
Sal raised his head and scanned the inside of the bar, searching for pockets of discontent which could so easily become trouble. He’d gotten good at sussing it out over the years. With a shake of his head, he thought, Decades of practice. After nearly forty years on earth, these past few months had pushed him harder than ever before to make difficult, instant judgments, so many of which had lasting consequences for those around him.
In the years since leaving the barrio behind, Sal had found himself in need of this skill more often than he wanted. Growing up as he did, not even realizing how dangerous the streets were—not until he’d died—he’d tried to learn everything anyone had to teach him. A skinny boy, like smoke, able to slip in and out of parties and stores without being noticed, he’d traded in information. As the son of who he was, ridicule had followed him, people thinking they knew who he was just by laying eyes on him. Back then, he’d been easily turned away, nothing more than a child seeking information about his sister’s killers, always coming up empty handed.
Street gangs had not interested him, and his own father’s path of dealing drugs was not one he’d allowed his feet to follow. Remembered terror of the giant guns tucked into loosened fabric on the backs of chairs and couches, lying beside plastic-wrapped bricks of cocaine and heroin, while children played on the rug in front was a deterrent. It was not for him, that life of keeping watch over your shoulder, peering out the door, seeking to see who was watching, who else was looking too close. Sal’s exit from his father’s world had been paid in blood long ago, blood and death, with only one resurrection. As soon as he’d managed it, Sal had turned his back on that part of his family and never looked back.
It was as if he’d lived three lives so far. From the iron-barred apartments of his childhood, he had moved west, into a suburb, seeing a lucrative trade in supporting the local don. Each transaction involving bags of money handed over to the contact, meaning Sal would receive a folder in return. The entire process a simple, easy transfer, in-and-out, tucking the goods inside his jacket as he exited. Walking out each door with scant information, still he knew there would be lives cut short by marks on flat paper.
That second life had never been a long-term solution, and even before he’d reached legal age, he’d known it, staying only for the money to be had in convincing people to turn a blind eye on discrepancies. Staying for the flash and cash, the cars and women, the prestige of being who he was, and working for the don. It had been good for a time, and he’d been excellent at his job.
Sal looked around the bar again, comparing, liking where he was now so much more than twenty years ago. Where he was now, this third life he currently lived, was something he’d stumbled into, quite literally.
Out on the town clubbing, ready to call it a night, he shoved past the bouncer and stumbled, rebounding off the flat surface of the door as it unexpectedly slammed into the rear tire of a motorcycle parked on the sidewalk.
Rolling his eyes, he moved to step around it, caught the toe of his loafer on the kickstand and was in the process of falling on his ass when a hand grabbed his arm. Lifted back to his feet, he turned to find the largest man he had ever seen standing beside him. “Thanks,” he offered, ducking his head, feeling his aloneness acutely yet not wanting to be recognized if this man had a beef with his employer.
“You needa bike.” Gruff and deep, the man spat the words as if they were distasteful. “Got it on good authority. This is for you.” Sal looked at the black and chrome monster, easily weighing more than six times his own weight.
“Thank you, but I have a car.” Sal jerked his thumb over his shoulder to where he had parked his upscale sedan.
“Not anymore, you don’t.” With that, the man tossed a jangling clump of keys Sal’s way and turned on his heel, walking into the darkness before Sal had even caught them.
“What the hell?” Sal asked the air, twisting to see an empty space where his car had been parked only an hour before. He looked down at the keys in his hand, then up at the bike, thinking furiously. Phone in hand, he dialed to find the number used to report in for work was disconnected. He knew how this worked, had been the one delivering the news more than once, and it only took him a moment to accept the inevitable. As easily as that, he was cut out of everything he’d known for the past handful of years. Keys in hand, Sal turned to look at the machine parked on the sidewalk in front of the club.
With a series of jerks and starts, stalls and frequent wild careening from side-to-side on the road, he managed to ride the motorcycle back to his apartment. Opening the door, he found a note slipped under in his absence, advising he look for new accommodations immediately. Right next to it was the title for the motorcycle. Well and truly done.
Over the next week, his skills on the motorcycle had increased, and his search for a solution on the job front bore quick fruit. A local motorcycle sales and repair shop was looking for a repo guy who would be unafraid to face down the kind of men who purchased bikes. Right up my alley, he remembered thinking. The third repo job assigned to him was for a bike belonging to the president of the Skeptics.
Skeptics were a Chicago-based motorcycle gang. He didn’t know it then, but the fact they were in their second generation of members indicated they were well established, which meant they had contacts in all kinds of places. Sal had only done cursory digging into the gang, believing they didn’t factor in the recovery of the bike with past due payments.
Black Jack was Bones’ first introduction to the world of real outlaws. He hadn’t recovered the bike on that trip; in fact, he had taken an ass kicking which had left him bruised and hobbling for more than a week. His second attempt was only slightly more successful, as he’d at least started the motor before a trio of Skeptics members caught sight of him. The third attempt was now legend.
Sal pressed his back against the outside wall o
f the Skeptics clubhouse, listening to the voices floating out the window over his head. “Asshole thinks he can just come in and take a man’s bike.” That voice belonged to Jack Crandell, the man in charge of this particular gang of criminals. If he were here, it nearly guaranteed the bike would be. Sal grinned and settled in to wait. If tonight followed the usual schedule, every man in the building would be totally soused by midnight. That would leave his way open to repo the bike. “Asshole thinks wrong.” Sal scoffed, keeping the sound quiet because he knew he was the asshole this asshole was talking about.
“Think he knows we can see him?” A different voice, raspy with years of smoking, asked a question that flooded Sal’s veins with adrenaline. “Fuck, Jack, he’s a ballsy one. Got some stones.”
Jack’s voice was nearer the window when he responded. “Stones aplenty. Bastard can take a hella beating, too. It'd be nice if he were interested in having men at his back. Too bad—”
A hand gripped Sal’s neck, and he felt the painful press of a gun’s muzzle into the ribs underneath his arm. The window above his head was flung wide, and twisting his neck, Sal looked up to see Jack’s face poking out as he finished his sentence, “—he don’t have no interest. We’d be willing to entertain the idea.”
Glaring up, Sal took an inventory of his position, the murmurs on either side telling him more men had approached. “You would have room for a man like me?”
“What does a man like you need?” Jack waited, hanging half out of the window, elbows propped on the sill, staring down.
“A purpose.”
Jack grinned and laughed aloud. “Life’s a crap shoot. You don’t get handed a purpose, you gotta find it in yourself.”
Sal reached into the front pocket of his jeans, pulling his hand out slowly, trying to be nonthreatening. He balanced a pair of dice on his palm and stared up into Jack’s face. “Then let us roll the bones.”
That was what the legend had grown to say. The real story had significantly more fists and less witty repartee. That first interaction still brought him to today, in a place where he was the current president of the club. A few years ago he’d reluctantly taken over from Black Jack, a highly intelligent man who had first been an enemy, then a friend, finally a brother and mentor. And the rest, as they say, was history.
A history rich in blood, betrayal, and bullets. Bones looked down at his inked arms resting on the table. Pierced by a thousand needles, he wore his life on his skin. The path from Salvador Ramos to Bones, writ for anyone who cared to read. There were a few strategically placed voids remaining on his body. One an area so sensitive Bones didn’t know if he would ever seek ink there, since the thought of having his dick tattooed made him grimace. Others reserved for either the right moment, or the right person.
Fortunately, right now, there were no issues to be sorted, no challenges to his world. He sat comfortably bounded on all sides by men who trusted him. In chairs at the table on either side were men he called brother, men he believed in, and who gave that back to him in a thousand ways. He felt one side of his mouth tip up as he listened to a story Shades was telling. He and Shades went way back; they’d become brothers in the barrio, and followed that path to here. Sal had been breaking bread with this man for decades, helped carry the man’s mama to rest, a place of honor to stand among the six selected to bear the casket.
When Black Jack had tapped Bones as his successor, Bones had, in turn, tapped Shades to come into the club as his second.
We have been through much together, he thought, tuning back into the conversation when asked a question. “Bones,” Shades said, calling Sal’s road name, “What do you make of this new club out by Joliet? Diamante.”
Bones shook his head, glancing around the table to see all eyes on him. “I think placement is prophetic, putting their clubhouse within sight of the prison there.” Laughter from all sides, and after it died away, he finished, “Flash in the pan. They will implode at the first sign of a real test. No cajones, those ones. Got no stones.”
***
Tipping his chin down, Bones eyed the look of concentration the whore wore. Face buried in his crotch, cock deep in her mouth, her tongue roughly caressed the throbbing length of him. Pulling back momentarily for breath, she immediately bent to her task again and forced him down her throat, fingers curling into the blankets on either side of his legs.
Her eyes rolled, and she looked up at him, lips locked around his shaft, hair shifting and moving with her bobbing action. Hot and wet, lots of suction, as she’d been instructed. He knew she was hoping for a warm place to sleep tonight, and he would hand her off to Shades when she’d gotten him off, knowing his brother wouldn’t turn her away. Bones didn’t share his bed.
Urgency rose, and he told her, “Deep again, suck hard.” If she could be taught, he would use her another night, and she could possibly earn a place into the club’s stable. Contrary to his orders, she pulled him shallow, tonguing the knob of his cock playfully.
Without warning, he gripped the knot of hair at the back of her head and shoved himself into her throat again, then with a growl, ripped her off when he felt the threat of teeth scrape his cock. He used that hold to set her away from him, leaning over and pushing his face into hers. “You think to fuck around with me like this? Not smart, bitch.”
“I’m sorry. Sorry. I didn’t mean to.” Slobbering, she panicked and twisted in his grip, apologizing and reaching out to try and get her fingers around his cock. “I can do what you want. Let me do it. I want to do it. I’m sorry.”
“Using your teeth on me was not smart.” Bones released her, spreading his knees wider, making a come-here motion with his hands before resting them in fists on either thigh. He hated the look of fear she offered. This one will not be a repeat, he thought, keeping his eyes on her as she swallowed his cock again. Deep and hard, as ordered. He closed his eyes, letting biology take over, wanting nothing more than to have this encounter over with.
Ester
A drumming noise came from deeper in the alleyway than I cared to go. Echoing, metallic in nature, I found myself listening more intently. Were those feet pounding for freedom, trapped inside a metal box, a body discarded but brought back to life, unexpected imprisonment something to be railed against? A hand, perhaps, the heel striking an urgent percussive accompaniment to something only the owner could hear? Footsteps shifting, paper and other garbage shoved aside to find a more stable surface upon which to stand, that noise came from beyond the last in a line of four dumpsters.
The first had been my destination because it was Wednesday, the night the grocer discarded overripe fruits and crusty bread from the display case kept on the front walk. A case rolled inside through the just-wide-enough door at night. Normally on a Wednesday I would be able to saunter the thirty paces, carefully counted so I could retrace them quickly, to the dumpster and shift it out from the building slightly. Barely enough to turn the caster wheel, creating a space of about eight inches. Two spans of my palms.
I looked down, palms up, considering. Perhaps six inches.
The drumming noise came again, and I heard a grunt. Not a pained grunt, not something caused by having a knife stuck in your gut. I’d heard that before. This wasn’t that. It wasn’t a dying grunt, not one expelled without conscious effort as a body lay motionless on the ground. I’d heard that, too. This was a staccato grunt, a series of sounds, stuttering together to nearly be inseparable from each other, like children on a playground with arms linked, fending off an assault of Red Rover. This was the sound of a man expelling his seed, noises pumping out of him as the white fluid pumped from his member.
That drumming, though, had no place when associated with that sound.
I’d heard those grunts many times, so many times it didn’t bear counting because the weight of the number would surely pound me into the ground. Near or far, you never unheard that sound. Not when you were a girl, unprotected, intended to be cherished but instead found yourself facedown on the baselin
e that stretched from third to home. Not a home that was safe, even if that was what the black-attired men said when the players made it to touch the blemishless white bag with the barest graze of their toes. SAFE, they shouted, but I hadn’t been safe, not at all.
The grunting stopped, and I leaned against the brick wall, feeling the grit of the decaying mortar rub my cheek raw. Not as raw as I’d been once, but it hadn’t been from grit or grime or anything other than the staccato movements of the gang of boys I didn’t see in time. I didn’t see them because my eyes were fixed on the toes of my just-bought shoes, scuff-free, unblemished. New. With shouts and shrieks, they’d boiled out of the framed-in depression just off the baseline, the place where they’d been dug in, building up their ideas and their courage in ways that caused them to cover me like lava from an island mountain. Covered and changed, scarring and leaving blackened waste in their wake.
That drumming, though, as much as it didn’t fit here in my head with what else I’d heard, had stopped.
More shuffling feet, moving, shambling back and forth, then another sound, the exhaled rasping, coughing breath of repugnance. I knew this sound but had never heard it quite like this. Raw and fresh. I’d heard it from behind closed doors where the white coated people stood and discussed what should happen with me, where I’d stood with the woman who carried a satchel with her. I’d seen her before, standing at the table on the trapped side of the handrail in the big room where the women cried, and the children cried, and the man with the black dress was bored. I’d seen her at the house where the man and woman stood, eyes fixed on me in a dare to tell about what their blood child had done. A hard sound of repugnance, ripe with rebuke there on the sidewalk as she took my bag and carried me to the car.
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