I’m anything but gentle when it comes to being inside a woman. From my experience, they all want it hard and deep, hitting every fucking spot and I more than deliver.
Eden has no idea the things I can do to her.
Both of my hands tangle into the back of her long hair as she moans into my mouth, before speaking. “I do want this . . . you . . . but . . .”
“Tell me, Eden.”
“I’m not sure I’m ready,” she admits. “But I want you so damn badly right now. All I can think about it how you’d feel inside me. I haven’t wanted a man inside me for a while now but you make me want things, Kash.”
I grip the seat around her, trying like hell to keep my cool and prepare to talk my dick down if it comes down to it.
“I’m ready to give you anything you want, Eden. I want you for more than just this. But I won’t lie when I say I want to fuck you hard and fast right now and show you how a real man takes care of a woman’s needs.”
She looks down and moans as my cock jerks. “Holy shit . . .”
That’s all it takes for me to know she wants this just as badly as I do.
Locking eyes with hers, I undo her jeans and slide them down her legs.
Then I slide my hands up her stomach and grip her shirt, pulling it over her head, stripping her back down to just her bra and panties once again.
When her lips part and a sexy little breath leaves her lips, I lose it and grip her thighs, bringing the head of my cock meet her entrance.
It brushes against her warm pussy, causing her to spread her legs for me and bite her bottom lip with need.
Fuck me . . .
I want to do this. I want to be inside her more than anything, but as soon as her phone vibrates next to us, “dad” popping up on the screen, I hesitate, knowing that it’s most likely Alec calling her.
If I fuck Eden on our first date, she’s going to think I only want her for this reason once it’s over. I can’t have that shit. I can’t have her thinking I don’t want to be there in the future for her and her son.
“I’m sorry,” I whisper into the side of her hair. “Your son . . .”
She leans forward with a quickness, once she finally notices her phone going off. “Oh shit!”
I instantly see the guilt take over her face as she turns the phone over and looks me in the eyes. “I should get dressed so I can call Alec back. I never miss his call before bed.”
Smiling, I cup her face and press my lips against hers, letting her know I understand. “I agree and you shouldn’t start now.”
Reaching beside me, I grab for her jeans and help her pull them back up her legs.
As she’s finishing getting dressed, I run around to the back of my truck and get dressed myself, smiling as a car full of women slowly drive by, honking and whistling at me, while I stand here half-naked on the side of the road.
It’s then that I look over to see Eden standing next to my truck, smiling too as I pull my jeans up. “Not sure we would’ve gotten much privacy here. Those women looked as if they were ready to pull over and join you until they noticed me.”
I walk over and grab her waist, pulling her against me to show her I’m focused on her and her alone. “Do you want more privacy next time? I can arrange that.”
She leans in and presses her forehead to mine, seeming a bit embarrassed by our situation. “Maybe . . . I don’t know. We were two seconds away from having sex, Kash. I don’t know what I was thinking. I was too wrapped up in you and that’s not something I let happen so easily with anyone.” With that she kisses my cheek and pulls away from me. “I need to call my son back before he falls asleep.”
Giving her some privacy, I jump back into my truck and turn on the radio, letting the whole night replay in my head.
I never have unprotected sex, yet with her, it didn’t even cross my mind to search for a condom. It was as if being with her just felt so damn natural. Kissing her, touching her and being inside her was all that mattered when it came down to it.
Pulling me from my thoughts, Eden hops into the truck a few minutes later with a huge smile on her face. “Alec just wanted to say goodnight and tell me how much fun he’s having beating grandpa at video games. I love that kid so damn much.”
“He sounds like a great kid.”
My stomach sinks at the thought of keeping this secret from her, but I need more time to show her who I am.
We need more time before she gets scared and pushes me away.
“It’s getting pretty late . . .” I grab her hand and pull it into my lap. “I should get you home in case Alec calls again because he wakes up.”
She squeezes my hand. “Thank you.”
I press her hand to my mouth and kiss it. “For what?”
“For understanding . . . for stopping when you saw my phone go off. Not many guys would give a shit.”
“Well I do. I give a shit more than you know.” I place her hand on my thigh and squeeze it, keeping my hand on hers the whole way to her house.
Pulling up in the driveway, I quickly undo my seatbelt and run over to open the door for Eden.
She smiles, grabbing my hand as I help her down to her feet. “Don’t get me too used to this,” she says with a laugh. “Then I’ll expect it from every guy in the future.”
I reach behind her and shut the truck door, before grabbing her face and speaking next to her ear. “Maybe getting you used to me is what I want so there won’t be any other guys in the future . . .”
I hear the slight sound of her swallow, before she lets out a small breath. “Goodnight, Kash. Thank you for a fantastic night.”
“Goodnight, Eden.” I place a gentle kiss beside her lips, before watching her disappear into the house.
I have no fucking idea how I’m going to get any sleep tonight after watching her walk away, but I know without a doubt that I did the right thing by not fucking her like I wanted to.
Eden isn’t like other women and I need to make sure I show her that . . .
Eden
AFTER KASH DROPPED ME OFF last night, I spent the entire night thinking about him and how damn good he made me feel, not just physically but emotionally.
He made me smile and laugh harder than I have in a very long time with anyone other than my son.
Kash has a way of making me feel carefree and full of life, allowing me to let loose and just live for the moment.
I don’t seem to worry about all the small things when I’m with him and I know more than ever now that I need that in my life.
I want that in my life.
The only thing that scares me when it comes to being around Kash is that I want him physically more than any man I’ve ever met.
When I’m with him all I can think about is him touching me. His sexy lips and hands all over my naked body, making me come undone until I’m screaming out his name.
I want to feel every inch of kash. My desire for him almost got me in trouble last night and it was only the first date. I have no idea what I’ll allow to happen if I see him again, yet I still want to see him again.
I’ve been awake for almost an hour now, lying in bed, thinking about him and how much I want to spend time with him again.
That says a lot.
“What am I going to do with this man? He’s everything . . . Ugh . . .”
Rolling over, I smash my face into the pillow, smiling into it as I think about how hard he made me come last night.
Just the memory of him slamming me against the fence with his fingers inside me sets my entire body on fire with this desire I’ve never felt before.
The way he touched me was unlike anything I’d ever experienced before. It was as if he was taking the time to learn my body and find out exactly what spot would set me off and send my body into an overload of sensations.
It didn’t take him long to find what he was looking for and when he found it, he mastered it, completely owning my body until it exploded around his fingers.
Rolling back o
ver, I slide my hand down my panties, needing some kind of release, but nearly jump out of bed when the doorbell goes off.
“Holy fuck!” I throw my hands over my face and shake my head, hoping like hell it’s not my father and Alec right now. With the thoughts running through my head seeing them is the last thing I want. “Please be someone else. Please . . .”
Sitting up, I adjust my pajama shorts and jump out of bed, rushing into the living room to look out the window.
My heart drops to my stomach so fast that I almost feel sick when I see whose vehicle is parked outside.
My need to be quick suddenly disappears, causing me to hesitate before I undo the chain lock.
Apparently, that was the only thing keeping Knight out, because as soon as I drop the chain, he’s pushing the door open with a scowl.
“Really? Since when do you lock that damn thing?”
Rolling my eyes, I make my way into the kitchen to start a pot of coffee.
Seeing him right now only guarantees it’ll be a crap day. Nothing good ever comes out of his visits.
“Since you decided to keep letting yourself in without my permission. Dammit, Knight . . . What do you want? You know Alec is at my father’s.”
“Some alone time with you.” He grips my waist from behind, pulling my ass against his erection. His horny little moan beside my ear has my stomach twisting into knots. “Been thinking about you all morning and how good you feel wrapped around my dick, baby. It’s been a while.”
“Let go.” I punch his hand repeatedly until he eventually let’s go, allowing me to walk away. “I don’t think so. Nope. Not happening.”
“Why the fuck not?” he snaps.
I turn around to look at him, letting him see the hatred in my eyes. He’s such an asshole. “Because we’re not together anymore, that’s why. What the fuck, Knight. This needs to stop.”
“That shit doesn’t matter, Eden. You belong to me still and we both know it.”
“The fuck I do.” I slam my fist down onto the counter, causing him to grin like an asshole. “I don’t belong to you, Knight. Never fucking have, but you were too thickheaded to get that. Just leave. There’s no reason for you to be here.”
Keeping that stupid, asshole grin on his face, he reaches for his shirt and yanks it over his head as if that’s all it’ll take for me to change my mind. His eyes meet mine as he comes closer to me, reaching for my waist. “I’m so fucking horny right now, Eden.”
Me too, asshole. Just not for you . . .
“I’m not having sex with you, Knight. What the fuck is wrong with your head?” I roll my eyes at his chest when he flexes it, thinking it’ll have me falling all over him. “Put your shirt back on. It’s not working.” I slap his hand away when he reaches for me again.
He lets out a confused little laugh. “And what . . . someone else’s works better for you?”
“Yes,” I say matter-of-factly. “Your chest isn’t the best one I’ve ever laid eyes on so get over yourself and leave.”
He grabs for his shirt, and balls up in his fist, pissed off that I find someone else’s body more attractive than his. “You talking about that asshole from the club?”
“He’s not an asshole,” I point out. “But you’re being one, as usual. Goodbye, Knight. I don’t want you here. Leave. Now.”
“Fuck this shit. I have bitches on standby twenty-four seven. You’re lucky I’m even here to begin with. Don’t you get that? I can do so much better than you.”
I laugh at his delusional comment and pour myself a big ass cup of coffee. I need it more now than ever, after dealing with this asshole. “So damn lucky,” I say mockingly. “I get to deal with the biggest asshole to walk this earth at . . .” I look up at the clock. “Seven in the morning. How fucking lucky could I be?”
Before I know it, Knight grabs for the entire coffee machine, picks it up and tosses it across the room.
I stand here, sipping on my coffee, trying to give off the impression that he has no effect on me whatsoever.
“You can leave now,” I demand.
He growls out and punches the wall, standing in front of it for a few seconds, before speaking. “That little asshole of yours can expect a visit from me at the club. Don’t be surprised if he never looks in your direction again. He won’t want to after what I plan to do to that pretty little face of his.”
This has me losing my composure. Even though I’m sure Kash could handle him, he shouldn’t have to. “Leave him the hell alone, Knight! Get the fuck out! Now!”
I slam my coffee down next to me and point at the door when he doesn’t make a move to leave. “Get. Out.” Realizing that he doesn’t plan on going; I give him a shove toward the door.
“Get off me, bitch.” With one swing, he knocks me down to the ground, before tossing his shirt at my face. “Like I said, we’ll see if this asshole still wants you once I’m through with him. I fucking doubt it so don’t hold your breath.”
With that, he takes off, slamming the door behind him, so hard that the walls shake.
I lay here for a few seconds, fighting to catch my breath from the hard impact of hitting the floor, before I finally sit up.
Carefully, I reach up and touch my face, wincing from the tenderness, before I scramble to my feet and lock the door again, including the chain lock.
This is the last time Knight will be allowed inside. I’m having the locks changed today.
This asshole has me worked up completely, feeling shaky and on edge. He’s never once laid his hands on me before now. I’m so damn angry that I could cry, but I won’t.
I’ve cried too many times over the years because of that piece of shit.
An overwhelming feeling to talk to Kash hits me, causing me to make my way to my bedroom and grab for my phone.
I’m not sure why but I feel like I need him right now.
Eden: Are you awake?
Ten minutes go by without a response back from Kash. With his late-night work schedule, I expected Kash to be a late sleeper, so I’m not really surprised.
Just disappointed.
I toss my phone down and run my hands over my face, in attempt to calm down and forget about Knight.
I’m tired of feeling helpless when it comes to him. I’m tired of him disrespecting me and thinking he can walk all over me, although I know that won’t change anytime soon.
I was his first and he was mine. He planted his seed in me and he’ll always think he owns me because of that.
Just as I begin to calm down a bit and clean up Knight’s mess, the doorbell rings again.
A whole new wave of stress hits me, causing me to feel sick to my stomach.
I can’t deal with Knight again. If I see his face again today, it’s going to take everything in me not to punch it.
Setting down the dustpan, I walk over to the window and look outside, praying with everything in me that I don’t see Knight’s car.
The sight in front of me has all my stress melting away and a small smile taking over.
I need this right now. I need him right now.
Looks like Kash is awake after all . . .
Kash
I SHOULD BE AT THE gym right now, meeting up with Styx, but I couldn’t start my day without seeing her first.
Eden’s been the only thing on my damn mind since I dropped her off last night and to be honest, I can’t even remember a time when a woman has had me all twisted up, needing to see her and talk to her.
My thoughts wouldn’t let me sleep for shit, so I jumped out of bed at one and hit the bags at the warehouse, needing some time to myself to relieve some tension.
Even after wearing myself out, I still didn’t get but maybe two hours of sleep after that.
All I wanted to do was text Eden or just show up at her house but I didn’t want to be that asshole who puts my needs first.
I almost allowed that to happen last night in my truck and I won’t do that to her again. Not until I know she’s ready.
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nbsp; She’s worth too much to me and I plan to do what I can to prove that to her.
Standing on the front porch, I take a deep breath and ring the doorbell, my heart fucking racing with anticipation.
I have no idea how she’s going to react to me showing up at her door unannounced, but I hope like hell she wants to see me right now just as much as I want to see her.
If it weren’t for the fact that I know Alec is gone, then I wouldn’t be here, but he is and I want to do something nice for her.
The door opens and my chest tightens at the sight of her, standing there in a pair of little white cotton shorts and a gray tank top shaking before me.
She’s doing her best to hold it together, but there’s no mistaking that someone upset her and left her pissed off and shaken up.
I don’t wait for her to invite me in. Fuck that. Someone messed with her and I need to know what the hell happened.
Tensing my jaw in anger, I step inside and toss the bag of pancakes down beside me, before reaching out to cup her face in my hands. It’s then that I notice her right cheek is red as if someone’s just slapped her.
“What the fuck happened? Did Knight hit you?” Rage takes over as I picture him putting his hands on her. “I’ll fucking kill him for hurting you, Eden. Where is he?”
She places her hands on mine in attempt to calm me down. “He stopped by about fifteen minutes ago . . . he’s gone.” Her hands squeeze mine as I run my thumbs over her cheek to comfort her. “He said some things that really got to me and made me lose it. I don’t get why I still allow him to get me so worked up but I do. He always knows exactly what to say to piss me the hell off. I shoved him to make him leave and he swung out and knocked me down.”
I tense my jaw again, knowing that I’ll need to take care of him later for placing his hands on her. Right now, I need to take care of her emotionally. “Tell me what that piece of shit said to upset you.”
She releases a breath and kisses my arm as if it’s so natural to do. I love that she feels comfortable with me right now, even with seeing how pissed off I am. “He threatened to pay you a visit so you’ll stop talking to me. The idea made me lose it.”
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